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Posted 9 years agoIf any UK based fur-suiter's fancy a chance on working a sketch with the guy who made the ASDF Movie video's, now's your chance :)
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My Dad. [Vent/The Story]
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So I've been thinking. And I wanna write down everything "recent" that's been going on with me and my dad.
For my sake, as well as I guess my commissioner's sake's.
I will never use my private life as a reason or excuse for delayed commission work, however I do feel some obligation to let people know the crap I have to put up with in my day to say life. And just know, that though I won't let it affect my work - It does still stress me out to no end, and is the reason I am largely not open to general chit chat.
It's very hard to balance work, life, chores, my dad, and my other half's sister and whilst keeping a level head.
So with that, here's the story of the last two years or so.
So I guess it all started roughly two years ago.
My dad had just had his last course of treatment for Stage 3 of some cancer I don't know the name of (But the Doctor's said was fairly simple/easy to treat,. and was the "best" cancer to have.) Shortly after, he then had a heart attack - and before all of this (about a year before), my mum had told me that she'd wanted a divorce. But that she'd wait till this whole illness was over, but was all the while still chatting with other men online and getting into online relationships through IMVU (Yes, she *really* did that. And not gonna lie, I kinda blame myself, because if it weren't for me, she wouldn't have ever discovered IMVU - Thinking on it, for all I know that's the reason my dad's such a dick towards me. Maybe he blames me for my mum leaving. I dunno...)
And for a bit of context, my dad drinks Brandy a LOT. He's very angry/aggressive, hot headed, has a raging temper, freaks out over the tiniest thing etc, almost OCD sometimes. Very hypocritical, selfish and bratty.
Anyway, mum moves out. I'm stuck with dad, because it was either that or move to Scotland with her, and there was no way I was leaving my boyfriend behind.
So this was shortly before Christmas, and things are going pretty well for the most part. Then, as time moves on, he starts to go on at me about getting a job. Now, this was when I had realized I wanted to do art full time, and had *just* registered as self employed with HM Revenue and customs, so I can send off tax returns etc. This was also shortly after I'd 'Signed on' with "job seekers" which gives you x amount of money a month to help support you whilst you look for work, however I found out that I cannot be on job seeker's *and* self employed, because what I earnt from art, would get deducted from my allowance - Which is fair enough. However. My art was making about the same as the allowance I was being given per month, so there was zero point in me being "signed on".
Now, you have to go in this "sign on" place, every other week, to show that you're looking for a job. Well between doing art, and what was going on with the divorce at home - I was struggling. and my dad was starting to yell at me for shit I had nothing to do with more and more frequently.
I was depressed, I hated my life. I was suicidal and one point, and I was struggling.
The "sign on" place knew of my situation, and one day - I went in after I'd been staying with my boyfriend as I'd been"kicked out" for a few days. And because of that, I couldn't look for work. I told the lady I was assigned to.
And she. Flipped. Out. At me.
She yelled at me, in the middle of this big government job seeker's place, yelled at me, made me feel useless, to the point where I literally had to run out crying, and have - what I now know is a panic attack.
I didn't know it at the time, but I've suffered from social anxiety and panic attacks for a very long time. And Dear god how I wish I knew then, because I would've got someone to yell at them for me :L it was so horrible....
Anyway, so that happened, and I literally could not for the life of me go back to the job center again.
Even when I walk into town, I have to avoid going anywhere near that building because I get all hot and find it hard to breath when I do.
So then, with no money coming in from the Job Center, and me just relying on my art back when I had a VERY small watcher list, I was struggling. However I was earning enough to pay for my own food.
My dad however, saw it differently - and still does.
He doesn't view what I do as a job. Or, he does. But only when it suits him.
When it suits him (when I'm having a good week/month), He'll ask about rent, ro how much I've earnt, or what I'm buying for food etc etc.
When it doesn't suit him, I am a lazy, selfish bitch, who sits at home playing games on her computer all day and doing nothing productive, Not doing housework etc.
Now, in REALITY. From the moment I get up, till the moment I decide to turn in for bed (Usually 11am - 2/3am) I am working my ass off drawing. Non stop. No breaks (except maybe for tea).
