So, with all my internet problems, I decided to try a new way of getting internet on my laptop.

I hooked it up to my phones internet, but turns out doing so uses up A LOT of data...So, I might not have internet, again.

Just posting this for all those who wonder where I am if they try to talk to me any I don't respond.

Oh all the journals I posted....Wow, never realized how much I bitched on this site.

And a lot of them I don't even remember posting, or for even what reason.

I seem to notice a trend in my journals....That I'm not vary popular. But that's no problem. Just means I gotta find a way to get more out there.

So I've been planning to stay with my grandma for December, because my grandpa goes home to visit his mother and my grandma is sick and can't travel, but then her sister showed up and stayed with her for December.

When she left I was planning to stay with her then. But then her other sister showed up and stayed for like a week and a half. So Now I'm going to stay with her for a week just till my grandpa comes home the 15th.

The point of this? Well the point is I was planning on staying with her for soooo long I bought some 3DS games to help me be distracted when my grandma didn't need me....So kinda seems like over kill that I bought three new games just for a week of staying at her place.

The games I got were Hometown Story, Pokemon Y, and Harvestmoon: The Tale of Two Towns.

I post this purely out of boredom. Just wanted to give an update for anyone who wants to know what's up.

So, my computer randomly restarted....DOn't know if that's bad....Also, I keep getting random audio even when nothing is open. They sound like ADs and even like video's I've never watched. And Three times already my computer has told me to restart it because of something along the lines of "Of play was terminated"....Aggghhh, why does this always happen to me? Someone please help!

This is a list of the time five songs that I've listened to this year that have left me with goosebumps for this year. My reasoning for thselecting these's songs is simple.

*The song itself was touching or meaningful lyrics that tugged at my heart strings.
*The video itself displayed such a story that it left wanting for more.
*Or both fo these elements added up to make just the prefect experience for me.

I will leave a short and simple reason why what song got onto this list and how it affected me.
And remember these songs are my personal choices for what I think are song of the best songs I've heard this year.

#5
No Pain, No Game: This songs lyrics just make me so hopeful that fate isn't written in stone, that any of us can rewrite our fate and not let the past define us.

#4
Summertime Record: This songs lyrics and video just reminded me of what it was like as a kid. I only really had one friend, and now that we're older we've grown apart. So this song really made me think what a shame it is how we've grown apart. I know what it's sad and painful, but I know I still have those memories of the times we had. Yet, most important, this song combined with number two made me want to write again.

#3
Re boot: This songs lyrics didn't really add to much to the song, but the video itself with the just the sound in the back made this song so enjoyible to watch yet so sad it made me cry.

#2
Imagination Forest: This song made me think a lot about of myself. I was a lonely for most of my life, and now that I know I'm BI, and how there's a lot of people out there who would hate me for purely that reason. I made me lonely...But with the help of FA and other sites...I don't feel alone because I find others like me who were so alone.

#1
Cruel Clocks: This song...It just makes wish that I wasn't such a sucker for romance. It makes me think a lot about my relationships and how a lot of people can have just painful relatioships that end in such horrible ways.


Thanks you all for taking the time to read journal and I hope you all have a happy new year!
And remember as always, this is my personal top five songs, I am not saying that there wen't any other good songs this year. I'm just saying these are the ones that left me wanting more.

EDIT: This song escaped me when I was making this list. IT's still a good song, but I feel it still doesn't make the list purely for the fact that, I recall even when I first saw it it didn't really leave too much of an impact on me. But still, it's worth mentioning, the song lyrics and video paint a plain picture that I still really like, so here it is.

I Never really thought about it till last night.

But I was rather meek and shy even back before I noticed it. I remember only have like four or so friends at a time in every grade or school I went to.

I remember back in fifth grade that I was too embarrassed to read aloud anything because I was scared I'd screw up.

I don't remember how old or what grade this was, but I remember one afternoon I just wanted to be alone so I hid in my families big van and just sat on the floor out of sight. My mom rushed out of the house and yelled for me. I peeked out at her and I still didn't come out.

My dad found me a minute later and I told him I just wanted to be alone, so he left and a minute later my mom came to talk to get me.

