Thats right today i am now 30 years old heh... holy crap, I can't believe I've been in this community for almost 15 years. I know, i know i haven't really been around much in recent years. in fact last time i was here was last birthday. Now i realize i can't just vanish for a year and return with no explanation. as far as real life goes, im alright, im a little sick, ive been coughing but its not too bad, i dont think its covid. I still work my boring little part time job and believe it or not i still do art. I dunno ive been feeling like in recent years it wasn't really worth posting so i keep putting off sharing my content. i dunno if its just me getting older or im too self-conscious but im trying to get over it. I dunno if ill post today but ill try to tomorrow.

I'd like to try and be a part of the community again. i say that every year but lately ive really been trying to get my groove and focus more on my art and have been streaming more often. maybe sorta soft reboot myself. Which brings me to my next point, going forward im gunna try to shy away from more of the stranger fetishes out there for commission work. A while ago in the commission tab i now have a Tos and a long list of things i won't do anymore, including fan art of official franchises. Maybe sometime ill set up a document for people to fill out in the future. I'm pretty much only an OC artist now, which maybe great for those who have characters and fursonas etc.

if you wanna follow my work im still on here, deviant art, picarto TV for streams https://picarto.tv/ionic44
and i may dust off twitter and post mine and art done by others. https://twitter.com/ionic44

i hope all of you are doing well. if i haven't seen you in a while. please come chat me up in DMs. id love to hear whats going on.

ugh.... i feel so old... and crusty
Anyways how are yall doing? yea i know it's been a while. i felt like i i'm long overdue to give you guys an update. let me first start by saying i'm on Twitter now. I'f you prefer that site to this then now you can start seeing me upload content on there. if you hate that site thats fine, ill still be here as well.
you can follow me here https://twitter.com/ionic44

Ah what else has been going on? eh admittedly not a whole lot. Work still has me grinding 6 days a week which makes art kinda slow to get on. But i might have a solution for that. i don't know why i didn't think of it before but i just ordered a laptop so i can take that with me and at the very least get some sketching done on the job. Don't worry i'm all alone 99% of the time ha.

What other reason why i was away so long? eh... a few things, besides working, i just kinda lost my drive due to some individuals. I felt like I was honestly trying way too hard to talk and befriend people who i realize didn't really care about me at all. People who i thought i was on good terms with but just stepped on me in their own way. That really got to me and honestly made me feel like shit. So i felt like there was no point in anything anymore. At least till some rally good friends talked me out of quitting art. i made it my new years resolution to just stop chasing after people and focus more on the people around me. you know what, its really working, i feel so much better and i appreciate them so much more. It got me wanting to come back and draw again. At least that the short version of it, and id recommend you do that too if you ever get in that mood with the community.

Anyways for now im gunna post backlog stuff. Some really old stuff, so forgive me if that art style is wildly different for some pics lol. i hope you all enjoy it.
oh and ill try to stream art more often, particularly with me and the guys on the weekends. you can catch me here. https://picarto.tv/ionic44 come chill with us and talk about whatever.

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Hello everyone, long time no see. Like the title says, today, I'm yet another year older. And boy do i feel old, well honestly I felt old like 2 years ago but now its really settling in.

How is everyone doing during these trying times, i hope you're all doing alright. I hope you all out there are staying well, i know people out there are not only getting sick but are struggling financially and are wondering if they'll have a place to sleep soon. my heart goes out to all those people. i don't wanna make this political but I wish our government in particular would get off their lazy asses and do their jobs, that's all Ill say.

Me in particular, ill admit im doing ok, not much has changed in my life, in fact because of this pandemic I was given more hours at work. But this is a bit of a double edged sword. On one hand more money, that was my biggest complaint when i worked for the past year, i was making barely enough to get by but now its some what respectable, the downside, i work literally 6 days a week, making time to draw now very short. Still I'm doing what i can to keep on top of things, trying to chip away at my massive queue in the mornings when i have a few hours to myself.

Mentally though ill admit, I haven't been feeling the best. Some of you know I was actually contemplating leaving art for good yesterday. I dunno the feeling is hard to explain, I guess i feel like I have no idea what I'm even drawing for anymore. I dunno if its boredem, or lack of motivation, or if my work doesn't hold up compared to other people on here. Especially given how long I've been around. I'm hoping I shake the feeling soon.

