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===Biggest scare of my life===
Posted 7 years agoSo I wasn't expecting this in the slightest. This journal is being written AFTER the following events that will be promptly stated below.So I was trying to make my mom's dog [Blanca] eat, given that she hadn't been touching her food much for two days now and had been acting kinds down. So while I was trying to do that, she suddenly has projectile bloody diarrhea come out her rectum and it was the nastiest and most foul sight, along with smell, to behold. So I started panicking because at this point I knew something was seriously wrong with Blanca. So I was yelling at my parents and letting them know that Blanca was more sick than we had first thought, given that she had vomited once a couple of days ago. So I was gathering up the mess that she made to have as a sample for the vet and cleaning her up as best as I could because good lord she smelled like death. Afterwards, I went out to have her taken to a 24 hour animal hospital that was several miles away (there aren't very many super close to us so it was quite a drive). I explained to the nurses that came to my aid what was wrong with her and they went about making sure that she got examined properly so they could tell me what needed to happen. Was informed that she likely could have eaten something she wasn't supposed to and now her intestines are all swollen and trying its best to get whatever threat to her body expelled. They then told me that they would give me special food and medication for her and to closely monitor her to see if there are any repeats to this incident.
The grand total for this emergency vet visit was $216.45 USD.
The invoice/receipt they gave me is right here: https://imgur.com/a/e6kF5Iw
Considering I am unemployed and had to go through emergency funds that my parents gave me for this situation, I owe them that much in return. So on top of my debt relating to my legal issues, I now also have this to worry about because Blanca suddenly got sick out of nowhere. I don't wish to be a bother and ask for anything but it would mean the world to me to make some money via commissions to help cover for all the debt that I currently have at this current moment.
My prices are displayed in the Commissions tab of my artist profile. You're free to drop me a note or contact me via e-mail (ladynightosphere@gmail.com) or on Telegram (@LadyNightosphere) if you wish to help me out. Please spread the word if you can.
My PayPal is: https://www.paypal.me/LadyNightosphere
My Square Cash cashtag is: $MadameLucario
I thank you all for hearing me out.===Made an Art Twitter!===
Posted 7 years agoI finally got around to making an actual art twitter so that I can post my art there as well.
If you with to stop by and follow me and show support,
you are more than welcome to do so. :)
https://twitter.com/NightosphereArt
Can't wait to see you there! :DJournal for FA Lend-A-Hand About My Situation(compiled info)
Posted 7 years agoHey there everyone.
As you may or may not know, I have been going through quite a difficult time at the start of this year, probably the hardest that I think I would have ever had to face in my entire life. I got arrested on March 3rd, 2018 over a physical argument with my father (might I add, that he initiated) and I was simply trying to defend myself and the well-being of my dogs. My friend was kind enough to contact the police for me since I didn't have any way of doing it myself (my mentally unstable father ripped the phone out of my hands and all I could do was contact my friend on an instant messenger to explain what happened in the house). I later on lived with friends for a few months, had to deal with constant visits to court that almost always just ended up as an unnecessary and aggravating extension of my trial (despite the fact that I have a right to a speedy trial), and eventually getting a job at a puppy store in my area after my position at a psychologist's office was terminated because technology is replacing a lot of us human beings. I worked there from April 12, 2018 until I was fired on August 12, 2018 (the time frame, as I look at it now, was no mere coincidence) and to make matters worse, the people working for the company were outright refusing to pay me my last paycheck for hours that I had already worked as well as my last pending commissions for the month of August. Thanks to FA-Lend-A-Hand's advice, I was able to make them give me my well deserved paycheck and commission that was well overdue. Unfortunately ever since then, I haven't been able to get a job as I have been faced with numerous and constant [nearly instant] rejections from places that I've been applying to. Since I don't have a car, let alone a driver's license (I have a learner's permit and that's about it), it's been making it even more difficult for me to get a job in Kendall.
Not only that, ever since I lost my job, I was unable to continue helping to pay for rent. Fortunately, yet unfortunately considering my situation, on September 13th, 2018 I was granted a modification on my Stay-Away Order. It was changed to a Non-Violent Contact Order, meaning that I can live in my house again legally under the condition that cannot cause any sort of physical fight in the house involving my father or else I end up getting locked up (which again, the State of Florida is still under the impression that my father was the victim in the situation and not the other way around). I know I shouldn't be looking at a gift horse in the mouth considering I have a home to stay in again, but this place is the same place I've been wanting to escape for years now. Regardless, I had no other choice but to move back in with my dysfunctional family because I didn't want to become a burden to my friends. My family is just constantly arguing, even more than what I had experienced before I had gotten arrested. My brother is also suffering from my parents' nuclear arguments. When he was taken to the doctor, we were informed that he is malnourished and 20 pounds underweight. So because of my parents constantly fighting, he's been stressed out to the point of starvation. I am overwhelmed to no end because of all that is going on in this house.
This entire year has been a complete and utter emotional roller coaster for me, to the point where I've been depressed nearly every day. My mental and physical health has been steadily declining because of the amount stress that this entire mess has put on me.
I was originally supposed to do PTI for my court case because at that point I just wanted to get over with my court case, I just wanted to be able to go to school and hopefully get a job again in the future because I didn't want to deal with that anymore. But because I had lost my job during the course of me accepting the terms of PTI, I had to withdraw and my parents got me an attorney. Or rather I should say they found me an attorney and I was told to pay for it because it is "my fault" that I got arrested so "I should pay for my mess." So I have a now nearly maxed out credit card because I paid for an attorney that cost me $5,000 simply because my parents think I'm to blame for going to jail. I thankfully had some money set aside to pay for some of the minimum payments that I had to do, but lately that just isn't the case anymore.