When doing so, I tend to focus ONLY on the work at hand.
Sometimes I forget to eat until dinner time.
Sometimes I don't even go downstairs until dinnertime.
I cook, and clean for myself. I clean up after myself ALWAYS.
My dad? Doesn't.
He'll leave shit in the sink or on the draining board, and if I haven't had chance to go downstairs and tidy up after him I then become a "lazy bitch/waste of space etc".
This was when he also got into the habit of walking into my room when I'm working and saying "You got a job yet?" When he can see full well that I am working.
Often times he has come in and done this when I have Paypal up and I'm accepting or sending off payment requests.
Not only all of this, but I'll cook dinners for the both of us, using food that *I* have bought.
Does he complain?
Course not.
Not *only* this. but he got into the habit of asking for rent, at the same time as asking me to buy food for the household.
Now, I'm sorry. But with what I earn, I can either pay him rent *or* buy food for the household. Not both.
And he was fully aware of that, yet insisted and asking and starting huge fights about it anyway.
Imagine all of the above happening EVERY DAY. That's how often this shit happened.
And having to put on your best face and grin and bear it.
Imagine living with someone you *hate* and being forced to have to play nice.
Now, time travel onward and we're in the new house. Things are worse than ever and by this point he's openly said he doesn't want me living here, and he doesn't want me around at LEAST 4 or 5 times. Pushing me even further into self hatred, and depression, and suicidal thoughts.
We have had fights where the both of us have been screaming like the new emo bands are doing.
My dad was/is verbally and emotionally abusive towards me, and my other half had been witness to this by this point several times.
We time travel again,and out of nowhere, my dad's actually being *nice* to me.
Confused as hell, I ask what's going on, and after three weeks of asking I get an answer.
Supposedly he's been taking hypnotherapy counselling.
He's been diagnosed with panic attacks, and anxiety, and apparently that's the route cause to his problems.
I don't believe him at this point, but at the end of the day, he's actually being tolerable, so I leave it there.
Few months go by and he's actually getting even better. Someone I actually want to be around....
Then the counselling sessions stop....
He's been off of them now for I wanna say half a year or so.
And Needless to say, he has gone back to his old self now entirely.
About 2 weeks ago I overheard a conversation he was having with a new woman he was talking to, and I hear the story about how neither he or my mum thought they could have kids, and how - And here's the real kicker. about how how he "Never really wanted or yearned for kids in the first place anyway."
So obviously I just sort of walk off, and pretend everything's hunky dory.
And that tied in with the amount of times he's said he doesn't want me here? I think it's painfully obvious he *never* wanted me anywhere. Let alone now.
....
My parents never should have had kids.
My mum's no better than my dad.
The only difference is now that she's in Scotland she's being "fake nice" because she feels guilty....
If I had a kid I would never even dream of moving hundreds of miles away... especially if I knew my other half was the way my dad is.
And yeah, now we're back to today and today's earlier rant journal....
I just.
I'm so tired.
I'm exhausted trying to live up to his fucked up expectations.
He's 50 years older than me. I'm 20.
The generational gap is just so...
He's always saying I'm naive and that I know nothing about real life or the world, when In reality. I know about *my* world. The art world. I know how it works by now. HE doesn't. He's the naive one. Yet I'm still doing everything all wrong. He's still always in the right with absolutely everything.
He loves putting me down.
He loves reminding me that I "depend" on him.
He loves to make out that I'm the bad one, that I have "no respect or gratitude" I'm lazy, I'm selfish, I'm a bitch, I'm useless, I do nothing to help around the house. I don't put any money into anything.
He lives on making me feel like I need him.
And yet when I've confronted him in the past about him saying he doesn't want me around, he goes all soppy and says "I always want you around, Don't ever think that" when he's said time and time before that he doesn't want me. *and* that phone conversation.
I feel constantly helpless and exhausted, and at the minute there's nothing I can do but grin and bear it.
I'm so *so* tired.
I just....
I'm tired.
