❗️ As you may know, I was kicked out of my mom's house last week and I'm temporarily at my grandma's
To make a long story short I am saving money to finance an apartment for me and my beloved, I know I have a long way to go from now on, but that's okay, if that is the price I have to pay to live in peace I am willing to sacrifice my wrist for that!
In February, I will invest more in adopts and ychs and I want to have this custom of doing this in the coming months
In the Commissions, I will also continue to do so with fewer slots (5 pending slots to finish)
I announce here on the channel when the commissions are open again!
I thank everyone for their support in this delicate moment of my life
Thank you all so much for the messages of love and support, for the beautiful comments you leave about my arts, for the people who consider hiring me to help me and for the people who share my work on their channels and recommend me to others etc. .
Thanks for everything! ❤️

This is no joke, I am currently with my aunt at my grandparents' house .. it happened that my mother meddled and was totally disrespectful towards my drawings
I got into a phone conversation because she has no morals for me
to show me how I should do my things, and said that I am a terrible artist: as if it was not enough for her to seek my intimate life, and the disrespectful attitude towards me because it crossed the line

I screamed and started screaming talking a lot of bullshit so much that I was already repressed and tired of her toxic attitudes, because she always started with her psychological games saying that I am treacherous, selfish and ungrateful, and when something is missing at home I was always willing to replace them to try to help her

She doesn’t accept the fact that I like a girl and said that she didn’t want these attitudes inside her house, until then I was organizing myself to save enough money for me to leave the house, find my beloved and follow the course of my life, but at all costs she wants to control me,
She didn't realize that today i am 21 years old i am another person with preferences and dreams different from hers
besides the threat of being physically hurt by my attitudes since I just needed to go crazy to put a limit: there is no way to trust an invasive person and after years I started to realize who the treacherous, abusive and toxic person really is and I needed to go crazy to defend myself and she doesn't understand why in her mind I am the bad person in this story:
My aunt who is a psychologist was already waiting for this attitude of my mother's personality and came to pick me up last night
And my mom said "if you leave home today, don't come back"

I only managed to get my work stuff and marker pens that I saved so much money to buy them with all the care and sacrifice, I didn't get many clothes and now where I am is my new "home", it is still a lot for me to process what happened, and I don’t know what can happen from now on, but despite this issue of being expelled for being gay and having left my things I bought and so much effort from the world I feel better here,
I just want to save enough money for my boyfriend to come here and build my life with him

I will calm down and soon open commissions, I will soon post more details if you are interested
Thanks for reading this far

I hope this year will be better than the previous one, only that I am afraid of not knowing what awaits me?
It may be common to feel a little afraid at first.
I don't know if that counts on my somewhat pessimistic view but I have reached a critical point where I do not doubt anything worse that can happen
What I have left is to live one day at a time and have a little hope that things will gradually return to normal

Anyway thanks for reading this far

Today i turned 21 and being very sincere i am not happy: i am very anxious about my future and my expectations, i never imagined that growing up would be so difficult
sacrifice all your dreams and every day kill yourself from working so hard to get money and pay bills and do it again the next morning consecutively for years ...
Today I had an anxiety crisis in relation to this: at 21 years old my mother and father were already married, had a job and already had a house and right at that age I only work on commission and I don't even leave her house I feel like a burden here
I understand that times have changed, the demands of the job market are more rigid and with the arrival of technology it makes it much easier on a daily basis: but part of me blames myself for not getting something that many already have
normally in situations like this one would say "calm down, everything has its time and this is not a competition" but when it comes to me it is difficult not to compare myself with others and feel completely useless
and to make matters worse I have a history of severe depression and anxiety that make it a longer and hellish process for me
I want to believe that I'm not a victim because I don't have the competence to do things without complaining: but I don't know, it has reached a point so critical that even I don't believe in myself
part of me just wants to believe that it's a bad time and that things will get better ... I hope