Between chronic exhaustion and autoimmune issues, I'm struggling to meet my work goals and social desires. I've spent most of the weekend and the last two days sleeping and needing nausea meds. I've seen people with far worse conditions than mine do so much more with their lives than me. This isn't to beat up on myself, I'm just legit wanting to know how to do that. It's gotten better in tiny fits and starts but still really floundering overall. I'd appreciate suggestions and am not afraid of trying hard things if it helps. I'm feeling really frustrated but will try and set smaller goals to go for so I don't feel like I'm always failing at having a remotely stable life. To that end, I'll probably do small computer programs and games to test individual ideas instead of big feature-complete chonker projects. Expect more casual doodles as I try to draw a little more for both catharsis and practice. Best wishes and keep on keeping on.

I was really hoping this year would be at least a little less insane but already the US is regressing another two decades in one ugly fell swoop, my mom had a thankfully false positive health scare, and the fear of never owning a home absent direct financial support from my mom is crystallizing. Like... why did I spend so long getting an amazing credit score when I'm unable to work the hours it takes to build savings of note? My health makes every single day a moving target and this is likely to be a lifelong condition. I'm not unhopeful though. Life has a lot to offer at every turn. I'm more creative than ever and a more active and skilled software developer than ever. I live with my best friends even if we do have to rent. The warhammer 40k bug bit me again and I derive immense enjoyment from building miniatures. I'm just scared that no matter how the midterms shake out, the US has broken to a point that will take 50 years to fix if it can be done at all. Trump is the cancer of our collective body to be sure, but the fact remains that the conditions that gave him power to piss all over our laws and ideals came about organically. I don't feel very safe. The only thing I know to do is what I recommend to everyone: stay close to the people you care about and take care of each other. We may not be okay sometimes, but we don't have be not okay alone.

Would people be at all interested in ASCII art of their character portraits by an program I recently wrote for imagick based on the Stucki dithering algorithm before it's fed into jp2a? Some examples on my gallery. The way it would work is that you just comment a link to the image and the name of a charity you've donated to or can just list personal donation if it's been a gofundme or the like. It would be an honor system thing but with the ripples of the government shutdown, a rough economy, and the holidays on the horizon, feels important to take care of each other. So many of my projects get tied up in poor health screwing with timelines but this program is pretty neat and delivers surprisingly solid results. Let me know if this appeals at all.

Well, I'm 38. Last year I was feeling a little bit nervous at the prospect of time getting away from me. I often fear the world spinning on without me when I'm so physically down and out. Despite confirmation that my issues are likely going to be a lifelong condition, this year I feel nothing but comfort. I have had so many people in my life that are incredible and it offsets the more shitty straws that I've drawn the last five years or so. I've been supported, encouraged, and assured, even when I've been less than ideal about social engagements and consistency. I've learned that even with my debilitating problems that elude reliable treatment, I've grown in some pretty incredible ways. I don't work like I want. Not by a long shot. But I am doing a wider variety of things on a small scale. Coding my own linux projects and Discord bot for streaming, helping out a bit on a game engine, drawing more, and writing a lot. I found out just this month that I'm going to be a paid and published author working with two people I've admired immensely as creators and a third who has been invaluable in making me a better writer. I build and paint warhammer minis. I helped a friend with their college programming projects several times. The nephew I more or less raised is an amazing person I'm endlessly proud of who recently told me I helped him avoid going down so many bad roads while always being fun and loving. I have had more movie nights on my server. It felt for the longest time that I was on a cliff's edge, barely holding on and clawing for some shred of my old life. I'm finally getting to the point where I'm okay with accepting that yes, my old life may be gone, but the new one is still full of things that matter as long as I'm patient with myself and limit the pressure and expectations. For those of you out there who I've know, whether it's been for a long time or only recently, I value you so much. It genuinely hurts to be unable to convey how much more I wish I could do for and with you. What we do get means the world to me. Thank you for helping me view the world not in terms of the time I've lost but rather instead in what I do when time is limited and a precious thing to share when I can with who I love.

So an artist I've admired from afar is doing a raffle and I'm throwing in. Draws some of the softest, silkiest bodies around! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61275337/

It's been a little over two months since my dad died and I think the permanence is really setting in. He used to call me every Sunday and the absence of that is getting harder every week. Add to that the republican budget plan that guts medicaid is close to passing the senate. I'm making things work now with incremental strides but if I lose my health insurance, I think the idea of living on my own is just shot. It's exhausting and demoralizing. I'm trying to keep my projects and hobbies alive but it's really uphill sometimes. I'm gonna need as much support as possible in the coming months I fear. At this rate I don't know if any of my ideas will ever see the light of day as full stories but even sharing them piecemeal has been very rewarding. Thanks for all the kind words and interest in my settings. I don't know what else to say except take care of each other and do your best to keep your dreams going. I can't promise consistency or reliability but I will promise not to give up.

https://www.furaffinity.net/commissions/kitkabbit/
Preferred Platform: Discord (username: kitkabbit)

I'm giving this a shot! I have no idea about interest or if I'll need to adjust my prices but I'm trying to be a more effective jack-of-all trades while my software career is still a little murky with my health. Now I'll bypass the imposter syndrome thing and be real: I'm not an amazing artist yet. I don't know if I ever will be. My promise is that I will give you my best and am very amiable to work with. Please stop by or share. Questions and clarifications always welcome since I'm so new at this. Even if this doesn't take off, I think it's important to take risks and be vulnerable sometimes when it comes to getting out there. It may also have to do with my struggle to have this mythical substance I have heard legends of called income. But improvement and engagement is always important. Trying new things and learning is like one of the biggest things I live for with my precarious health routinely fucking my life up. That and secret special alone super squeaky fun time but we don't talk about that (except in DMs where I do entirely too open and often). Anyway, thanks to everyone who reads this even if you don't give it a go. The only thing more important to me than learning new things to keep the zest for life, is connecting with people.