I'm all these things, I'm all these bad things, even though I'm constantly working, constantly trying my hardest, constantly trying to be happy, to put on a brave face, to make sure the house is tidy *and* work, to make sure I'm not doing anything construed as "wrong".
I mean for god's sake. tonight all I wanted to do was wash up, so he didn't get mad at me for leaving dirty plates everywhere, and to make a quick cup of tea.
And he started world war three about it, just like he claimed he didn't do the other month when I called him out of his hypocritical bullshit about the same damn thing.
Oh, and here's the best bits - I can't recall if I mentioned them in my other journal.
After he was done cooking, he *ate* his meal in the kitchen, *just* so I couldn't get in there to finish washing up and sorting out a cup of tea.
Like a petulant child.
And then after he came up to my room in a huff after I'd closed my door a total of 3 times, just to yell at me some more, about how I was being disrespectful and ungrateful for all he provides for me. He also asked; "Can I just have some respect" in a rehetorical fashion, to which - When I didn't reply (Because you know... rhetorical..), he then says "Right, I'll take that as a no then." Then storms back downstairs and slams stuff about in the kitchen, sighing so loudly I can hear it from upstairs.
Then he yells aggressively from downstairs; "If you want to come in the kitchen you have to ask my permission if you want to play it this way!"
...So I guess I'm now "banned" from the kitchen?
That's a thing now I guess.....
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I cannot put into words how much I hate my parents, I really can't... I just... I'm so close to snapping.
I just needed a way to get this all out, and stop building it up.
Sorry for the semi spammy anger journals guys.
I just don't know how to cope with all this.
I'm meeting with Danny's sister in-law tomorrow. I might ask if I can move in with her and Danny's brother. See if I can pay my way etc, how much it would be...
I can't keep on like this.
It's going to kill me, I know it is...
-Tea-
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Right, so about 2 or 3 months ago my dad was in the kitchen cooking himself something to eat.
I hadn't eaten, so I go into the kitchen to do myself something small and quick.
Dad FLIPS out, saying shit like "don't come n the kitchen when I'm cooking. You've had all day to cook."
And I'm like... well yeah... But it's dinner time. what, you just want me to cook and eat in the morning, and have fuck all in the evening/appropriate times and fuck up my diet and sleeping patterns more than they already are?
So anyway, that was left and moved on from. Sometime a week or so after that, *I* was cooking in the kitchen, and he has his girlfriend over and starts coming in the kitchen actually getting in the way. So. I say something about how he had a go at me the other week when I did that to him supposedly.
And he goes off on one claiming he never said that shit and how I've "shown him up" in front of Erika.
It starts this MASSIVE thing. Even when all I did was do/say the same shit to him that he'd said to me.
AND NOW. 2 or three months on. And I go into the kitchen to make myself a cup of fucking TEA. Nowhere in his fucking way. And he flips out about the me being in the kitchen whilst he's cooking thing again.
Like, WHAT?!!! Literally says and does the EXACT same fucking shit he did the very first time this bullshit happened.
PLEASE someone fucking explain to me how that makes the SLIGHTEST bit of fucking sense.
PLEASE dear fucking christ.
How the fuck is making a cup of tea, in the way of you cooking, when;
1. You've already cooked pretty much all of it, you're just cooking peas now.
2. I WAS FUCKING WASHING UP SHIT IN THE SINK WHEN YOU STARTED TO GET ANNOYED.
3. You only slowly started verging into the annoyed bit, when I squeezed past you.
And WHY did I have to squeeze past you?
Because you were standing in the fucking kitchen door way, TEXTING. Not even doing anything.
4. The point at which I wanted tea, I was also taking my plate from MY dinner down to wash up, so that I didn't just leave shit in the sink for you to "HAVE to clean up before you can do anything"
5. YOU ARE LITERALLY DOING WHAT YOU SAID YOU NEVER FUCKING DID. AND I CAN GUARANTEE IF I BRING THIS UP A WEEK DOWN THE LINE YOU'LL HAVE FUCKING FORGOTTEN AND CLAIMED YOU'VE NEVER DONE THIS SHIT.
