I'm gonna stop neglecting Inkbunny. I'm gonna post a bunch of stuff there soon, including an important Inkbunny-exclusive post so it'll be real good. I must recommend you all go on Inkbun, at least have an account there. It's a very intuitive, useful website. There are various things about it that I like much more than Fur Affinity. The filesize stuff is much more lenient, the image compression is less intrusive. That's an important upside, let alone all the other ones such as being able to add 'pages' to a submission which makes things nice and neat.

Inkbun also allows art depicting minors, which is an important part of freedom on the website. Yet another thing they have that pairs very, very well with this is that they use their keyword system much better. Tagging properly is a requirement, and with that their tag blocking system works wonders. If you like everything about Inkbun except for cub porn, then that feature is for you. All you have to do is block cub-related tags and if you see any cub born get through your filters, report it for not abiding by the keyword policy. I love that about the site, it really makes it good for anybody and very user-friendly.

I want this website to be more successful, because everything about it looks like competence and understanding to me. So, join me there please.
https://inkbunny.net/Kittypadding

Thanks in advance.

Just goes to show that the art trade economy is kind of trash and a risky thing to do. I've read others' journals saying that they have many overdue trades and it seems it's pretty common. In my case, I have two people where their trades are not only overdue, but they show signs that they're never going to do it. I don't think I can name names unless maybe I get something on artists-beware.

If possible, when I get randomly jacked, I'll repurpose the art I made and claim it as it's sole owner, as I will be doing.

If you're trading with me, you have nothing to worry about as long as you're openly working on your half. In the future, I might try to be more careful with trades by confirming that they're actually working on their half before I do mine, in the case that I'm on the upper end of the trade.

By the way, I'm totally up for trades. I could use the work.

I've decided to make a form for suggestions, suggest whatever you want here and I might just do it. I appreciate any and all ideas.

Some guidelines for suggestions:
- Please try to be unique with your suggestion, not just with character choice but also subject matter. Varied kinks and situations are welcome.
- Canon characters are encouraged, but high-quality characters of your own are good too.
- Remember that these are suggestions, not requests.

https://goo.gl/forms/0Ty7DwJOJQ0lVivs1

Also, as for the art, Touhou fanart is something I've been wanting to do so I'll probably be doing that a lot. If you play Touhou, a suggestion for that kind of stuff is real good. I'll mostly prefer to make the characters into some type of animal, as you saw with my Remilia picture, but with some I'll try to be more authentic.

This has been around for a while, but I'd like to show my viewerbase my server so you can come in and such. We chat about diaper art and stuff, and we do high-quality roleplay.

https://discord.gg/xtpJ8Xm

Just remember to read the rules, they're important.

It's lewd A Hat in Time fanart, you can probably imagine why it's not going up on Fur Affinity or Inkbun.

https://www.pixiv.net/member.php?id=18373285

We got more new stuff on Inkbun. Remember that I upload some stuff here,. I got my half of the recent art trade there. If you haven't seen it the Cave Story story is up there too.
https://inkbunny.net/Kittypadding

Happy New Year. It's been one hell of a ride due to all the tragedies and such this year, but other than that it's been a phenomonal year. Even apart from my personal stuff, each year has been getting better and better, especially since we have my favourite President.

It is up on my Inkbunny, please go there.

https://inkbunny.net/Kittypadding

EDIT: I'm uploading other stuff too, the new one is the Cave Story one.

As you can tell, I've been a little out of rhythm with the stories. There's not really a huge reason for it, it's just a bunch of little things, the most significant being that I had been trying other projects. You remember that Digby pixel art? I wanted to do more like that but it's been pretty frustrating. I tried to do a couple new things but they consistently annoyed me throughout making them until I just gave up on them. I know completing them would be nice and I could be a good pioneer of diapered pixel art by doing that, but I had started and dropped 2 pictures in particular. I wasted hours of work on them, especially the second one which at first I felt got off the ground but by the time the body's frame was in place I had become tired of it. Having other ideas also made me really want to cut my losses, so I did. In the end, at least I experimented. I feel like I might have gained something from this, whether or not it outweighs the time I lost. The other reasons for me being out of rhythm are that I haven't really had many concrete ideas that I felt like going through with. In addition, the weather hasn't helped. I'm in a place where the whether sucks a whole lot, it's mostly hot but it's pretty chaotic otherwise.

