Hello, Everyone!

I've recently opened up NSFW on my Commissions List, and I'm looking for takers! My queue is currently empty, and I'm looking to get a new computer chair so my back won't be killing me as much, lol. Unfortunately, they're expensive, and I need a few more Comms to afford one.

If you're looking for an artist to draw either SFW or NSFW, I hope you'll consider supporting this toffee seal!

Prices are below, if you're interested. Thank you!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48161717/

(Adult 18+) WELCOME TO THE SEALBZONE - Tums and Tacos!

https://twitch.tv/garbodor1

Hey, y'all! To make up for yesterday's abrupt end to stream, I'll be continuing it today for a few hours as I work on a commission, my card game project, and take Taco Quest slots for tomorrow!

Hey, everyone! I'll be taking inexpensive ($10 to $20) Inked Commissions over on my Twitch~! Pop on in if you'd like one, or just want to hang out in a chill environment. I'd love to see ya there~!

https://twitter.com/ManectricMan/st.....91909775486976

Long time, no see! It's been way too long since I've been active on here. So here's an update!

1. I've begun to accept commissions! I'm getting better bit by bit every day, and I'm loving this. I've worked retail, hospitality, and an office job, but I've got to say that this really suits my style far more. Hit me up, if you're looking to have your character brought to life!

2. I've started dating an amazing guy who makes me smile every day.  Jerrett16 is my lovely bearbear, and if you follow me, you should definitely check him out, too!

3. I've started a medication regimen. Many of my previous problems were due to a lack of understanding about my own neurodivergence and the source of my volatile emotions. I'm doing far better now, and taking steps to shape my life into something wholly my own, and something I can be proud of.

I've also gotten a Twitter and a Twitch! www.twitter.com/ManectricMan is where I've been posting most of my stuff in the meantime, and once in a while I stream my favorite games at www.twitch.tv/Garbodor1 . I'd love to see y'all there!

And one final note...I'll be cleaning out my submissions page. Most things will be either deleted or scrapped, but I'll be posting my new art, as well. I hope you all like it!

I'll be posting stuff far more frequently now. And I hope to see y'all on this grand new step of my journey. ^^

https://gurglrvore.com/user/ManectricMan

Come one, come all, to the den of sin and gluttony!

Heya, everyone.

I just wanted to apologize if I've been acting distant or quiet on Skype lately. I've been having almost-daily depressive episodes to the point where I don't have the energy to do a whole lot. This is probably most apparent to my lifelines, which is what I call the people who I usually confide in, that I have online. The worst part is that there's really very little way to cheer me up. This is mainly because...well, depression doesn't exactly mean sadness.

It's emptiness.

Sure, sadness and anger and anxiety do tend to flare up, but ultimately, it's being unable to care about the positive aspects of your life. Like...you know what good is there...but so what? It's wanting good things to happen, but not being able to see what good has ALREADY happened, or will happen. The worst part is that it goes hand-in-hand with anxiety. When you finally DO see something good, you can't enjoy it, and instead, you latch onto it and smother it and do everything you can to make things work with it, even if all of that effort is counterproductive. This is true with some of my friendships. When I feel attachment to someone, it gets intense. My emotions get confused, and ultimately, I can end up apologizing a lot, trying to make amends for things I've never even done, and doing everything I can to be absolutely perfect for them, because I can't stand the thought of their disapproval.

And then one of these low-points flares up. And it all bubbles to the surface.

Suddenly, this person who always seemed happy and generous and altruistic is asking for quite a lot, because it suddenly takes much more to get even a subdued fraction of the happiness they felt only weeks before. I still go through the motions, going to work, having something to eat, and chatting with people. But I do it all...less. I punch in and punch out, and that's it. I suddenly don't care what I eat, going from the balanced, home-cooked meals I love to takeout and microwaved crap. And the RPs and drawings and jokes are put on hold, replaced by constant requests for reassurance. And on the subject of food...

My stress-eating habit has returned. I understand that among the fatfur community, this may not seem like much. But I worked hard to kick this habit, and I hate the fact that I've started again. It's innately different than the feeding RPs and frequent dining that I'd like to do some day. It's treating food as a crutch, eating just so you can feel SOMETHING. And for a foodie home cook like me, this is absolute hell. I want my food to be used for making people happy, not just filling a void that it can't ever hope to fill.