Anyway, with the short time I have to be online I plan to post a couple of pics today, and tomorrow. Again i thank you if you read all this through, i wish you all the best of luck during these times, and I appreciate all of you who stuck with me through the years :)

Hello there everyone. Its been a while. First off i just wanna say, holy cow im so glad 2019 is over, i know last year was hell for a lot of people apparently but i can't assure you my year was far from a piece of cake.
to sum things up, i've had family loss, family issues, money issues, lost my job, health issues that required urgent care. if i went into it all in full detail id be typing all day. im still constantly having dreams about half the things that went on. last year was easily the year i was most inactive with the community by far. i've noticed its been getting worse every year and i really want to apologize. i've realized this as far back as late 2018, and because of that my goal for 2019 was to turn everything around, be more professional and just claw my way to relevancy again. But that didn't happen. last year really opened up my eyes. i saw what and who was constantly dragging me down. i just struggled to want to work on anything, and even the stuff that i did finish... i don't know, i just got it somewhere in my head that people just didn't want to see it. that people wouldn't like it or even knew i existed anymore. i became really self conscious more so that usual last year.

for 2020 i realize ive been in this community for well over a damn decade, holy moly, the years fly by so fast. Sometimes i think back to the earlier days when i was another cringy sonic OC creator with a big ego for some reason. i didn't know how to act, i feel like i disrespected people through out the years, and i really want to apologize. i feel like since those days ive definitely grown and matured a lot. i know im not perfect but ill still do what i can to make people happy. i just wanna say thinks to those who stood by me for so many years and kept me going. so many of you are wonderful people and im ever so grateful to get to know you and interact with you.

As for my goals for 2020 forgive me if they are the same as pretty much every year but its true. i would like to be more active here again. same list of stuff, more streaming for sure if i have something that can be at least, infact my streams will look a bit more vibrant this time around. for coms ill be putting up a new price sheet and will make a new TOS, i feel its really needed now so me and everyone whos interested is all on the same page. more art of course, i still have a backlog of completed stuff yet to be posted. and of course hopefully better quality.

lastly i just say what i mean for the title. Yes i consider this a new beginning, not just for my mindset and motivation but literally a new beginning. like a reboot for my OCs. something i wanted to do last year but im glad i held off because the extra time let me see the flaws in a lot of characters and let me get the pieces shaded which i think really makes them pop. i also addressed complaints that people had with their backstory and personalities, who knows maybe your favorite may look drastically different? or not, who knows. but for sure the tone will be much more defined.

anyways thank you if you stuck around to read all of that. i've had a lot to get off my chest these past 7 or so months.

TL;DR 2019 bad, 2020 probably good, family,money,mental,physical issues, thank you for the support, expect 16 times the snake action.

Sup y'all. Here with a quick announcement that today I'm 27. I hope you're all having a good day and to my USA friends a happy 4th of July last week. I finally get to hang out with some old friends I haven't seen all year due to our distance apart. I also recently got a new "screen" drawing tablet and have been practicing with it ever since, the artist pen 12. I should be posting a few things later this week when company leaves.

Sigh... man before i even get into anything i just wanna say damn this has been a hell of a crappy 2019 for me so far.
i know i was already pretty dead late 2018, i wanted to start posting again around then but in mid February we had a rather unexpected death in the family. my fathers wife passed from a brain aneurysm. it was pretty shocking, while i personally didn't know much about her, it obviously took quite a toll on him. ive never seen him cry so much and just be so broken. i really didn't know how to handle it because honestly i've never really been that close to anyone. whats even more shocking was how his family were kinda distant shortly after, and the family from the wifes side were somehow pinning it all on him. so really i was all he had and i had to give him pretty much all of my time just to keep him from doing something crazy. well fast forward to now and i can say for the first time in months i think things have settled down and i can continue things as usual. but despite having said all this depressing news, i really don't want any pity, because all i want to do is keep it positive and be optimistic because damn i feel so motivated to start a new chapter in my life with some plans this year. ill try not to make this too long.