P.S. I also want to do writing commissions but I don't even have any idea where to start pricing those. Just contact me and we can discuss it if you're interested. I'm a better writer than artist so I'm open to ideas on a fair price.

Coming Soon
Sketches
Inking
Coloring
Shading
Writing on demand (NSFW included)

Heya. So I know that I'm not exactly doing the best with consistent content creation or accumulating a following, but I'm deeply grateful for friends and followers that take even a sliver of their time and interest in me. I have finally moved out and that's been AMAZING. Totally worth it to be damn near broke. Regarding that, I have not been doing my best health wise and it's been hard to keep at the software engineering. My stamina is really awful and I have maybe a few hours every day where I have my full focus. I'm working as a junior game dev on a porn game X3, further solidifying my jack of all trades career path. It seems that for every step forward and challenge faced, a new one ambushes me. Such is life, right? I have it pretty good compared to many so I try to keep upbeat as should you. I think I'd be very happy if I didn't sometimes still feel the pangs of grief for who I was before I needed surgeries and started the hardest five years of my life. That Kit is for all intents and purposes, dead.

This Kit now however is as indomitable as he is stupid and gay. Knowing I can't work even close to full time, I'm going to dedicate myself to making things in the state I am. Be that software, art, or writing. I am opening commissions as soon as I figure out fair prices to keep afloat since the ol' day job just isn't easy for me. Suggestions welcome on prices! My line art is still shit but I do some good inking, coloring, and writing according to a lot of folks. I want to be reliable and a pillar for people but let's face it, I'm not. I'll bust my butt for my clients and friends but alas, there is not a lot of butt to bust atm. I can only do my best with the ceaseless limitations I strain against. That's the best any of us can do. Please take care of each other in these frankly batshit times, and thank you all again for your interest in my stories and characters. Thank you for the occasional financial support and for being the friendliest, most loving network of online friends that I've ever had.

P.S. some of you may know that I have worked with AI in a professional capacity. Setting up LLMs for a client's website is not the same as producing things that aren't mine and selling them. I will never produce AI images as commissions and anything I've made while staying apprised of the field will remain private. I consider them novelties produced by a digital toy, not art. All of my posts and commissions will remain the product of my very flawed and deeply deranged human mind trying to create and learn.

I've been having a challenging several weeks but wanted to mention why I'm profoundly grateful anyway. My health has been an utter roller coaster ever since I nearly died and needed several surgeries two and a half years ago. It's been hard to function with ongoing chronic digestive issues and struggles with stamina. I either have the most extreme edge of IBS or some bigger autoimmune issues but the doctors aren't sure. And honestly that's the hardest part. If I could figure out what's going on or what days will be normal and which will be nonstarters I think I'd be adapting so much better.

Nevertheless this has been an amazing several weeks too and that's what I want to focus on. In truth I have a ton to be grateful for. I have started e-dating a certain Brave Wolf who makes me smile multiple times every single day. I've made a lot of friends on Discord and made an effort to see my IRL friends a bit more. I've had a big influx of creativity and art coming in from neat artists whom I plan to get many more pieces from. I'm even doing some cursory house hunting with my friends and future roomies. My games may never reach fruition but I am so happy that I'm sharing what little bits I can.

It's easy to let the wonderful things going on in our lives feel like the background not the focus when we have things we can't control make life hard and the world seems so divided and tense. I could easily give in to my frustration (and I do sometimes believe me) but I could also keep reminding myself what to be grateful for and excited about. I hope to keep updating my galleries with my surge of creative impulses and active drive to get more art done for me. Seeing my ideas come to life and focusing on things and people I love makes me really happy. Since one of those things is sharing ideas with the world, I want to thank you too!

Special Thanks
- Bulwark, my beloved confidant who supports me and helps drive my creativity and hopes for the future in profound ways
- Brave, my sweetheart with so much inspiring passion and warmth
- My family who have kept me afloat and inspired in countless ways
- My friend group for never giving up on me no matter how often I have to cancel on them
-  rickgriffin for having such interesting stories, for interacting with your fans so often despite your widespread success, and for cultivating the hands down friendliest and most enjoyable Discord server I know.
-  jonas for his commissions and being one of the funniest and nicest people in the community
- kitfox-crimson whose comics, streams, and commissions have given me tons of things to consistently look forward to
- HoltzWorks for helping me get awesome art with VERY poorly described art and iffy references
- denofimagination for putting up awesome miniature paint jobs and giving me lots of ideas
-  Keaton for being a really committed artist helping me work through a hazy concept to beautiful concept art in real time and just a few days
-  Turo for being an amazing person to talk to, whether it's talking about our stories or sparring over our differing views on things like AI, and for giving me my first really detailed reference sheets for my own fursona and main character
-  Sn1ck for being amazingly supportive, inviting me to his server which has become my favorite, and for being the nicest hardcore gamer I've ever met
-  Conrie for being a fun and fascinating person to talk with and letting me in on one of their many ongoing comics
-  PaniniciniAlfredo for being cute and friendly as well as having so many characters that I don't feel nearly as bad about my heavy roster and complex stories
-  Sauvagess for introducing me to awesome artists and being a blast to talk to. No one appreciates old video game music quite like you.