Heya! Yeah hard to believe I'm using journals more here but good reason to this time around cause its for a dear friend of ours! Cause yes, we will always be looking out for her as much as we can here as long as we can! Been a few unexpected costs piling up there for her so i'm trying to help how i can even if its just getting a voice out there!

If you like a lot of the art we've gotten recently here, feel free to check out our dear friend  Nightwish-Kasuri here! Seriously i can never get over all the work she's done for us since we first met here and i still adore it to bits even today here!

Hard to think i'm going on 26 here! Just as hard thinking how much has changed over the last 5 years here since i really started getting into furry stuff as well! Almost 5 years since Mera came to be my sona... God its been way too long-

Came out as trans, found my partner, found out i was a system, still been at the job i started back when i first went into college... Found some of my best friends over the years thanks to this place! It's hard really to say too much deep you know? I'm just thankful for all i've been able to see over the years here, the good memories i've been able to make even if its more than shoddy anymore here just because it felt right being a dumb little cat dragon thing on the internet! Sure, things are rough in the world here, it's hard to ever ignore that but its not going to stop me from looking fondly on all that has been part of my life here!

That i get to keep saying hi to my newfound sister  Nightwish-Kasuri every morning here. That i get to enjoy the goober thats our one and only Spectrobe  Zaci and all the antics that Aster and i get up to again and again? All the friends i've made... What else can i say here but thank you all for everything again and again here!

Like i know it's not really that weird of a liked kink, i mean a ton of people are into pregnancy stuff!... But honestly i don't know if it just seems weird from an outside view given i'm a trans girl and often want to see my sona pregnant... I honestly don't know what it is but a lot of the sight of it just brings me some sort of catharsis more than any sort of lust most points, but sometimes it's hard not to question if it's something i shouldn't do.

I mean i'm not going to stop truthfully, but it's just hard not to wonder if it's wrong in a way? Being disingenuous?... I don't really know how to describe the thought at that point, but it just makes me wonder if people are thinking I'm just putting on an act given me being trans and i don't really know what brought it up at this point. I know Mera is my sona and i treat her as a bit of a representation of me, but at the same time it's more of a fantastical version that could do things i only wish i could do at times, some sort of wish fulfillment for wanting to experience what i could only really dream of at points as much as i long for such an experience that i know i'll probably never be able to know in my lifetime here.

I know none of it's real, i mean Mera's an eldritch slime gal that has the freedom to do whatever hear heart desires! But i suppose with her having connection to me it's just hard not to feel like it's wrong at the same time. Honestly at this point i'm thinking it's more the stress from work and headaches from allergies talking, but i think it just feels a bit better to get my thoughts out rather than just letting them mull about in my head until they start getting unhealthy.

Yeah it's been a hot minute since i've really been here. Look it's hard to find a lot of reason to try and use this place even without my backlog hassle... It's just hard to keep up with things as busy as life is and it's just harder to feel like it's really worth it uploading stuff here especially since Dragoneer's sudden passing!


Maybe i'll start posting again in the future but for the time there's at least something i came back for, that being a little bit of fun thanks to a friend of mine! You've probably seen a lot of art from me here and other places courtesy of  Nightwish-Kasuri and that certainly isn't changing at this point thanks to them making a little date night ych!

If you're up for a bit of regular or a little spicier fun with Mera then feel free to give the post a look! Just be aware of limits and maybe give Night's gallery a look over to see what works for them if you are planning on placing a bid!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/58403991/

Well it's been a while since i last did anything here huh? Figured at the very least i'd make a bit of something for the place so it doesn't entirely go unused for now...

To be honest i just really haven't felt like using this place for a lot of reasons, bad memories given some things, questionable choices in TOS and otherwise poor moderation choices during the whole kerfuffle of changes early this year, outdated design of the site itself (Seriously how do we not have a blacklist option yet?) a massive backlog on my end that just trying to tag to my standards would be a nightmare... There's just been a lot going on for me and i just haven't wanted to focus on here given how inconsequential it all seems...

I mean why should i? I'm not an artist, i'm barely even a writer at this point as bad of a lack of drive as i have any more so what's really the point? I could understand if i did commission work but all this is anymore is just a gallery for my comms and nothing more. Sure i've made some good memories with folks and even in the end found my true self!... But it's just hard to see much a reason to stick around for a long while outside of looking for any potential artists to get something from. I mean it's not like i'm other places yet since i always got a twitter to look over (God that change of name is still the stupidest thing i've seen, who the fuck is going to call a place like twitter X? Sounds more like a porno site rather than a social media platform)

I mean i'll probably be back in the end, can't really stay away from the place that made me the gal i am today now can i? But that's some time for next year since for now i'm just taking this time to myself and hoping for better when it comes to things.