6. You've been coming in the kitchen when I've been cooking without fail at least 5 times every week. And do I complain? NO I keep my fucking mouth shut, because last time I called you out on your hypocrisy. I got fucked over.
Seriously, Go and fuck yourself with a spiked mace.
Or better yet, jump off of our local cliff when the tide's out.
I'm SO done with your double standards, your hypocrisy and your complete and utter bullshit and selfish outlook on life.
But noooo, of course. I'm the selfish daughter who "doesn't have a job" and doesn't do anything for herself. Yup. SURE. Okay Keith.
FUCK OFF.
Literally never hated someone more in my fucking life.
Oh, and how petty is that, you're now eating in the kitchen so I can't go and resume my fucking tea. Nice one asshole.
Fuck. You.
-Tea-
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Hey guys! I know I haven't posted any updates after my last painted piece, but there's good reason!!
I totally had art block >.<
BUUUT, I spent the weekend trying to power through and I FINALLY have a sketch for that painted bust.
SO. I'm going to be working on JUST that today until It's finished, because I'm so annoyed at myself.
After that, (If I have time in the day) I'll be working on the sketches for the commissions that have been discussed.
As I always say, I won't fully take on someone's commission or ask for money until I can make up a sketch I'm happy with first.
So with that being said, I'm now in work mode!
-Mechanical noises-
-Tea-
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-Tea-
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Hurrow all you beautiful people!
So, I updated a few journals back saying I don't really use skype or anything like it anymore, and it's much easier for me to keep track of people and things through notes on here, SO!
With that being said, would anyone like to collab' with me sometime in the next month or so? :)
Not straight away as I have a painted bust, and a couple bit's I need to sketch out and send off for approval first - but after those are all done, who wants me?!! ;D
If you're interested, post examples of your work below, annnnd If I wanna work with you, I'll come back and note you after all my existing commissions are completed ^^
-Tea-
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Hey guys! I need some advice on something, preferably an artist or someone with some furry community knowledge, I have NO clue how to proceed about something now - and I need an outside perspective.
It's nothing art based, just... Art... Centred... I guess?
If anyone's willing, could you note me?
I'm really stuck here! :/
-Tea-
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Posted 9 years agoOH MY. GOD!!!!!!!!!!!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q5xng4drtFw
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He's Continuing Skulduggery Pleasant!!!!!!!!!
LITERALLY MY FAVOURITE EVER BOOK SERIES.
HE SAID HE'D DO 9 BOOKS AND HE'D STOP.
HE'S DOING A WHOLE OTHER SERIES FOR THE 10 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!
I'M LITERALLY ABOUT TO FUCKING EXPLODE!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q5xng4drtFw
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He's Continuing Skulduggery Pleasant!!!!!!!!!
LITERALLY MY FAVOURITE EVER BOOK SERIES.
HE SAID HE'D DO 9 BOOKS AND HE'D STOP.
HE'S DOING A WHOLE OTHER SERIES FOR THE 10 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!
I'M LITERALLY ABOUT TO FUCKING EXPLODE!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Copying/Referencing, Life, Skype & DISCORD!! :D
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Hey there my little Glitches!!
So not gonna lie to you... Today? I wore myself out.
I'm KNACKERED xD
It's my own fault for not taking breaks I know, but my hand/arm is totally killing me, and I'm *thinking* about taking tomorrow to just relax a bit - But before I do, there's a few things I need to say, and that I've decided on!
Tracing/Copying/Referencing:
So, about a month back now, I came across an artist's FA page, and noticed that he/she had a disclaimer on their main FA page saying something along the lines of;
"Please feel free to trace, copy or reference my work for your own personal use. People use these methods as a means of learning and you are more than welcome to do so with my art as long as you do not use it to make profit - or claim it fully as your own. If you do decide to use my work in such a way, all I ask is that you credit/link back to my original piece or show me what you've done, I'd love to see!"
Now after seeing this, I just smiled to myself. Because honestly I've seen SO many people get attacked and ripped to shreds by others who have noticed tracing and nine times out of ten it tends to be someone younger who doesn't know it's a bad thing to do and ends up being discouraged from even trying to learn on their own or continuing to practise to get better.