The cool part of the year is here, though, which means I'll be feeling way better. It already flipped over from consistently warm to areas actually being passively cold, which is what I want. I got another story off the ground too, though I've been taking it a little slow. This next one will be a Cave Story story. That's my favourite platformer, by the way. Unfortunately, I can't upload it to Fur Affinity because of the content of the story so I will be posting it to Inkbunny when it is complete. Currently it is roughly 66% finished in terms of how far in I am. It'll be real good.

Some of my other stories aren't really doing good numbers-wise, so if you're reading this and haven't read any story in particular, please go for it. I'm surprised Satan's Bathtime in particular didn't get many favourites, that one has very fun diaper stuff in it, including some water-soaked pamps. Also, about the next story after this one, I think I want to do a more romantic story but I don't know who with. I would like to write about my own characters more, though it's kind of hard since a lot of my ideas involve wordbuilding.

I've been feeling pretty good for a while now, though I just want to say a few things regarding the most recent debacle regarding me; It still amazes me how low the behavioural standards of some people are, I've been on the other side of this coin myself before, a long time ago which is why it really irks me to see the people I felt like I was supposed to be looking up to act so badly. I guess it just goes to show the old saying "Don't judge a book by it's cover" has merits. That doesn't make it any less ridiculous though, especially considering that there are certain people who are very openly nutcases. I feel embittered when I realize an aspect of my life that has nothing to do with American politics except in cases like laws governing the internet is being encroached upon by political agendas. I have looked, researched,and received information about these people that shows it. I wish I could say that I've never been called a 'Trump-ette' completely out of the blue and then blocked by an artist when I was having a non-political but heated debate with somebody else in the Twitter replies, but it has happened.

I'm sorry if all the above was too vague, but that's because I'm being careful about giving too much info on the precise people. I'll give those responsible that kind of respect even if they refuse to give it to me, and even though my respect for them has not been regarded. I just want to make a little promise with what following I have; Politics and what I do are separate. I do not want to insert my specific beliefs into my content or even publicly talk about it on here that much. I wish other people went by this too, I wish others would have that standard. If you are a good artist and popular fur, you are doing your following a bit of a disservice by shoehorning any kind of politics into what you do, especially when it's agenda-driven and agrees with the media. I think this applies to conservative stuff too though, as long as the respect for each other's opinions is mutual. There's not even a consequence, just leave your belief at the door, chill, and enjoy some artistic merit and it's all good for everybody involved, even if just for that duration. That's part of what makes this great for some people, the escapism and peace. Can't we share that together? Also, just a heads-up, I know I just used a handful of buzzwords but please assume from this point forward that I use things in a non-political context. A particular word that has two interpretations like that is 'Narrative', pretty self-explanatory but I use this word and I don't mean it in terms of politics, I mean it in terms of it's actual purpose; in the context of stories.

Also, I just want to address this because I haven't done so here yet; I remember decently clearly what occurred between me and Ryan North. I'd like to throw in my two cents on the issue, I've seen some discussion about it and liked it. It got me thinking. However, I will confirm that it was me trolling, as in it was a joke. I'm not using this as a cop-out though, it was not a well-handled troll. The main issue was that I didn't have Poe's Law in mind with that, it was a bad move that I did for literally no reason and I didn't even have something indicating it was a joke, so I don't blame anybody for thinking I was being serious. The message, even if not actually reflecting what I believe, was pretty bad too. It was bad in the sense that it did no good and could only do bad, I had myself a good laugh at what Ryan North responded with but that was about it. It couldn't possibly do any good, but it could feasibly reinforce some negativity about diaperfurs, and I think it most likely did. This occurred last year and I have been aware since, but I must say; I'm sorry for that.

So, other than that, I've been enjoying this sort of renaissance for my stories. I've actually been uploading at a decent schedule for a few months in a row, though the story intended for August was a few days into september due to the heat. Lately I've been pondering a lot of concepts and things, like new characters and maybe even some actual plot. Truthfully, while I love one-off kink stories and I know they have lots of merit, stories that are more narrative-driven have lots of merit too. They might not be as fun but they're objectively better, one or the other isn't bad but there's more you can do with narrative-driven storytelling and it tends to take more writing skills. I think a really good story like that would be amazing for my niche of the diaperfur stuff as I have never seen that be achieved.

I must also say that I've been bouncing around ideas and for the most part it's pretty directionless, I'm not sure what I want to go through with making for now. I feel indecisive and unable to make my move, I guess you could say it's kind of like writer's block but it hasn't really stopped me. I'm thinking of doing some more romantic stuff for the next story, something a bit different but I don't have anything concrete yet.

