So, shocker,more family drama. So my grandfather found out my uncles gay for the first time. He says he's going to be leaving my grandma because of it. Now for anyone who knows me, they know no one in my family knows I'm bi, so, if my grandfather can get so upset by finding out his son is gay, just think how my dad will react if he finds out I'm bi. I know what he'd do, he'd go to my uncle, kick his ass for "Making me gay" then kick my ass harder then anyones.

SO the colors on this thing feel off, when I watch youtube videos, it's too dark if the part of the video is in the dark, it's too bring when parts are in light.

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So my computer has died on me. So now I'm using my iPod now.

So My battery is fucked. I need a new one. This one I have now won't chage and it need to be pluged in all the time to work, so if I go off for awhile of if I suddenly go off line then that's why.

Anyone want to play minecraft with me?

WOW! Blood + has to be the best anime I've seen in a long time. I recommend it highly! If anyone wants to check it out look at Hulu.com, you'll find all four seasons there. Each ep is about 22 ot 23 mins. If you love blood, drama, and a good story then check out Blood+!!!

I have it now. And can someone tell me where I can find a good texture pack?

I've had this dream twice, it ends the same way.

Me and my friend are trapped in the master bedroom of the house, my mother is laying in the bed, sick from a bite. I could bring myself to do her in before she turned, so me and my friend hop out the window and into the snow, we hope the fence and right as I hop the second one I trip and land on my bad, that's when my mom comes out of the window, now a zombie, she leaps over both fences and trys to land on me. Right before she does, I shoot her right in the center of the fourhead, she lands on my with a sickening thud, and I just look up at the falling shnow in horror. I woke up right after this, and when I did I felt hollow....Like I had really done it or something.

has anyone else had a dream like this and felt this way after waking from it? Please leave a comment if you have.

Lyrics.

Baby, can you tell me why
Does there have to come a time
When you have no choice and must go
And leave me here to grow old alone...

Why,
Did you leave me without saying goodbye
When I'm without you I feel such pain,
Since I'm the one who takes all of the blame...

Be my last... Be my last...
Be my last... Be my last...
All I am was in you,
Be my last...

You say it's alright to cry
They say, at least we tried,
And that we did the very best
It's okay if you forget the rest

But my hands weren't able to hold on long,
And now the love we had is almost gone...

With my hands...With my hands...
With my hands... With my hands...
Why couldn't you, baby,
Be my last...

Maybe one day we will be together
But tonight, you are gone forever
My hands weren't able to hold onto you
And I don't want to know anybody new

Be my last... Be my last...
Be my last... Be my last...
All I am was in you,
Be my last...

So, yeah I'm going to be writing a series. I'll have a few of my FA friends in it. But mainly it will be my fursona, along with  millerman1994 I might have the first chap up by today. so watch out fo it and please tell me what you think of it.

Go to here. http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3189097/

So...I've benn thinking a lot lately, that if I were to die tomarrow. How meny of you would remember me? I see a person lives on as long as someone remembers them and keeps them in their hearts. I know my family would miss me, but, there's the nagging feeling that I need someone Not in my family to love me..... So, I need to know, how meny of you would remember me and keep alittle bit of me with you? I feel like if I don;t say this them I'll fade away from all your memories like I ment nothing to you all.

I need to be alone. Please, no one try to talk to me... I just need to be alone for awhile.

So, I realize I may never have my family's understanding of being bi, and being a furry. I say this because my father is the biggest anti-gay person I know. He punched my uncle just because me spoke his mind agenst my father. I'm sure he wouldn't care if he took a few swings at me if he know who I really was. I remeber my mother saying this about my uncle being gay "All I know is he'll be unhappy for the rest of his life." My uncle is a big part of my life and the only positive male role model in my life. I asked my brother if he thought being gay was choice. he said yes, and he's not the only one who says this in my family. they don't know it's something you're born with. I have fought with me being bi for a long time, and when I joined FA I came to accept my trueself. I know now that I will never have my family's undetsating and full love. That's all I asked for on my birthday, was for my family to understand and accept me for who I am. When I get a chance to go, I'll take it. I feel so alone when I hear couples say they love eachother. Makes me remember what I'll never have if I stay here.

My vary best good friend  T-Man101 Need your watches. Please watch him, he's a vary sweet guy. Please watch him.

So, my older sister was talking to her kid about not being on the internet all the time. and she yells "You're not ending up like that." I'm no more then five feet away, I know for a fact she was talking about me. Hay, I'm on all the time because a: No one understand me.
B: Real life can blow me for how much it sucks.
C: If I had something better to do I would do it.

So, some of you might say "How do you know she was talking about you?" Well all I can say to that is that my family has always said I shouldn't spend so much time online. I wouldn't if there was something better to do and we had money to go out and do something.

I has Skype.

So I just met this new furry whu is a really cool guy. You should go look at his page  cassmaster He's a nice guy who is going to be a great new FA artest.

So I realize I have been posting all of my life drama into journals. Which I'm sure no one what's th hear about so, no more drama journals. I won't post anyhting about my life, only things that are interesting to my fello furries. Thank you all for those of you who read this, and have a nice day.

So portal 2 is laging. i mean the sound seems to be running nomraly. but the game is laging. Does anyone know of away i could get the game to run smothly? PLEASE HWLP MEEEE!!!!

I just bought it!!!

I'm never going to find anyone. I don't expect anyone to say anything. But if you do want to say something, please don't. I'm in no mood to talk to anyone about why I feel like this.