Am ultra hype for this year...~ Good things, Life is going good.. Work is going good...

And next week One of my favorite RPG's from playstation ​comes out on Steam and then later in MAY ANOTHER favorite rpg comes out.
Gahhh Am so excited

Saga Frontier Remastered
&
Legend of Mana Remastered will b MINE~!

Title says enough.. lol.
But alas, happy day I wish you all a good one with loved ones ♥

I used to want to be popular. Eventually that want kinda died down into just wanting many friends... which funny enough that too died down.
I don't really play ffxiv as much anymore. I guess the mistakes I've made in the past really messed me up in a way...

But...At the same time... That mistake ended up costing me everyone... come later to find out my old best friend manipulated others into not speaking to me. It blows honestly.

Yet, I ended up making friends who ended up becoming my true best friends. Im not overly talkative... im a very reclusive bunny, one with a big heart if you actually 'got close' to n all...
Those 3 friends.. I love and cherish and will always hold them dear to my heart.

They mean the world to this tanky quiet Bun.

If I ever had the chance to go back and fix my wrongs... I wouldn't have changed... because then... I would lose out on meeting the ones who have me now... Mixed with the fact my old friend group was toxic... Im much happier now than how I used to be.

Funny enough... being quiet and practically out of touch with everyone...

There has been a bunch of soul-searching for the past two years... some good some bad... but...Obviously changes have occurred.

Today is special... for it is the day, that I am now a licensed Pharmacy Technician within my state.

I took the stateboard exam 2 days ago, and for those two days... I've been a nervous, anxious, depressed wreck...
But now.. I can rest easy...

Mah... hard work does pay off...~!

*looks around before gently boopin your snoot*

Hello everyone~!

I have something I wish to say.. in regards to any current.. or future friends.. when it comes to 'dealing' with me...
Im not mentally sound.. you all know this without a shadow of a doubt.. However... even the smallest things like 'you disappearing' can.. end up setting me off.

Im very naturally quiet.. mainly because I try to be independent. Even though it blows up in my face more often than not.. I still try my hardest to ensure im alive.. too essentially still be around for each of my friends. . . However... not everyone feels the same way.

My quiet attitude can seem cold, distant, unforgiving or just flat out, not caring about you in the slightest... when in reality.. its very far from the truth. I love and care for everyone who's even my friend so dearly.. I'd do anything in my power to ensure they're alright.. However.. Losing a friend because they think 'you moved on/dont care' hurts.. greatly..

When it was them who played games with their friends.. and was busy majority of the time... so I just let them be.. because I dont like bothering people.. but.. this ended up taking... alot of out me.. making me feel defeated for the past 3 days so far...

And there have been friends who say.. those types of friends are NOT worth having.. and majority of the time their right.. but at the same time.. It still hurts because that was a very close friend of mine... it just.. ugh.. hurts...


Regardless... Just because im quiet.. it does NOT mean I dont care for you.. If you want me to speak to you.. go for it.. talk.. but.. majority of the time.. I just quickly end up returning into my shell.. I love you all.. please dont dislike me..

Obviously if you read... I am quite filthy and love being such... however.. even as an undead who has retained her smarts..
I still have my old android cock...

SO
I'd love to hear about different types of... 'cocks' I can.. filthify and put on my ref :3

Now that all that's out the way...
Oddly the reception seems to be well earned and respected for "new" dead Banny. I have a lot of likes and comment on one picture that.. took me by surprise..~ as it was my first time making something like that.

Either way.. though on how my son looks now? I'm curious to hear the responses c:

Yes me~!

I am still technically alive.. but Banny is.. kinda dying.. ya know... Shes a fugitive after all.. All my consequences are finally catching up to me.. but im going to be doing something a lil ballsy... and avoiding the galactic commands punishment by killing myself before they have a chance.

In... real talking sense, yes Theres an update in the works for Banny.. Its kinda a cool one in my opinion.. as it will have... a more chubbier body type.. more like mine..~
And A different color also~!