I don't wish to be a burden but I would really appreciate getting all the help that I can get; be it through donations, commissions, or even a signal boost. I have all the paperwork/documents to prove that I am not making any of this stuff up. I have them all on imgur web files as shown below:
As you may or may not know, I have been going through quite a difficult time at the start of this year, probably the hardest that I think I would have ever had to face in my entire life. I got arrested on March 3rd, 2018 over a physical argument with my father (might I add, that he initiated) and I was simply trying to defend myself and the well-being of my dogs. My friend was kind enough to contact the police for me since I didn't have any way of doing it myself (my mentally unstable father ripped the phone out of my hands and all I could do was contact my friend on an instant messenger to explain what happened in the house). I later on lived with friends for a few months, had to deal with constant visits to court that almost always just ended up as an unnecessary and aggravating extension of my trial (despite the fact that I have a right to a speedy trial), and eventually getting a job at a puppy store in my area after my position at a psychologist's office was terminated because technology is replacing a lot of us human beings. I worked there from April 12, 2018 until I was fired on August 12, 2018 (the time frame, as I look at it now, was no mere coincidence) and to make matters worse, the people working for the company were outright refusing to pay me my last paycheck for hours that I had already worked as well as my last pending commissions for the month of August. Thanks to FA-Lend-A-Hand's advice, I was able to make them give me my well deserved paycheck and commission that was well overdue. Unfortunately ever since then, I haven't been able to get a job as I have been faced with numerous and constant [nearly instant] rejections from places that I've been applying to. Since I don't have a car, let alone a driver's license (I have a learner's permit and that's about it), it's been making it even more difficult for me to get a job in Kendall.
Not only that, ever since I lost my job, I was unable to continue helping to pay for rent. Fortunately, yet unfortunately considering my situation, on September 13th, 2018 I was granted a modification on my Stay-Away Order. It was changed to a Non-Violent Contact Order, meaning that I can live in my house again legally under the condition that cannot cause any sort of physical fight in the house involving my father or else I end up getting locked up (which again, the State of Florida is still under the impression that my father was the victim in the situation and not the other way around). I know I shouldn't be looking at a gift horse in the mouth considering I have a home to stay in again, but this place is the same place I've been wanting to escape for years now. Regardless, I had no other choice but to move back in with my dysfunctional family because I didn't want to become a burden to my friends. My family is just constantly arguing, even more than what I had experienced before I had gotten arrested. My brother is also suffering from my parents' nuclear arguments. When he was taken to the doctor, we were informed that he is malnourished and 20 pounds underweight. So because of my parents constantly fighting, he's been stressed out to the point of starvation. I am overwhelmed to no end because of all that is going on in this house.
This entire year has been a complete and utter emotional roller coaster for me, to the point where I've been depressed nearly every day. My mental and physical health has been steadily declining because of the amount stress that this entire mess has put on me.
I was originally supposed to do PTI for my court case because at that point I just wanted to get over with my court case, I just wanted to be able to go to school and hopefully get a job again in the future because I didn't want to deal with that anymore. But because I had lost my job during the course of me accepting the terms of PTI, I had to withdraw and my parents got me an attorney. Or rather I should say they found me an attorney and I was told to pay for it because it is "my fault" that I got arrested so "I should pay for my mess." So I have a now nearly maxed out credit card because I paid for an attorney that cost me $5,000 simply because my parents think I'm to blame for going to jail. I thankfully had some money set aside to pay for some of the minimum payments that I had to do, but lately that just isn't the case anymore.
I don't wish to be a burden but I would really appreciate getting all the help that I can get; be it through donations, commissions, or even a signal boost. I have all the paperwork/documents to prove that I am not making any of this stuff up. I have them all on imgur web files as shown below:
Final Paycheck and work commission: https://imgur.com/a/smlYUds
Proof that I got fired: https://imgur.com/a/tfeCGRI
My Arrest Documents: https://imgur.com/a/UZ4sKcO
Non-Violent Contact Order document: https://imgur.com/a/R8c7R3g
Receipt when I paid for my attorney: https://imgur.com/a/Rpzf0Lp
Current credit card debt: https://imgur.com/a/mQ6WdvnMy links to receive money for this cause are provided below:
PayPal: https://www.paypal.me/ladynightosphere
Ko-Fi: https://ko-fi.com/ladynightosphere
If anyone wishes to contact me via notes, my notes are open. If they wish to contact me via e-mail, my business address is as follows: ladynightosphere[at]gmail.com
Thank you so much for hearing me out and I am hoping for the best.===Another update on my Life===
Posted 7 years agoSorry I've been so off the radar. I've been struggling to try and get a job as I had lost my most recent job at a puppy store on August 12, 2018. The store at first was outright refusing to give me my final paycheck (even though I had already worked those hours). Upon being informed that what they were doing was beyond shady and illegal, I brought it up to their attention and they semi-begrudgingly gave me my paycheck (a total of $203.94 for the paycheck as stated on the payroll statement that came with my final check) along with any other commissions that they owed me (which was literally only $30.20 in total for just the commissions)
I have the images of both those documents right here: https://imgur.com/a/smlYUds
I also have the pictures showing when I had gotten fired from my job: https://imgur.com/a/tfeCGRI
So essentially I have been unemployed since then. I have been actively looking for work (it's been taking a toll on my mental health because the constant rejections are killing me) and still am to no avail. Every place I try to apply at outright rejects me or gets annoyed when I call in repeatedly to ask about my application status or if they are hiring. I've been trying to catch up with any work that I have pending at long last, be it commissions or trades because at this point I'm noticing that no one wants to hire me because of my pending court case and now tainted record because I had gotten arrested for acting in self-defense. I likely will be very silent for another while whilst trying to get back up on my feet again. This year for me has been the roughest fucking thing that I have ever gone through during all the time that I've been alive so far. So ever since I became unemployed, I naturally had to drop the PTI courses that I was coerced into taking at first because at that point I didn't have the money to attend them, meaning that I am having to deal with my court case yet again.
