After thinking, settle down, I end to feel sad about my thyroid numbers, also the dizziness of flu not helping, that was something that I was living for years, this is the start to get the right treatment for that complex stuff (thyroid stuff) so, I'm feeling good and hoped today! Also, flu is gone! I'm not scared anymore, I'm only need to wait to my date with the specialist on hormones (endocrinologist) to talk about treatments, it can take a year to find the right, but I will stop to be tired 24/7 and have heat intolerance, I can't live if the wheatear is hot.

I got a blood test for thyroid peroxidase inhibitor and levels are high, like 137 Ui/ml when it must be 5-34, it means that i had the hypothyroid symptoms but worse and a hashimoto disease confirmed, i will get treatment, it can take a year, in the meanwhile i will fell tired, fatigued and stuff, and not chill, but i have zero tolerance to the heat.

I'm not active because I took some days free, then nearby to feel ready to work, on Monday, I got motion sickness, i got it for seeing screen, and yesterday I got flu, I'm trying to rest as much as I can, taking meds, to make it gone fast, doing that I can be recovered on the next two days. I'm missing a LOT work and drawing.
On Monday i got a class of drawing with my new teacher, before got the motion sickness I want to see if I'm missing basic stuff since I never had classes, and learn some tricks for improve, so I'm exited to try new stuff that I got on my last class.
My husband got his medical leave extended, he had some troubles whit friends and family, so his last month was long, he needs more rest
If you want to help me, I'm taking YCH, you can ask if i have slots open if you see one that you like, but i will delay on it

Do you remember about my liver? It's fully recovered now, and I'm very happy, I didn't let the drink entirely, but I reduced a lot the consumption.
And today.. I had a panic attack due to endocrinal system issues, I had a date with a doctor on the day, looks like I can have Hashimoto's disease, not a deadly thing but very annoying

I hope that you meet your milestones this year, but don't overload yourself, that can be hurtful

It's because i can't find a structure for it, and the most important, I don't have a clear plot twist and I not have a good idea for the end, so I want to tell that idea that I had here. I was thinking of a male possibility a deer, that is good at all the things, it's charming, he looks like a champion, that had an accident that let him impaired for some time, and he can't use the toilet at all, and the family let him with a nurse, that enjoy diaper stuff and want to make think to the deer that he will be incontinent and forever using meds like diuretics and laxatives, but I can't find a plot twist or more interesting things to add, specialty, i don't have a vehicle, why that nurse are doing that, for ruin his life? All the possibilities sound twisted, I don't know if the nurse is just a villain at the end. So I will leave that idea.
Otherwise, I want to do a story, or just draw comics, I love the dynamic on them, but i will try to think on something more simple

I just want to listen ideas, and from that I will try to do a picture from this mixing some ideas from me nor how much I can draw. The owner of the ideas that can work for me will get a free sketch for a simplified version of the character and colored, just comment here to talk about

It's my birthday, I had yesterday a good time with friends, and I'm chilling today

And some updates, I can stop to mourning my cat, I'm still thinking on him and how much I want to back the time and prevent the things, I'm slowly forgiving me for it.
And, my birthday, I'm somewhat happy for it and somewhat sad because I fell that the people that want to visit me it's because my cat passed away, and I had that shitty event about an ex friend grooming a 14yo girl. Sad, but it's people that love me, so I will have a little party on my home with these, where them can see me nor cherish me.
And here maybe I will publish a ych, or open commissions, and do another journal on my birthday (9/7) it's cherishing got some good wishes that day.

My patreon was deactivated the 8/5 don't having activity at all an only two supporters, some people were asking anyway where can support me, so I did kofi membership, you can use the money as "credit" to get commissions and stuff or request a PSD file from a 3 months old ych of mine
https://ko-fi.com/mareadoggy

I was an obsession over the dragons, and I'm taking a cooldown. Actually I'm doing a YCH with a paddered protogen that will be available next week, I still don't know when.
I want to do more species that are accurate with their shape, maybe I will do an avali one, and next, I don't know i was thinking about otters, rabbits, I'm thinking about do semi-ferals too, with digitigrade paws
so, what species want you to be diapered and drawing for me?

Was a very painful lost, he was a charismatic and expressive boy. It was so sudden, when the veterinary was arrived at my house, the cat has gone, but I had a little hope because I was feeling his pulse, but there was nothing to do. I had noticed the cat a bit different before, but I thought that was because he was becoming old, and the fault for not suspect that he was sick is big

I did a FA https://www.furaffinity.net/user/dragonheat69
and a Telegram channel https://t.me/dragonheat69
I hope see some folks from here!

I wasn't working because I was dealing with depression, I wasn't talking to friends or playing games but yes going to school and doing medical stuff like papers, I have these episodes usually that can take some weeks and I realize a bit later that I was really depressed, I'm feeling better than the last weeks and recovering and backing to work slowly

I lost mostly of my files on my pc, thanks to One Drive, I thought that I had a duplicated folder, but no. Then I lost lots of picture files. Due this and an idk factor I'm feeling like tired, bubbly lately and not pay attention to the work, since a month ago, lacking of new ideas. Is like, I like the abdl, but I'm getting boring, I feel my work empty, I don't have the same zest that I had some months ago. Also, less work is less money, so these day I was pretty tight, so less motivation
So I'm thinking of a new nsfw FA account, I'm still thinking about the name! and doing some request to get material, I'm becoming pretty good drawing dragons and I want to switch a bit of theme, I still love the abdl and I still need to work on it for money, and I hope to get well soon and back to have nice ideas for ych, by the moment I'm opening cheap commissions, these are always useful.