𝑵𝒆𝒘 𝑨𝒗𝒂𝒕𝒂𝒓  ionic
First off a new avatar. Its been a while since i got a new one. i asked the original creator of the old one but... he seems to have vanished. so i splurged and got this new lovely one from https://www.deviantart.com/r-no71 someone ive seen since my early days on here. yea its vektra again but i feel like shes the face of the team at this point.


𝑪𝒐𝒎𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝑺𝒕𝒂𝒕𝒖𝒔
Yea i hear some of you and I am still chipping away at them. i took way more than i should have back in aug. dont be like me people lol. Anyway for those who have yet to receive anything ill be working on that batch next week so ill be reaching out to some of you very soon. to those who have gotten sketches those will be finished up soon as well. I'm gunna be cracking down harder on getting the rest of the queue finished up. I just want to thank everyone for the patience and support. you have no idea just how much i really appreciate it.


𝑷𝒐𝒔𝒕𝒔
In the last few months I haven't quite been just sitting around doing nothing. Infact i have quite a lot of finished pictures that could be posted so starting today and hopefully more regularly ill be uploading content. Not only do i have finished stuff but i have quite a few personal projects I've either started or have planned. Actually thats a great Segway to explain...


𝑷𝒓𝒐𝒋𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒔
This... is the fun part I want to announce. Ive been racking my brain here and came up with two things I want to try this year.
First off, remember back in say... June of last year when I asked who should get the next Ref/Bio story? Well when that terrible drama happened earlier this year i wanted to take my mind off the situation a bit and started working on one. I was so pleased with it gave me some inspiration. why stop at one? So i got some help from a really great friend of mine and I just said fuck it. Lets just do all the characters this year! Thats right all the ladies are getting the treatment, and its already very far along. so if there was anything you wanted to learn about a character well you'll get to see very soon. some look differently, some have new updated clothing, some I'm still spitballing ideas for. so I hope some of you look forward to that. though the winner of the "poll" will be the very first one to go up. Not to mention i have a few New character i adopted.

Secondly I've been thinking of giving a bit of story telling a shot. I'm not the best writer but I would still like to tell a tale, this ones a little more ambitious for me personally but i would like to try doing a comic. you may not know this but many many years ago before i even started posting on the internet i used to draw comics on paper. i think ill aim to do this around mid summer after the bulk of commissions are done. As for who this story is about, ill be dropping a huge hint pretty soon with one of my submissions. Who knows maybe if it goes well I'll launch patreon for it to put more time into it.


𝑻𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓
So i did make a twitter because apparently people on this site are leaving left and right for many reasons and i was wondering if i actually started posting there would you guys follow me on there or should i just stick to here? honestly I don't like twitter much, its kind of a clusterfuck following content on there but if you guys feel its useful ill consider it. please let me know.

Well thats all for now, if you made it this far i wanna say thanks for your time and welp here's hoping ill be more active and to a good 2019.

It's weird and I don't really understand it. What could the reason be? would this person be blocking me because of my content, a large sum of which are just commissions? People I hang out with? I'm pretty certain i didn't say anything to this user. another friend of mine told me he was randomly blocked by a user because hes was faving too much art... I dunno if its the same user, if thats the case then thats really petty...

Further more why aren't we allowed to favorite content when you are blocked? I can understand not being able to message the person but faves? I dunno thats kind of a dumb system they put in place in my opinion. I didn't know bookmarking a link to your profile so you can find it easier was somehow harassment now. I don't even think DA does that nonsense, or maybe they do, anythings possible after the flagging crap I'm going through *facepalm*. I don't mean to make so many random pointless journals but damn what he hell is going on lately. I'm just racking my brain here wondering who the heck i pissed off while not really talking to anyone lately.

alright I'm done ranting I just wanted to get that outta my mind. Actually heres some good news, I got hired at another job yesterday. damn that was quick huh XD

Deviantart is the first site I got my feet wet in, I've improved there, met lots of people, it will always have a special place in my heart. Ive been there for years, I know the rules inside and out on whats general and whats mature. I've had pictures posted there for years with no issues but for some reason recently it seems like I keep getting flags to add mature filters to pictures of characters fully clothed. I don't know what asshole found my page and wants to annoy the hell out of me but its working. especially with content so much worst put as general.