On top of that, I no longer live in my friend's apartment. Ever since I became unemployed, I felt bad that I couldn't help them pay for rent. The court granted me a modification to my stay-away order, changing it to a non-violent contact order; meaning I could go back to living in my family's house (regrettably) so long as I do not start any fist fight with my father (the supposed victim in this situation because the State of Florida is led to believe that I fucking attacked first when that clearly wasn't the case).
Here is the Non-Violent Contact order that was given to me, stating that I can live back in the house again with my family: https://imgur.com/a/R8c7R3g
My next trial date will be on December 17th, 2018, and HOPEFULLY it will be my last one and that it ends with the case being dropped because this has gone for long enough and it is getting ridiculous. I was forced to pay for an attorney because my father didn't want to be the one to pay for it and that I should be responsible for "My own mess that I caused." (You can thank my parents for that, with their mentality of "you got yourself into this mess, so you get yourself out" so now thanks to them I am stuck with a $5,000 debt forcefully rammed down my throat above all other issues that I have already had to experience and eventually deal with.)
Pictures of the receipt and other documents relating to my arrest can be found here:
Attorney Receipt: https://imgur.com/a/Rpzf0Lp
My Arrest documents: https://imgur.com/a/UZ4sKcO
At this point I honestly have not the slightest idea on what to do as I continue to frantically search for employment in this godforsaken town of Kendall. Despite all the places near me saying that they are hiring, I get almost immediate rejections. Let me give you an excellent example of what I mean. Kohl's was recently hiring for Seasonal Store Associates and I had decided to apply. They notified me via e-mail for me to go on ahead for an interview, along with apparently a bunch of other individuals that were there to get interviewed (which was already not a good sign to me if they decided to do a group interview rather than a one-on-one with each person that even bothered to show up), the group interview seemed to have gone exceptionally well, then literally an hour later I get an e-mail saying that I was rejected. Florida, specifically Kendall, has been very unforgiving to me when relating to employment ever since the incident on March 3rd, 2018. I'm trying my best to not let it get to me and to not let it bring me down but it has been a nightmare and a half and it has been making me question a lot about myself and my self-worth as a natural born citizen of this state and country.
I'm sorry for the depressing journal but I really needed to get this off of my chest as it has been bothering me for months now and I have just kept this all bottled up to an unhealthy extent. I hope you all can forgive me for my long, drawn out, and frequent absences.===So uh... ===
Posted 7 years agoI got fired...
On my day off...
Great...===Welp. Guess I Had No Choice But to Do PTI===
Posted 7 years agoHey guys and gals.
So a lot has been going on. Still on a semi-hiatus from drawing (doing commissions but trades and requests will be strictly on hold for the time being).
I went to court on July 23rd, and it was just one hell of a fucking day. I caved under pressure and decided to do the Pre-Trial Intervention that was offered so I was stuck with taking care of that. I ended up walking to two separate locations afterwards, one to see if I qualified for the program (which I did) and the other to finalize the decision and sign me up for Anger Management courses (since it's part of that PTI program). Problem with PTI is that I cannot miss a single day or else I get royally fucked over and it means that I get sent back to the court house. Whoop-de-doo...
And of course, given that it's issued by the government and I am obligated to do it now that I was signed up for it... Those classes are fairly expensive. They are charging me $450 USD for the whole shebang. I think this is something I never would have ever thought to consider doing ever and it hurts me considering that I know I was only defending myself as well as the well-being of my dogs. The fact that I am taking this low of a dive just so I don't have any more problems with what is happening really is hurting me mentally. I went home only to go to bed. I didn't say hello to anybody, I was so emotionally drained from that one day alone that I didn't want to speak to anybody in fear that I would just break down crying right in front of them.
At the very least with this out of the way, you guys know that I am alive and that I am safe living with my friends (given that I still have the stay-away order on me). At this point in my life I don't know what else to do other than to attend the classes and show that I am in fact a responsible adult trying to do my best despite how difficult life can be.
I'll see about how I can save up the extra cash via commissions or something because my job right now (I work at a puppy store now) doesn't pay me a whole bunch (being paid minimum wage) to say that I can thoroughly manage my life without stress. I pay $200 a month for rent when I live now (because I'm rooming with friends), I am paying off credit card debt (I pay as much as I can every paycheck so I can get out of the debt fast), plus the fact that I have to buy food for lunch and dinner (I can't cook for shit, so it's tough on me whenever I see how much my expenses are). If you know anyone at all looking forward to commission an artist, please send them my way. I would greatly appreciate it as I really could use the cash to pay off this mess that I'm in.
You're free to e-mail me if you need anything ( ladynightosphere[at]gmail.com )
I'm hoping all goes well so that I may continue living my life calmly and maybe less stressful once this whole thing just blows over.
Once again, I would like to thank all of you that have been following my art page for the longest time. It speaks volumes and it frankly means a lot to me. I hope to continue posting soon once I can get my life figured out a little better. But for now I've gotta manage what I can and take it as calm as possible.===Update to What the Hell is Happening===
Posted 7 years agoAlright so the court is giving me a continuation to my case. I am dreading for what is possibly waiting for me right up ahead. Considering that the consequences for said case could end up with me going to jail for 5 years. The other thing that I don't like is that they are very adamant with me trying to pay for an anger management program that I don't really need nor can I afford given my current situation. I have to pay rent, pay off my credit card, not to mention that I recently got a job and I fear losing it. It's really difficult for me to get a job right now because of what my record looks like right now. Not a lot of companies are willing to deal with an individual who has a pending case in court. It is something that interferes with schedules that they assign to their employees in the first place. Not to mention, because of what is on my record, people are going to assume I have violent tendencies because they don't know the full story and it has been so misconstrued in court to the point where I wonder if I will ever get to complete my career as an art teacher ever.
