Thinking of you, wherever you are
We pray for our sorrows to end,
and hope that our hearts will blend.
Now I will step forward to realize this wish.
And who knows,
starting a new journey may not be so hard
Or maybe it has already begun.
There are many worlds.
but they share the same sky
one sky, one destiny.

So the day has come. It's my last night here in Houston and by Monday. I will be starting the next chapter of my life. A New Beginning.
Ready or not, Ohio here I come!

A great love is alot like a good memory.
When it's there and you know it's there, but just out of your reach. It can be all that you think about.
You can focus on it and try to force it. but the more you do, the more you seem to push it away.
But if you're pacient and hold still, than maybe, just maybe, it'll come to you.
Just got to be someone place you know it can find you

I can sleep and Im problaly gonna fall asleep after I post this cause my body is wierd like that. But to pass the time till I sleep, ask me anything and Ill give an honest answer

Who is a ugly lop-eared mongrel? Give them a cookie if they can guess who =)

"Wolves. The kind of beauty that makes you shit your pants" lol I love that quote XD

challenge by

Comment below and I will...
1. Tell you something I'll learn about you by looking at your FA page for 13 seconds.
2. Tell you which color you remind me of.
3. Tell you my first memory of you.
4. Tell you what Pokemon you remind me of.
5. Ask you something I've always wondered about you, and your answer has to be as vague as possible to keep the suspense.
6. Tell you my favorite thing about you.
7. Give you a weird nickname
8. Tell you what's on my shirt right now.
9. Challenge you to post this on your journal

“You can shed tears that he is gone,
or you can smile because he has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all he's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see him,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember him only that he is gone,
or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what he'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”

6 Years ago today someone very special in my life was taken from me and my family. I can't say things are exactly as good and bright as it use to be. But I have learned so much thanks to that person. I hope to one day see him again in heaven and once again to hear my cousins' laugh.
R.I.P Adam Joseph (A.J.) Salazar. Gone, but never forgotten

pfft. I'm like Superman. I know when I'm needed

Today as I road in the passanger seat heading home i looked outside to a cloudy sky. It was a scene of nothing but gray but i coudln't help but smile and see a light in all of it. Thanks to a very special beautiful voice. But it's got me thinking of everything that has happen over the past years. I have had a odd chain of bad luck but I think their is some things i would like to say if i never get another chance, so i'll speak out from my heart.

First off I want to thank my big bro Zharr and his just as kind mate Sarus. For when I had no one to turn to and like the world was against me, they were always there. I love ya'll two so very much for everything ya'll have done for me. I don't know how bad I would be without them. "My lights in the darkness"

My furry hero and one of my best friend, Dante. I bet if i was on my death bed he would make me laugh and smile without even trying. Thank you bud. For when I need advice and that encouragement hat helpped me keeping moving forward in success in the things I did. "My Ballon lazer gun that shoots missels >=3"

To a Very special fur who isn't just like a mother to be but would proudly point and say "That's my Mama!".MamaCherish I remember when i first met her in person. May 15th at the Fur Movie Meet. She made me feel like i belonged in the first time in a long time. Whenever I had personal problems, i could trust her with every word I say and it won't be repeated. Thank you so very much Mama. Can't wait to see you again *hugs tight* "My kindness in my heart"

Chase and Segy. For the short time I known ya'll two ya'll have been a big help in my life and two more heroes in my life. From when my family turned their backs on me and kicked me out and when i kept on falling face first into the dirt. When I was ready to give up and just lay their, ya'll two helpped me back onto my feet and pointed me on my way. I can't thank ya'll two guys enough. "My Shoulders to lean on"

Allan well what can i say. you are the reason i keep fighting when i really have no reason to. one of my big heroes, idk what i would do without a bud like you. When i just wanted to turn away and let the bad come. you kept me up and fighting back with all i got. Thank a mill. "My fighting spirit"

Last and not least Umer . Thank and Sorry for everything... Thank you for being their when others were away and for always trying to show me the bright side of things. I have really taken you for granted bro and I am truely for the way i treated you. That no way to treat a friend let alone a brother. I hope you can forgive me for the asshole i was. but thank you for being their when i needed someone. "My spirit to be the best i can be"

As for sorries. theirs 4 ppl I'ld like to say sorry to.

Link I'm sorry for the things I said to you. Who was I to say what was best for you and what you should do when I don't know any better myself. I know sorry can't take back the things i said but i regeat saying those things.

Koma not much i can say for we hardly speak but thats even worse for i didn't get to know you and judge you right off the bat.... ironicly. I apologies for trying to hurt you when i really had no reason to. I did Envy you and that was immature of me. I know no apologie would erase what i did.

My ex mate sorry for the hell i put you in and the way and things i told you. I know things were done and said that we can't take back but i do hope we can remain friends even after the asshole moves i did. Turning your friends against you, Verbaly abusing you. i apologies

Last and certainly no less Vamp . I don't how or where to start. You are one of them i'm truely and strongely sorry to. one of my first fur friends but i let my obessession and jealous had me loss a great friends. i know nothing can ever equal to the things i dont to hurt you and more. I do understand if this guy never speaks to me again or even gives me any knownledge but i guess i can start by saying sorry

I know their several more people i should be saying thank and sorry too but this is alot and my head is hurting and my cough is getting worse. I promise next chapter i'll mention those others close to my heart and those who make who I am. I wanted to say this things to those few people Incase I never got another chance to say the things i needed to say. I know this seems alot and stupid but hey we have our own point of view in things and these people been alot to me enough that i post this. I love ya'll guys alot. Thank you for being apart of my life.