Here's hoping to a wonderful new year for us all!

Hey i know i really don't make journals much at this point but i at least have a good reason to for once! A good friend of mine  Nightwish-Kasuri ran into so unexpected troubles and are hurting a bit in funds so they're opening up some emergency comms to try and help cover some of it and i wanted to give a bit of a boost for them!

Here's the link to their post on it! I know they're my friend so theres a bit of bias here but i can definitely recommend them! I don't think i would have been able to show myself the way i have without them!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53098592/

I haven't really been able to get my creative juices flowing at this point so sadly i'll be closing these down... Maybe i'll get that drive back at some point but that clearly isn't now...

Well my brain has been in a bit of a funk when it comes to writing at this point, been wanting to write more but nothing's really seemed appealing to me when it comes to actually getting something wrote... Can't tell if it's just a lack of motivation, some mental hangups or just stress from things like work or such, but i'm in the mood to figure something out! So i figured i might turn to other folks for any ideas on what they might want to see when it comes to my writings! Probably will only accept one or two in the end but i might take extra if i find the motivation!

So for the moment i'm opening up to the realm of writing requests from anyone watching me! Just drop an idea even if it's vague for a story down in the comments of the journal and if i'm really liking something i might just write it out! Though that bit of burnout hitting me i'm going to make a few things clear for this so we're all on the same page.

The story itself will be about 2000 words max, i really don't want to burn myself out again so it's more a precautionary thing for me but i might go above that count if i'm feeling particularly inspired by something!

I'll be limiting these to one or two sonas/Ocs from folk and any character of mine is fair game for a story but i would ask you to respect their preferences in the case of specific sexualities (Namely Zeke and Aster) alongside my own in terms of content. I'll not be accepting any requests that involve zoophilia or other illegal kinks by nature nor will i accept any that involve unsanitary subjects I.E scat, watersports ect...

I'm primarily a vore based writer with some steps into the realm of NSFW so keep that in mind when making a request!

Well as i made clear in my earlier post from today, i'm coming out as trans to folk at this point! It's honestly been a journey to get to this point but just having it out there and known just took a huge weight of my shoulders that i couldn't begin to describe compared to before! These thoughts had kinda been piling on me for a few years in reality and only just recently have i finally come to terms with everything thanks to the help of a good friend of mine...

Is it going to change who i am fundamentally? Of course not! Well in the traditional sense anyway... I'll always be that same vorny fucker you see creeping out the window occasionally just with a new version of herself that she doesn't have to be scared of showing anymore! And with that comes the question i thought of when it came to my sona... Well it's safe to say Mera's sticking with me till the very end seeing how they're a major part of me, but they're going to be getting a new side of themselves as well to match! This really has been a journey and a half the whole while, but I'm certainly glad i was able to see this part of it through!

I still have a long way to go in the end, but i'm never going to stop in the road to be my true self in the end even with the obstacles in front of me right now! All i can hope is that the world around us learns to better itself like i'm seeking to myself and only time will tell what roads open and close ahead...

Oh and to anyone who's reading this and doesn't like what they're hearing? Why don't you do both of us a favor and show yourself out the door kay? I'm out here to live my own life and if you've got a problem with that then keep it to yourself, i think we'd all be better for it~

Well given the fact I'll be busy with work tonight and there's no other entries coming in, i think there's no better time than now to wrap up the raffle! Sure there might not have been many entries into it but honestly i do appreciate the lot of you who do follow me for any of the stuff i post no matter how big or small it is in the end but that's drawing into sappy territory!

But now comes the fun part of it all with announcing the winner of the raffle! Or should i say winners! Thanks to it being the season of giving i figured what better way to show some festive cheer than by giving out an extra one! Honestly it was my plan to give away two stories no matter how many people entered xD

That's besides the case though at this point! To both  TheLatiKing and  xPlasma comes a story! Feel free to send me a note here or message on discord over what you might what your story to entail and I'll brainstorm with you to get something wonderful made!

Edit: The raffle section of this journal has concluded!