But that's enough about my tangent venting. My trial has been moved over to July 23rd. So I am scared for what could possibly happen during that time. I want the best outcome out of this shitty situation. I just don't want my future to be thrown away all because I acted in self defense and it was taken the wrong way and out of context.
But that's enough about my tangent venting. My trial has been moved over to July 23rd. So I am scared for what could possibly happen during that time. I want the best outcome out of this shitty situation. I just don't want my future to be thrown away all because I acted in self defense and it was taken the wrong way and out of context.
===Today is the big day===
Posted 7 years agoI'm going on trial at around 9 AM today. Nervous as all hell and I just hope it goes well. My heart can't handle this and it worries me considering that I just recently got a new job. I fear losing my job and not being able to continue the education that I wanted to have. I so desperately want to be an art teacher.
Anyways I haven't been very active because of my new job and because of how nervous I've been. I haven't been feeling well ever since I was released from jail back in March. I want this day to go by nicely, even if the weather looks dreary and foreboding. I just want to tell all of you that I appreciate all that you have done for me, including your continued support during my trying times. My life up to now has been a scary adventure that I never thought I would have to go through. I'm just hoping it all goes well and I have a chance to redeem myself for here on out.
Anyways I haven't been very active because of my new job and because of how nervous I've been. I haven't been feeling well ever since I was released from jail back in March. I want this day to go by nicely, even if the weather looks dreary and foreboding. I just want to tell all of you that I appreciate all that you have done for me, including your continued support during my trying times. My life up to now has been a scary adventure that I never thought I would have to go through. I'm just hoping it all goes well and I have a chance to redeem myself for here on out.
===I was in jail... No this is not a lie...===
Posted 7 years agohey guys. I really don't know how to feel about what just happened to me these past couple of days but I want you all to know that I am safe so there's no reason for you to be alarmed by this journal. I want to let you guys know that I went through a bit of a tough time. I got into a physical altercation with my father. He was the one that attacked me first. I simply tried to defend myself and because of me defending myself, for some strange reason, I ended up going to prison. I did get bailed out. My mother and my godmother were the ones to do so with the money that I saved and the money that they were willing to throw down to help me out. So at the very least I'm out of that place and I can be in a safer area at the moment.
No words can describe just how terrified and just how upset I was at both myself and the fact that the law handle this and such a really odd way. I want you to know that I am no longer in my house, I'm living with family friends at the moment. I currently have a stay away order on me that's why I can't go back home and mentally I don't think I'll ever be ready to go back home anyways. the experience that I had in jail was nothing that I could have ever imagined and or hoped for.
I don't wish that experience upon anybody it was possibly the most painful thing I could have ever gone through. at the moment all I have on me or clothes for me to go to work, clothing to go outside, and just my emergency phone. I don't have any way of completing any sort of commissions or trades so I'm basically stuck here without those things to be able to complete my artwork. Hopefully this is enough of a valid excuse so that when I do have time to complete what I need to I'll be able to do so correctly. Apologies for this really untimely event, I didn't mean for this to happen nor did I ever expect this to happen.
I'm sure that eventually I'll be able to pick myself up from this but at the moment I'm just really mentally shaken by what happened. No, I am not making this up as an excuse. I am being very truthful with you, as I've always been truthful with you. I am just letting you know what happened.
Just know that I won't be able to elaborate on any details because of legal reasons I'm only allowed to tell you that I am safe and only small main idea points about what happened to me. I hope that eventually I'll be able to move on and I hope that my family will be doing okay after all this that went down. I don't feel safe knowing that my mom my brother and my dogs are still in that house but there's not much that I can do. I can only hope for the best for them. I can only hope that they are safe and that they are happy or at the very least just secure.
You're free to read this journal, you're free to comment, or you can just simply ignore it. I'm not here to judge you in anyway on how you decide to respond to this journal but just know that regardless I appreciate the company that you've given me and all the support that I've received from you over the years. I love you all and I wish that you all have a pleasant day.
No words can describe just how terrified and just how upset I was at both myself and the fact that the law handle this and such a really odd way. I want you to know that I am no longer in my house, I'm living with family friends at the moment. I currently have a stay away order on me that's why I can't go back home and mentally I don't think I'll ever be ready to go back home anyways. the experience that I had in jail was nothing that I could have ever imagined and or hoped for.
I don't wish that experience upon anybody it was possibly the most painful thing I could have ever gone through. at the moment all I have on me or clothes for me to go to work, clothing to go outside, and just my emergency phone. I don't have any way of completing any sort of commissions or trades so I'm basically stuck here without those things to be able to complete my artwork. Hopefully this is enough of a valid excuse so that when I do have time to complete what I need to I'll be able to do so correctly. Apologies for this really untimely event, I didn't mean for this to happen nor did I ever expect this to happen.
I'm sure that eventually I'll be able to pick myself up from this but at the moment I'm just really mentally shaken by what happened. No, I am not making this up as an excuse. I am being very truthful with you, as I've always been truthful with you. I am just letting you know what happened.
Just know that I won't be able to elaborate on any details because of legal reasons I'm only allowed to tell you that I am safe and only small main idea points about what happened to me. I hope that eventually I'll be able to move on and I hope that my family will be doing okay after all this that went down. I don't feel safe knowing that my mom my brother and my dogs are still in that house but there's not much that I can do. I can only hope for the best for them. I can only hope that they are safe and that they are happy or at the very least just secure.
You're free to read this journal, you're free to comment, or you can just simply ignore it. I'm not here to judge you in anyway on how you decide to respond to this journal but just know that regardless I appreciate the company that you've given me and all the support that I've received from you over the years. I love you all and I wish that you all have a pleasant day.