As the last thing, I've actually been learning pixel art a bit. I haven't been productive with that since I'm kind of juggling things but I feel pretty good about it. In fact, I've made something right here. I'd appreciate any feedback on it. I will be going for more dynamic poses and some depiction of movement and liveliness in my art soon enough, that has been a struggle for me. Here it is;
https://imgur.com/a/ONLkF

It's Digby but he's thicc, has boobs, wearing his hair up like his sister, and has on a nice, smushy diaper. I hope you enjoy it.

I really wish things that I thought I knew wouldn't be corrupted. For a while now, I've felt like more and more things just keep going to negative places. I feel like it's partially my fault, too, but it's also like I didn't really know them before, like they're actually dark and nasty. Even people who I thought of as friends or thought were cool. Is it really me? This does have to do with Diaper art, but the level of drama in it sucks. I tried to take it to more of an advanced, analytical place but I'm not the kind of person to be able to do that well, am I? I feel like if things were simpler t would be nicer, but part of me believes in the possibility of there being a sweet, positive but analytical and competitive community, like a good balance. Right now it just feels like being happy and being exceptionally smart are mutually exclusive and that I'm a bother to people, including my friends. It doesn't feel right or normal, but it just feels like me and that it should, in theory, be a good thing. Brings me back to that whole Red Pill-Blue Pill thing. I really want an in between, or to try both, but it seems like I've already made my choice and can't go back on it, at least for now.

I really want my innocence back. Not in terms of my subject matter, since I still enjoy brutality a whole lot, but myself. I don't feel innocent. I'm not sure if my innocence was stolen away or if I gave it away, but I'm not innocent, I'm a wretch. I'm not even sure if any of this makes sense, but it seems as though what is done is done. I've been left in the dust and I'm confused.

I have a few new characters and a story coming along well, the story will be up soon enough.

Remember the Foxy's Nom Noms story? And yes, that's what I'm calling it now. If you haven't read it, please do, but viewer discretion is advised. At the time, from what I can remember, I either didn't care or give Smite datamining much mind. The story was made at the beginning of the month, and then right at the end of the month Da Ji got released. The thing is, the story could have involved her somehow. If given the choice I would obviously go for Foxy, but it's pretty funny how Da Ji is. For those that don't know, she is a fox spirit manifested as an attractive female, and her canon default skin reflects this. She could have easily filled the role in the story since she's actually a massive sadist and it is stated that her biggest pleasure is torturing people. It could have gone that she lures Cupid with the buff like what happens, but then she suddenly comes up from behind the wall in her Ult, shoots a chain and pulls him, then eats him which would be slightly more feasible for her to want to do in that context. Or, more realistically considering me, it could have basically been diapered Da Ji and Mommy Izanami and the story probably would have gone similarly. It's a funny coincidence though I definitely happy with Ammy as the predator for multiple reasons, yeah?

As for how I'm doing, I haven't been well but I've been decent.

I have no idea if posting this story would work out. I'm not really that concerned about being banned for it, but from what I've seen, whoever is in charge of taking down cub porn could easily come up with a reason to take this down. It has no explicit sex. It doesn't even have any sexual assault of any kind. However, it has a character's boobs showing in front of a child. I really don't want to chance it. I think it's not likely that it would get taken down, and if it did get taken down it would be total bullshit which I would never let up on disputing, but I'm paranoid.

However, here's the story in all it's glory. I might actually post it, in which case I'll add an author's note and do more proofreading. Small trigger warning. This involves Stella, and yes I know this is way too early for Halloween.

https://pastebin.com/Acn2B7Y7

As always, I would absolutely love to hear any opinions and ideas.

As you can probably tell, I've had very little motivation for the past while. I can't relax very well. I'm kinda stressed, and it's not the usual kind of stress, you know. It's more like the "I really wish I didn't do this (amount of time) ago" kind of stress, and also my living situation isn't the best. but I'm just going to make a journal about what's on my mind at the moment.