♥To every guy that said, "Sex can wait"



♥To every guy that said, "You're beautiful" and meant it



♥To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see him/her



♥To every guy that gives him/her flowers and a card when he/she is sick or down.



♥To every guy who has given him/her flowers just because that's how he rolls



♥To every guy that said he would die for him/her.



♥To every guy that really would.



♥To every guy that did what he/she wanted to die for



♥To every guy that cried in front of him/her...



♥To every guy that he/she cried in front of...



♥To every guy that holds hands with him/her.



♥To every guy that kisses him/her with meaning..



♥To every guy that hugs him/her when he/she's sad.



♥To every guy that hugs him/her for no reason at all.



♥To every guy who would give their jacket up for him/her.



♥To every guy that calls to make sure he/she got home safe.



♥To every guy that would sit and wait for him/her for hours just to see him/her for ten minutes



♥To every guy that would give his seat up...



♥To every guy that just wants to cuddle.



♥To every guy that reassured him/her that he/she was beautiful no matter what.



♥To every guy who told his secrets to him/her.



♥To every guy that showed how much he cared through every word and every breath.



♥To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.



♥To every guy that believed in his/her dreams.



♥To every guy that would have done anything so he/she could achieve them



♥To every guy that never laughed at him/her when he/she told him his/her dreams.



♥To every guy that walked him/her to his/her car and opened the door



♥To every guy that walked him/her to door safely



♥To every guy that gave his heart fully.



♥To every guy who prays that he/she is happy even if you are not with him/her.





Not many people appreciate nice guys anymore... I am.And because of this, there are not many left out there...



I guarantee 90% of people will not repost this cuz they care more about their image





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F**K IT'S COLD! DX
I hate the cold. *spray hairspray in the air* DAMNIT IT'S NOT WORKING!!! HURRY UP GLOBAL WARMING DX

Beside it's be to cold for me this week has sucked. Got so little writing done. To much drama everywhere I go. but thanks Bob i have all 8 seasons of RvB (Red Vs Blue). that one of few things that made this week better. Who knew Cabooses Grandmother was one of the girls in 2 Girls 1 Cup lol.
The Marines SSGT (Staff Sargent) Melendrez had me work out with them the other day. think i may need to see a doc cause damn does my body hurt. Marines mix martial arts hurts, didn't think they would actual hit that hard. but i won so all is now right in this universe.
Told my friend Agenais that i might join the Marines and she told me she wants to join now cause i was in it. i told her it's Dangerous and Hard and he remark made me almost wet myself. she said so is my penis but it doesn't scare her either.
The weekend seem to have gone by real peaceful and pleasant. i got brief feelings of how i felt a long time ago. Feeling that now feels kinda odd and weird but also feels real good. can't help but smile

Wow... it's been already 5 yrs that you have been gone,it doesn't even feel like it! =( it feels as it was just yesterday,all tha laughter & fun we shared!

R.i.P Adam J Salazar
Gone but never forgotten
Always in our hearts
...3/17/87-11/26/05

ok i need some advice

you love someone like crazy. you're willing to make your own self suffer and hurt just to see them happy and safe yet they refuse to see how much hat person mean to you.
he claims it to be lust that you feel for that person but you know inside thats not true. you would stay up just to speak to him cause that person would make you happy.
now he with someone who loves him for all the wrong reason but you care and respect him enough to let him follow his heart. but when you still try to show you care he seem to toss it back in your face like the those long night talking to each other was nothing. the restless dark when you worried about him cause he wanted to kill himself. and when you helpped him with his own personal problem like him concern about someone he considers a brother. to him, he acts like they never happen. and those heart to heart talks where you knew you felt a connect was all a lie.
is it true, "one day he will wake up and realize how much he loves you, but by that time you will be waking up to the person who already knew"?
but part of you doens't want to wake up by nobody else.
and now for some odd reason. you're having dreams of that person. the tension he holds toward you is still there but he's trying to be kind about it. you even see him smile at times and it makes your heart race and makes you want to cry cause you so wish it was real.
so where i need some advice is, if all this happen to you and you couldn't take it anymore. what would you do?



for One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter.
and Just so you know, there's a space that only you can fill. Just so you know, I loved you then, I guess I always will.

I remember posting this about Man was I fucking stupid

this is something for a special someone...

Summer's Days and Winter's Nights
My Love for him has brought me into this light
When I look into his eyes, I see but wonders
Is his heart empty or absent?
Yearning for the touch of our hand and feel of our skin
The sweet tenderness oh his lips, thus i say again:
"My love for you cannot be broken
I offer you my heart as a token"

if someone can give me help on how to deal with someone you extremly love and care and the hands of god toke them away from you. if anyone can tell me what to do in return i'll reveal something about there birthday.
it for someone i care for.

everyone been asking me for help lately. i been noticing one word in everyone of our convo."Fear"

Ha fear. fear is what you make it. many people re holding back from what they want cause of fear. i love that person but i'm scarred. i want to do that but i'm scarred.

you gona let fear run ya'll life. i was scarred to join the Army but i'm not gonna let fear control my life and neither should ya'll. i know ya'll can do whatever you put your heart in. Now i got a Hot recruiter and met some awesome new friends since i join.

you never gonna know what you can do till you try. never give up and you'll be a legend