===I guess this was bound to happen...===
Posted 7 years agoSo my boss had warned me at the start of the New Year that I likely would no longer be employed by her by the time April rolls around. My kind of job is slowly being eliminated by computers/artificial intelligence systems so they no longer seem to need people working that kind of job like I have for nearly two years now. What a way to go... Didn't help already that my job hours were cut permanently. Been trying to look for new jobs but to no avail. It's been a struggle to get anything here in Florida. I look back at my job and I see that I haven't really amounted to much with all the limitations and setbacks I've had to face. And now that I'll be unemployed for what seems like a long ass time because no one is willing to hire me, it just really hammers down on my hopes and my morale. I honestly don't know what to expect anymore. I've been basically dragging my feet around these days because I'm aware that I still haven't been able to land a job to replace the current one that I'm in and still desperately working hard at, yet it only feels like I'm grabbing a fistful of air because that's how it seems like my efforts are being seen as. Helpless outreaches to essentially just oxygen and nothing else.
I've essentially dropped out of college, as it has been getting way too expensive for me. Been trying to set aside what little money I have saved up to try and get myself a car and pay my pending credit card debts. Earning only 100 bucks every two weeks is barely much as I have to continue to pay off my debt. I haven't been able to go out to see my friends anymore to hang out. I don't want them paying for my shit. I feel like that would be unjust considering that they too are going through some tough times. I'm still trying to do any commissions that I can, whenever I can. Sadly, with commissions alone, I don't earn enough to say that I can even consider living on my own here in Florida. The cost of living is too high, getting an education costs too much, and even the food here is ridiculously overpriced. I can't even go see my doctor as I don't have adequate insurance to ask about making my dog an emotional support animal. I can't even go seek the mental help that I need really. And now that my brother has been turning rather rebellious at home as well as at school, I sometimes wonder if I should really be focusing on just myself. I feel like he also needs help and I unfortunately can't provide it for either of us quite yet.
I'm writing this journal to basically let you know about my whereabouts, my condition, and what I'm doing. I want to let you guys know that even if I am only doing marginal in terms of trying to get by in life, I'm doing okay. The art that I've been making all these years has at least kept me with slightly higher spirits than usual. I truly appreciate drawing for you guys and I hope to never stop doing it. I appreciate all the kind words that you've given me since I first joined the furry fandom, I've loved all the love that you've demonstrated and the genuine concerns. I hope that someday I can get up from this mess and be able to say that "I did it! I made it! I pulled through at long last!"
I hope this journal doesn't leave anyone feeling down or upset. There's, of course, worse stuff to worry about. Given that I live in Florida, there was the disheartening incident that many have now called "The Second Valentine's Day Massacre." My heart goes out to all the families whose children were injured or unjustly taken from them. It horrifies me that this happened on Ash Wednesday and I guess you can say a national holiday. The year has only been revving up to start and it's quite sad to see it start in such a horrifying way. My only desire now is that everyone is safe and sounds and that the poor souls who were abruptly taken from us can rest peacefully. ===Incoming Bulk Trades and Commissions Art!===
Posted 7 years agoAlright so I have been gone and inactive for a while because of classes ending and the fact that I was just suddenly bombarded with commissions just right out of nowhere so I have been keeping busy and to myself while I've been trying to raise money for moving out as well as trying to earn money for some presents for my friends because hey Christmas came and went so quickly that it didn't even feel like the holidays existed in the first place.
Just as a heads up, there will be a massive influx of art because of the trades and commissions that I've done during the winter break so hold onto something while I start posting a shitload of art!
I will also be posting some art in my NSFW art profile ( https://www.furaffinity.net/user/Na.....yNightosphere/ ) later on because I will be completing commissions that are more adult oriented as well.
I honestly have missed posting art all the time and I'm just happy that I am getting to even do it again now that school is over completely (for a while lol).
I want to know how all of you have been, what has been going on while I have been gone for so long and what do you think I should draw hopefully before the new year dawns upon us. I miss talking to my peeps and I definitely miss streaming art because I was just so extremely busy during school time, leaving me no time to enjoy myself with streaming. Constant all-nighters, exponentially stressful situations, lots of tears. That's basically what college has been like for this semester. It has been possibly the biggest struggle so far.
Just as a heads up, there will be a massive influx of art because of the trades and commissions that I've done during the winter break so hold onto something while I start posting a shitload of art!
I will also be posting some art in my NSFW art profile ( https://www.furaffinity.net/user/Na.....yNightosphere/ ) later on because I will be completing commissions that are more adult oriented as well.
I honestly have missed posting art all the time and I'm just happy that I am getting to even do it again now that school is over completely (for a while lol).
I want to know how all of you have been, what has been going on while I have been gone for so long and what do you think I should draw hopefully before the new year dawns upon us. I miss talking to my peeps and I definitely miss streaming art because I was just so extremely busy during school time, leaving me no time to enjoy myself with streaming. Constant all-nighters, exponentially stressful situations, lots of tears. That's basically what college has been like for this semester. It has been possibly the biggest struggle so far.
===To make things easier for me===
Posted 8 years agoI will be using this Legend/Key for future uploads just so that the titles aren't overly huge. So here are the letters in correspondence to what the upload relates to:
{R} - Request
{T} - Trade
**{FT} - FurTrade
**{CBE} - ConBadge Exchange
**{TFA} - Trades-Fur-All
{C} - Commission
{Co} - Collaboration
{Go} - Gift Art for Others
{Gm} - Gift Art for Me
{SS} - Secret Santa
{O.A.} - Old Art
Hopefully this layout helps a little more with being organized. If you guys have any other suggestions, please comment below! ^^
{R} - Request
{T} - Trade
**{FT} - FurTrade
**{CBE} - ConBadge Exchange
**{TFA} - Trades-Fur-All
{C} - Commission
{Co} - Collaboration
{Go} - Gift Art for Others
{Gm} - Gift Art for Me
{SS} - Secret Santa
{O.A.} - Old Art
Hopefully this layout helps a little more with being organized. If you guys have any other suggestions, please comment below! ^^
(NSFW) SEXY PINUP YCH Pay What You Want!