It's uh... Been a while since i last mentioned anything since my last journal huh? Hehe... Honestly life's just been busy for me so the plan was kinda on hold for a while given the hell that is the holidays when it comes to work but i finally got things sorted out and it's pretty much raring to go on both fronts! As this is a double feature of plans!

The first one? Well i went ahead and decided to make a little discord server for folks to hang out in! Honestly i don't see it has something focused on me in particular as rather than that, we got ourselves a nice little space for folks to hang out in and shoot the breeze when it comes to the world of kinks! Was it a good idea to make it at this point? Honestly have no idea but i figured if anything it would be a fun little thing to get running!
https://discord.gg/NR2qzM4hXe

As for the second bit... Remember how i said i didn't have plans for a raffle? Yeah well that turned out to be a lie, if not intentionally at least... Sadly it's not anything major like getting a piece done by a specific artist or such but it is something with a bit more of a personal touch to it as i'm in the mood to write for some folks! So i'm throwing out a chance for folks to get a story from me! Gives me an excuse to try and write more while also being a slight attempt at work for others!

All you have to do to enter is be watching and leave a comment on this journal! The raffle will go on for 7 days after which i'll choose one winner from the bunch! There aren't any ways to grab extra entries but if enough folks enter i might give out a second one as well, but honestly i don't foresee that happening... But that's enough of that! It's better i lay things out so you know what you're getting into for it.

1. The story itself will be between a minimum of 2000 words and maximum of 4000 words long give or take on the maximum end! The end length will be up to me in the end but i will work with you to make sure it's to your liking as well as mine in the end!

2. You can have any OC of mine included in the story! However, i'll only be writing a story with OC's and OC's/Sona's alone, characters from media sources are not allowed a story in an effort to save my own sanity

3. As for how many characters can be a maximum of two characters but i'm not too picky on how it can play out! It can be a solo character story with vague uses of others for it... Two of your own characters... One of mine and one of yours... As long as there aren't more than two it's fair game!

4. The contents of the story are predominantly up to you! But there are a few subjects i don't want to touch... Aside from some of the obvious ones like any form of Zoophilia and other illegal options, I won't have anything to do with stories that involve gore, unsanitary kinks such as scat watersports etc among other things. I'm primarily a vore writer with a small stint into basic NSFW writing so keep that in mind and that i have the final say in what i will and won't write.

Other than that, i'm glad you've all stuck around for this and i'm just as happy to stick around for the future!

Well... This certainly isn't something i expected to reach when i first joined a year and a half back, but here we are and honestly, it's hard to articulate just how both odd and wonderful it feels! Sure, i might not be toooo social of a person but i figured if anything it wouldn't hurt to at least thank you all for showing up and tolerating my vorny and horny stuff in the first place!

You know, i'd have done something special like a raffle or such for all this but in all honesty i didn't think i'd be reaching a point like this at all (That an i've always been kinda nervous in talking with artists for coms outside of ych stuff) but that's not to say i don't have something in the works! Even if far less grandiose than such a thing like a raffle... But i'll make another journal when that's all ready!

But i think that's beside the point right now! Like i said before, i kinda want to thank all of you for making it just feel like a bit more welcoming of an environment for me! Sure, it still might be hard to talk with people i find interesting, but it honestly just feels comfortable knowing there's people around that have at least some interests in the shenanigans i get up to anymore! So really, from the bottom of my heart i can't thank y'all enough even if it seems like a small number to some, it means a lot to me at this point!

Well here's something i never thought i would be taking part in but it seems like the times have changed! Thanks to (only now) realizing the fact that Voretober allows for story writing stuff alongside artwork and such, i figured i might as well join in on everything with stuff of my own creation this time around!

I have been feeling the urge to write crop up once more and for once i am going to be indulging in it again finally! Honestly lacked the drive to write for a long time but this kinda gave me the kickstart i needed to get my rear in gear again! I do have a few stories planned out for the month going forward, mostly Day 3 (Hunt), Day 8 (Karma), Day 17 (Lure), and Day 21 (Stalk)

But... I thought it might be fun to hear out some situations from y'all with my little group for extra stories! Honestly i don't plan on doing everything for the month but if i do find some inspiration i'll try my best to work on them as well! Keep in mind though i am mostly endo focused with the occasional bit of digestion so that might skew my choices but i really do like hearing the thoughts of others as well, so feel free to mention any ideas you might have!

Oh and if you need a reference for the prompts, here's the link to the official list! https://www.furaffinity.net/view/48879643/