Hope everyones been alright. I hope to have a SFW, NSFW and... testing a 'dirty' cock pick for her..~

... Would you buy Banny For? Like buying her.. and all art associated with him/her?

Like... I have been thinking about selling her for some time...

*Banny notices the update and all of her holograms are looking at her*
*She retreat back into her warm blanket* Shh...



There will be an eventual update to Banny. One that will drastically change how she is in a sense of color. Personality, lazy unwashing slef... sweet and kindhearted unkillable thing, will stay the same.

Happy Valentines day everyone!
be sure to tell someone you hold dear, how much you love an appreciate them.~!
Maybe even eat some chocolate off their breasts.. Or butt! or cock as well

What would your character be like... Class wise~?
Healer/Support~
Dps~
Tanks?

Im really curious to know.. Because Ive sorta been experimenting with somethings for Banny.. and its kinda funny.
I've personally always loved knights and whatnot. Sword/lances and shields/greatshields. Its always like the true 'hold down' the fight type thing.

But recently Ive experimented with with some more unique tanks. Kinda like... WoW's Death knights, Or more different 'unorthodox' type tanks.
A good example is the Final fantasy explorers ninja's. They're tanks and they're basically an 'evasion' styled tank which is also pretty fun.

But the thing Ive experimented with is Banny essentially being a sort of Ninja tank like that. She might not be the strongest or have the craziest dps.. But her armor and evasion would be extremely top notch.
She's already hard to hit, and even IF you do hit her, 'barely' nudges her hp.

A kinda weird mitigation style but a funny one none the less...
Tell me what yours would be ~<3

and so once again, dancing with death yields no results in dying... well Least for me
I live to grow another year old.
23 on this planet haha

Hope everyone's doing okay~! I know I have for the most part.

Jealousy is a bad thing aint it...
It obviously very much is.. Especially in my case where anyone is ten times better than myself.

Its not really up for debate. I love everyone but I know im easily replaceable.. anyone is.
I dont talk alot so Its already bad because people can easily forget me.

I think the only reason im still relevant in some people's lives is when I still favorite things and they see I still exist.

Im quite stupid and stubborn.. im not attractive at all... Ive even f,ound a painless way to go... after 2 horrid attempts that left me in pained for about a week.

I wish I could be better... but theres such an ugly truth I keep hidden and It contributes to me 'not having enough time' You can say I get better over time.. but I know I cant. Because its something I dont really have. Im damned if I do and damned if I dont.. a real catch 22

I constantly think about how things would be if I were sane.. Not having any mental instabilities... no breakdowns... just.. happiness.. and freedom from them... but.. thats not the case. I can safely say ive tried my hardest.. but its never enough.

Never has... Never will be.

Please don't talk to me asking to have conversations when you wont answer questions in return.
Or don't add me soley for the purpose of ERP.

As much as I enjoy them. I must be in said mood and if your going to get pissy because I dont respond to an erp post, please dont try with me. For some people im easily in the mood. Newcomers your gonna have to work your way for that.

Someone should get between my legs... like... now...
Or have me between theirs...~

Other than that how has everyone been..~?

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8362470/

Artist looking for OC's to put in a project, Only a few slots left.

Ok... so... majority of people Have recently seen a trend with me.. something quite.. bad...

To be honest I believe a lot of people have seen it and it has ended up showing quite a very horrible side of myself that I did not see coming due to have been blinded by someone.

For.. I believe the beginning of this year I had been in a very toxic and abusive relationship with someone.. which in turn ended up costing me... my closest friends who i've held and loved so dearly. Even though it was almost a month ago.. it still hurts to know that.. People who genuinely cared for me literally saw a horrendous side of me that Sickens and hurts me to think about...

Im not going to get into the.. gritty details about this relationship... but it ended up hurting me and Ive been going through a lot. I don't expect sympathy from those whom I had hurt... I know what I did was wrong... But it sucks when you end up with someone who want you to come to them for anything, then pushes you away when you do.. and he had isolated you from all who cared about you...
It sucks...