I, myself used the reference the SHIT outta photo's my friends took and posted to their Facebook's to try and figure out anatomy which is something I first started doing in High School after my GCSE Art Teacher recommended it as a good way to learn (god damn does it pay have friends who take a lot of "modelling" shots) - And now I don't have to reference anymore!
So, as it;s now 3:30AM - That's something I'll probably be adding to my page sometime tomorrow ^^;;
DISCORD!!! :D
Now for Discord!!!
I'm totally not tired yet, so I've just made up a "server" feel free to pop in if you'd like to chat with me for a bit, I'll hopefully be using it a lot - and will even have my mic on at some point ((Not tonight though, because late xD ))
https://discord.gg/9C3Xe
Skype!
I haven't used it in AGES now, and I honestly doubt I'll ever use it again to be honest. So if you have me there and need to get a hold of me, your best way is probably to send a Note my way or Tweet at me. I don't actually use Twitter too much but it sends a notification to my phone and makes it a LOT easier for me to see when someone wants me :)
Life:
For the most part, my online social life is pretty much now restricted to WoW Raids/TradeChat xD
Apart from that, I've sorta just given up on worrying about everything else and I've started focusing on me, my real life, the real world, my family (sort of). My parents are still dicks. My partner's sister is a bigger bitch than ever. But I have his mum, and I have my Irish Aunt/Uncle/Cousins/Friends, and I have the rest of my partner's family too.
Basically, I've just decided to pull my head of the fluffy cloud that is the furry fandom, and I'm just focusing on the art, the business, and making sure I don't collapse in on myself in a super massive black hole.
Hoooopefully...
This is resulting in better art?
Finger's crossed!
I dunno, You guys will have to let me know if you think I'm improving or not! D:
GYAH.
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!
-Tea-
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Heya guys, I wanted to practise painting some more, but I know I'm not amazing at it yet, so I'm doing them for between $40 - $70 depending on character complexity and amount of body shown! :)
They will likely range from busts, thigh-up's or hip-'sup, done similarly to this; http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20684860/
These will be started today!
Ideally I'd like these to be Autumn/Halloween themed to start to get ahead of the season, but if you'd prefer something summery or another theme entirely, let me know!
Do bear in mind that these will be wing-it's though!
Rules:
Simply comment below with ONE ref' sheet, a theme (If you have one) and whether you'd prefer a bust, hip-up, or thigh-up. I will then reply to you with a quote, and if you're happy with that, either reply or note me back with your paypal information so I can send out and invoice. And once everything's gone through - I can get started!
I might even stream later tonight if I am able, I'll keep you all updated! :)
Spots;
#1 ~ 
ShadowKitteh123
#2 ~ 
DollificBrat
-Tea-
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Ugh, So I'm writing this here because I just need to get this shit out and y'know. not take it out on the people I care about.
I fucking HATE this bitch.
My partner's sister that is.
Been staying with him for a bit every so often to get away from my dad, as his whole alcohol thing's got worse. Surprise surprise.
Well this week I've stayed here with him for about 3 days I think, and despite how bitchy his sister can be - we've actually been getting on. She asked my advice on tattoo designs, I played with her kid, watched her when she and her boyfriend were too busy paying attention to their phones to see that their daughter had just unlodged a heavy fire door style kitchen door, and it was about to wack her in the face (This door was heavy as SHIT, I've been hit by it once and had a massive lump on my head, so god knows what it would've done to her 10 month old... ). I made sure she was okay, made sure she didn't get into shit or get hurt "playing" in her own little world.
Not only that, but I've also been working, drawing. And because of that I decided to keep largely out of the way in Danny's room. I've also been buying my own things for food whilst I've been here. And offered to chip in for this week's electric.
HOWEVER, my partner's shit bag of a sister who spends ALL day on her phone, spends her child benefits on shit for herself and shit that she doesn't need - Decided to bring up that fact that supposedly my partner hadn't *asked* if I could stay for two out of the three days I've been here... After which, she then sends my partner a shitty text about having more respect for their mum.
