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Posted 2 months agoI think I'm just writing this late at night. If I wake up and see that I wrote this and thought it was embarrassing or dumb or silly... You know why it's gone.
Anyway. I'm just thinking, I guess. I've met a lot of people, so many magnificent people, and it can be a little overwhelming (and can be as a result of choice paralysis, feelings of unwantedness, isolation, connection, etc.) to reach out and grab onto someone. Maybe it's just that sort of late night bad brain.
If you wanted to reconnect with me... Feel free! I've been wanting to be more interactive with furry people recently. And I'm also in a depressive slump. Pat my head and tell me how sweet I am.
Anyway. I'm just thinking, I guess. I've met a lot of people, so many magnificent people, and it can be a little overwhelming (and can be as a result of choice paralysis, feelings of unwantedness, isolation, connection, etc.) to reach out and grab onto someone. Maybe it's just that sort of late night bad brain.
If you wanted to reconnect with me... Feel free! I've been wanting to be more interactive with furry people recently. And I'm also in a depressive slump. Pat my head and tell me how sweet I am.
Your Little Update On Ivy
Posted 4 months agoI'm writing this journal just to have some emotional venting that I feel like I've been holding in! There's a lot to talk about, and I'm never much one to share my struggles! I prefer to appear lovely, radiant, and glamorous! Anyway!
I've been feeling pretty good recently. I just recovered from some illness. I can't taste much in the way umami or savory foods. It's actually pretty rank. But aside from that, I'm mostly recovered. I would give anything to not experience long covid again, thank goodness.
Wanting to write and actually writing are two distinct feelings that I've been having to overcome. I have a couple of projects on the backburner. I always bite off more than I can chew. Just when I thought I was getting back in the swing of writing projects, a new game to speedrun comes along. Did you know I do that?
Yes, I've been speedrunning the flavor of the month game R.E.P.O., and it's pretty good. YouTube has been going along nicely, some good traffic there. It's nice to actually pick up games and speedrun them without being overly frustrated as I had prior. Being in the sunsetting phase of some hobbies can be sad (specifically in reference to moving on from specific other speed games), but speedrunning keeps me fixated and motivated on something new and enticing.
I've always been an entertainer at heart. Luckily, the community surrounding the game has been rather nice. I don't feel as though my work is diminished or my efforts wasted.
I have a few commissions in the works right now. We'll see what happens to those!
Thank you to all who voted on the watcher preference poll! It's pretty cut and dry, but I'm glad that I have a wide range of enjoyment from my watchers on FurAffinity. In case you were curious, here were the results:
Sizeplay | 24.82% (34 votes)
Macro | 24.09% (33 votes)
Hyper | 21.17% (29 votes)
Vore (in general) |18.25% (25 votes)
Transformation | 11.68% (16 votes)
For a long time, I've felt like making a journal like this wasn't particularly appealing, but maybe I'm just in a good mood tonight and want my own personal little void to talk to.
I've been wanting to pick up Vintage Story or Don't Starve Together again, but the time commitment has me scratching my head. I'm at a point with some furry relationships where I want to like, actively be their friend but it's hard to push through that glass ceiling, as it were. It's hard to voice that without seeming pushy, right? I'm very shy, reserved, and am surprisingly normal when it comes to voice chat. Or at least I like to think so.
I finished Jojo Bizarre Adventure about a month ago. The entirety of it was highly enjoyable with some caveats. I like to appreciate the time capsules of the internet and read reviews and praise of the time, but some stuff ended up bothering me that, while my watching group had the opinion of, the vocal majority of the internet disagreed with. (I'm looking at you, Part 5.) I don't have much in terms of my media pipeline. I sparingly appreciate the media available in the world, but similarly to my enjoyment of Attack on Titan, Jojo's was very nice throughout.
Could you guess what part is my favorite...? https://i.imgur.com/JfFT8Je.png
I don't have too much to report on. I'm broke right now. LOL. Emotionally keeping afloat. I would love to do some popup story commissions in the future. If you want to give me money to write for you we can talk about it probably!
I've been feeling pretty good recently. I just recovered from some illness. I can't taste much in the way umami or savory foods. It's actually pretty rank. But aside from that, I'm mostly recovered. I would give anything to not experience long covid again, thank goodness.