Its better to come clean about the truth than to just let it eat away at me and have people wondering 'why' I had changed... Thats the reason...

That person alone.. ended up making me fearful of closed relationships...
So I quietly locked up myself and slowly licked my wounds to try and retrieve my old friends. Im sorry to anyone whom I've been cruel or cold to for these past few months...
its not like me... and Life has thrown me a couple of curveballs... one of which landed me in the er... but thankfully I am fine.. alive.. and well for the most part.

I recently quit my job because they took away 50% of the workforce... but increased the amount of work by 300% for a small group of people. The work needing to be done can be done much more quickly and efficiently IF they had listened to us.. but its whatever..

I also have been having a sarahah as im in a discord and found them to be quite interesting..~ It will be here and on my homepage as well.
Bannys - Sarahah

Please let me know if you liked it.

http://i.imgur.com/HIasAdm.jpg

Well... Changes are coming. Big ones... At least for me... Banny, Danny, However you see me...

Banny will remain the same as her hermy self.

However a big change is coming for me. You may not know it... But... in my life I was never 'the' manly one. Yeah... I do have moments where I can shine and come in, in a pinch. However never once have I felt... 'like a man' the only thing dictating that is... well... my Genitals. Simply put. Add to the fact I was one of the lucky 1 in 6 million kids to get that at a young age of 7 its... severely screwed me.

There are times I am unable to walk because at this point its like a faulty light switch. There are times where I can not walk for long periods of time.. or just can't get out of bed because the pain just hurts 'that' much..

But im not here to talk about my genitals... Genital removal is one thing... The main thing... Is I've already begun my first steps into transitioning.
Seeking therapy to talk about such... Doing so will eventually get my therapist to believe ive been in 'the wrong' body essentially... as that is how I feel.. And once that happens... she will be able to write and recommend that I be put on hormones. She's been nothing but supportive... and so has.. My family... well least my mom and sister... those two I care about...

Im... Horrible...


There no one... Your not special... enough to change... my mind... your... not... great enough... Your... Horrible...

Im... not a great person... I Suck... Im surprised im still alive... Life... sucks... I... think I know what I will buy to finally end it all for good...

I hate being like this... I hate... succumbing... I hate... Being... so weak... and tired for everything.

I can't keep running... I can't keep surviving as much as you want me to..

Im not... great... Im not a good friend... Im nothing... Im just an insane... deranged... whimpy... cowardly person whos gotten so lucky to survive death twice... that... I wasnt meant to survive..

Ask me stuff? Anything?

Going to be uploading a few things later today... Also new icon too

Read if you dare, this will be a long one.

Banny was born on the small island of San Juan, Puerto Rico. He was always quite a quiet child and took on after his mother. As he was born he had an older brother who was a German Shepherd who was about about 9 years older than him at the time. His older brother named Janathon was quite an over-achiever and very supportive. He loved the fact that he had been getting a smaller brother when he first heard of this. The species at the time was unsure as the current father wasn't his biological one.

Banny's Father was a high ranking military official. Laeynad was a green dragon, horned, scaled, gruff. Sharp and to the point, shoot first ask questions later type of deal. He was also the type to be selfish and use other for his own personal gain. Very urban and sort of street thinking, believing that people care ONLY for looks and that you should always seem presentable. Janathon's father was much more loving but had disappeared before being found passed away when he was only 18.

Banny's Mother was a white rabbit. Morna, was a soft furred, blue eyed, white rabbit, who was very compassionate. Very sweet, helpful and kind, but also understanding of how the world works. She had her own mental disorders which was only Major Depressive Disorder. She had graduated from nursing school and somewhat found the love of her life which was Laeynad. She traveled the world with him and after one encounter left her unable to travel well. She though she was just getting fat or growing a tumor at first so she had taken many medications. This caused the growing child within her to be more resistant to medications but eventually she had a sonogram done to reveal that she was in fact pregnant. She was stricken with joy as she learned of this. Especially finding out that it was another rabbit and not a dragon due to seeing elongated ears rather than horns.