This from the girl who got pregnant for the soul purpose that she wasn't getting any attention because my partner's other sibling had announced they were expecting. This from the girl who's boyfriend stays over 24/7 without her asking.
This from the girl, who when her mother was SICK last night with a tummy bug, insistently asked what was for dinner - and didn't even THINK about making HERSELF something to eat. This from the girl who was KICKED OUT and "banned" from her boyfriends house for leaving it in a MESS. This from the girl who never went to college, or uni, or has even considered getting a job. From the person who until having a baby, had NO income whatsoever.
Yeah, okay. No respect for your mother? Funnily enough, I don't think It's my partner that has the respect issue, and I've paid my way in your house a HELL of a lot more than you have sweetheart.
Go. Fuck. Yourself.
Preferably with a cactus.
-Tea-
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https://picarto.tv/stealthnachos
His art is amazing and he's taking questions!
https://www.furaffinity.net/user/stealthnachos/
-Tea-
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Hey guys!
I thought it might be nice to have a SFW account, I know a lot of people don't like looking at NSFW.
I'm also going to try actively to make more SFW stuff!
So if you're the kinda person who's more keen on SFW things, go give 
Little.Pumpkin a watch!
I'll be posting there as and when I can! :)
Little.Pumpkin Little.Pumpkin Little.Pumpkin Little.Pumpkin Little.Pumpkin Little.Pumpkin
-Tea-
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Little.PumpkinTips for Staying Cool?
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What up Buttercups!
So, today has been the hottest day of the YEAR for the UK.
It has been AWFUL.
I think I have heat stroke or something, I feel sick and I have a killer headache.
Do any of you have any tips for staying cool?
I don't want this to get worse - Krit has work to do!- Tomorrow it's expected to be about the same temperature as well! D:
Whilst I may be a Summer baby, I am a child of Winter.
I WILT IN SUCH HEAT!
KILL ME PLOX.
Save me :'(
-Tea-
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Hey guys! I had a rough week, so today I'm going to dedicate to just trying to get my head back in the art game.
I also wanted to post some updates for how commissions are going. One YCH is almost done, and the other I'm trying something new with - but I Miiiiiiight have to redo it in my usual style depending on how well ((Or not)) it goes!
If you'd like a WIP of something, just send me a note and I'll quickly get a .snaggy snapshot link together for you!
So here are my plans for the day!
~ Tweak my page layouts ((FB, FA, DA, Tumblr, Twitter)), preen things no longer relevant in likes or dislikes, etc etc, characters, etc
~ Make some "Packs" for the chibi base I sold discounted last week ((ALL packs will be $5, unless they have a BUNCH in them with extensive details)) Today I think I'm going to work on HAir, clothes, and probably a femboy/male version, Fingers crossed!
~ FINALLY get round to working on the species I've had in the works for the last few months or so. Gonna remove and add a few things, adjust shit etc etc. And hopefully I'll have a species reff out by tomorrow, -phew!-
~ Do some more work on the YCH's I still have to do
~ And if there's time, some personal art for myself.
Guys, I can't express how shitty this year has been for me, but I'm not gonna let all the bollocks get to me! Otherwise I'd be lost in a bollock jungle, and let's face it - That'd probably be hot and smelly! D:
I'm done.
I'm done with everything.
I'm just going to focus on art, promoting myself, positivity in regards to life and work and actually getting out of the house. I can't just stay a hermit for the rest of my life, it's making my ill.
I'm just really looking forward to making a change for the better.
Hopefully later this year I'll be going on a short holiday to Ireland with Danny - Visiting my Aunt, Uncle, Cousins, and I might even get to meet 
SkyeHusky ! Even though she's up North in the shitty part! ;D
C'mon, we all know the South is better ;D
Blahhhhhhhh.
God I'm so tired of negaivity, I can't wait for things to get great again. Not having to worry over stupid shit, not waking up to panic attacks.
Hell, I'm even meeting new people through this Pokemon: Go App! How great is that?!!
