The new place is coming along day by day. I'm just about done putting in the insolation and the next step is slamming up some wood paneling. Then onto putting the kitchen set up in them I can officially move my stuff in... I tell y'all what this Wolf happier than a dog with a bone..

What's good y'all...got a little news. I finally will be a small homeowner in a matter of weeks and I'm counting down the days 🐺 I'm beyond happy finally having a place that is big enough for my Shepherd and I to live in and get outta the trailer life.

If any of y'all play call of duty vanguard on hard core my gamer tag is Wolf#9669.

ive come to realize over the last month how much harder the the days and nights have gotten. all i keep seeing replayed in my head is me walking into the bathroom seeing you slumped over with the pistol i got you the minutes felt like hours trying to get you heart to beat again but i failed i couldnt save you matter how much i yelled to you to come back when i was doing cpr , its keeps playing over and over again in my head where just te smells from that day puts me back there.everyday its like im lose you again over and over. Babs im lost without you ,you were my vixen, my wife , and forever mate but now i wake up every day rolling over to kiss you good morning like usual only to have reality hit again like a semi that it happened even though it feels like a nightmare i just cant wake up from.
Holly Fox Balcar i'l miss you and love you even after my days are up. when you died all the good in my heart and soul died with you the only reason i can fool with kiddos is because i know i have to be strong infront of and for them.but when im here in our home alone i still see your blood on the floor and walls in that room even though i cleaned it i still see it all there. i dont know what to do anymore other than work work work work to keep the mind busy and me outa our house.id give anyrhing to be able to hold you and hear your voice.

its been a while since i been on here been at that point of just work work work , but now the days all just run together i love my jobs but it hasnt been the same today marks a full month since the day it happened and nomatter how many hours i rack up the joy of the job is gone the joys of coming home seem hollow and lost. it doesn't even feel like it has been a month somehow it feels like its been one long never ending day all i seem to do is just to go along with the daily flow of things but i feel hollow, odly i can still smile when its needed when i visit the folks . the one thing that has been a help to bring a real smile out is the kiddos have visited every week they have been a huge help through the whole process but still they cant see how hard this all really hit me cause i gotta be strong for them. finally got the new mastercylinder for Ol Betty so il be able to have the ol girl race ready by mid spring. i know she always had fun when i raced the trucks with her in the passenger seat. never ending list of project to try keep my mind busy which has had very little sucess

Yep the Ol girl finally arrived back home at 2:00a.m and damn since I put the new intake manifold and finally put in the top end rebuild and my new shorty headers holy hell the Ol girl sounds like a beast again she's even louder than Black Betty but damn there was one hell of a carbon buildup was smoking for a solid 15 minutes. The kicker is she's been in the barn long enough for mint ta grow all over the bed.

finally my new rounds for my 1943 british MK1 will be here tomorrow, i cant wait ta load up them tracers and hit some long range shootin. cool fact about these tracers they were made during WWII and will still be in the original spam can. opening one and keeping one unopened

finally almost have enough for my new kawasaki125

over the past few months the dreams have been coming back more and more . i go to sleep and wake up on those boards back in the compound there are times where im the age i was when i was there and then when i wake up i still there but at my present age still trying to escape through the bard windows and barbed wired wall. its wierd ta be sent back there just by a damn smell and its like boom im back there again hearing the other kids screams every night and and ever day just thinking how it cant be real , the months of being in OP the way they never stopped trying to break our bodies and our will. hard to believe how 2 years can just reliving in me. but well jut another day to push the memories away.

dear brain
i hate you ya lil bastard



well back to building things woohooo projects

new parts came in today, now to finish taring down the d150 so i can rebuild my1987 D100 aka ol Bessie
found out shes got a slightly bent lifter rod so im pulling the ones outa the d150 i bought and putting the new camshaft bearings in er, cause the only way ta swap out the rod is by pulling the camshaft

well this is a response to me hearing about people saying their gonna go out and protest saying theyre gonna shut it down. loo its your constitutional right to protest but the moment you block roads and or highways your taking it too far!! your stopping people from going to and or doing their jobs not to mention putting the public in clear danger, just gonna put this out there if anyone does this on the roads when im out working i got a lil saying for those people, (better Dodge cause ol Bessie likes ta Ram)and this is a heads up if i see anyone burning the American Flag im offering free tooth rearangment. so many fought and died for what the flag stands for.
they way i see it if you got time ta block off the roads ta bitch and complain then you got time to work a job so get too it..

well im pretty happy that trump won.really glad i voted after work

screw buying the big block i found fer my TMAXX cause i just found outy that RB innovations just came out with a supercharger system for my O.S. CV-R engine, this wolf is one happy mofucka now

yep ya neva let yer laptop go full retard,well mine did. its wierd i can post photos but it wont let me post my drawins. its like grrrrr cant wait ta shoot this dumb thing... well atleast whenever i buy another laptop lol. this suckers gonna get hit with tracers.so thatll be a blast haha.
on a side note anyone from MD or PA headin to the Buck fer the demo derbies and bumper races?

yup after over 5 years of collecting dust i brought my old racing Tmaxx back ta life and damn that lil fucker is still all torque
gonna post a pic of it whenever i figure out how lol

yeah been takin a while to get ol bessie done and back on the road. figured out that the polyurithane gear for the timing chain well finally chipped up which causes my timing in my engine to hop. just got the double rolled steel parts now so just waiting to install em now

anyone else havin a hard time submitting darwing?
if not then it could just be somethin my dumb laptop