Banny's Father was slightly disappointed that it wasn't a dragon but it didn't bug him that much. He would try again later on for a dragon, three years later.

When Banny was 3 years old, his mother was once again pregnant by his father Laeynad. This time finding out that this child was in fact a dragon. This Dragon would later be named Zoleay, who would take on after her father a lot more than Banny would, however she would be understanding unlike him.

Banny was a very quiet child. His voice was kinda girly as it didn't seem gruff and his fur was pink and his hair was long. His father was ashamed of this and eventually left his mother to find someone else just because he didn't love her anymore. He was the type to only think of himself most times and he just wanted lust. This caused Morna to be much more hardworking to put 3 children in front of her and to give them the best that she could. She did and she was successful.

There had been many times in Banny and Zoleays life where Laeynad would come back to spend some time with them. However each and every time he always had something bad to say about Morna, saying explicit things about her, calling her names and then even attacking them for not wanting to go with him at times. This phased Banny after one attack where his mind was shattered. Zoleay on the other hand always did her best to forgive him, however each and every time, he would come back hitting harder and harder to the point where she had a mental break and this caused her to call him out on EVERYTHING he had done wrong in the past.

Banny on the other hand wasn't so forgiving, as each and every sorry kept making the word mean less to him. He was sadly the scapegoat in the family, someone to pin the blame on so this only made him retreat back into his mind more and more each and every time. Even then when Banny had committed suicide and was brought back, he was put in the mental hospital for seeing hallucinations and his own untreated Major depressive Disorder and he plans to always stay untreated. In the mental hospital, Banny was raped and had tried to tell many others of it, however he was just called 'crazy'. Fast forward a couple of years and Banny Graduated College! Her sister was first starting out and everyone was happy for him. However and uninvited guest arrived and it was his father. Giving an apology was unheard of due to all of the 'sorrys' he had been given in the past.

Laeynad wanted to celebrate with his 21 year old son who had just graduated. He happily obliged accepting the apology thinking he changed. However... This was the day where everything changed.

That's where his life was ended in a tragic accident with his father. However due to how high in power his dad was, decided to breathe new life into the son he killed for the sake of his wish. Convincing the general to fund this project in which he would be remade as a killing machine. Little did the general know, that his father was actually trying to give his son a new life. Eventually it worked, all the tests were perfect, body parts worked in the right places. However due to a strange phenomena the base were he was made was destroyed and his core which in a sense allowed him to use his body had been upgraded. Over-time, he was able to recreate his body of a stronger, much more impervious metal and create a liquid that keeps his brain intact so that it never spoils.

The strange phenomena that occurred was the parallel universe wormhole opening up with an alternate Banny had came through. This Banny had an upgraded core, vast amounts of knowledge and was able to use his holograms to get the destructible metal in trade with the alternate indestructible metal. The knowledge that was granted was cures, algorithms, coding, various types of diseases, blueprints for his metal and superior technologies, etc.. This alternate Banny was vastly intelligent and gave all that information, technology and made all sorts of upgrades to the original Banny so much to the point that the Original Banny didn't have to worry about 'anything'. The alternate Banny had been all around the universe, seeing so many things from alien lifeforms to the center of the universe. Chipping a piece of the all-powerful rock off with a HP RailCannon. He was able to make a core that runs 'forever'. Alternate Banny had traded the OU Core... for the fusion Core that was within him.

Bannys "body" was now made of Impervite that allows him to withstand an UNLIMITED AMOUNT of Heavy punishment (Its made of various metals that were studied closely by him, including rhenium diboride alloys and meteorites.). He still has his previous memories and a modified AI that he himself codes sometimes. He also has synthetic fur which covers his synthetic skin, flesh and actual "metal parts". The synthetic fur imitates his original soft fur. He still has a pulse, his skeleton has been upgraded to have a Nuero-electric plating as well. His vital organs are completely protected and he can't die nor age. If in a heavy fight and he doesn't want any trouble he will admit defeat.