I enjoy The Binding of Isaac immensely even though I'd personally say the game isn't very good and you should not play it, especially because of the absurd RNG, stupidly inconsistent difficulty, and vulgarity. I think blood and gore is fine, but this game just goes way too far. However, I recently got into the fan expansion, Antibirth, and I love it. It's additions are so in line with what can be expected of the game, and then there are parts that go above and beyond in terms of the bosses and environment. (Spoilers of varying degrees ahead) I've fallen in love with the boss on the Mausoleum, The Siren. She looks so good and appealing. She's a bullet hell boss with a unique gimmick in that she charms your familiars, all her animations are great. I even have a WIP sketch of a toddler version of Siren, but it's not that far in terms of progress. Her design is just so unique, it's not too demonic and doesn't rely on what she's based upon (Sirens in Greek Mythology) at all. She's very diaperable. Also, I just recently defeated The Witness, and it's a very great boss. I wish The Witness had boss armour like The Hush, but it's difficulty is still okay. It's a very extravagant boss, with the best music I've heard in the game. The theme that plays in the battle, Memento Mori, is the most upbeat, fitting song I've heard in all of TBoI. Mudeth did a much better job on the entire soundtrack than either of the previous composers for TBoI: Rebirth and TBoI: Wrath of The Lamb ever could, those being Ridiculon and Danny Baranowski respectively. It's very fitting for a bullet hell final boss, too, in general it justs sounds more like what I'd expect from this genre of video game since it reminds me of Touhou at some points, but it also has a TBoI vibe to it so it doesn't sound out of place at all.

This is completely unrelated to the paragraph above, but I've seen a trend in the comments around here that I can't stand. There are certain people (I don't name names, don't ask as I'd rather not get into shit with the admins) who go around, and no matter what, every time I see one of them comment they always say something along the lines of "This is a hot and/or cute situation, I myself would enjoy and desire to participate in the situation or take the place of one of the characters in the depicted scenario, specifically the character that is clearly the submissive one, and I am implying that I would like you to draw this specific thing I have in mind." Of course, that was way more verbose than this person was, but the point remains the same. Oh, and you want to know what seals the deal? Their comments of this nature are always on submissions involving diaper TF. And let's not forget, they're implying they want a request of themselves, with a >///< face and such in the comment. I know a lot of artists in a lot of places really dislike when people do this, it's borderline creepy and rude. This is not a call out journal, and I have not told this person about their behaviour, but it really irks me. It doesn't just bother me on that level either, it gives me a horrible feeling of secondhand embarrassment. This person reminds me of me, how I used to be. I'm not going to lie, I used to be a fucking idiot. I mean, I've said things I regretted in the past couple years, but until the summer of 2014 which is a time in which I realized myself and got it together, I was an absolute retard and I hate to see people act in similar ways to how I did.

I just don't understand how somebody can be happy with themselves when they act like that. How could anybody be okay with that?

This story was a bad idea in the best of ways. Whenever I get an idea like this, I have to act on it. :3c However, it's a little too graphic in the subject matter to be posted to Fur Affinity, so I'll just link a pastebin page.

https://pastebin.com/J4YFrDC9

It involves Foxy Amaterasu (She has an adorable skin in the game called Foxy, and she's in that form) from Smite voring Cupid, digesting him, and then messing him into a diaper. It also involves Izanami, taking on a Mommy role, and some side characters and mentions of others. You don't really have to understand the game to enjoy this one, I wrote it purposefully so that it would be that way, but there is some talk about a couple game mechanics, overall it's not too different from other MOBAs from what I can tell. I really enjoyed writing it. If the story were to have an actual title, it's be something like "Foxy's nom nom time". I love high contrast between dark/evil and cute with baby-talking, diapers, and all that jazz.

Also, Amaterasu in this story's species is open to interpretation. I just wanted it to be that way even though in-game she is a human.

On to some other stuff; There's been a decline in the quantity of my critiques. Trust me, I'll bounce back from that. I'll have out reviews like candy. I know I've been getting shit for it, but I don't care. I'm not bad, nor am I trying to bog people down. I'm trying to bring people up. I know they can be better.

I'm in a good mood right now. Please, give me any feedback you have in any way you want. Even if you hate the story, I'd love to hear it because I can still take information from that. If you don't want to comment, go ahead and note me, it'll be between us, I promise.

I went ahead and got my stuff diagnosed. They examined my eyes, of course, I'm sure you know the deal. I had to read from a mirror that reflected a screen with letters behind me, and yes it involved the thing where they switch lenses and ask what how it affects the visuals.

The results were surprising but made sense, I don't know how I didn't make myself aware of this before. I guess it's just because I really don't like self-diagnosis and am not at all confident in my own medical opinion of myself even though I do more research than most people bother to. Both eyes are far-sighted though my right eye is the dominant eye in almost the same way as my right hand. My left eye is afflicted with bad astigmatism and I have problems using it and focusing with it. It isn't, like, horrible but it's the start of something worse. Hopefully the glasses I'm getting will help with this.

