i am thinking of getting a car so i can do some uber rides and things like that while i am unemployed but for that i would need more money than i have atm
anyone has any ideas?
comms do sell slowly but surely, and when i do discounts they then to stay the same
and last years growth drive did quite well but mostly 2 people donated more than half of it
not oposed to do a new one but what characters they could be?
just looking for ideas

I do will say no to patreon as i just tend to put things here and mostly here so i know i wont be updating that, which kinda defeats the point of patreon

Some reflections:

Today i had a quite productive therapy session, for why i am writing this, it is more to not have it bottled up anymore.

I have a lot of trouble being social in groups, like a ton, and i know why i have them, my problem is that time after time i do try to be more social and i just go back, i don't seem to be able to go out and stay there.

As for why i do have troubles with that, i will be as short as possible, school bullying, a quite lonely childhood, somethings with family, and quite probably aspergers, idk never tested, but as many people say i have it, including people who know about it. (should i get tested yes, but doing one thing at the time).

Trying to just say anything in public, it takes me a lot of effort, just like 30m of just writing and rewriting what to put, what to say, and just spiraling what ifs what ifs, and more than half of the time i end up saying nothing. Between that, i also have an extreme problem with feeling ignored, tough is not being ignored, its feeling ignored. I CAN know that i am not being ignored, but i CANT stop feeling it. Which just makes me go back to not saying anything as my dumbass brain just go to yell at myself “you are annoying, they dont want you here” and so on and on and on. I can know something logically, but sentimentality, thats where it just goes down, all the anxiety, all the fear and the what ifs.

I love when someone just messages, just a simple hi means the world to me, just feeling that i am not annoying them, that they do want to interact with me, is just such a great moment, to be happy. and i do feel like i owe something to the people that talk to me, as i do keep feeling that i am annoying them at times, which yeah, isnt good, but this last part is getting better this last years.

i just want to put it on public, just sorry for making things awkward if i did, for being silent, i am trying, and yeah i will probably will keep failing at times

Heya sending a reminder that i have a discord server if anyone here is interested in joining!

discord.gg/AQ2ByGBp

discord.gg/6AjgvSrX
for anyone interested i got a discord server
its my most up to date gallery lol

https://bsky.app/profile/juanchongo...../3lr43czm5nc2v
winners
1st winner
raxinath.bsky.social
2nd winner
centaurus20 (on FA)

Heya! this morning the family car broke down, and there isnt money to repair it only more debt
so for all this month (April) comms are 50% OFF
anything helps!
*except NSFW ones

Price sheet:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59359486/

In how i see things
if you want to talk to me you can
but as i see a lot of people that say that they want but do 0 effort while i am the only one activly interacting with them
i just can not think their are one lying about or just i am so un important that i am just forgotten
which its just such a wonderful feling
you can coment, you can dm, just go and just say hi or a random meme, but i guess its just too much to ask
i am always open to chat, always just message whenever, i dont care i will respond when i am able to

and at last i decided this night i will leave a lot of discord's servers since idk what i am doing there

I don't like my birthday, because it reminds me of who remembers that I exist enough to text or say something stupid
I don't like to remember that the vast majority of people I talk to, if I don't talk first, they don't say anything, for months
They don't say a single thing
always to be the one to start the chat, gets fucking boring
i am so fucking tired of it
i bottled it since my birthday, but cant hold it anymore
and i know i will kept doing it as i am a fucking dumbass

A reminder that i got comms fully open dm here or on discord (juanchongo2)

Comms are super open atm i got no job so i have quite a lot of free time!
you can check prizes here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/59359486/
you can dm here or on my discord

Hello, i am tryong to be more social once more as my job is about to end, so i am asking who would like to join to a discord server if i made one?

still got no job and 1st payment of the new pc arrived and one third of my savings are gone, so i neeeeeeeeeeed some income, if anyone wants a drawing i am more than aviable, i can ofert discount for drawings in "packs" meaning, buying more than 1 drawing, or putting more characters on it will get a lower price than it should be
ex: 2 fullbodys would be 28$ if both are flat colors, so i could let it be 20$

i am here just asking, what would you like to see more of? like what character or any ideas that you might have