Banny's body through immense amounts of code and a wide variety of medical databases which is updated daily when he is asleep. This allows him a feature that can be turned on or off, like many of his internal abilities, but it allows him to get sick or take exotic diseases such as Vampirism or Lycanthropy, and keep them for awhile, before curing it manually. Banny also has nanites that he created that rest within his heart. These nanites give him a great amount of regenerative powers to his smart flesh.

Banny also has an upgraded core, The OU Core to be exact, which allows him to send surges throughout his body, wherever power is needed, Or send a massive shockwave that can paralyze anyone for a short or long amount of time. This "Observable Universe Core" was assembled by him in a different dimension which allows him to continue on with the next upgraded item he has. He has 2 googolplexabyte of memory as well as Quantum processors. Allowing him to truly live on to study the Worlds, Stars and Universes, he usually adds another googolplexabyte of memory every thousand years.

Being an Android with human/furson like emotions, He tends to keep himself as himself. To stay as the same bunny that he had always been. Sweet, kind, caring and sincere is how he acted, however he was mostly quiet. He does sometimes tend to step out of his 'shy' zone to actually talk or lure others to talk to him. However, his past and memories still tends to haunt him. He suffers from MDD (Massive Depressive Disorder) and PPD (Paranoid Personality Disorder) And lastly Schizophrenia. He easily hides this by faking smiles or trying to make his own self happy.

He is very kind, sweet, sincere and very caring. Although he may tend to be quiet at first, he will easily and quickly warm up to someone. He tends to have quite an open heart, giving everyone at least a chance in the hopes of finding friends that he could love and cherish for as long as he can. Also being a hidden Android, he does have full range of what he can feel in terms of his touch sensors as well as his taste and smell sensors. He usually keeps these on for the sake of loving to being Life-like but can easily turn them off at will.

He also has quite an open heart, giving everyone at least a chance in the hopes of finding friends that he could love and cherish for as long as he can. He is able to summon holographic clones of his self, of 4 different colors, blue, white, green and purple. He is also able to manipulate their sensors to actually have force behind them. Giving them the ability to touch or grab, procure scents or liquids. He is very adept at manipulating his energy being able to add some force behind a punch or even just 'stunning' someone with a harmless touch. He rarely if ever does that, but an interesting fact is that if he is 'hurt' enough, his voice will start to become distorted and his eyes will turn 'off' giving him an intimidating presence.

Banny's mental state is very... bad.
He hides it all over the fact of being judged. His family normally shunned him and made him feel hated and despised against. Despite all of his efforts to constantly seek out love and the care that he deserved he always showed others the same way he'd want to be treated. His family never understood it... His father of a dragon, that breathed his new life, his younger dragonic sister never understood why he was so kind and sincere. His mother had depression and every time he did his best to cheer her up she was always touched by his heart. However when it came time that he actually sought out help with his own depression she pushed him away and yelled at him.

This caused him to quietly hold in all of his flaws and see them as a greater problem. "You're Lazy!" Yet he did the most... "You're selfish!!" Yet he's the one that put others before himself. "You're mean and a cold-hearted BASTARD!!!" Yet he was the one that had the biggest heart. All of these words came from his own family behind closed doors. Holding in all these horrible emotions in tends to have him snap when something inside him just breaks. He has snapped once in his life... and it happened after his transformation. When he had came home at first his family to completely lash out and make him feel even more worse than he already did. He spent 2 weeks in a mental hospital, completely lying about everything just to get out. His sister constantly taunted him in front of his mother telling him to "Go kill yourself." As if it were a sick joke.