I just want to apologize to all of you for how I've been acting. Not so much because I think it's my fault, but rather, because I know just how much it must weigh on the people close to me. You all mean the world to me, and I don't know what I would do without you guys.

Just...please be patient with me. This shouldn't last too long, or at least I hope not. And I need you guys more than ever. I love all of you.

I finally changed my profile around, so it's a bit more descriptive. Quite a lot's changed since then!

But yes, take a look if you so choose. =P

Looked up a bunch of stuff. Previously, I just thought I was gay.

Now? I'm a Androsexual, Grey-androromantic, CISgendered male.

...probably just gonna stick with the "Gay" label, but holy crap it's weird trying to figure things out.

 Digbiy

This dude is so cute. Like puppy and kitten trying to get into the same slipper, cute.

But he deserves a better description than that, so I'll provide. =)

FIRST OFF: His Art.

It is rare to find an artist who can blend the concepts of "cute" and "sexy" into his works so well, but Digbiy manages to do it. Like many of us, his artwork tends to center around a particular kink; namely Fatfurs, in this case. However, the drawings are rarely just an example of something kinky, and are more akin to little images of the characters themselves. He doesn't shy away from 18+ Artwork, which may be a good or bad thing depending on who you talk to, but it is masterfully drawn, with care given to proper positioning and realistic angles, to achieve a unique style that directs the eye exactly where he intends it to go.

SECOND: The Characters

His main two are Digbiy the Bull and Haru the Boar. And I must say; it's been a VERY long time since I've seen characters this well-written. They are endearing, they have backstories which give them quite a lot of depth, and the interactions between the two are heartwarming. Each one is chock-full of positive traits, and no real downside, And yet at the same time, they never seem "perfect" or "Mary Sue-ish". They are simple characters, but simple doesn't mean "bad".

Third: Himself

Oh my god, I DARE you to find a sweeter guy. I've never known anyone who could get me to smile and warm up to them as quick as he has, and he's very quickly become one of my best friends. He's humble, kind, affectionate, and he is an all-around honor to know. He genuinely cares about people, and knows just how to make someone laugh and feel welcome in just about any kind of situation.

 Digbiy is a new artist who deserves WAY more followers and praise than he gets. Go send him a "hi" right now, and see for yourself just how great someone can be as a friend, as a person, and as everything else one can think of.

Thanks for reading! ^^

INTELLIGENCE. :D

SEE WHAT I DID THUR!?

But yes. Seriously though, I've found that my favorite thing to do is to simply talk with friends about things. SO. If you are currently following me and are interested in chatting about any of the following, please send a note.

1. Controversial subjects. ONLY IF WE BOTH AGREE TO NOT KILL EACH OTHER OVER IT. I love to chat politics, religion, and philosophy, especially with people with opposing views. This is because I want to learn about them. But I don't want us to hate each other by the end. So let me just get this out of the way.
-I am an Agnostic.
-My political views are very odd and my attitude surrounding them changes. Consistently though, I am very Liberal and tend to side with the less awful of the two choices for people like me, though this doesn't mean that it's what I think is always best.
-Metaphysics. What is truly out there? What is morality? Are good and evil things that exist, or merely concepts we form?
-THE BIG ONE. I am not going to be offended if you disagree. Of course you will. We aren't the same person, and it's near impossible for us to have the same views. My own views are biased and uneducated. That's why I talk about them; so I may affirm or deny what I believe so I can eventually become confident in whatever my final choice may be. Treat everything I say as both a question and answer, inviting a relevant counterpoint if you have any.