My account was limited while I was trying to verify my identity, I was talking on the message center and while they are saying that they are helping me they email me saying that I cannot no longer use PayPal Business. Picture here https://ibb.co/Xt086Np
Now I created a new personal account, but my new account needs 4 sells and $162 to start to use the founds. Picture here https://ibb.co/kGy3dkV
I want some help, selling 4 YCH of mine, the issue must be resolved, so I like to leave here my open YCH folder https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....er/918740/Open
I don't like to ask for help, but it is what I use to live, to buy food and pay bills, for my basic life while I'm studying, I'm nearby to be ready for applying to a job, maybe some year more.

I'm dealing with a pain back that is doing pressure on my sciatic nerve since a week, I got one shot of painkiller and pill painkillers. Today I got another shot and more pills. If pain continues, I will have to get an x-ray. Tomorrow I will put in discount some YCH because Black Friday, maybe I will need some money to buy the pills and in the worst case to move to get an x-ray. I can work but taking more breaks, it hurts in any position.

I know that it's my job, but maybe are something that you want to see from me, I have some ideas in mind for tomorrow, but listen to the community isn't bad too.
I don't have so many updates to sharing, I feel like I'm living in a straight line, the same meds. Likewise, I need back with the psychologist, I'm still struggling with anxiety, although my life is going more peaceful since I cut ties with my abusive sister and I get married, the marriage is really helping me with the anxiety, but i need that I have to get more help, sometimes the anxiety is so hard that I'm sitting on the PC paralyzed. Anyway, it is nothing compared to how I was living after, I just feel like I need some fixing

I will buy a new tablet, I actually I'm working with a Wacom Intuos S, so I'm thinking on upgrade. The new tablet will be quite expensive, but it will improve my work a lot. I'm thinking to take a loan for it, since I will do profit with the tablet is fine, I will pay it with commissions made on it, and will be easier to work, and I would reach the prices. I have a new monitor incoming too, I was working with a low resolution monitor all this time.

I don't upload regression or baby/kids on messy diapers before the update of the new UP here. I stopped to upload things like this since my first suspension on 1st March 2023 (more info Here https://x.com/DoggyMarea/status/163.....6313060298752)
Not only I stopped, I changed my style, I stopped to do YCH related with kids using diapers, like bed-wetting. I changed to fit to the rules for not lost access to FA, if I broke the rules again I will be banned permanently and lost where I get more commissioners, I feel disgusted for it, like I was trying to fit being a good boy for people that no what us, and for money, at the moment I was scared every morning about get banned. When the update comes, I felt a kind of relief, but I'm really sad how lost of amazing artist and people was harmed, and how lots of good art are deleted from here.
I don't feel comfort in Twitter or Bluesky being a bit shy, introverted, I'm trying to use it anyway looking for ways to make my post more interested and get more popularity, I was reading guides about it making me feel super dork. I want to find other places where I can do profit, I not feel good here.
Here links to my Bluesky and Twitter, I will try to be more active there
https://x.com/DoggyMarea
https://bsky.app/profile/brumbrum.bsky.social

https://www.deviantart.com/brumbram
I'm still setting up all there

bluesky https://bsky.app/profile/brumbrum.bsky.social
twitter https://x.com/DoggyMarea
IB https://inkbunny.net/BrumBrum
babyfur.me https://babyfur.me/profile/BrumBrum
and I have a telegram channel I'm very active here https://t.me/marinlabsky
and here, while I don't get banned I will stay here too

Actually, most of the people know that I'm living from art. I don't want it forever because I like to have the possibility of rest to back to the art more "new", not get bored or tired, giving a bad quality. So I'm still trying to study, I will not enter to a university next year because I left the school, and I have to restart, I will try to finish one of the subjects I need to finish high school anyway.
I left the school because I always got troubles between the work and the time, I have disorganization on the schedule and on the handle of the income, I was withdrawing mostly of the income the same day I got it, so my plan is the next, I will try to hoard income before withdraw it. I will start to do it in November, from the 5th to the 20th I will not withdraw income, this will "reschedule" my income, because I will start to hoard instead of get the money on the day, I'ts a common method between freelancers, and doing this I will feel more secure about my work, letting me more time to study, less distress.
Also for what I want to study I still would love to do IT, I'm also anxious on how difficult can be the third grade, but I think that it must be normal.
And about health, I'm taking my meds for my chronically psychiatric troubles, my depression and my anxiety, and I was having disbalances with the thyroid gland, and stuff, I hate it because it affects instantly my mood, and I don't know if is my thyroid gland or my mind, but well, it is what it is.
And about my new relationship, I'm feeling good, settle down is having a good impact on my life, I'm having more desires of organization, I'm feeling more trust about invest in my home or let my partner invest in it.
that's all to the moment, thanks so much for read

Finally, today I visit the store, and I'm satisfied and happy with the product, is a good faucet, 3 years of warranty, I hope not have to change it in a good long time

Yes, I have tried to go to the store the last Friday, but I started to feel really bad, I tried to go on Saturday, but I am not got it too, so I'm waiting to go tomorrow, I have the money and thing, I only need to get it and install it luckily, tomorrow the store is open. The thing is all that time I have to hold without water or the water flowing from the broken faucet, today was crazy, that thing just totally broke and start to squirt water in all directions
And about the "where to find me"
I have bluesky
https://bsky.app/profile/brumbrum.bsky.social
Twitter
https://x.com/DoggyMarea
and I have a telegram channel I upload here more frequently
https://t.me/marinlabsky