Also, I updated Stella yesterday. I'm very confident in it this time, especially the appearance description. I showed it to a couple RP buddies and they say they have a much better time visualizing her from it.

First of all, Happy Easter I guess. I don't really give one to be honest. I really wish people would stop visiting their families on Easter, it's such an insignificant Holiday. I hate my neighbour's kids that are visiting. That's pretty much it.

You probably noticed I disappeared for about 3-4 days. Life keeps getting in my way. I keep starting things I can't finish, I started some art I thought was a great idea, I started a story, and I was so excited to be productive but then my family and all the distractions destroyed my optimism for it. I wonder if I should be more upset about this.

Lost time feels like a big deal to me, but I never end up doing much with that anyways. I feel lonely and want people, but then I realize I feel like socializing is a chore and I end up not even wanting to do it. It happens all the time.

Also, I updated my F-List. Why can't everybody have one of these? Why can't everybody keep a character list too? I have yet to see one as detailed as mine. And yes, I am in the middle of rewriting Stella's entry again. I just can't come up with one that does her justice, I should try one that's more simple. I keep writing them, then sitting back down and thinking it's stupid.I read over a lot of what I write several times, I'm not sure how many of you I've had conversations with but odds are I've read the one I had with you several times and come back to it almost every day, at least for a while after I first make it. It's hard to be satisfied with what I write.

It worries me how fast time goes by. I wish it would go by slower, I count 60 seconds 60 times and it's already been an hour. Is my time even worth that much any more?

And yes, I know it's way too late for the goddamned Dragon to come out. He's still on his way, I'm just having a hard time coming up with sexy traits for him. In the meantime, let's do something more exciting. Maybe another poll about some character ideas I had. The main one I feel like making is a Fox character. Sounds boring, right? Except, I want to make a twist to this one. Of course, they'll be diapered, but the main gimmick is that they're a powerful mage that was murdered and due to their power, one of their Familiars ended up reanimating them so they became an intelligent Zombie that retained their magical capabilities but also gained physical power.

One of the things that has irked me the most growing up is the way Southerners are portrayed in mainstream media. I am technically a southerner (Yes, Oklahoma is a southern state. I've been told that we're in the middle, not the south, but to anybody who thinks this: Get yourself a ruler, or better yet, just look right at a fucking map and see that the center is clearly Kansas, though Nebraska is also in about that area. And hell, Kansas is still pretty southern.), so when I see this stereotype, it hits close to home for me. Yes, there are people that act just like southerner stereotypes, there are always people who are examples of any stereotype, that's just the way it is whether they're motivated by the stereotype to become it, or the stereotype is over-generalizing their group with specific individuals within it. I don't want to generalize either or try to be an SJW, but trust me, there are examples.

That doesn't change how misrepresented Southern US culture is, though, and how unpopular it is for them to be played for anything other than laughs. What I've been wanting from the furry community and Roleplayers or Writers in general is more actual relatable Southern characters. As in, please, don't make a bumbling, wannabe cowboy, redneck character.

If you want a great representation of what our lifestyle is actually like, I'd suggest looking at a show that was somewhat niche and had a specific audience and thus didn't get as much traction as others, King of the Hill. That show appeals so well to it's audience and is wrote so well that it's my personal favourite piece of American animation. It shows well that we prefer a slow-paced, calm lifestyle and heavily emphasize morals and family, though that idea has died out a bit. I know you must be thinking 'But Hank Hill is just a normal guy and it's just a show about his family, how could that be entertaining?', but that thought process is just a testament to the quality of the show. It is way more down-to-earth than any other adult cartoon, instead of relying on shock humour, the writing and superb humour do it all. It also does a significantly better job at being serious than shows like Family Guy.

You can probably see I captured and used this idea with my character, Princess. I tried very hard to make her a very good show of the best qualities in Southerners. She's calm, generous, strong-willed, and values morals and family above all else, even if she does have her flaws.

Other than that, something that's been on my mind recently is Pseudonyms. A lot of people like using nicknames, but I like the pseudonym culture on the internet because it's something that looks and sounds like it had a lot of thought put into it, when most of the time that's not quite right. I've seen Pseudonyms that I really like, like Pyrocynical, Xenotronics, Worldedit, Leafyishere, Pixel Star, and etc. This got me thinking, for a guy named Kittypadding, I sure don't do a lot of cats. And the padding part just doesn't work for me now, it works on two levels (Padding is a word used for cat walking in some books I've read, whereas it's also a term for Diapers as I'm sure you know) but it doesn't convey what I want it to mean well enough. I do Goats and Pokemon way more than typical house cats or 'kitties', of which I have drawn a grand total of one or two if you count Espeon, unless you count big cat-based Pokemon in which I guess Luxray would count.