I love how things like this are bringing people together :')
ANYWAY!
How are you guys?! I wanna hear about you! How's your 2016 going? Hows your week? Your day? Your minute?
How're you feeling right now?
Tell me! I wanna know what's new with you guys!
And god, I just love you all so much - You're amazing, and I couldn't do what I do without you guys.
<3 <3
My lil' Glitches! <3
-Tea-
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SkyeHusky$5 Chibi Base!!
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So, something's come up and I need to get £30 in my account like.. ASAP.
So the $15 base I just uploaded today, will now be selling for just $5 for a limited time!
Comment here to claim whilst you still can!! :)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20486833/
-Tea-
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Hurrow!
So it's my birthday tomorrow, and the other half's come over earlier than expected, and he's been spoiling the crap outta me! His family also came over very unexpectedly, so I've been running about like a headless chicken most of the week! So sorry I haven't been able to be around much in terms of journals or comments or the like.
I also got a laptop as an early birthday gift, so I've been trying to migrate over a lot of my art stuff.
I want to use the laptop for solely art, so I can take it around places and do art on the move and hopefully make it so that I'm not in some kind of art rut by staying in the same surrounding's 24/7.
It's already been super helpful just to be able to sit and draw in the lounge rather than my bedroom, so I'm VERY excited!
Hell, If these storms stop coming through maybe I could sit outside in the sun!
I also just downloaded the beta for SAI 2, and oh my GOSH is it amazing!
I'm still tweaking and playing around with brushes, but hopefully... It'll be super awesome! I know it definitely is already.
Anyway, I'm going to do some more YCH work, and get a coloured sketch bust sorted hopefully by the end of today. And I'm hoping to have at least one of the YCH OC's completely finished by this evening. and maybe the other character at the very least lined in!
Wish me luck!
I was also thinking about maybe creating a "Discord" account, I think you can Mic openly on there? And maybe just sitting in it whilst drawing today, and if anyone wanted to pop in and say hi, then fucking go for it! :D
What do you guys think??
WHEW. Anyway, I've had a really nice week so far give or take a few family issues - and I hope that this week continues to be awesome!
I'm sure It will be.
Going to the cinema tomorrow, and then Harry Potter Studio's in London on Thursday!
AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
I swear to GOD, I will make Hufflepuff proud god damn it!
-Tea-
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MY ARM IS SO ITCHY!!!! D:<
Got my contraceptive implant removed and replaced yesterday, got to take the bandage off today and my skin's all red and itchy where it was :L I think I'm mildly allergic to the wrap :L
Ugh.
I can't move my arm much, but blah. Work continuing as normal! :'D
-Tea-
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Just feeling unbelievably shite right now.
Shit at home's progressively getting worse.
I'm just one giant hormonal ball of fuck ups.
I'm so sick of crying practically every morning after I wake up because I just hate existing in my living situation.
I'm sick of hating going to sleep because it leads into another day, full of opportunities for me to do something wrong. To forget to do something, anything.
Ugh.
I know it's the weekend and I'm usually not around, but I just wanted to say I'll probably be somewhat quiet. Just want to get art done.
I'll probably post a few adopts in the next few days.
Maybe I'll be able to enjoy my impending birthday at least, getting spoiled by the other half. Trying to focus on that and stay excited. Blahh, We'll see I guess.
-Tea-
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Hey guys!
So, Rottie and a friend of his are streaming right now!
Until this second I had no clue who this person even was but omg their art is AMAZING and they NEEEEEEED more watchers!!
https://www.furaffinity.net/user/lexorians/
https://picarto.tv/bigrottiedawg
Go check them out, for cereal.
Thank me later ;)
<3
-Tea-
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Hey guys!
So this Youtuber I watch just posted a thing, and it SOOOO applies to absolutely anything creative. I get the exact same feeling after I've uploaded some artwork or writing, and I just felt the need to share this with you.
And hopefully if any of you get this feeling too, we can both learn from it instead of wallowing in that no-man's land of "Ugh, what do I even do now, how do I start a new thing?!"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xQExnPp_IPc
I mean, I wouldn't go so far as to call it an all out depression, but there's certainly that feeling of "Well... Now what?"