I find myself losing more and more interest in that place mainly because I can get away with so much more here. Between the overly sensitive community (as of lately) and the absolutely laughably overpriced core subscriptions I'm almost considering leaving that place altogether.

I've already moved to other sites but they all seem to have their own problems. Weasyl is just dead, theres not enough people there. inkbunny is a little better but still extremely small community on top of the bad rep of focusing too much on sonic,cub, and mlp art. And Furry-network? AHHAHA if you're not a popufur don't even bother, you're lucky if a single human soul sees what you post there and thats no exaggeration.


im seriously considering making a tumblr... actually i already have one but its not used for anything other than following tumblr exclusive artists. do you guys think i should make an official one? if you have existing accounts there would you follow me there too? its just id hate to make one and it ends up like my other 3 dead accounts.

...well i never really left, i was just really busy with work all the time so posting had been next to nonexistent but as of last week i finally gathered the courage to quit from there. I originally wanted a part time job to kind of coexsist with drawing. you know 20 hour weeks, 6 hour shifts was what i was expecting, something small and manageable but as time went on the weeks and hours per night would just get unbearably long. i thought working a night time shift would be up my alley but turns out when you have to stay up all night as part of a job rather than doing it at your leisure its pretty draining. In between the long hours of heavy lifting crap and rushing to finish things on time, once a new manager rolled in and started making us relearn everything and adding even more stuff on our already busy workload i figured i had about enough and was time to move on. in hindsight i should have found another job ahead of time, was it a smart move to leave when i did? nope, but i didn't give a crap, i was unhappy and so burnt out, and there wasn't a single night i didn't bitch about something.

So since then of course ive been putting in applications, but in the mean time commissions are my bread winner again. But i don't know whats come over me, i felt like i havent drawn in weeks, so ive decided to practice coloring again and for some reason i feel like ive gotten better, my style is getting cleaner and more refined, im paying closer attention to details etc. maybe its the new smart TV i invested in with its much better color clarity i dunno but im pretty excited to post what i have made. now if FA would stop being so slow...

Its that time of the year again. Now im 26. Another year closer to the big dirt nap.

I gotta draw more lewd content before its too late.sadly since i have to work today i wont get to draw the winning biosheet today, but after tonight i get a lenthy 4 day weekend to use so thats cool i guess.
speaking of job im sick of the place so im quitting. Lucky for me another job i applied for is asking to interview me so thats great. It'll be a normal day shift so i shouldn't be as tired and outta gas every day off now. After my two weeks notice is up ill have a brief time to work on art some more till the next job (if i get it) opens up. I have plenty of stuff flat colored already so just waiting to stream them soon. Anyways i hope you all had a good 4th of july a few days ago cuz i didnt get no sleep o3o.

So july 8th is when i get a little older (and if you want to surprise me with something...wink). Usually is kind of like a little tradition for me to make these refsheet/bios for my OCs, usually its like tiny celebration for how far i come in my art and use it as an opportunity to redesign a character whos look i feel like no longer suits them. usually i test it on rosie or so but this year i want to ask you guys who do you want to see come back the most with a fleshed out story to boot? Now eventually all the characters will get one over time. if you're really lucky you might even see 2 that day because I already started one for one character but ill leave that as a surprise.

and by the way thank you for the kind words from the people who read my last journal. It really helped lift my spirits.

I've actually been dreading making this journal for a while now. Mostly because theres so much i wanna say but i don't want this to be a novel. But i feel like to those who might care should know why I've seemingly vanished again.

welp here goes. Well.. to start I literally don't have friends anymore Irl. Growing up I've always been a bit of an introvert. I never liked talking much but I've had a few friends here and there. i used to have a pretty healthy amount, id go over to their houses play games, chill have a good time etc. but over the years i lost them due to them moving away. fast forward to about 6 years ago i had a bout 4 left. over time one of them just sorta grew into an ass and another was more or less a compulsive liar with relationship problems who eventually moved down south. so as of this year 2018 I was down to two. Welp one of them was tricked into signing a lease in another state and had no choice but to move with his mother who clearly hated living here in this town. so that was scummy but i don't know if this was pure coincidence or what but shortly after my other best friend randomly says on facebook hes moving to the same state too. at this point in time we didn't hang out much, he had his job i have mine so we were always busy, but i wanted to see him one last time, you know as a send off at least. So we pick a day to hang out, and when that day came i got stood up. i asked him what happened and he told me he forgot or something. i figured, no big deal lets just reschedule we have a few days left. well... when the next time came... he stood me up yet again, only this time he doesn't give me a reason, he doesn't say anything at all. so... my childhood friend who i put on a high pedestal in my life didn't even think i was worth his time anymore and say good bye. still to this very day hasn't said a damn thing to me.


