❤ Meet Dexter, my chinchilla mascot, I'm already in love with him ❤
> https://twitter.com/Devyshirehell/s.....71961380261890

The responsible breeder came here to bring him yesterday morning and it was love at first sight, he is still a little skittish with me but imperative; but I'm super happy to have a company here at home and I want to make an effort to give him a good life with me ❤

he is the new king of my house lmao

Today was a stressful day
I woke up late, about 4 or 5 ubers refused the ride making me arrive even later at the doctor's office
The doctor almost doesn't see me because I exceeded the delay limit, but the 10 o'clock patient was absent and I was able to take his place [less bad]
The psychiatrist gave me a medication with a worse side effect than the first medication 6 months ago [because it is no longer working] .. among them the effect varies from insomnia, headache, mood swings, blurred vision, tachycardia, tremors, confusional states and others and that scared me a little.

Hope I don't have so many side effects.

I love when my days are productive, I feel very useful :D
Today I put a Ych for sale, I made a simple art by Chieko [my new oc], I finished a sketch art and sketched the art that I would start tomorrow

I hope more days like this come 💕

I love to draw colorful sketches
Sometimes it's even better than my finished art [am I weird? ]
Soon I want to open sketch slots for about $40 | $60

Today I went to the psychologist and she analyzed my case saying that these crises that I have been having were not enough to be social phobia, but an adaptation to my space, since I spent a lot of time having pressure|psychological abuse from my mother at first she deduced that it would be rather complicated for me to "give up" control and well-being in my house, but in any case, she helped me to pause and think about the rational side.
At the end of the month I will consult my psychiatrist in order to see if the medication needs to continue or if there are other options with fewer side effects for me, I'm just very worried and anxious about everything (and look, the 25th completes 1 month that I'm on here )
I know problems are part of life, I'm just learning to deal with them more constructively
About Facebook tomorrow they release my zucc, but being honest I'm exhausted from this social network, there's only artist fights, exposed people and other useless things, I want to clean it up and keep staying away from it for a while longer [not to alienate me, but for the sake of my mental health, not to mention that I spend a lot of time there and stressing myself out]
I'm just doing what I think is best for me.
I'm very committed to the arts and I have some plans to buy some things here at home [living on ifood and instant food isn't really cool]
but that's it
thanks for taking the time to watch a silly rant from an artist like me

oh man.. I'm suffering from a severe anxiety crisis and there's even more to complicate this one
honestly I'm really pissed at life with such a dick face from certain people
THERE'S ALWAYS ONE THAT LOVES RUINS EVERYTHING, HAS NO SHAME ON THEIR FACE AND IS COPYING PEOPLE WHO STRIVE TO HAVE RELEVANCE IN THIS SHIT
now I'm here in crisis of being a mediocre artist always striving to improve and deliver my impeccable arts while there are clowns who love to take advantage of the efforts of others and have no authenticity of their own
you have no idea how much i hate getting into fights on the internet, it's extremely tiring and exhausting
I hate and avoid arguments and conflicts BUT IT TAKES A LOT of patience to deal with these clueless people
and before they tell me I know that I'm not exclusive to everything and special; but it's terribly frustrating for you to strive for relevance in something and an idiot copies you

oh my god i don't have a minute of peace...

I couldn't stay at my mother's house for the weekend because I started having a very absurd crisis of anxiety about not doing the pending arts and no one else wanted to order me and stuff; a feeling of guilt came and I came back here; this month my anxiety is very strong and even my meds are not working; the only time I have peace of mind is when I sleep (if I don't wake up at dawn desperate to draw or I have sleep paralysis); I understand that because it's my first month in my house, there's a certain anxiety about paying the bills and paying as soon as possible so I don't have problems, but thanks to my anxiety disorder it's like the end of the world for me if I make a mistake. (not to mention the side effect of my medication: I have often forgotten my things and this worries me).. at the end of the month I made an appointment with a psychiatrist to see if there is a possibility of changing my medication and I am also planning to buy a tablet with pen for me to take with me when I spend some time away from home and continue doing the arts without running the risk of delaying

This is the first night I'm going to spend at my house since I moved last week (until I was fixing a few things jhkhkh)
May this night be the first of many ♡
It may even be something silly to celebrate but for me, who went through critical situations and live off art and commissions, it's a huge step and even quite daring 👀
I'll finally have a place to rest, a corner of my own and something to call "my home"
This is my castle and I am the queen 💅🏻 👑
I would like to thank everyone who helped me by buying my arts, spreading the word and listening to me when I needed support ❤
thank you very much from the heart

💕 Here in Brazil, Valentine's Day is celebrated only in June.
but I wish you all a Happy Valentine's Day (whether you're committed or not)
The important thing is to be with someone who cares, loves and respects you (self-love is also included) 💕

Hey, guys

I have already scheduled my move with a company, and it will be next weekend (February 19)
I'm very excited and hope everything goes well.
I will finish some commissions this week and I will be inactive for a few days, but I will let you know everything as it happens
and once again I want to thank you immensely who buy my arts or share for more people to see
thank you so much for all the support and love >W<