So, I was writing another Undertale story, this time on my own, but I couldn't figure out a good place for it to go, plus my interest in Undertale other than my lovely Goatboi has been dwindling. I think I'm kinda lazy with this stuff, I have difficulty dividing time between my hobbies, my art, and my stories, I just can't get motivated to do things regularly.

I'm sorry to disappoint, as I know a significant portion of my watchers are here for stories, but the Undertale one is cancelled. I'm going to try to make more stories, but I kinda want to get off my chest why I haven't been writing a lot ever since the first few stories that got me off the ground. You see, drawing has never been a thing that I've been invested in. I'm sure most can relate to the fact that from a young age, my parents hyped up the day I would learn to write and read. Nobody ever did that to me with drawing, drawing was just this chill side thing that nobody seemed to care about. It was only recently that it even dawned upon me that drawing, the way I think of it, is actually art. In school, art/drawing class was pushed in my face as a fun way to get relief from the strict objectiveness and high expectations of the other courses, especially English. They said it like it was a bad thing, and I feel what they taught us in the art class reflected that. Abstract art and weird paintings were what society expected of art at the time, and it still kind of is.

So that's why. I'm not saying I'm satisfied in my ability to write, but for now, I know that I know how to write decently. Art is a different story, it is both more promising and more exciting in terms of me learning, making actual art is this shiny, amazing new thing to me. I want to get to the point where I can make art just as well as I can make stories, and go from there, trying to improve both at a steady pace since I find the fact that most content creators try to specialize in one or the other, being distinctly better at one than the other. Being able to depict a scene in your story is a very powerful tool for a writer, it allows you to express things that words simply can't, so you don't have to rely on your audience to paint the picture themselves. Being able to write a story that goes along with art you've made can give it much more context, meaning and background. It's a very good layer of depth to add.

The time I get to that point has been delayed for too long, though. I'm going to try to make a new story soon. It won't be intense in terms of narrative, and I don't think I'm ready to undertake a large project with lots of worldbuilding, but I'll try to make it my best. Surprisingly enough, I really feel like making a story in the Mario universe. I never liked the main series of games, but the other sects of that franchise have amazing characters and stories. The next story will most likely star Antasma and Princess Peach. I hope that's surprising to my viewers.

In addition, I have a couple WIP drawings and more on my to-do list, but I will set those on the back burner for now.

This has been one of the best games I've ever played, it was great. It's a surreal overworld puzzle game with a meta narrative, though I feel like, in terms of the overworld stuff, this game got everything right that Undertale didn't seem to bother with. If you plan on playing this, don't spoil yourself, either.

I've been craving more new game experiences, since I actually have barely played any. I really do enjoy myself a sprite-based indie game, and this fit that quite nicely. The meta puzzles freaked me out in the best way possible, it was quite awesome.

And let's not forget about the protagonist. This game only increases my confusion with humans. I really, really like Niko, even though she seems to be a human, I still enjoy her. That's what great character design can do, I guess. The character designs in this game in general are very appealing, Alula is another one of my favourites.

(Spoilers, by the way)
The one thing I disliked was how sad and unfulfilling the endings are. I picked the one where she smashes the sun so she can go home, and I didn't even get so much as a cutscene with her in her home or something. Other than that, this was a fantastic experience. I feel that it is a crime that I haven't heard of this game yet, it really is a treat.

I made a Twitter account a while ago for viewership purposes and also had a poll up on there. My apologies for not announcing it earlier, but some already know it exists. Here's the link;

https://twitter.com/Kitty_Padding

There's also a little peek at the next submission. Tell me how I am at sketching, this is my first really legit sketch that I made from the ground up without refs or doing my stick figure thing that I use for planning poses, and I feel so satisfied with it actually looking like a sketch that I decided to show it. I'd like all the feedback I can get, of course, so please tell me what you think, even if it's "This looks like ass, I hate you", I can still get something out of that but I do appreciate more insightful opinions.

I'm also going to try and learn how to hard shade. Since some people don't seem to get the meaning of that term, or at the very least my interpretation, it's a shading technique where there's not a very smooth transition between light and dark, it's not blended at all, and it can contribute well to a slightly more minimalist or comic-like art style, it's something that's grown on me.