Wanting to write and actually writing are two distinct feelings that I've been having to overcome. I have a couple of projects on the backburner. I always bite off more than I can chew. Just when I thought I was getting back in the swing of writing projects, a new game to speedrun comes along. Did you know I do that?
Yes, I've been speedrunning the flavor of the month game R.E.P.O., and it's pretty good. YouTube has been going along nicely, some good traffic there. It's nice to actually pick up games and speedrun them without being overly frustrated as I had prior. Being in the sunsetting phase of some hobbies can be sad (specifically in reference to moving on from specific other speed games), but speedrunning keeps me fixated and motivated on something new and enticing.
I've always been an entertainer at heart. Luckily, the community surrounding the game has been rather nice. I don't feel as though my work is diminished or my efforts wasted.
I have a few commissions in the works right now. We'll see what happens to those!
Thank you to all who voted on the watcher preference poll! It's pretty cut and dry, but I'm glad that I have a wide range of enjoyment from my watchers on FurAffinity. In case you were curious, here were the results:
Sizeplay | 24.82% (34 votes)
Macro | 24.09% (33 votes)
Hyper | 21.17% (29 votes)
Vore (in general) |18.25% (25 votes)
Transformation | 11.68% (16 votes)
For a long time, I've felt like making a journal like this wasn't particularly appealing, but maybe I'm just in a good mood tonight and want my own personal little void to talk to.
I've been wanting to pick up Vintage Story or Don't Starve Together again, but the time commitment has me scratching my head. I'm at a point with some furry relationships where I want to like, actively be their friend but it's hard to push through that glass ceiling, as it were. It's hard to voice that without seeming pushy, right? I'm very shy, reserved, and am surprisingly normal when it comes to voice chat. Or at least I like to think so.
I finished Jojo Bizarre Adventure about a month ago. The entirety of it was highly enjoyable with some caveats. I like to appreciate the time capsules of the internet and read reviews and praise of the time, but some stuff ended up bothering me that, while my watching group had the opinion of, the vocal majority of the internet disagreed with. (I'm looking at you, Part 5.) I don't have much in terms of my media pipeline. I sparingly appreciate the media available in the world, but similarly to my enjoyment of Attack on Titan, Jojo's was very nice throughout.
Could you guess what part is my favorite...? https://i.imgur.com/JfFT8Je.png
I don't have too much to report on. I'm broke right now. LOL. Emotionally keeping afloat. I would love to do some popup story commissions in the future. If you want to give me money to write for you we can talk about it probably!
Watcher preference poll!
Posted 6 months agoHi there!! I was curious about my watchers' preference and such, mostly because of the wide variety of kinks!
I deleted my past two journals because I was a little self conscious on just how poor I am with upkeeping journals. I would admittedly like to interact with people more on this site, just because it gives me nostalgic forum vibes more than anything.
I've also considered making a Twitter for better outreach, and writing more. I have bits and pieces of stories that I've written, but completing them and putting the seal on them is quite difficult. Finishing writing is so hard for me, despite the fact that I know my stories aren't going to be grand. Ggiving glimpses into my writing and the saucier parts of my mind is the purpose of those stories.
I'm always so thankful with how many people interact with my posts!
Here's the relevant poll if you would like. You can just click all the buttons to tell me I'm extra pretty, but I would like to maybe use the information for a potential direction on what I could do for 500 watchers. :P
https://strawpoll.com/GeZARwExbyV
I deleted my past two journals because I was a little self conscious on just how poor I am with upkeeping journals. I would admittedly like to interact with people more on this site, just because it gives me nostalgic forum vibes more than anything.
I've also considered making a Twitter for better outreach, and writing more. I have bits and pieces of stories that I've written, but completing them and putting the seal on them is quite difficult. Finishing writing is so hard for me, despite the fact that I know my stories aren't going to be grand. Ggiving glimpses into my writing and the saucier parts of my mind is the purpose of those stories.
I'm always so thankful with how many people interact with my posts!
Here's the relevant poll if you would like. You can just click all the buttons to tell me I'm extra pretty, but I would like to maybe use the information for a potential direction on what I could do for 500 watchers. :P
https://strawpoll.com/GeZARwExbyV