Posted 8 years agoAnother NSFW YCH is open in case anyone is interested. PWYW! This one is simply just a sexy pin-up pose (that contains nudity) and anybody that is 18+ is welcome to claim a slot. Minimum that I ask for this YCH is $10 USD
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25476923/
Just so you know, this YCH is strictly 18+ because it contains sexual themes. This will not, under any circumstances, be sold to minors.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25476923/
Just so you know, this YCH is strictly 18+ because it contains sexual themes. This will not, under any circumstances, be sold to minors.
===(NSFW) YCH - Vibrator Fun ~ [OPEN]===
Posted 8 years agoI have finally gotten to posting on my NSFW profile here on FA. I have posted a (YCH) that was started yesterday. For anyone who is interested in purchasing a slot, the post link is here:https://www.furaffinity.net/view/25360960/
This is my first ever NSFW YCH and I hope to make quite a few of these just so I can get the hang of doing NSFW art.
Just so you know, this YCH is strictly 18+ because it contains sexual themes. This will not, under any circumstances, be sold to minors.
This is my first ever NSFW YCH and I hope to make quite a few of these just so I can get the hang of doing NSFW art.
Just so you know, this YCH is strictly 18+ because it contains sexual themes. This will not, under any circumstances, be sold to minors.
===I've Failed You Guys, Sorry About That.===
Posted 8 years agoHey everyone. I was honestly hoping that I would get to do something Halloween related this year but because of college and my personal life consuming my time, I've only ever had time to complete trades lately. I sincerely wish to apologize for not being able to accomplish that goal that I set out on doing and maybe next year things will be better for me to be able to complete something seasonal like this.
In the meantime, I would like for you guys to suggest to me something themed specifically for the Fall/Autumn season (SFW only please) that I could possibly do for a YCH/Auction. I can't wait to see your ideas and I hope to still being doing art from here on out.
In the meantime, I would like for you guys to suggest to me something themed specifically for the Fall/Autumn season (SFW only please) that I could possibly do for a YCH/Auction. I can't wait to see your ideas and I hope to still being doing art from here on out.
===Need some ideas for October YCH===
Posted 8 years agoSo I'm a little late in this because of school and work being a huge hassle. You guys got any ideas that I can use for YCH commissions that I could do for October/Fall/Halloween? I'll be more than happy to hear you out on your ideas. Hell, ask your friends as well about ideas. :)
Just know that this is only for SFW things. NSFW is best left for my other art profile that is meant for the more naughtier stuff.
Just know that this is only for SFW things. NSFW is best left for my other art profile that is meant for the more naughtier stuff.
===HELP OUT THIS POOR SOUL===
Posted 8 years ago
's significant other is currently living in a very toxic and abusive household and needs help getting out of their PRONTO! Please consider donating to her cause right here: https://www.gofundme.com/save-caru-rettet-caru
Living in a toxic household is certainly no fun at all and it can become borderline dangerous! Even contributing a Euro can help a whole bunch! Please spread the word as well! No innocent being deserves this sort of cruel and unusual treatment!
As a bit of summarization, this individual is not financially stable and could really use the financial support from all of you to escape the hell she's currently living in.
It would certainly make my day for you all to help her out!
Thank you!
===URGENT UPDATE: HURRICANE IRMA===
Posted 8 years agoSo for those of you who may know me enough, I live in Florida. According to a map, I was placed in section E for evacuation meaning that right now it is not mandatory to evacuate whereas people living in the Keys or at the coast have been told to leave, both tourists and the citizens.
In my current situation it is a tremendous mess. All the gas stations closest to us are out of gas, we can't drive off anywhere to get any sandbags or water bottles because everyone else has gotten a fuckton already. The flashlights are gone, the canned food is nowhere to be found (thankfully we have a bit of soup saved up at home), our dogs have never been through a hurricane and I frankly don't know how they will react, our roof is still in need of some repairs, the fence to the house is beyond repair (it is literally falling over to one side), we can't rely on any family members since they are nowhere near us (my aunt will no longer be living in Florida and my uncle lives in Texas, which has been ravaged by Hurricane Harvey), my plans to move out have been ruined (still not enough money as I will be using some to pitch in so I can at the very least survive, don't have a car, no way of getting a flight out of here to even evacuate [because once again no money]).
Any of the nearby shelters have already been taken up and I don't know what to do other than pick up any items in my house of value to higher ground, take pictures for the insurance to take care of should any damage happen, and save everything that I have saved onto my computers. I'm basically panicking and I'm frankly not too sure if I should even attempt to do a donation stream to raise funds to make sure everything is fine and to cover any expenses in case anything major should happen once Hurricane Irma hits.
In other news, two more storms have been forming as of late. Tropical Storms Jose and Katia, one on the Atlantic, the other in the Gulf of Mexico. Yeah Harvey was already bad enough, Irma is coming in for more damage but I guess now we have to brace ourselves for the other two fucking storms that are coming in to tear our assholes in half or otherwise.