I got some linework mostly done, but there are still adjustments to be made. I've been trying to reach out for advice on how to make this my best art yet. If anybody wants, I could post a link to a WIP version so you can suggest what I do to it. I really want to make this my best, as I've been underperforming recently. I don't feel like my last few submissions are good indicators of my overall skill, actually, I might even redo some but later, even though the people receiving them reassured me that they're satisfied. I kinda want to do more behind-the-scenes improvement by maybe practicing specific body-parts, but I feel a bit weird devoting time and energy to something that probably won't even get posted. Almost everything I've ever drawn is posted here unless I deem it too abhorrent, since my earliest art from late 2015-early 2016 most certainly was abhorrent. I'm also going to learn to hard shade. I'm pretty bad at soft shading, so I may re-learn that at some point, but right now I feel as if hard shading would fit the aesthetic I'm going for better. I don't really like realism or absurdly dynamic lighting, it's a boring, overused way of doing things.

Also, I'm starting to really like TF. I'm not sure exactly why the TF community is so aroused by the TF 'sequence' so to speak, that aspect of TF makes no sense to me, but it is a fun concept. Imagining my characters being transformed into different species and what they'd look like, in addition to how they're transformed I guess.

Not Inanimate TF though, fuck that shit is dumb.

EDIT: I keep forgetting to mention my new fetishes at the end of my journals. Anyhow, Emily likes masochism more and really likes eating diapers. Yes, you heard right, she enjoys sneaking into her friends and family's diaper bins and swallowing their discarded diapers whole. No chewing, she's like a snake.

Every passing day, I feel like our community is seeming worse and worse. It isn't just the bad content and how ridiculously hard it is to find something, you know, good. It's the way that they operate like a cult. The level of attention whoring and victim complexes is astronomical, the hypocrisy and the animosity, the bigotry and the cynicism. I think I'm not the best person, sometimes I feel like I'm pretty bad, and not in the good way, but then I'm reminded that I'm not the worse. Surprisingly enough, it's not a pleasant reminder. Ever.

I had not looked into Toddlergirl, but just recently the long-awaited Deviants 4 video by the man himself, Mr Metokur was shown. I watched it, and it really opened my eyes. Before, it was just a little truth here, a little truth there. My eyes were opened up slowly, or at least they were in the process, and then I see this. So many familiar faces. Friends, borderline enemies, doing such retarded things. Toddlergirl herself made an ass of herself and abused the copyright system, and for what? I am sickened and disgusted, you all act like she's been raped. Especially those saying he deserves to go to jail or get shot. To those who say that; Go ahead, fucking do it. Rot in jail for the rest of your life over him.How retarded is that?

Come and take the red pill with me. I want everybody to see this, I want a dialogue to be made in favour of reason. Mr Metokur has been a content creator I've liked for a while. When Deviants 3 was released, I was very excited. I love seeing things I like get torn apart, it's a different perspective and it's very nice. I don't mind that it's something I disagree with very much, it's just such a good time. To see the shocking, borderline evil that this community hides isn't as pleasant, but still. Don't click if you want blissful ignorance, how could I blame you?

https://youtu.be/VVIPfSgnetA

I've been doing some soul-serachy stuff, and I think that vore and hypermessing are actually pretty good as long as they're good and within some limits. The one thing keeping me away from vore is the absolutely terrible community. Almost everything about that god-forsaken community is a testament to the unsavoury individuals within. Even just scrolling through the Browse section and filtering it to only Vore, I can see that they have the most bad art. And let's not forget the fact that they infect and bog down other websites, even ones not meant for kinky shit. Like DeviantArt. And then they try to pass it off as PG-13 or even just General-rated, even when you can see the stomach stuff, and they use excuses like it's 'meant to be cute'. I also have an extreme disdain for all the weird implications and things that they throw into their submissions. So, I guess I still kinda have an aversion to Vore, but y'know.

Hypermessing is a bit uncommon, but I think that's actually to it's benefit. Who knows how bad the Babyfur section could get if Hypermess caught on as a really big trend, just like some other elements? Anyhow, I still kinda dislike it, except I really, really like it when in hypermessing art, the diaper isn't tinted at all and remains it's original colour, usually white. That's even more uncommon, but I love little things like that which indicate the artist gives a damn and adds nuance to it. Something about a hypermessed but non-discoloured diaper is just sexy to me. I guess my sexual interests are just weird.