But the fun doesn't stop there, it continues online. So already after feeling pretty shitty about that I try and just talk to a few furs on here. Theres a few rather popular artists of whom i can't say that i used to talk to quite a bit. i used to look up to them and ask for advice on how to improve my work. well as of lately some of these people have been just blowing me off lately reading my messages and just not responding, i guess you could mark it off as them being busy but it still kind of rubbs me the wrong way. so then there would be people that i have on discord that would just act rude to me when i just say hi.
but the worst was when there was a certain user in particular that just pulled the biggest 180 in personality I've ever seen. We used to talk quite a bit before, i was offering to draw her fursona because i really digged her design and thought it was a really sexy take on a not so cute looking species of feline. we had a pretty fun time talking about the community. we had zero issues (or so i thought), i never insulted her or her friends, as far as i know i wasn't awkward either but one day i just discovered she removed me from discord. i thought maybe it was because we didn't chat very much at the time. Thought id head to her FA page and say hello, maybe see into why she deleted me, but no matter what i say i just can't get an answer outta her. its not like shes gone, she still posts art to this day so shes deliberately not talking to me for some reason. its like I don't even exist anymore. i can't remember word for word but there was something on her page saying "shes not going to be as out going anymore" or something like that. i dunno if someone else was creeping on her but it still made me feel like garbage.

oh and to top it all off, my mother hurt her back so she wasn't allowed to work for about a month, so i was worried if id even be able to afford living here, and my father had a mental breakdown and stole something from the store he worked at so he is currently in jail for 6 months.

So even thought i took a hiatus back in February i felt like i needed another one recently. I was probably in the worst funk i felt in a long while knowing that both IRL and online I'm just alone. I just didn't trust anyone anymore and needed to step away. i was super unmotivated to draw anything despite all the ideas i had. going to work felt like going to prison so i kept requesting days off hurting my financial income a little. This would go on for a while up until a friend of mine  charliemandango sat me down over discord and help put my life into perspective a little. he really snapped me out of it and I've been feel a little better ever since. right now i just wanna get back into drawing again. im already pretty behind as is. i have quite a few things down the pipeline I'm sure you will enjoy including a lovely little gif i bought from a user.

Ever since my last commissions with arcaya having sexy pinups i was wondering who would you guys like to see me doodle in my spare time? what lady or ladies would you like to pin on your wall? XD
maybe in a certain outfit perhaps?

Sharks shark sharks, it feels like everyone lately has shark ladies.
First it was cringy Sonic OCs, then it was cringy Mlp characters, then sergals, dragons etc, now it feels like fish who walk on land are the new hot things o3o

or...i dunno maybe im just really late in realizing it. But dammit, I really feel like i should throw my hat into the ring and create my own. Actually there were some OCs out there I wanted to draw but unfortunately some users were not too keen on either fan art in general or Lewd content (or both). So yea i think i wanna give it a shot soon, in addition to other species. Not sure if ill keep them or sell them. mmm... actually maybe ill just sell them. maybe this is just giving me an excuse to draw more lewd girls. Hahahaha!






...but seriously theres a lot of sharks lately.
oh and overly sexualized planes/jets for some reason...

Sup guys long time no see. im wondering if anyone with PC know how can help me with a small issue.

So I just recently got a new PC. I'm in the final phase of everything being set up but now i ran into aminor issue.

So Im trying to get the GTX to run across 4 screens. the GTX 1060 has 5 ports, 3 displayports, 1 DVI, and and HDMI out

I have one cable thats active display, one for hdmi and one for DVI

To make all 4 work do i need another active cable or a passive one? i just wanna know which one i should order in the mail.

Hello people whats is up? i hope you all had a great holiday this year. I just wanted to give you guys an update over whats happening to me now and my flans going forward in the future. There's a lot to read here so ill just sort it into category's.
First off...