Guys I managed to rent a property just for me!
I'm very accomplished man
I will have my space and be independent
I know I will have many challenges ahead but I genuinely feel good to finally be able to build my life

Today I went to visit the condominium I'm going to live in in a few weeks and it really is perfect, it has a good location, it's accessible to the market, pharmacy and hortifrut is in front of the subway station
it is compact and practical
perfect for someone starting their adult life

so when it gets close to the moving day I'll let you know, until I fix the internet, clean and assemble some furniture can take time and consequently delay the commissions

I will also invest in auctions, ychs, adoptions and custom
that and the commissions will be the main means of my income
As soon as I finish the pending arts I will increase my prices!

I have plans to move out of my mom's house soon and start my life on my own
But I'm going to need a little help
If you like my work please consider supporting me.
You will receive some exclusives in addition to helping me keep doing what I love so much

> PATREON https://www.patreon.com/Devyshire_arts666

that's it, dear, the narcissistic woman who calls herself my mother freaked out on me again; result? I'm dropping out of her house again, the year 2022 started off great; I'm waiting for my aunt to talk to my grandmother and I'm going to spend time with them again; I try to stay optimistic about things but it doesn't really happen much, not even my black stripe is holding the situation; I will give more details soon; welcome to my dramatic life, just wait a few more chapters *i'm trying to break the ice but i'm broken inside*

Update: thanks to dear   Alantodne I managed to buy another notebook that will arrive in a few days; unfortunately unforeseen events happen when least expected.. I also apologize for the inconvenience and delays in the arts of those who commissioned me; I'm sorry but I'll make up for the delay as soon as I can, even if it's just some gifts


I just ask a thousand pardons and a little more patience please ♡

♡ I want to thank everyone for helping me ♡

My notebook's HD is already having problems. I've had this notebook for about 7 years; despite being very careful with it, it's already having problems like corrupting the files, very slow (and it's been 1 week since I reset it) and just now when I went to start working to make my arts it started to make a static hiss and it turns off alone. I'm very upset...

So I need to save approximately $700/$800 to buy a new notebook
Even if I have to sell one of my ocs

I'll be offering fullbody sketch commissions for 80$ (I'll start as soon as I can buy a new notebook)

Exemple https://www.furaffinity.net/view/45309125/


if you need more information please send me a note or call me on telegram Devyshirehell or discord Devylinn#8647

Hi darlings
just a warning here
my pet has an ear problem and will need surgery, tomorrow I'll get her test results and then schedule the surgery as soon as possible, so it's likely that I'll spend time taking care of her than in the arts or ychs ... . I apologize for that, but I hope you understand (my dm is always open to questions, etc.)
all the money is being directed towards the care of my dog (surgery, exams and preoperative)

oh and today she is turning 11 with me
despite being messy and naughty most of the time i love her very much and i will do what i can to take care of her as best i can
and to everyone who studied art, ych and commission, thank you very much <3

well .. today i turn 22 ..
I don't know how to feel honestly, a mixture of happiness and dismay maybe..
, I feel the same child as before, but somewhat mature [basically a young woman who pays bills with a lot of back pain, but loves stuffed animals and sweets]
I'm anxious about the things that will happen in my life, afraid of the changes... but I've been like this for a while,
there's no time to fully adapt... you either move on or you're forgotten...

And even with the great difficulties of life I would like to thank you .. that's right, You who like me, my arts and support me financially or emotionally with nice comments and so on.
Thank you so much for all your love and affection.

I won't lie this year it's been tough but I appreciate it even in the toughest times you're still here
I don't feel worthy of it but I keep striving to deliver the best of me

it's just something that happened today and i needed to get it out so i'll erase it

Well, every week I have therapy with my psychologist, but today the session was very difficult and so far I'm in shock.
As if having to deal with my mother who has a toxic behavior wasn't enough, I also need to deal with that...
Briefly I have issues with my father and his wife, he didn't accept the end of marriage with my mother and he even had the nerve to use me as a child to hurt her... he was left with a slut and since then they have made my life one hell (the bitch can't have kids, she's sterile... to be honest, I've never known any treatment where taking the stepdaughter's frustration at not being a mother could solve the problem anyway)
She blinded my father and he idiot does everything for her (the real one does everything to stick his cock in her pussy)
She never paid me enough attention and she was never the father I deserved
About 3 years ago my paternal grandmother died, she was sick and he hadn't told me anything about her condition... I couldn't say goodbye, and that was enough for me to walk away from him for a while, ironically in the same year he had a stroke (he survived) and i still didn't want to visit him in the hospital, however i didn't want to be like him so i went to visit him.. it was very difficult to go over my reasons for forgiving him, but i tried to rebuild our relationship.
But because of your disgraced wife, all my efforts were in vain.
She insisted on taking him away from me and he just accepted and was not reluctant... he didn't even have the initiative to defend me from that bitch...
I just felt betrayed again and left permanently

I'm going to be 22 soon, and I'm used to his absence most of the time, I expected him to change and get better, but honestly you can't expect anything good from a selfish, immature, cowardly individual.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm a mistake, because dealing with narcissistic parents is one of the worst things there is and it needs to have a sanity that I don't really have to deal with.