...I guess it just goes to show that really your personality shows way before you think it does. And I know someone who reads might be like "Well no shit, everyone knows that." But honestly, I never noticed it till I thought about it just before I slept.

....I had a dream last night.... It was about my dad...He asked me, if I liked men, and I told him I was bi...He seemed confused for a second, but then smiled...

I have no clue what this means...But...It just seems like something that I needed....I can't put it into any other words besides that.

...Internet went out, so something you might nto be able to reach me.

Mentaly anyways. Reason why I think this? Last night I was thinking of what'd be nice to get for my birthday...First thing that comes to my mind "Ohhh, jacket would be nice."

The bad thing is, I looked up some jackets online and found one I liked enough to save up money to get.

Sooooo, yeah...I read yaoi manga(don't judge me!!) but I post this just for the fact that.... I read two short, but decent, Yaoi manag's today and both are, well, I can't help but wanting to share them. So if you're not interested in yaoi manga then you can leave if you want.

But for those of you that are into yaoi or just want to give it a chance. Then, I shuggest you start with one of these two.

http://mangafox.me/manga/yami_ni_to....._mune_ni_toge/
Yami ni tooboe mune ni toge is a short and sweet manga, but it's vary much more comedic them you'd think a yaoi manga would be. If you like light hearted characters this this is for you.

http://mangafox.me/manga/doushitemo_furetakunai/
Dorshitemo furetakunai is a more serious manga that treats the romanace between the characters much more realisticly(Which for me was a plus because now-a-days it seems like romance just happens, no one puts any real thought into it in the manga and anime media.)

https://petitions.whitehouse.gov/pe.....-2013/LMzMVrQF

PUT AN END TO IT! Please sign it, this stupid propisition must be ended now!

So i've kinda kept this underwraps on accident...But my sisters fourth baby girl was just born on 8/19/13 around 1:53 or something like that. I hope I can go see her and my new niece tomarrow. Not sure what her name is. My sister threw around the name Ava a lot, but everyone else likes Lilly, so, who knows.

In skyrim anyways...Yup, married my male Nord(human for those who haven't played Skyrim) to a male Orc.... I love it...I just...LOVE IT!

First steps to making a perfect life in Skyrim. I got a home, a daughter, and a steady path into becoming a companion....Life is good...In skyrim.

So I just got a new Xbox 360(Because my friend broke our old one) and I got Skyrim with it with all the DLC. I also happy that my friend gave me MAss Effect 1 and 2 so I'm pretty good on Xbox games.

I have no idea what happened. But last night FA just kinda...Cut me out. I mean, everytime I'd try to go to the site it's just go to a white page and going to derect links to art here just made a 404 error. Has this happened to anyone else?

It MIGHT go out. I'm not sure, the cable is off so I could only asume the internet is next. But lets hope not. *Knocks on wood*

So, I got Project X Zone today and it said "Push Y to Rescue your downed team mate's". Me being the genius that I am, Isit in the dark while I play so, I go to push Y and it just brings up a menu where I can't do anything....My first reaction was "What the hell!? Is this game broken!?"...It took me to make a new game and go through all the tutorial again to realize...I was pushing X, not Y.... I fail on so many levels it's not even funny...Okay, it's kinda funny.

...I hate filler, so much, filler.(I'm talking about Bleach and just how much I hate the filler episodes!)

I ask this because I heard that if you are depriving yourself of sleep then your eyes play tricks on you.

As for what I see it's mostly seeing things like spiders where there aren't any. Also seeing things move that aren't.

So if someone could please help me understand why this is happening I'd be greatfull.

So, my mom tried guilt trip me into going on a walk with her. How did she guilt trip me? Oh just by saying if I don't go she'll smoke.....What a way to make me feel like shit.

June second mark's my second year on FA. I'm four days late but oh well, better late then never.

So, we went to the hospital tonight to see my dad, we had to wait four hours and when we finaly got to saw him..I was shocked, he didn't feel like the man I knew him for, he seemed fragile, weak, and just helpless. I couldn't help but needing a moment in the bathroom.

So it might turn off it might not, you guys know the drill.