I just found out two of people i call bro bac back home died this moring my depression and rage has honestly reached a new level
I already feel like a loser cause i still aint git a job and now two friends i thought and hoped would out live me died this morning in the way i shoulda

Going through a rough time emotionally so i wont be on till later
just chilling in the back of my truck by the woods just thinking and trying to cheer up so yeah talk to y'all later

(JUGGALO NAVAJO WOLF)
All my life all i saw was pain
and its yo life that will be slain.
i roll wit da wicked clown
fo dat yo bigot ass will hang upside down.
Cause il stab stab and slash slash while you bleed on the ground
I'll swing my hatchet round and round.
the juggalo fam is all i need
And all y'all know JH know im destined to make you bleed.
i live fo da spatter
Cause yalls suffering is all that'll matter
My rage live on so all yall haters cry
cause wicked clowns neva die.


MUCH MUTHA FUCKIN WICKED CLOWN LOVE.
WHOOP WHOOP

Every year especially dueing May im always depressed but now i have someone who can try to help me  xTimberTheWolfx your my guiding light in the darkneess of my pain your love set me free from some of my pain and hate i always love you forever and all time i just have alot of work to do on myself before i open up to you more

Anyone wanna chat or something?

Been wondering for a while so i finally posted this
so be honest even if you dont like me feel free to comment and no i wont take any comments as trolling so dont worry about me calling anyone trolls lol

Yeah got only a temp job but hey a jobs a job hell i should be able to get my trucks front end fixed finally talk ta yall later

Ok theres a hunter in the woods huntin deer
few hours go by then he kills a deer and says(finally so deer meat)
he walks over to the dead deer and all of a sudden he gets jumped and beat down my 2hand random bucks.
(Fyi the 2woods bucks are anthro)
the bucks break his legs and carry him off to a cave.
One of the anthro deer look at the hunter and grins saying(yer gonna get some real deer meat boy)

Yes gots da fun stuff had a good st. Patric's day
hope all had a great day

If you wanna add me again or just wanna add me im lonenavajowolf
that's my skype username

Yeah im bored as hell atm o if anyone wants to play a game er something my xbox live gamertag I CripedPyrats
feel free to hit me up

Yeah having a bad two nights

What's up everyone anyone wanna talk er something

I just found out my lil brother is in the hospital for chest pains and having trouble breathing I know not all y'all are religious but I ask those who care to please say a prayer for him
my lill brother Terry well he ain't blood but I looked out for him and to me he is and always will be my baby brother so yeah
I don't got friends I got family and my friends are my family hell he's just like me just shorter he's my furry Juggalo brother
MMFWCL WHOOP WHOOP

To those who don't fully understand what the journals were mainly about yes I said things about the fandom but evidently as usual I worded it wrong I wasn't talking about all furries I was only talking about the experiences with a number of furs not all fursthat but yet again my bad wording bit me in the tail
but yeah the reason I posted it was because I almost gave up on everything thanx to my whore of a mother and the bitch struck again thanx to her my phone can't get fixed till august because she changed my account password and is refusing to tell me it so yeah you al have no clue how close I am to breaking and she is the whole reason I hate people and can't trust anyone
no I ain't perfect im far from it but I've worked hard to change for the better and that cunt only helps me to tare me down that's all she.
so yeah if anyone has any words of wisdom to help
im screwed in so many ways thanx to her
things were going great with me and Timber even though I lost my job last month I kept optimistic until my money was stoles from my account by her and this isn't the first time she's stolen over $15,000 from me and well she's the one who sent me to prison she set me up and no I ain't playing the victim
I admit when im wrong
I just don't talk about my problems so yeah when it builds up I lose it but instead of being violent I only posted a journal to vent and state my honest opinion on the subjects so sorry for the misunderstanding but yeah was and still am furious