𝐍𝐄𝐖 𝐉𝐎𝐁
That's right, after being unemployed for 2 years I'm finally working at a grocery store currently as a meat clerk like my last job. I was fired from the last one because my managers just outright refused to teach me any skills that would help me aid customers to the fullest. I wish i was joking but eventually there were enough complaints about me not being able to do certain things like cutting meats for example that eventually they let me go and i was jobless ever since. Shortly after i decided to give college a try in 2016 but... it really wasn't for me, it ended up being a complete waste of time and money (that I didn't have) at the time. it just reminded me just how much i hated school and homework again. So what was keeping something in my pockets were just doing commissions which brings me to...

𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒
So currently I still have quite a list that I owe at the moment still, some small and some larger. I feel really bad because some people have been waiting ages for their pieces and I've just kept pushing them back for various reasons. sometimes I have to go out of order because some more recent buyers get more impatient than earlier buyers so I have to make the hard choice to do theirs first. Ultimately its my fault and I take full responsibility. See since I was without a job I took on as many as I thought I could do but after a while id find myself burnt out and uninspired all the time. Then of course I had that appendicitis that really didn't help when I was at that time planning to knock out a bunch.
I let down a bunch of people and some people didn't even want me to finish and that just hit me really hard and woke me up, I need to just stop F%&ing around and just get the sh#t done like I promised. Now that im working about 4 days a week it eats up a lot of my time and energy. so untill i finish the list im going to try and work on coms on every day i have off. i already did like 3 pictures the last 2 days. i will also being changing my Commission TOS and prices as well. prices in the commission tab are the current prices now.
I'm going to perhaps take on less work now that i don't have to rely soley on coms for income now.

𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐋 𝐀𝐑𝐓
At some point once the majority of coms are done I'm going to do more personal work again. I don't draw as much for myself anymore because it makes me guilty i should be working on something i owe. I know the majority of you watch me for my characters and thats really what i want to bring more to you guys. Short stories, hot pin ups, character development etc. Over the years ive had hundreds of ideas ive had yet to do mainly because drawing for myself doesn't pay the bills. (but i guess thats why i have a part time job now). I also want to give animating a try. I bought this neat little program called wallpaper engine off steam which lets you download or create moving desktop wall papers for you PC and it really made me want to start making animations. Iv'e been saying it for years but i just never know where to begin. i totally recommend wallpaper engine btw its really awesome and its only 4$. But ill dabble in that once I save up and buy a new more powerful PC Rig.
I might also make some "ONE OFF" characters. just some new characters with popular species that people can smutt with if they wanted to. Maybe they might even go up for adoption who knows.

𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐑𝐄𝐎𝐍
Ooooh boy the dreaded P word... I know this is a sore and touchy subject for some of you and if you're not into supporting people using it, thats totally fine. But hear me out and let me gets some ideas out here before you judge.
The kinds of art you see here on this site Will NOT be paywalled. All the usual little pinups and commissions i post will be pretty much the same. nor will i post super low res 720p and below pictures. at most you'll just see harmless nudges to my patreon in the disciption.
*I'll have one tier where you'll be able to see Wips of personal work about a week before anyone else.
*Another tier were you also get a 3-4k version and the psd of the file so you can see for yourself how it was made.
*and lastly the final tier where you get everything above but you will get to vote and receive exclusive sexy wallpaper pinups (maybe some wallpaper engine compatible) of various characters and a 20% discount on future commissions while subscribed.
I was thinking of having people fund smutty comics... but eh we'll see how the first stuff goes for now.
Now when will this kick off? I'm aiming for February perhaps or whenever I get the new PC.
If you were ever interested in supporting my work let me know what you think of the plan so far, or give me suggestions on prices, content, etc.

Anyway that's all for now, I love you all and hope you have a rocking 2018.

Hey everyone i just wanted to tell you all thank you so much for the support a while back when i had surgery. I had no idea what was going on and it was just so out of nowhere. one minute you're just going about your day and the next minute you're knocked out in a hospital bed.
Anyways i thought with the last journal I made it pretty clear I was fine but over the last week multiple people must have missed it and assumed i was still In pain and kept checking to see i was ok. So again I want to say i am perfectly fine guys, I've made a full recovery, and really appreciate your concern. I can't stress that enough the support i received was something I hadn't felt in ages.
Well as for now its back to the old grind i guess. Im getting back into drawing again. being out for a week really killed my drive for a bit and got me lazy so i need to draw draw draw again. and i need to do it in general i noticed my output is still as slow as ever. i just need to figure out a way to stay motivated. maybe go back to doing some daily sketches again to get the juices flowing.