Today's therapy session hurt a lot, knowing that I will never have the affection of people who theoretically should care about my well being is devastating..
Having the strength to forgive someone who has only harmed you throughout your life
.. i can't believe i'll get to this one day

I just want this wound to stop hurting
and I want a moment of peace and emotional stability to get on with my life.

Hi this is Devy and then...
here in brazilian culture we don't have this holiday

But I still want to thank you for your support and affection.
Thank you very much for the favs, for the comments you leave on my arts and for the support in general.

When I'm dissatisfied with my art, I sometimes re-read old customer conversations and comments and it's great to know that there are people who like what I do and support me, in the toughest times it's the support and nice comments like those that encourage me to keep going. and always improve more and more
♡ once again thank you so much for everything ♡

(It's just an update on my mental state; one day when I get better I want to read this newspaper and realize that it was from this day forward that things got better)

I just got back from the psychiatrist and already bought and took my medication: I confess that I'm a little upset about needing medication; but I hope that they and therapy will help me to overcome all these anxiety attacks that I have been feeling over this time; they say that admitting the problem is already the first step to get out of the situation; It's very exhausting to be tortured by your own mind ..
not having the courage to do what you love so much is terrible .. but i hope to improve soon ♡

I bought Clip Studio!
I am excited to learn and make more beautiful and quality art.
~ I apologize if any art takes longer than usual, I'm striving to be better ><

clip studio has 50% off >> https://www.clipstudio.net/en/

Hi, hi guys, sorry for disappearing these days, I went to the psychologist yesterday (like every week) and she advised me to seek psychiatric help to deal with my disorders (involving situations, traumas, psychological abuse)

Unfortunately, my problem will not be resolved with just simple therapy, but with proper treatment and the help of remedies guided by the psychiatrist.
Being very honest I didn't want to admit that I had gone back to rock bottom, at 12-13 years old I needed this drug treatment, but when I turned 15 I abandoned the treatment because I thought it was no longer necessary (it was a lot of idiocy and irresponsibility of mine. ) and now, at the age of 21, things are getting worse and worse: my case, which was already delicate, is now very critical, to the point that I no longer feel like doing the things I love and I sabotaged myself and walked away from some friends, spending and consuming things out of pure impulsiveness and not being responsible for my duties and even with all the reasons in the world to be "happy" I'm not and I feel guilty about it

Anyway, I'm trying really hard to get out of this, but it's something that will require a lot of patience and time

I received the news that someone is stealing Commissions and arts from my gallery wanting to impersonate someone who asked me; to avoid this kind of thing I will put my biggest signature on each art that I make and send the original files ONLY to the client; if you see something like this Report the account immediately: nobody wants the fursona to be stolen, much less your art!

✨ Well, next week, my classes at the Faculty of Advertising will start officially
It's still the distance because of the pandemic
So I will take less slots to dedicate myself more to the study
This semester I'm excited because there will be elements of photography included

About what happened a few weeks ago I made the decision to go back to my mom's house
I spent about 1 month here at my grandmother's house and being honest I miss my things and my room
I had to give up my privacy and I miss it

I don't know what will happen when I get back
But I will endeavor to save enough money and check into an apartment and get out of there as soon as possible to go to my home

I will continue taking care of myself and doing therapy with the psychologist and if I need to take medication, so be it
I got tired of being stubborn all the time and feeling horrible because of my own ignorance

Although it doesn't seem like I'm a little more optimistic about everything

Anyway thanks for reading and supporting me ❤️

I know this is not the right place for this type of text: but whatever .. I

t's been 2 weeks since I was kicked out of the house and I'm trying to keep going as best as I can, but to be honest I'm tired and feeling like useless.
Things have been difficult these last few times, I feel that my artistic performance has been declining, I am not very satisfied with my drawings, a terrible discouragement has caught me in the last few days and to make my situation worse I lost my medical plan and No I can afford psychological treatment without it.

A feeling of hopelessness and apathy has consumed me and removed me from people who only want my good and I see it.
The only certainty I have is that one day everyone will get tired of me and probably move on with their lives (and I don't blame them because I know how exhausting it is to deal with people with low self-esteem, depression and anxiety) while I'm left behind lost. .

This feeling of frustration is terrible, this mania of self-sabotage and of seeing that I am not enough for anyone, including me, ends with me.
I feel like a burden that continues to disrupt people's lives and disappoint everyone around me.
One side of my head crucifies me because I am not being strong enough to endure, and the other says that, whatever I do, I will never come out of that loop.
but as I said at the beginning .... I AM EXHAUSTED

Anyway, I don't know where I'm going with this ..

thanks for reading