Yeah things I see is that there are alot of great artists out there who don't get much recognition because they arnt a well known artist which is bull this site is childish yes I said it childish as in it seems you need alot of people watching you just ta get any recognition and no this really isn't a rant and not I ain't bitchin about my art I just stating the things I see and well honestly don't know how much longer I will be on this site but
screw it im gonna say it anyway most furs I notice are just fat lazy people with no real life and its kinda sad that the fandom has went down hill so badly that the majority truly lives up to the stereo types which those are the furs I can honestly say I can't stand just like the last fur I had as a roommate just discusted me he did nothing but bitch and complain but did nothing to change anything not to mention would hit on me when he knew I had a mate remember this isn't a raant just observations but come on if the fandom doesn't change I don't see the fandom lasting cause more and more people are hating us because of the ones that live up to the stereo types
And yeah I can't be the only one who notices these things
but oh well

I don't hate my mate I love Timber to death but I hate the feeling I get when we argue even though I know 100%Hehe the arguements are my fault
so many times I messed up but Timber stood by me and loved me he will always love him for all time but I hate the guilt of dissapointing him
so why does lovee hurt is it because me and Timber are ment to be together and when I say hurt I don't mean its all bad I only mean when you I get ghat bad feeling everytime after we argue I just feel like such a jackass and feel like I don't deserve him

Timber if you see this know I wont ever break your heart and you'll always have my heart

I am no longer rping with anyone anymore peace out

Yes even though im in an emotional rut from my flashbacks im still working on the story it kinda helps
so yeah so far its only me and  xTimberTheWolf are in the story so far but more furs will by introduced later in the story so far I have about 3 chapters written I will post a followup later
and I will put up a summery of the story when I get further into it

To anyone like me who's lost a son ever had flash back
yeah I have PTS I just had a flash back of what I was and wanted to be when my son was alive im literaly in tears now
Wolfgang I miss you so much my son
and when I say that Im talking about my real son that was his name
I miss him he was 1moving year old when he was moving killed by a rival gang

 xTimberTheWolf if you see this journal I want you to know im finally ready to open up about all my pain:'(
I love you always and forever Timber

Yes im still writting that story just started but need characters so if anyone want to be in a story its free of charge but there are some conditions
its a brutal story with a twisted storyline and shows the trials the two main characters go through
main characters
me as my sona Fang
 xTimberTheWolfx
There's a first come first serve so those who reply and post a link with there ref in the comment box below will be the one who are in it
and everyone will be given regular updates on the stories progress

Yes if you like twisted story with a bloody story line and the passion of two lovers and what happens
so if you would be interested in reading please let me know and if anyone wants to be in if I can put a few in the story for free its just a hobby of mine
please message here or note me if you wanna be in it

Most furs I know don't seem to really have a life I may be wrong but I only know a small number of furs that get out and hangout with but the rest of the furs I know say they wanna hang out but when the day comes to chill there is always an excuse not to then they get online then message me on skype or other messengers so I know I ain't the only one who thinks this hell back in the day before the internet really got big the furs I knew would always hangout then the internet got better now most furs I know are no life fat guys no offence to overweight people but damn it is really aggravating when I make plans to hangout and everytime they bail its bullshit
why is the majority of the furs I know so fuckin lazy all they seem to care about is RPing yes I RP but atleast I have a life and it would be nice to hangout with other furs again
so yeah long rant but it had ta be said cause the fandom is going down hill in my opinion and it is sad cause of the lazy furs it make us all seem lazy that reflects on the entire fandom so this is me venting my aggrivation about this issue

I would like to hear everyone opinion cause yeah im not a bad wolf but just speaking my opinion and am open to hear everyones thoughts on this situation

This life my pain
Im goin insain
when all emotion dies from your soul
I buried them in the deepest darkest hole
these emotions had to die
for I refuse to be the one to cry
never will this wolf shed a tear
Never no one willl ever know the true fear

Timber you have my heart and always will
your the one who makes my heart fill
I know I wont measure up to being one you deserve
my emotions are dead I have none in reserve

Yeah their just vent poems having a bit of a rough time
but it wont last I hope not

Yeah phone kept freezing everytime I typed a word and it would force close so yeah just got the phone fixed today yeah its my only way to use the internet oh well
aaarroooooo
im back babe