2. Genuine, deep RP settings. No, I don't just mean settings that a character can get laid in. I mean a location with thought and depth. Lore, significant characters, protagonists, antagonists. Themes that it may have and comparisons to real life. I have a few projects I'm working on.
-NIFLHEIM. This is my post-apocalyptic world. Non-furry, but easily adapted to work in private moments (assuming that humans are still a species). Essentially, it's a few centuries in the future (500-600 years), and a catastrophic event occurred that resulted in the creation of "Embodiments", which are large creatures that feed off the energy that composes a sentient soul. Major hotspots of life have become havens for these creatures (Jerusalem, Coastal China, New York, much of India, the Mariana Trench, Australia, and all major Rainforests are now unmistakably deadly to live in). Magic exists as formulas, using compounds such as silver, elemental sulfur, sodium chloride, and other "mystical" ingredients in weapons to help seal these creatures.
-Metastuck. This is a what-if world heavily, HEAVILY based on Homestuck that covers the what-if question, "What if a Troll world was aware of the events in MSPaintAdventures?" This is currently on hiatus, but if you're curious, I'm always open to feedback.  DustyPumkin is the co-creator, so he knows quite a lot about it, as well, and has even made sprites for it.
-The world my 'sona tends to live in, at least with consent from the RP partner. Yet another futuristic world that takes another "what if" scenario. This time, what if the 2012 event was magic returning to the world? If you've played Shadowrun, you know where I'm going with this. Also taking a bit from the webcomic "Skin Deep" (I advise reading it, it's a wonderful comic). Everyone is biologically human, though dormant genes were activated by the event. Furries as we know them compose 45% of the world's population, and each have a link to some mythological creature. Typical "animals" have links to druidic sects (Celts, Pagans, Native Americans, etc), for instance, while dragons and werewolves are more direct. It explores aspects such as sexuality (not just gay/straight, but how sex is treated as a whole), culture, heritage, and depth behind the species that a furry chooses (for instance, angels and demons represent different things besides religion, and before the magic evaporated from the world, many races had a rich history that was unfortunately forgotten).
-I am always up for reading the works of others as well! =D So if you have a project you're working on as well? Please share it. ^^

3. Philosophy. I loveloveloveLOVE this subject, because there are no right or wrong answers. I love to discuss things such as emotion and preference and morality. I love to talk with people about problems they may have, sources of said problems, and repercussions of it, and reciprocate in kind. IE? I just love learning about the way other peoples' minds work, and what beliefs they may hold.

4. Writing. Oh god this one. Not many people know this, but I'm a poet. I'm no professional, but I've gotten positive feedback from what I've written. If you can write a short story or poem that focuses on something besides how much someone's gut jiggles? Then you and I will have a ball exchanging and critiquing each others' works.

5. Finally. I love to talk about feelings. True feelings. Not physical reactions to those feelings, but personal feeling jam sessions where both people can vent about what they need to vent about. They can talk about finding the love of their life, or their bitter enemy, or maybe they want to talk about a phobia or anxiety that has been wearing on them. And as I said before, I love to learn about people. I love learning just what kind of friend I need to be for someone. Do you need someone who will hold you and make you feel better? Or someone to hold and cheer up, yourself? Or how about just a pal to joke around with, giving fake jabs at the other that you don't mean? Or a friend you can say "I love you" to without making things weird or being anything more than a "romantic friendship"? I believe it's important to know where you stand. And this helps me figure out just how I should behave around you.

But yeah. If any of you find any of what I said appealing, drop me a line! I'd love to chat with you about these things. ^^

I know, I've been silent. I haven't posted anything, haven't left a comment on drawings, haven't attended streams, I know.

This is because, though I'm unsure if I have a known disorder, what I DO know is that I have crippling anxiety issues. It only really triggers in large groups, though the concept of a large group is very broad. It can range from a big Skype chat, to a website like this where everyone in it is part of a group, somewhat. Here's what I know about it.

1. It triggers only in situations where there are more than five people, myself included.
2. There isn't always a reason for me to panic or go depressive. It seems to be random.
3. When it hits, I'm incapable of doing anything. I can't move, talk, or do anything more than fidget with random items in reach and look down at the table.
4. I'm aware it makes no sense, and that only makes things worse. A common question is "what makes you do this?". The answer? I have no clue. And before anyone comments with "you'll get over it", I've been trying since before I came online in the first place. I've been trying to get past it for almost a decade.
5. I still feel happiness, love, and sympathy. Those feelings just come mixed with a grain of salt big enough to salt the rim of every cocktail glass in the whole of San Francisco three times over. IE, don't worry about me hurting myself.
6. My perceptions about myself are shaped by other peoples' perception of me. Self-esteem isn't a concept that applies to me, since I honestly don't feel good, bad, or neutral about who I am. So if I take an insult personally or dote over a compliment? That's why.
7. Just because I don't talk, it doesn't mean I don't want to. This disorder, whatever it is, makes it near-impossible for me to start social situations. Trust me. I've tried. But I love to talk with people. RPs, debates, conversations, I love to talk with people who just want to talk. But it's impossible for me to start one and not start judging myself.
8. My artistic mood comes and goes. One moment, I'll want to draw every thought I have. These moments are valued, since they come only once a month or so. But often, the moment the pencil touches paper, I become unable to finish the product.
9. I will occasionally make promises I can't keep, just so people will like me. This one is all me, and I'm working to fix it. That's my first step. But assume the worst when I say I'll draw you something. Because odds are, I'm internally screaming at myself for doing this to the both of us.
10. Please be patient with me. It's selfish, but my number one want is for someone to take care of me. I'm a grown man, so this is even worse than it would normally be. But I have spent most of my time making others happy. And the number one thing I wish for is to be someone's priority.

