Annnnnd turning off adult features for weird, terrifying, reasons!

I can be reached through notes, etc., and might be taking up some writing ventures (unlikely, but it's mulling around in my mind.) Probably just silly stuff from d&d or random short stories.

On another note, I have been taking interest in D&D, and it seems to make me feel a lot better! I'm very quiet, after the last few years, and I don't really actively look for conversation beyond who I know already, but you're always welcome to visit.

Other than that, what's up?
How you been?
Annnnd, have a nice day!

Im a greymuzzle of three years.

Been a fur since I was like 8.

20 years of Furry!

I play:

ARK: SURVIVAL EVOLVED

FOR HONOR

DYING LIGHT

DESTINY

PAYDAY 2

DBZ: XENOVERSE 2

and

My XBL is PanzerHyena

My PSN: is M40xHanzerpaws

Ive only got PVE on my rap sheet and really new. Id like to play in a more immersive environment though!

Im on ps4, and its my favorite ^^

anyone want to add me?
Im M40xHanzerpaws

Comms bought c:

Im looking to give Hanzer a hella makeover.

Ill link an old reference and list all differences, as well as an actual species pic so you know what he is!

My budget is around 100 ! So please contact me here or on telegram Hanzerpaws

Add Hanzerpaws!

Boot camp is done. Now am soldier.

Ill be around, and welcome skype adds. Ill be busy a lot, but down to chat. Especially weekends.

Hanzerpaws

I have one , and have been reaaaaaally bored. Anyone want to play mh3u with me? :O I sometimes get in character, but mostly just the gchat sayings. My addy is hanzerpaws, and if you ever lobby hunt, my character name is Tekami!

puking, tummy stinging, churning, and cramping.

Also, im not dead. the comp i use skype on is though.

I got help, including meds and a case worker.
I also got homed for a decompression. I'm kinda messed up on a first dose of anti-anxiety meds, so ima keep this short :P

Thanks to those who cared enough to support me, it means a lot to me.

If you guys end up not seeing me for a while, I may have called the cops on myself.

I got poisoned and am hurting.
Come make this cake for me.

So like.
In furrydom...
Are micros just the crabs of macros?
And they just live on their nuts til they screw and get tossed to the next grundle?

JUST A THOUGHT.

:B And I also realized I bought cake and icing.

And I also realized Im lame and might get new suspenders.

AND I ALSO REALIZED I WEAR SUSPENDERS!

When I've had enough negativity and started telling everyone to fuck off to spare MYSELF from the stress?

I really don't want my own anxiety kicking up to temper flares or depression.

First all the morning bullshit and fights brewing, now my friend's in the hospital.

I havent slept in over 24 hours.

What the fuck?

There is nothing else to say.
Today has been the hardest decision ive ever made.

People showed up to try and fight me.
Fixing a situation turned into rage.
And faces were turned from left to right.

Now Im done.

I had a violent outbreak during instigation, due to said person not being responsible.

So, something has really been eating away at my mind recently, leaving me with spells of depression, anger, and doubt.
I'm so tired of feeling like the world views me as a monster, a lunatic, or a lost cause. I am not a monster.
I am a bright young man, with a world of potential in me, the right and ability to better myself, and the world, deep within me. But something's wrong.
I feel like I lack the... motivation, or am being hindered mentally, to unlock my potential; to become what I should be or want to be. I want to learn things, I want to practice a trade, I want to be among other bright minds.
I feel ill, like this anger is a root of, not my mind, but of outside influence. I want to be around intelligent thoughts, bright minds looking towards the future and always looking for the solutions. But I remain here, struggling to find mindless jobs among people who dwell on the past, and look no further than the present.
I know who I am, and what I was, and I have changed (And not for the better). I was... caring, shy, but very intelligent, very curious, up to a point. And then I became what I fantasized being, for my own means.
Why should I feel like I have to be scary, or tough, or a maniac. I'm not a monster. I am ill in the head. And it's crippling.
I just... really want someone or something to shine for me. To help me shine my own light. I NEED someone who's already on their path, who is confident and smart, who has their shit together and can be the one I look to for confidence to push harder, and stop this sedentary life of depression and anger.
I have felt alone... for so long. Despite the numbers around me. And it has driven me to suicidal thinking, to hateful plotting, and to mindless endeavors. I deserve better. And I'm willing to take the steps to move forward, and not just ride this wave. I'd rather swim my own course, not let the tide drag me back in.
This is not some plea for undue attention. This is not some whacked out suicide letter.
This is the conclusion I have drawn over a long time. And I feel it's about time I realized it. I don't know what to do. And I don't know how to solve it. I just can't be this me, because I know it is NOT me.

"Down Here"

[Verse 1 - Jamie Madrox:]
Your world embraces beauty while shunning ugly
My kind remains beneath you while your world remains above me
Feeling I'm on pause - my mind state, yo it shoves me
Hate me or love me, I feel like I'm back in recovery
Time to stand up, man up from sad state
And walk like an animal amongst the primates
And talk like a cannibal ready to eat those
Who stand in the way of the new maze in the end days

[Verse 2 - Monoxide:]
I come from a place where the dark hides
While you starve for the light like illuminated apartheid
We all are wicked, check the archives
Spread like sickness, I don't need a fix
It's another something creeping up into all minds
Please forgive us, we tend to gather in dark times
Can I get a witness too, it's been falling from my eyes
Just wanna die when the lights shine

[Hook x2 - Twiztid:]
Down here
This is the only life that we know
Down here
We tell 'em everywhere that we go
Down here
You know we read the darkness to love
Down here

[Verse 3 - Jamie Madrox:]
To the psychos, skitzos, freeks shows, and creeps
We bring the underground back to life and give it heartbeat
Reason to be strong, last long, and hold on
While other motherfuckers who claim it, they came and passed on
We the original, pedigree, thoroughbred
OG, diemuthafuckadie, rock the dead
Siamese twins, crimson guard, new elite
Ready for war - nocturnal, bitches
We don't sleep

[Verse 4 - Monoxide:]
We took the road that are less traveled
And unraveled the code
They want lock and it load, like it's a gun battle
It showed everyone I suppose
Exactly how to get here and survive down below
But instead most of those chose to find the light
And I suppose it'd be alright if they were standing here tonight
But they ain't want to listen like I had static on the mic
But that was just a sign of their spite
I had to sit and think about betrayal and I died
At least a little piece of me was twisted up inside
And I don't mean Twiztid up like contacts and knives
I mean twisted, like damn, all that was a lie?
Like damn, no more homies by my side?
No more happenings of anything, and I broke down despite
I know I said it was forever until the day that we died
But I never thought you'd be the reason we'd have to fight to survive
But everybody gathered, and they all stood by our side
And that's the reason we're never leaving what they've designed
Something even greater than anything you can find
And down here is the only place it survives

[Hook x2]

[Verse 5 - Jamie Madrox:]
Down here we sing of dark things, the other side of normal
Dressed for death in suit and ties - bitches, keep it formal
Sleep the night away in caskets and graves
And awaken from their slumber each
And every time the song plays
You see us crawling from the ground like a Romero flick
Contaminating up the top side, we stay sick
There is no cure, vaccines, so they quarantine
Our inner being and label each and all of us the enemy

It fits myself AND my sona so well, it needs to happen.

Gonna go pee in a cup to prove myself.

Also. We have poopies. They are 2 weeks old. The dog made 7 poopies.

Lastly. Hi, haven't talked to any of you in a while. Just sorta been faving things silently.

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needs more love in their life. Go give their gallery a browse and +Watch them!

I'm a big booty head.

-AWH SHIT GETTING BOTHERED BY