So, how are you guys? i noticed Discord is becoming the new go to thing when it comes to communication. AS of now im still on skype for IMs but... i might be making a full switch in about a month or so, we'll see. at that time maybe ill give out my number but right now id like to keep my circle small and familiar.

Hey everyone, im going to live. The surgery went without a hitch. One minute i was tired and the next minute i just woke up in a different room. It felt like i was asleep for a few seconds. When i woke up i was still pretty sore but they gave me drugs to reduce the pain. They gave me some food to eat too. Right now im going to take it really easy and sleep. Seriously though i want to thank everyone for the wishes and support. It really made me feel loved, i love you all right back and can't wait to start posting after i heal.

Hey everyone, im going to live. The surgery went without a hitch. One minute i was tired and the next minute i just woke up in a different room. It felt like i was asleep for a few seconds. When i woke up i was still pretty sore but they gave me drugs to reduce the pain. They gave me some food to eat too. Right now im going to take it really easy and sleep. Seriously though i want to thank everyone for the wishes and support. It really made me feel loved, i love you all right back and can't wait to start posting after i heal.

Well... the doc came in and told me the news...

turns out that yes i do have appendicitis which means ill be going under the knife tonight. Ive never had surgery before... but i guess after tonight or morning i won't be able to say that anymore. He says its good i came in before it got worse. So now i play the waiting game...


ill keep you all posted once its over. Maybe il get a free lollipop.

Hey everyone just wanted to let everyone know what im up to. Im currently in a hospital laying in bed with tubes sticking out of me. My day started off with pain around my abdomen seemingly out of nowhere. I tried to sleep it off, thought maybe it was just gas from something i ate, but its much worse than i thought. So it seems i may have appendicitis. I have all the symptoms, and the pain is indescribable. It hurts to make any movements even with me trying to text right here. Im waiting to receive an xray. Safe to assume if it turns out to be it then i wont be drawing for awhile. I hate to disappoint those who've been waiting so long as is. My plan was to knock out my massive queue before months end but of course life screws me over yet again... so anyways hopefully ill be ok, ill give a follow-up once i hear what the doc says.

Well well well, today I got a rather interesting question from someone on DA.
Well for me the short answer is I really find them to be boring. Like I really do, anthros to me offer so much more variety.

A longer answer would be, humans are drawn by practically everyone. You can find human art ANYWHERE! Why would anyone want me of all people to add to the pile? Now I know the things people are going to say and some of them were used in our conversation. Things like "you can reach a wider audience", "you can make a career out of it (cuz studios don't really like furries I guess)", "You can make more money".

I'll be pretty blunt here. I'm not trying to win over human lovers...
I never planned to make a career out of this...
I don't care about their money either...

Look I'm not trying to say, oh I'm too good for your money. I like making cash. But drawing to me is faaaar more than for money. I've been drawing for years LONG before I realized I could make a dime because I loved it. I may rip on sonic a lot but I'll always enjoy drawing that over humans because it was different, it was not like what most artist draw.

Humans are... ...well they're humans... I'm a human, you're a human, we've been living as humans are whole lives, we see humans on Tv, PCs, video games, the paper, the wall, the ground you name it. How can you blame someone for not being bored of humans? Now in art they are still everywhere. Theres really no lack of them obliviously. But how about animals with human like quality's? How about aliens with animal like properties? or how about just aliens? To put it simple Non human species can to F***ing anything! they can look like anything, you can mix and match whatever you want, color how ever you want, make them do whatever you want. with humans... there has to be a certain about of that something that keeps them human-like. Like its a literal ball and chain that can hold back on a characters design.

When I got more serious about drawing, its always been about trying something new, do what is rarely seen. Now... whether I've succeeded in that ill leave up to you, if I haven't well then I have motivation to keep trying and experimenting. I made the jump from sonic to furry BECAUSE I wanted to improve, get better, and keep the goal alive. Yes anthro was what made me wanna improve "anatomy", thats gotta be ironic. But hell it worked. I have so many ideas that humans just couldn't bring out of me.