It really is like just a no-man's land of work :L
-Tea-
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Mkaii, so there's a bunch of drama currently circulating around FurryNetwork right now - And I might regret this but I wanted to share at least my thoughts on a couple things, mainly one big thing.
Cub porn.
A ton of people are saying that Furry Network allows the posting of Cub Porn.
Strictly speaking it doesn't.
Now don't you dare stop reading, because YES I've looked into this.
While there may be currently cub porn uploaded on the site, and while they may not being removing it when take down notices are filed or works are reported?
It's still not TECHNICALLY allowed.
Granted there's no specific rule that directly says "NO CUB PORN"
There *IS* a rule which states the following;
"No uploads of content or information that is illegal or otherwise violates the Furry Network Code of Conduct" ~ https://about.furrynetwork.com/acce.....le-use-policy/
Now, I checked up on this to be sure, and drawing porn of child characters from comics or cartoons is ILLEGAL in the United States.
Details here; http://sinful-pup.tumblr.com/post/1.....from-comics-or
So strictly speaking, this American hosted site does not allow cub porn as stated in the rules, and therefore the problem ACTUALLY lies in how it's being enforced (Or isn't in this case).
As it happens, I'm going to tweet/DM them about this as they actually followed my Twitter account back so hopefully I might be able to somewhat solve this issue if they respond. And so far they've been super good and communicating with their users. They have no complaints from me at all on that front.
The other point I wanted to briefly skim over is this; https://www.dropbox.com/s/yiy1qjwvv.....twork.txt?dl=0
While some of the things mentioned/posted there are undeniably iffy. All in all it's an extremely tiny list compared to that of the issues with FA's staffing. And yet people have moved on from the past FA drama's.
I'm inclined to believe what Varka said about the site he was hosting, I know a guy who actually had something similar happen to a site that he was hosting for someone that he never checked on (Though not nearly as illegal/gross)
What I'm trying to put bluntly here, is we ALL have a past. We've all done or will do things we're not proud of at some point and we shouldn't be defined by them.
Furry Network is NOT Bad Dragon, it's NOT E621.
Furry Network is Furry Network.
I just feel like it deserves a chance. I feel like people are almost *looking* for things to be pissed about because they don't like change and they want FA to stay number one. But FA has it's problems, we all know that first hand after this recent attack.
All I'm saying is, at least for now. Take things with a grain of salt.
I would never judge someone based on their past. It's who we are right this second that counts.
And on that note, I love you guys!
Seeya in the morning :') <3
-Tea-
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Sup guys, normally I wouldn't do this but;
I just found out that due to another person backing out of 
KammyMau 's wedding, that there won't be anyone live streaming it for her watchers/fans on FA, twitter, insta etc.
And like... I reallly wanted to go, but there was no way I would've been able to fly to america, and pay for the con, hotel, all that jazz with what I earn and my home situation - So me watching the live stream was the only way I would've been able to watch my best friend have her dream wedding.
And I know it's a huge ask, but is it at all possible for anyone going to be able to stream the event?
It doesn't have to be high quality or anything, nothing fancy. Hell. Just a laptop webcam even.
I really don't want to miss this ;n ;
-Tea-
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KammyMauUpdate;
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Not exactly uh... Pleasant.
But I think I have a tummy bug.
I feel like death :L
KillMePlz
Q__Q
-Tea-
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Sup guys, normally I'd just try and power through this - but I think I'm getting sick.
So work will probably be a little slow this week.
Like, man I dunno what's wrong with me; my skin and muscles just hurt, like... to the point where I want to simultaneously rip them off and yet also surround myself with cotton wool so that nothing can touch me - i also feel super tired which makes NO sense because I sleep more than enough...
Last few days I had a stress headache, which is now thankfully gone, but I dunno, I can only assume I'm getting sick because this skin/muscle stuff only usually happens when I've caught a bug :/
I dunno though, I'll update you all and submit art as and when I can, but yeah. I really don't feel great.
>.<
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