Please please please, if you have any sort of suggestions that you think I could attempt, let me know in the comments. I want to see what you guys can tell me. I'm at a pretty desperate point and I'm pretty sure anyone else living in Florida would also be pretty damn scared because this is the strongest hurricane we have ever faced since Andrew (I haven't faced it but I was made aware of how much damage it inflicted, especially in the Homestead area).===IN NEED OF ASSISTANCE===
Posted 8 years agoSo if you remember from previous journals that I have mentioned, I've been living in a toxic household. It's been difficult to try to raise money to move out and it has been increasingly more difficult now that I have cut hours at work. My reason for this journal is that this situation has become too burdensome to tolerate and I need out right away. I've been having to put up with my dad's unstable temper way more since he's been filling out paperwork to retire from his current place of employment and it has been am ugly mess to deal with. He's been getting incessantly angry over the fact that I come home tired from work or school to the point where he starts confiscating things like my phone (which is what I use most of the time just to get to school or work since I have Uber/Lyft on there in case of emergencies), starts to verbally abuse me, has become extremely violent with his actions (i.e. braying on the door to my room out of anger). In case you happen to be new, here is a previous journal briefly mentioning some of my living conditions: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8035074/
I could really use any sort of help that I can get, whether it's in the form of donations, signal boosting, or noting me that you can provide other things for me (places where I can get a better job, a place to move in, etc.). I would really appreciate it if you can ask anybody in the Miami area for help especially (since that's where I live) for places that I can move out to. I am in dire need to just get the fuck out of this toxic household. The only information that I could really provide is that I have quite a few things to move out of this room should I be provided a place to stay so I will need a lot of assistance in that department. I am looking for a place that is pet-friendly (I'm taking my dog, he's been my saving grace and loving companion in this hellhole), is specifically close to the Miami Dade College Kendall Campus so that I may be able to take the bus over there to school and to work (If you live near any route 71 or 104 bus stops, it would help out even more simply because I don't have a license and I cant afford to have a car.). I unfortunately don't make a whole lot of money right now given that my hours have been cut at work. I only work Tuesdays and Thursdays for merely $8.50 USD/hr. I currently don't have a phone and I need some cash to at least afford an emergency one. I will be more than happy to take commissions to raise the money that I may need to be able to facilitate getting me out of this place and in turn paying wherever it is that I may live in order to stay and survive.
My commission prices are available here: http://www.furaffinity.net/commissi.....ynightosphere/
My preferred method of contact would be via e-mail until I'm able to afford a cellular device. Here is the e-mail that you can contact me: rosiebffl33996[at]gmail.com
My PayPal in case you would like to pitch in to donate: https://www.paypal.me/LadyNightosphere
I now have a GoFundMe page to collect donations there as well and it shares more in depth details about what I'm facing/have been facing: https://www.gofundme.com/6f323-help-me-move-out
It would mean the world to me for any help that I can get. The stress that I've been having to stomach has been taking a tremendous toll on my health, both physically and mentally. I can't afford to let myself deteriorate even more and I would simply like to live a better life.
Please do not hesitate to contact me in any way that you can, whether it's via notes, journal comments, shouts, email, or any other place that you may have contacted me.===New NSFW Account!===
Posted 8 years agoI finally got to post something to my NSFW account. Feel free to follow me there. I will try to post more stuff on there aside from my main account. Don't feel shy to join, but please make sure that you're actually of age to follow my page. I don't encourage minors to be breaking the rules of the site.
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NaughtyNightosphere===Back to Doing Art Aagin! + Update===
Posted 8 years agoI've been sick for nearly this whole month and it's been busy day after busy day at work, leaving me with little time to do much of anything. But at long last I am catching up with completing work that I owe. For anyone curious about me being inactive to sickness, I can tell you with certainty that this is an on-off gastrointestinal problem that I've been dealing with since about 9th Grade, only this time this is the hardest it has hit in the longest time. I'm still dealing with it at this very moment and I'm still trying to work around it as well as getting this checked, just so you know. I can't be negligent of my own health, as that would be very fool-hardy. For the time being, it is unknown what I am currently facing considering me and my doctor have been grasping at straws trying to figure out what's happening until the lab work gets processed. At least I'm happy to be finally getting back to drawing. I really missed getting to draw and I definitely enjoy posting what I finish.
I'm still open for Trades and Commissions in case anyone is interested. I'm kind of dealing with hospital and doctor appointment expenses now and it would great if I could earn some quick money to cover for this. I can't exactly rely on my parents for this as much anymore considering my dad is now considering retiring and my mom only ever does work on the side, which is far and few in-between chances given to her.
College is around the corner, it will be starting around August 28, if I am not mistaken. After that time I will be very busy and possibly inactive until about the middle of December. It's my final semester and I wish to make it count, just like all the others that I have completed. I've been lucky to have passed all of my classes yet again. My 3D Design class was absolute hell. I managed to somehow pass that disgrace of a class with a D. I just hope I am better off with this semester compared to last time. Anyways, considering this is my last semester to complete my A.A., what university here in Florida do you guys recommend I transfer to for Art/Art Education? I will tell you right off the bat that I cannot go to a For-Profit university like Full Sail. It is a tremendous rip off and it's not like I would be able to afford it anyways. Let me know, guys!
It's nice to be back! ;)Will Draw for Steam Games
Posted 8 years agoHey guys, the Summer Steam Sale 2017 is here and I wanted to say that I will be happy to draw art for you if you give me the following games for it:
As a tidbit, based on how much you spent of the game(s) that you got for me is what type of drawing you'll get based on my commission prices.
If you don't wish to get me games, you are also free to do a vanilla commission (as in pay money rather than games)
Games that are crossed out mean that I already have the game (whether I purchased it for myself or someone else has already bought it for me).