The dragon hybrid character I promised is coming along, though I'm having second thoughts about the poll. I feel like I'd like a goat-dragon character more, but I've already made a cat-dragon with a fitting personality and changing it wouldn't be a good idea. I've come up with a name; Artsio. But I think that name could be better, in fact it's a little bad. I'm also making a Solgaleo character, maybe start her out as a cub and have her grow. She'll be a feral and won't be able to talk, but she'll be really kittenish and cuddly, and have a vore gimmick. I'm starting to like giving more characters unique gimmicks, I wish the fandom was as enthusiastic about designs as I am and did that more.

In addition, I feel like expanding upon my alien species. Making an otherworldly alien species is one of the best ways to challenge your character design and imagination, I feel. Basically, this species's main design thing that is consistent between them is that they are extremely physically weak, prone to disability, and generally seem small and incomplete. However, some are very intelligent and ended up evolving a bit and becoming scientists or engineers. Fast forward a bit, and suddenly the individuals of the species started being made almost entirely out of prosthetics. They call their prosthetics a Power Suit, and they've basically become cyborgs. They're supposed to be a perversion of what some expect that Humans will look like in the near future when Bionics or whatever become widespread.

EDIT: Also, I forgot to mention something really important: After an RP with a friend, I have made a development to Stella's stuff; There are 2 Stellas now. And they somehow obtained Pampers brand diapers and like to wear them together. That is all.

I'm pretty confused when it comes to humans. The best kind of confusion: Sexual confusion. For that reason, seeing humans bothers me more than anything. I try not to let it slip into critiques too much, though my critiques are my opinion, so I often have a small line about the fact that humans bother me.

There are some objective flaws with humans such as the fact that they are basic and not interesting since we see humans every day. They're quite possibly the most featureless things in the world, actually. I have a hard time thinking of anything more simple, the thing that comes to mind immediately are basic-looking dogs, but those are ferals, and have way more variance. There are few things that add variety to humans. The main and most noticeable thing: Skin colour. But I don't consider that even a thing to consider. We've all seen recolours and how little they change things. Next up is obviously the hair. A small thing upon the head that tends to be short in males though long and straight in females. There are also body types, but if we're sticking to a more anatomically correct figure, there isn't much leeway beyond height and general fitness.

Because of this, the main thing people use to add variance to humans is clothes, but that's rarely even done. When I look around the human art places, I expect to see interesting clothing combined with nice hair to make designs really good, but somehow this rarely happens, especially within more sexual territory. My guess is that it takes a lot of skill and also, in most people's eyes, sexualizing something involves making it wear as little or as revealing clothes as possible.

The only place I see interesting humans is in Anime. Shout-out to Anime, they succeed at just about everything that American Animation consistently fucks up with.

However, I still find myself succumbing to humans and I'm not sure how to feel about it. I see the circlejerk around humans, I see the boring and weird designs, I look at myself in the mirror and see that I'm the exact same species as all that stuff, and it's just not pleasant. However, it still happens and I think I'll describe it. See, I keep watching things and fantasizing about them, about actually doing things in real life. That's a minor part of it. I sometimes watch messing videos. There's a surprisingly large amount on Youtube itself, and there's plenty on the Internet. Despite the fact that these leave a lot to be desired, it feels fun to comb around and look at them. I watch some, and they seem as though they're tailor-made for me. The people in them don't show their faces, all I get to see is their pelvis, lower back, clean-shaven thighs, and of course their diaper area. It's surprisingly nice. They keep silent and mess, occasionally farting or grunting. I love it, so I'm an asshole.

There are also some people that do humans right. I think humans shouldn't be allowed on FA, but there are arguments to be made against it, such as the fact that we shouldn't make a rule that makes the good-to-bad content ratio a bit better while also fucking over everybody who does it right. I think that's a good idea, I suppose I can ignore the bad stuff if it means the good stuff stays. As for the good stuff, I think LimLam is a great example of good humans in my eyes. He doesn't have complex clothing, but he does have appealing designs. The hair is actually very colourful and noticeable, and the impish, non-human like eyes really do it for me. I also like ShimaPad on DeviantArt's art. While usually DA is a cesspool, Shima's art style is very refreshing, and their humans are nice. They're really good, having somewhat chibi-like proportions and designs. Both of these artists just so happen to also take off some of the humanity of their humans they do, and I like that. Some of their art is pretty arousing. They're both diaper artists, by the way, and yes they diaper humans.

This makes me feel wrong.

Paid online? No sir. Fuck this thing. Peecee master race.