Im looking to get a reference sheet done. Still dont have one and im itchin to get it done. If your willing, please dont hesitate to comment. if you know someone that is willing, please direct them to me or me to them.

Thank ya much guys!! appreciate it, peace ^.=.^

I finally find someone. Finally find someone that is just what im looking for and i go and Shoot myself in the foot with my retarded Insecurities and hesitations. Ive messed up everything in my life thus far, and seem this is just another add on to it. I dont know if its fixable. I hope that it is. cause i really dont think i can do it again after this. So scared of messing it up, i messed it up by trying to keep it safe. *Headbutts a wall* If stupidity had fur, itd look just like me. All i can do now is hope that my retardedness can be overlooked. I just need to know so i can stop crying.

Me and my dragon have been living together for the better part of 2 years now. and yet things seem to be getting more and more strained. its an open relationship and yet he still reeks of jealousy when i spend time with my pet husky. hell, its not even sexual half the time and yet he still becomes mopey and closed off.
Ive been trying to be possitive enough for both of us, but that's just not happening. i know its a bit selfish of me, but i cant bear the burden of school, work, social life and mate and pet. plus emotional fluxs, random cold shoulder treatment, uncuddled, sexual frustration (thats a WHOLE'nother story) and overly protective.
I told him from the beginning; Im independent, i am romantic, but not overly so, and i flirt. I told him im not a good mate to have as his first time. i warned him, and hell, i even curbed my behavior to make him more comfortable with things. but as time goes on, im not sure what i am to him. just a trophy Chimara that he can take off the shelf when he wants to play and ignore otherwise? or a sacred treasure hes trying to keep all to himself. either way, i cant. ive learned long ago, that over cling = uncomfortable fox dragon.
I've been trying to give him extra attention the last couple of weeks. staying home, talking to him more. makeing myself more available. since i dont know what is up with him, (and yes ive asked. all ive gotten is "nothing", "dont worry about it" or "...") i dont want to just bounce into his bed, or invade his room, so ive been making it obvious that he can come to talk cuddle, kiss hug, just be with me....that all i want, i dont need yiff, or kink or anything (although these are all pluses) i just want someone to be my companion, and not feel like im walking on egg shells whenever i leave the house or go to hang out with others because he is encased in ice.
...*sigh* its a shame, cause my puppy is turning out to be there more for me then my "mate".

Me and my dragon have been living together for the better part of 2 years now. and yet things seem to be getting more and more strained. its an open relationship and yet he still reeks of jealousy when i spend time with my pet husky. hell, its not even sexual half the time and yet he still becomes mopey and closed off.
Ive been trying to be possitive enough for both of us, but that's just not happening. i know its a bit selfish of me, but i cant bear the burden of school, work, social life and mate and pet. plus emotional fluxs, random cold shoulder treatment, uncuddled, sexual frustration (thats a WHOLE'nother story) and overly protective.
I told him from the beginning; Im independent, i am romantic, but not overly so, and i flirt. I told him im not a good mate to have as his first time. i warned him, and hell, i even curbed my behavior to make him more comfortable with things. but as time goes on, im not sure what i am to him. just a trophy Chimara that he can take off the shelf when he wants to play and ignore otherwise? or a sacred treasure hes trying to keep all to himself. either way, i cant. ive learned long ago, that over cling = uncomfortable fox dragon.
I've been trying to give him extra attention the last couple of weeks. staying home, talking to him more. makeing myself more available. since i dont know what is up with him, (and yes ive asked. all ive gotten is "nothing", "dont worry about it" or "...") i dont want to just bounce into his bed, or invade his room, so ive been making it obvious that he can come to talk cuddle, kiss hug, just be with me....that all i want, i dont need yiff, or kink or anything (although these are all pluses) i just want someone to be my companion, and not feel like im walking on egg shells whenever i leave the house or go to hang out with others because he is encased in ice.
...*sigh* its a shame, cause my puppy is turning out to be there more for me then my "mate".

youll think im amazing as long as i keep giving everything. as soon as i hold something back, or try to take for myself, im suddenly not as perfect.
So what am i suppose to do. keep giving until there is nothing left of me. Until im worn out and nothing but a husk. no, ive gone down that avenue, and i didn't much care for it.
but then what, feel guilty every time i try to pull away, worried if your gonna be mad or depressed because i want to have some time to myself. is it really that selfish of me? to want to just be alone for a few hours? a day? a weekend? and to do that with out a wall of guilt?

Hey'all. I'm looking to get a Reference Sheet for my Fursona done. Ive never really asked for a commission before so i am a bit lost as to who to ask or what to ask for. So if anyone can point me in the correct direction it would be greatly appreciated ^_^. thank ya muuuuchu!!

Once we stopped at the red light he turned to me, a huge smile on his face. "happy Valentines Day!" his grin growing as his eyes sparkled from the traffic passing us by.
I swear, if i had not been strapped in by that seat belt, i would have lunged at him and nuzzled the fur off his cute lil husky neck. instead i smirk in the usual way i do, and turn away slightly, to hide the blushing "you too hun..." and rest my head on his shoulder as we continue down the road.

my disappointment bar is full. so im gonna disregard any goals that i was focusing on, and just get some new ones to set up, cause this dont seem to be workin out too well and im very done with being denied

how do you tell someone to shut the hell up without being mean about it. goddamn. for a straight guy, my best friend sure does put a lot of effort in shooting down or disliking anyone that i like. ugh

have you ever wanted something, so much, that you'd wait forever for it? and each time you think you've found it, its beautiful, until you dig a little and see that its not exactly what you were looking for. so you just enjoy it until its gone, and after a while, you find it again, just in a different package. and the cycle continues, in different packages, and different levels. until one day, you find it. again. in another package, but this time, you dig and dig. and its there. exactly what you wanted.

So. I wanna draw something besides Jun and Storm lol. please toss ideas at me, cause im at a loss heh.

Also, i think i need a bit of help with coloring, if anyone has any tips, tricks, links, toss them my way please ^_^

<3's for everyone