Road Not Taken
Enter the Gungeon [DLC would be appreciated if you want to buy those too]
The Binding of Isaac: Afterbirth
Freedom Planet
The Wardrobe
Sonic Mania
Jackbox Party Pack 2
Jackbox Party Pack 3
Peggle
Thief
Bastion
DOOM
One Shot
Organ Trail: Director's Cut
Prison Architect
Shadow Warrior
AudioSurf 2
Gone Home
Deadpool
Game Dev Tycoon
Valiant Hearts: The Great War
Rogue Legacy
Mass Effect
Mass Effect 2
Subnautica
Kindergarten
My Name is Mayo
Mr. Massagyo
Dead by Daylight
Dandelion - Wishes Brought to You
Papers, Please
(ANY) Hyperdimension Neptunia [that is not Re;Birth 1]
Fran Bow
This is the Police
Rusty Lake Hotel
Deponia Doomsday
Grow Up
Wings of Vi
Catlateral Damage
Grow Home
Gomo
Q*Bert: Rebooted
Tabletop Simulator
(ANY) Inuyahsa [Episodes/Movies]
Long Live the Queen
Hatoful Boyfriend: Holiday Star
Shantae Half-Genie HeroAs a tidbit, based on how much you spent of the game(s) that you got for me is what type of drawing you'll get based on my commission prices.
If you don't wish to get me games, you are also free to do a vanilla commission (as in pay money rather than games)
Games that are crossed out mean that I already have the game (whether I purchased it for myself or someone else has already bought it for me).
===EMERGENCY COMMISSIONS FOR COLLEGE!===
Posted 8 years agoI am having so economic issues as of late and I need to sell these adopts so I can at least earn some money to pay off my extra expenses (like bus pass and art supplies for class) for the upcoming semester of college. I need all the help that I can get. The goal that I'm aiming for to have enough for at least a couple of months is $2,500 for my things for this semester. It's crazy, I know. But this is what happens when a child in a poor family is forced to attend college or suffer being potentially kicked out of the house. That and I'm not eligible for financial aid...
Please, I am begging you.
Every bit of help will get me closer to paying off these things.
The price is really steep because I have run out of funding from the school to cover for more credits. I had the American Dream Scholarship from Miami Dade College and the credit limit was 60 for that particular scholarship. Now I am royally screwed for not being able to afford it.
My PayPal email to send payment: rosiebffl33996[at]gmail.com
You are also allowed to send payment here: https://www.paypal.me/LadyNightosphere
I would really like for as many people to help me.
Every bit of help is appreciated. Being a student in college is not easy and it really would make me happy if you helped. :)
I will be accepting payment through PayPal at this e-mail:
rosiebffl33996[at]gmail.com
Goal:$0.00 USD / $2,500 USD
Please, I am begging you.
Every bit of help will get me closer to paying off these things.
The price is really steep because I have run out of funding from the school to cover for more credits. I had the American Dream Scholarship from Miami Dade College and the credit limit was 60 for that particular scholarship. Now I am royally screwed for not being able to afford it.
My PayPal email to send payment: rosiebffl33996[at]gmail.com
You are also allowed to send payment here: https://www.paypal.me/LadyNightosphere
I would really like for as many people to help me.
Every bit of help is appreciated. Being a student in college is not easy and it really would make me happy if you helped. :)
I will be accepting payment through PayPal at this e-mail:
rosiebffl33996[at]gmail.com
Goal:$0.00 USD / $2,500 USD
===Rest In Peace... Jack Mezzano...===
Posted 8 years agoI cannot express or thoroughly describe how damn upset I am, both at myself and at my father. I mentioned it to my father that I wished to visit my former Drama teacher from high school at the hospital because I've found out his whereabouts. My father said that it was best that I didn't. I honestly should have just snuck out and found out where this man was to see him one last time. But no... I couldn't get out of this house to go see him. I find out this morning that he passed away in the hospital. I didn't go to school at all today. I just fucking sat there, hopeless and angry about yesterday's conversation with my father. This is the second death that I've had to deal with relating to a teacher with an incurable disease and I didn't even get to see them in the hospital before their deaths. It tears me apart that I've had to live through a similar scenario to that of my last teacher back in 5th grade. It destroyed me. I couldn't handle it. I was in denial that he slipped away so quickly. There wasn't a fucking thing my mother could do to console me this morning. She couldn't even get me out of bed, hence why I ended up not going to class. I stayed home and cried.
I would just like to say that this teacher meant so much to me. He's the reason why I decided not to end my life back in high school. Had I not met him and had I not taken his Drama classes, I don't think I would be writing this journal to this day. I've gone to him for advice and consolation. I would let him know about the shit I would go through at home, how happy I was to have a girlfriend and a successful relationship back in the day, how much I've been struggling with myself and fighting against suicidal thoughts. He was like the father I wish I had. He would actually bother to fucking listen to me unlike my actual father. My teacher showed more compassion than my biological caretaker. It astounds me that he had more patience with me that my dad could have ever had. Man, how I wish I could go back in time just to maybe see this guy again whether it was back in the high school days or when I recently found out about my teacher being in the hospital just so I could taken the bus to visit the guy. This teacher left a huge impact on me and I am so sad that I was not able to tell it to him before he passed. I just hope he left peacefully and without pain. I send many hugs to his family and I wish everyone that had met this wonderful man the best. He truly was a magnificent person to talk to and I wish he could have stuck around to be awesome for another year...===Man... This Year isn't Doing Anyone Justice...===
Posted 8 years agoSo I just received some upsetting news from an ex-girlfriend that my former Drama teacher is in the hospital and there is even a GoFundMe for him here : https://www.gofundme.com/giving-back-to-jack
This teacher was like a father to me. He would help me out tremendously and would console me in my times of need and depression. He was well aware of my struggles at home and he would always give me advice and encouragement to not give up and step forward. It would mean the world to me if you could contribute in anyway, whether it's signal boosting or copying this journal or even donating.
Thank you!
This teacher was like a father to me. He would help me out tremendously and would console me in my times of need and depression. He was well aware of my struggles at home and he would always give me advice and encouragement to not give up and step forward. It would mean the world to me if you could contribute in anyway, whether it's signal boosting or copying this journal or even donating.
Thank you!