I remember an old Mitzy picture I drew mocking some of the things the internet that people say. One of them being literally "Stop drawing what you're drawing and draw what I like such as anime" or something. That's just the kind of tone I feel when someone wants me to go out of my way to draw something I really don't enjoy. Maybe its not their intention but thats how it feels to me, to do something you enjoy your whole life just for some stranger to give you a list of why you should do something completely different... when that different thing is what millions already do.

I have nothing at all against people who love humans or artists who draw them, its just not for me. I'm sorry if that disappoints some of you but I gotta do what I love and do it the best I can and this is it.

***(update the guy unwatched me) hehehe see what i mean people? Don't change for anyone.

So a few people were wondering what my queue looks like as of recently. So for those who've already commissioned me heres the order and details I'm going in top to bottom.

Also I'd like to let future buyers know prices will be getting a slight raise from now on. The updated price sheet/Tos will be made next month since i feel the art quality has went up since 2016, if you have a smaller picture in mind now would be the best time to lock in a price before the new ones come.


 anthrogirl hashimoto groping vektra

 azura1 sona and arcaya sex (sketched)
two shark girl refs
artica and guy having sex.

Damn man... feels like not too long ago I was 17 and just truly discovering the internet and all the online art sites. Me and my art alike have gone through so many changes over the years. I remember when i was so much younger, all i cared about was popularity. I tried making friends with popular artist (like the pure blue hedgehog girl in the slutty red outfit) for all the wrong reasons. i remember being jealous of peoples popularity and always beating myself up over it. I was rude to people, i was self centered all the time. Nowadays i don't care about popularity anymore, in fact id even go as far to say i'm kinda glad i'm not super popular. Being popular sucks... seriously at times you just attract the wrong kinds of people. People who will stalk you and only want to hang around you for free art. Or worse they might steal a character or try to "expose" your secrets on the internet. everything you do in general is judged a lot more closely and more harshly. I've seen so many artists on this site alone pick each other apart.

I mean don't get me wrong i do like attention, I love it when you guys tell me how interested you are in my characters because that means I'm doing something right, it makes me feel like all the years of practicing wasn't all for for nothing. seriously i love every comment, i favor your thoughts more than a silly page view or numbers. .....no i don't think it feeds my ego. i don't think...

Anyway i never thought in a million years I'd even get close to where i am currently with my art. i remember thinking my old crappy sonic comics were good when i showed them off in high school. but as soon as i found deviant art... holy shit was i discouraged... not only was i no longer the only kid in the world with sonic fan characters but they looked almost official.

this was going to be a hell of a lot longer, a large timeline about my experience online but i really didn't want to bore everyone. so ill wrap it up.

Basically i wanna keep moving forward. i want to keep improving and make a name for myself. I've been dabbling with the idea of making a patreon at some point but i dunno how any of you would react to that. i have no idea what rewards i can create but maybe with suggestions i could get something together. i never want to stop drawing, its the only thing in my life i feel thats truly bliss to me in a world with jobs being harder to obtain. i wanna create cool and interesting characters like Narcanna and Arcaya some more and try and break from your average furrys.

May the next 25 years be a interesting venture with you all along for the ride. I thank each and everyone of you who helped me keep moving forwards despite all the times of me wanting to give up. it is all of you who help me become what i am now.

Hey everyone just a quick question for you all. When looking at sexy stuff do you prefer a character is alone, posing, or teasing the viewer. Or do you prefer at least a minimum of two characters interacting with each other? Would that make the content sexier and more appealing? I ask this because it may influence how future personal works will be created. Pinups for me is where i feel like i shine the most so far since i can lay in the ton of detail without feeling like i need to squish characters on screen but they can seem lifeless for some people. Maybe that feeling can go away if there's at least one other character to add context. I dunno maybe that's more interesting for some of you. sometime when i create a scene with one character its like, yea this looks great but i wonder if adding someone else might make it better or hinder the overall quality.

So again i ask you Solo, or multiple characters, or a little of both? Let me know what it does for you or why you prefer one.