See you in 2022 :)

Hopefully for buff robots, futuristic cars, and 4D advertisement to exist

my health seems gradually deteriorating ever since I got that ringing sensation on my left ear. Since then, I keep getting vertigo, constant headache, and trip to hospital proven insufficient. I don't even know what's wrong with me, so if you want to commission but I refused, sorry. Both my physical and mental health is jeopardize.

Boy, the future doesn't seem so futuristic at all

I'm stuck at home due to massive flood

happy new year

I suppose since not many are interested, I'm not going to open anytime soon

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

** LAST 24 HOUR **

After a long careful consideration, I’m opening a commission for a limited time. This commission is a join work where I do the sketch and my friend,  soendapuss will digitalize it. He and I agree that there will only be five slots available for now. The slots will open for 24 hours after this journal is made to allow us deciding which entry doable or not.

Price*

$40 = Half body
$45 = 3/4 body
$50 = body

*price included full color and shading. Additional information can be discussed via private message

IMPORTANT

+ Only accepting muscular male character, either sfw or nsfw

+ Order via private message and show us references

+ Refuse to draw female, femboi, gore, scat, maleherm, and anything that we consider unacceptable

After a long careful consideration, I’m opening a commission for a limited time. This commission is a join work where I do the sketch and my friend,  soendapuss will digitalize it. He and I agree that there will only be five slots available for now. The slots will open for 24 hours after this journal is made to allow us deciding which entry doable or not.

Price*

$40 = Half body
$45 = 3/4 body
$50 = body

*price included full color and shading. Additional information can be discussed via private message

IMPORTANT

+ Only accepting muscular male character, either sfw or nsfw

+ Order via private message and show us references

+ Refuse to draw female, femboi, gore, scat, anything that we consider unacceptable

I have been thinking about this for years. Is my drawing good? Is it worthy enough to sell as a commission? I've been rejecting a lot of potential client because, well... I feel that my style isn't exactly worth a dime.

And that's really stressing me.

Combine that with me already working a full time job, where I can't do much dividing time to draw and resting from work.

Happy Birthday to me

now that's out of the way, now I'm gonna fill in were the heck was I these past three months. Graduated on January, I still adjusting with life at home. Stepmother, stepcousin, work, getting paid, and my scanner somehow refusing to cooperate. I'm using my dad's, but somehow my laptop refuse to connect unless I'm using Windows Fax and Scan, which is very shit according to me, the lines on the paper are not exactly clear, compared to my own scanner.

So yeah, see ya

First of all, Happy new Year and happy year of boar! I was happy when my scanner seems fine, until it gave up on me once more, so I'm kinda bummed.

I will be graduating this January and then go straight to work, so I'm not even sure if I can draw anymore...

But hey, hopefully I can because I still likes to draw, eventhough I've been contemplating to quit from the fandom couple of times (life's happen, y'know?)

So anyway, let's greet 2019 and hope for the best!

Yup. No drawing for the time being.

Come to think of it, furry fandom is quick to get material for fanart, either from a long-established media (like video games, tv series, movie, etc) or simply a background character from a television commercial.

Have you people ever heard of Gate: Thus the JSDF Fought There? Yeah, I know it's late, just wondering about it, as said novel has variety of races

I'm back for the time being. I still have to clean my inbox, though

Well it seems my days to draw are over. Going back home soon for holiday

Question though, what do you think of my art and why?

Since I'm bored today...

What do like from men?

Today is my birthday, and somehow I can't celebrate it for several reasons.

1. A moment for reflection. It has been a rough year for me since last March, with (slow) college progress, relationship with other furries, and my own parent. What have I done all these years, anyway?

2. Very first time I stopped sharing my birthday with my mother since her death in last October

In general, I'm not really... enjoying being a year older

Sadly, I'm sick. I'm having a vertigo, cannot sleep, can't even jerk my head too fast otherwise my vision will become spinning and whirling. Not sure if I can draw, but we will see

A Message From the Future

I'm not usually doing this kind of thing, rambling on journal.

Yeah so... there are things, that have been made me depressed for years. My choice of school, family, and uncertain future. I don't know how to express my fear, disgust, anger, and emptiness though, most of the times I just bottle it up and do something else to distract myself.

I feel weak, sick, and keep reassuring myself that everything will be fine when it's clearly not and slowly crumbling apart.

Sometimes, I just want to run away from home but I don't know where should I go and what will I do next.

I just feel so lost and don't know what to do...

After all, I have business to finish. Mourning will get you nowhere

See you around until next time...

At least... until her funeral ended...

2 months I've been absence. We had an unfortunate accident back home, my brother's marriage, and I was... let's just say I wasn't feeling too well, emotionally. But now, I feel a bit better ^^

Anyway, hello again

So after consulting with my friends, Installed anti ransomware, new antivirus, and so on. It's not fool proof but at least I feel safer, even if it's just a bit ^^;

Due to certain ransomware outbreak, I will not be here for undecided amount of time. Hope y'all stay safe, and good luck.

So today, I decided to skip classes and heading straight to hospital for check up. I got slight fever, 38 degree, throat infection, and runny nose. Doctor prescribed me with bags of medications and remind me to rest for three days.

If I'm not recovered by then, it seems I must take a test whether I contracted with dengue or not

*shudder*

it was an unpleasant experience.

Anyway, toddles

Sunday through Tuesday, I was feeling dreadful due to inactivity caused by massive artblock.

Wednesday, I didn't do well on mid-semester exam. Didn't finish the test, submitted the file with my friend's flash drive with a chance the professor wouldn't give the bloody thing back. Also, I left an important (not college related, but important to me nonetheless) file inside. So triple guilt trip within one day.

The icing on the cake happened on Thursday, when my mother called and told me that my uncle passed away. I couldn't even attend his funeral due to exam and and from exhaustion both physically and mentally.

It's rather unfair since I had to suffer all of the above just to be able to draw again :\