I'm literally overwhelmed with stress and depression.
First this weekend I was arrested and inow I found out my aunt Bow died today*cries and curls up in a corner*I'm literally about to snap .

I'm done asking for help on this site I'm done with it I honestly need help and nobody even attemts to. Peace out

Last night I was arrested for driving over the limit.I blew a .09 and I literally only had 1 been then a mountain dew.
I only drove because I was getting my friend from the bar and it was a whiteout and I didn't want anything happening to my friend/roommate. I really have learned my big heart fucks me over.
But yeah I need numbers for a decient lawyer because I honestly can't afford to get my lisence suspended and I can't afford the fine. What's messed up is that I was driving perfectly fine the cop that arrested me even said yeah you were driving fine I just pulled you over because you had a headlight out. But then I was like why did you give me a sobriety test? And what's fucked is that I walked the line perfectly and could stand on one foot holing my other foot 6 inches in the air and I even passed the part where I follow his pen with only my eyes.well I followed with only my eyes without moving my head. But he asked why I was twitching and I told him I have turrets syndrom. He then said oh and you need to do a breathalizer now. WTF if I could do everything else without stumbling,staggering,or ever tipping why the fuck did he have to give me a breathalizer. Evidently the limit here is .08 and like I said earlier I blew a .09 and what sucks is I honestly had only 1 beer then a pop. Could walk fine hell I was driving better than the cop and my truck has a longer wheelbase and I wasn't swirving or sliding but the cop was all over the road and yet he said I was drunk. Bullshit its fucked up that I get an OWI and I was driving better than the cop

Its 6:55 a.m I start school in an hour first day going to trade school. So all I could think of doing to settle my neves doin a lil Wake and Bake.
But I hope I do well at my new trade school.
I am thinking of taking another automotive course.
Oh well*hits the bubbler*woooo

Really bored and I can't really go anywhere. Really wish I had a snowboard again or atleast a sled id be having a blast in the snow*pouty face* oh well I just wish I had something physical to door well anything to take my mind off bein bored. So how is everyone doing?

This dude has been trolling my Facebook page and I haven't been on for the past few days so I just went on at like 5 a.m and saw all this dudes messages callin me a faggot and all. I started laughin my fluffy tail off was high as hell nothing could piss me off and since I got un banned I started messing with the troll and well every comment he made I started laughing even more and sent hahaha with like every reply which pissed him off its fun pissing off trolls and making them know they can't piss you off
Great morning so far

The high times with my bros at Hereford high.
I remember this one time my bro Rob,Justan and TR were in the stable tokin up one of my classic fatties then when we were like I think about half way through with it my Engine Tech teacher mr. Litz walked in and saw us blazin me still hitting it like a dumbass. He looks at me and says"pass that shit" then he takes a huge rip of it and passes it to Justan and toked with us.
He was the best Gay Engine Tech teacher ever

Yeah I can't find work and i ts impossible to save up due to rent and bills plus my car insurance so ima go back to school to learn a few more trades and possibly get a storage unit and move into the dorms so I can finally save up but I just pray I get accepted

*looks at all who read this*wwwwaaazzzzzzzuuuuppppppppp

When people watch ya then unwatch you.
*sticks tongue out at all the unwatchers*

Its hard ta be a while man now adays.
Man I'm so white.
That during the riots.
I went out and bout a TV.

Lmfto

Its morning .hope all of you have or are having a good day.
Me personally so far its looking to be a good day. Timbers comin over for a bit so I'm happy. I'm glad him and I are able to still be friends.
To be honest id rather have him in my life as a friend instead of not at all.

Its morning .hope all of you have or are having a good day.
Me personally so far its looking to be a good day. Timbers comin over for a bit so I'm happy. I'm glad him and I are able to still be friends.
To be honest id rather have him in my life as a friend instead of not at all.

I been having flashbacks of some very painfull times . When I woke up I was crying. I wish I could out run my past and stop reliving it everyday.
I hate my flashback my hilussinations and the voices. Its all pushing me to my limit.
Its really taking it toll on my mentaly and physiclly.
Why do I gotta relive my most painfullest memory all the time.
Why must I relive something that I wouldn't even with on my wish on my worst enemy.

Son you will be missed always but why must that day haunt me always

When you try to smile and just feel depressed when you wake up cause of what you know. Just wanna sleep and stay asleep :(

Due to things causing my stress level to build more and more my turrets syndrom is showing more I am having a real hard time controling my twitching now .usually I can keep it semi under control but not the muscle on the right side of my neck is building back up.which if I don't get my twitching under control again then I'll have to get weekly injections in my neck again. Then bastards hurt like hell cause its a thick ass needle and the fluid is ment to break down muscle. I hated getting that weekly injestion when I was in highschool.and just thinking about having to deal with that again really stresses my out even more.not to mention when I twitch and make noises out infront of people I feel like a freak. People stare and give me weird looks and snicker behind my back. It takes everything I have in me not to bust half of them people in their jaw..

Really could use some advice on what I could do to lower my stress and anziety.
(Btw I already know my spelling sucks)

In a great mood.
But bored as hell.wishin I had somethin ta get in to.

In a great mood.
But bored as hell.wishin I had somethin ta get in to.

Who else is bored on this average day?
Kinda wanna build a snow ramp and jump the bike just ta kill some time

Though I'm bie I wanna start a legit family back in maryland the happiest I've ever been was when I had work and a family k was happiest as a father. I miss having my son in my arms driving him around in my old Rivera
In his car seat I remember he useto smile and laugh when that loud 502 roared he was a trooper. I wish he was able to grow up. Great now I made myself depressed.*whimpers*oh well dantay's in a better place I gotta try to keep that in mind.

Yup got nothin ta do since lkke no gas in the beast sooo. How has everyone been lately?
If anyone if in the mood ta chat feel free ta hit me up

I'm feeling better before I felt useless and worthless but a great friend /master helped me understand I don't have to go through my pain alone I now truly understand there are some who do care.I was stuck in my depression constantly praying not to wake up but now thanx to my friend talking to me I feel better I still have to find a way to overcome my PTS so if anyone can give me some advice on that it would me truly appreciated. Well take care all my furiendsgonna keep this buzz going wooooo I love being semi happy again ^.^

How's everyone doing?

I'm done following my heart it has gotten me nothing but pain I think I find love only to find it false hope. Every night going to sleep hoping to not wake up.
I wish those I love would even try to understand my disorders andhow much I struggle just to get through the day when I'm always gettin broke down always running into an emotional bottomless pit.

This wolf is broken forever

Cleaned up around the apartment then picking up the laundry ugh I need something to kill time. *looks out the icy window and pouts*stupid super coldness being to cold to do anything outside grrrrr
Anyone up fer chatting er something?
Omg I'm about to Pimp slam my neighbor that live below me keeps banging on the walls and everything at all hours *growls at the floor*