This isn't me trying to farm complements or sympathy. This is me trying to educate you guys on why I'm like this. I very badly want this to stop. But medication isn't an option, both due to finances and personal preference (even if they suck, these are my emotions, not a pill's). So please. Don't take it personally if I seem nervous or suddenly shift my mood. I don't want to lose any friends I've made. I just want those friends to understand.

But not here. :T Rather, it's on a friend's page!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4681005/

He's looking for a good, inexpensive animator who'd be interested in animating the image he described on his journal.

I've been wanting to dust off my deck and have a dueling buddy, but I haven't had much luck finding one. :c If you're interested, send a message to me on my Skype, "ManectricMan".

A friend of mine  rossmallo has something odd happening to his account. He constantly is redirected to an ad site, even when clicking links to FA. Does anyone know why this may be happening?

Hey everyone! It's time for another Magic the Gathering post with ManectricMan!!! =D

In all seriousness, though, I'd like some advice for a deck I'm running. It's a Turbofog/Mill deck where the win condition is a late-game Hedron Crab or the addictively annoying Evacuation/Forced Fruition combo. Here's the recipe for anyone interested.

Creatures: 4
4x Hedron Crab

Artifacts: 8
4x Howling Mine
4x Font of Mythos

Enchantments: 6
4x Rites of Flourishing
2x Forced Fruition

Instants: 20
4x Etherial Haze
4x Pollen Lullaby
4x Dawn Charm
4x Arcane Denial (better than Counterspell in my deck)
4x Evacuation

Lands: 22
2x Celestial Colonnade
4x Glacial Fortress
4x Reliquary Tower
4x Island
4x Forest
4x Plains

Sideboard: 15
3x Extract (Eldrazi, and the ONLY card I'd consider sideboarding for a casual game)
2x Luminarch Ascension (No harm in having an alternate Win Condition)
4x Leyline of Sanctity (Burn)
4x Elixir of Immortality (Other Mill decks/Discard Decks/Assorted Control decks)
2x Archive Trap (Fetchlands/Birthing Pod)

I'd love to get other opinions for this deck. As is, it isn't too bad, and fares pretty well. =O But it could always be better. =)

 jjames012002 needs some assistance. He's looking for someone willing to draw him a commission for his mate. If anyone is up for it, note him at the given account. Thank you for your time. ^^

AS IT TURNS OUT, I'M AN IDIOT!!! =D

My charge CABLE was the issue, not the charge port. XD I'm back in action, guys! ^^

As it turns out, my computer's unable to charge up for whatever reason. I'm gonna see if I can get it fixed, but it'll take a day or two. So I'll be offline for then. See ya afterwards!

I could use some help. A friend of mine is a bit short on cash atm, and hasn't had much luck getting commissions.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1944967/

He's selling commissions, and the prices are MORE than fair. They've even been knocked down quite a bit. ^^ Please extend a helping hand. =)

I wanna know if you guys would look at and comment on Fakemon pictures I make. =O I want critique on the designs I have. I also might put up the Gym Leaders of the Bellimay Region, alongside their strongest Pokemon. Could you guys help me with this? I want to make sure that if I do, I'll know what to improve on.

Since I'm lazy and don't want to spend time replying to every comment, I'll simply say this.

Thank you all SO, SO much for your well wishes, your kindness, your sympathy, and all of the love you've given me! ^^ It's been the best birthday I can remember, and it's in no small part due to all of you! I love you all so much. If I could jump through the computer and hug you all, I would. <3

But unfortunately, this is all I can do. (hugs you all SO tightly) Thank you all. For EVERYTHING these past few days. <=)

Today's mah burfday! ^w^ I'm 19 today. I'm getting old!

OOOOOOLLLLDDDDDD!!! D8

Recently, I heard the unfortunate news that one of the kittens my cat had passed away. I don't know why...he seemed so healthy yesterday...