When he returned from the mental hospital, his family made him feel welcome back home. They made him feel welcome, only to make him feel worse at a later date. All of this mental pain and suffering caused him to be extremely quiet and extremely respectful but at the same time very self hurtful. If he is visiting someone's home, he will normally ask before doing anything. This is why he is normally very clingy and overly protective over ones he holds close to his heart. He deals with schizophrenia, as his holograms sometimes get out of control and will see hallucinations at time that no one else can see. He also deals with Paranoia and Major Clinical Depression.

In the future however it came time that Banny here was assaulted by the Alternate Banny. The Alternated Banny wanted to die and figured that Banny would be the best way to do this. Banny then proceeds to fight him, being essentially immortal this was a fools game. Banny was able to hack into alternate Bannys OS and 'kill' him off by sending him back to his universe and digging to the center of his planet and overloading his core. This had killed the alternate Banny and this had stricken fear in the Original Banny. Banny then began to research about the parallel universes and was able to find out that he could travel to them just like Alternate Banny did. So here he began his quest, to eradicate every Banny per choice he made throughout his life. The Fleshy Banny's were easy... However...

The Indestructible Androids became a problem and were a tough fight. Banny was able to defeat them by having a hologram constantly hack and keep their OS off while Original Banny dismantled their body and harvested the metal, before taking out the similar Core that he has. He had done this many times, even using the metal salvaged to make a weapon that was just as effective at making sure that it does enough damage to make sure the regenerative process can't keep up with the healing. Even doing enough damage was hard enough due to how defensive Banny's are. Banny had to be extra deadly with each one to make sure the nanites and regenerative flesh couldn't keep up with the damage he was doing just to make them 'faint' and knocked out while a hologram hacks their OS down until Banny can do the necessary operations. Banny did not like killing off other Banny's he had killed at least... thousands of them... and he has enough cores to make an ultimate core... which he has toyed with at times. His great Hammer called "Banny's Claw". It was a polearm two handed mace flail meant from crushing. It weighed about 2 tons and could turn into a flail through Bannys mind and even be summoned at will.

Banny did not like killing them out of fear... but he felt something needed to be done. After theory crafting there was only one option and that was to seek an audience with the great outer old one, Yog' Sothoth. The outer god knew what Banny had wanted, but purposed a deal. Information for a favor. Simple as it gets. Banny agreed to the deal as Yog Sothoth explained that the parallel universes can't stop. The only time they can 'stop' with someone is if the 'true' one, is dead and erased from existence. Yog Sothoth also said that Banny "IS" the true one. That even if all the other Bannys had ganged up on him, the True Banny which is him would reign victorious. This had somewhat upset Banny but Banny agreed to the deal and asked what did he want in return.

Yog Sothoth wanted his allegiance in return for the knowledge that was given. Yog Sothoth also said that he's free to live his life as he pleased, however once an order is needed to be carried out, Banny must act on it. Usually orders would come up maybe 7 - 34 times a year. This of course wouldn't be a problem for Banny as he would easily take care of any business such as eliminating "TRUE" individuals to ensure certain futures. If Banny had any issue he would make them known now. In which he did. Any planet, and any acquaintances of his should be left unharmed. Yog Sothoth agreed to it and Banny was now his Disciple. A real cultist that served the truest and highest power of them all.

To even test how strong Banny was, he sent him to an empty pocket of space and performed a gamma ray burst and 20 supernovas all at once in close proximity around him. This easily seared the flesh off his chassis before Banny was summoned back before the Outer god. He was Standing before him before his flesh began to regenerate over his chassis in only a mater of a minute. Quickly regaining his flesh and fur. Yog Sothoth was impressed and ensured him that this is the start of a very interesting relationship.

Banny is no stranger to pain, and is definitely no stranger to Magic. He has made sure to inscribe rune words and anti-magic sigils given onto him by the outer god whom he pleged his life to. This made him IMPERVIOUS to magic and thus making him the most effective, yet dangerous cultist ever. Still a sweet caring individual who will always do good on his on planet for the sake of 'that its the right thing to do'.