His name was Buttons. A curious little thing. He always liked to snuggle up to people who held him. I hoped so...SO much that we were able to keep him, and if not, that he'd find a home that would provide him with all the love and affection his little heart deserved. I seem to remember we joked about his weight. He looked like a little black bear running across the carpet...

But today, he started acting strange. Lethargic...unresponsive...we gave him some cream, and he perked up. We thought it was dehydration. But when I got home from work, he looked horrible. I could tell he had very little time left. I prayed that he'd get better. I went into denial. But then...at 8 past midnight, my mom came in saying she'd need help digging a hole for him...

It shouldn't work like this...he was just a little baby. He was healthy. He didn't even get CLOSE to things that could be even remotely dangerous. By all intents and purposes, he should have grown up to be a healthy cat...but he was taken from us as a little baby...

Rest in Peace, Buttons. We love you always.

Just...guys...please understand if I'm not in a good for a while...this is just too much...

LAYER ONE : THE OUTSIDE
- Name: Josh
- Eye Color: Brown
- Hair Style/Color: Curly black hair. Hard to describe the style. X3
- Height: 6'1"
- Clothing style: Tee shirt and jeans FTW! ^^
- Best physical feature: I'd say my eyes. X3

LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE
- Your fears: Rejection. ><
- Your guilty pleasure: ...this is going to sound VERY weird...but massaging my belly after a big meal.
- Your biggest pet peeve: When people look down at me. I don't care what your opinion is. Just respect that I have mine.
- Your ambitions for the future: I hope to be a good animator. I don't want to be rich, but I do want to have enough to get by without much trouble. Most of all, I want someone I can spend my life with happily, so I can see that all the trouble in life is worth while.

LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS
- Your first thoughts waking up: "Goddammit...fucking sun."
- What you think about most: Ways to confront past mistakes should they arise again.
- What you think about before bed: What's to come the next day.
- You think your best quality is: My ability to be unbiased, at least in most situations.

LAYER FOUR: WHAT'S BETTER?
- Single or group dates: Single. ^w^
- To be loved or respected: ...why not both? But if I had to choose, loved.
- Beauty or brains: Beauty. But I don't look at appearances so much as inner beauty, so yeah. Beauty of the soul is best.
- Dogs or cats: DOGS! HANDS DOWN! WUFFWUFF!!!

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
- Lie: Probably to myself, quite often.
- Believe in yourself: Rarely.
- Believe in love: Wouldn't the world be a shitty place if we didn't?
- Want someone: Very badly. But I don't want to rush into a relationship.

LAYER SIX: EVER?
- Been on stage: Christmas Pageant once when I was a little kid.
- Done drugs: Nope. Don't intend on it.
- Changed who you were to fit in: Yeah...I pretended I was straight, I pretended that I was happy being ignored, and I pretended that I had confidence.

LAYER SEVEN: FAVORITES
- Favorite color: Green and Yellow are tied.
- Favorite animal: Varies often, but canines are a consistent favorite.
- Favorite movie: Persepolis
- Favorite game: Pokemon: Sapphire Version


LAYER EIGHT: AGE
- Day your next birthday you will be: At work.
- How old will you be: 19
- Age you lost your virginity: N/A
- Does age matter: Not particularly in most cases. I value friends of all ages. ^^

LAYER NINE: IN A BOY OR GIRL
- Best personality: Humble, accepting, kind, and intelligent. Someone who you can confide in.
- Best eye color: Darker colors, in my opinion.
- Best hair color: Also darker colors. X3
- Best thing to do with a partner: Be close to them, aiding each other through any problems they may have, then both of you saying a true, meaningful "I love you".

LAYER TEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE
- I love: Every one of you. ^^
- I feel: Like I still have a long way to go before I can truely progress as a person.
- I hide: How I truly feel about things.
- I miss: The times when things were allowed to be simple.
- I wish: That soon, things CAN be simple, and the people I know CAN be happy.

I HAVE A JOB!!!

;w;

I ACTUALLY GOT A JOB!!!

It's just dishwashing at a local pizza place, but who cares!? This is AWESOME!!! ^w^ (does a happy dance)

Hehe. Unfortunately, this means I probably won't be on as much as before. I'll still be on as much as possible, though. ^^ So until next time, a very happy pup will be washing dishes and taking names! XD