Howdy y'all, how we all doing out there?

Here's a very belated update since I never EVER use this site lol

Since my last journal post I have obtained not one, but TWO jobs, at CVS and Best Buy respectively and I love working at both companies!

I have been searching for a religion for the past years and I have finally come up with something which suits my needs quite well, albeit being a mismosh of ideals from different religions. I identify as a Bhuddist, and follow largely the teachings of Bhuddism, however I am also finding myself absolutely fascinated with Luciferianism and Nihilism as well (more on that as I learn more).

Just finished watching the film "Inʞubus" which I highly reccomend if you are a fan of Robert Englund's fantastic acting and are in for a (largely) psychological scare.

Because I feel need to publicly post it, I have contacted a person from my past of whom I have had relations with for the sole purpose of closure, as the word "rape" continued to eat at and haunt me. I have gained understanding of the events of the times we were together and have formulated the opinion that what we did was indeed not rape.

I have stopped using marijuana in the conventional sense of smoking it, as it led to warped thinking and general discord within my mind. I could not be happier not smoking it anymore. That said, I still have quite an affection for the awesome energy using edibles and oils gives me, so I will continue to use those along with vaping CBD's.

I am living my life without regret and without conflict. I have faced my demons and will continue to face them and make them docile. I will be victorious over my mind and will continue to live my life freely.

Update time, its been a while. Since my visit to SF I have been tossed around LA, leaving home in Mar Vista to attempt to follow what the dolphins told me to do: board a spaceship set for mars in Texas (I wound up in Sherman Oaks instead, but we will get to that later.). I got into a massive car crash and nearly lost my life, which I honestly wish I had done, since nothing good at all came afterwards. I was so out of sorts and in pain after the accident occured that I remember being taken by a tow truck that reeked of weed to a collision center, which looked more like a porn set or snuff film set. After hours of waiting for them to do whatever they needed to my car and NOT telling me a damn thing of what was going on, I lashed my seatbelt to the smashed up door and set off trying to navigate back down home, which didn't go well because my GPS and phone decided that they wouldn't work even in a LARGE METRO AREA (for the record I was pissed af) so I tried my hand at getting back home by street signs. By this point my head hurt way too much to continue driving and I finally got to a plaza and called my cousin who suggested I call an ambulance, so I did.

The ambulance came and brought me to a hospital where they stuck an IV into my wrist and left it there for several hours, not bothering to disconnect it. I eventually pulled it out because it was painful. Next, I was brought to another area of the hospital I noticed on the door it said "observation room" but I was too much in pain to care why they put me in that room. I got up a couple of times to see if I could leave the hospital since I was hurting less, but they told me to lie down and get more rest. Next, I was moved to a second observation room where after a couple of hours they told me I was being moved to somewhere else completely, again not telling me where.

I started to freak out when they put me onto a gurney and took me to another ambulance which started heading east on the 10. All of the cars behind the ambulance appeared to be closing in on me, ready to run me over if the gurney were to fly out the back of the ambulance. "at least I'll be dying in LA"were my thoughts.

The ambulance stopped after at least two hours of travel. I was unloaded and they started to wheel me into some facility called "Charter Oak" which sounded all too familiar. I coulnd;t remember why the name was so familiar. Everyone in the lobby appeared to be strung out on some substance or another. After an intake chat with two disturbingly happy nurses, I was brought to another area of the facility. They led me to a room and told me to get some rest, so I did. I later found out I was taken to a mental hospital specalising in drug and alcohol rehabilitation.

But why was I taken there in the first place? I had no issued with substances, was this just part fort the corse in LA, when people get into car accidents? After what seemed an eternity I was released from the hell of the hospital and into an even hotter frying pan in South Central LA. My roommate was a completely insane diabetic heroin addict girl. Every day prostitutes would be entering in and exiting the house, along with homeless people and drug dealers. The front rooms of the house reeked of weed. Every night we would hear gunshots and ambulance sirens. I tried to make the best of the situation by visiting USC, where I wanted and still want to attend school. I searched for jobs around the area and found nothing. The craziness that was happening around the house I was at and within it were driving me insane. I had to escape.

After another visit to the mental hospital, I found a house in Playa Del Rey I could stay at. When I went back to So Central I realised that all of my electronics had been stolen. I was ready to tear the perpitrator a new one (still am). But I had to get out of that area so I loaded my things into this guy's car and went to the other house.

With that , fuck writing the rest of this because it is all downhill from there on and I'm now in CT, 30 lbs overweight, jobless and hating my existence because of the bullshit they call rehab and "programs". I need a goddamn time machine so I can go back to 2009 and force my way to Otis before any of the bullshit starts.

Well folks, here it is. Like a clear shot to a largely foggy head (blame the smawg, ugh!) I'm currently writing this post from newfound friends' room up here in chilly SF. That said, I will be relocating up here for - friends - AND best of all for a finally career in the tech field because HELLO, this is San. Fran. Cisco - and its full of the tech opportunities I have sought for a solid year now and will attain. I have my mind set and nothing can break me down or push my stride. I think that's a saying. We will say it is. TTFN y'all and any encouragement you guys can provide is always always welcome.

You had a really cool suit and you gave me a bunch of friendship bracelets! If it's not too direct, I'd actually like to become friends with you so, if you happen to be watching me it'd be nice to talk to you some more. :3

If anyone wants my crappy artwork, I'll make anything you want for $10. Yep, just $10. Anything you want.

Get at me and get your artwork, people!

Well folks, I have been living here in LA for a week and (two by the time of this post) days and I am loving it, have been getting quite fit, biking each day over to my haunt at Ballona Creek here in Culver City (I'm in Mar Vista but WHATEVER CLOSE ENOUGH! :3).

I was getting very nervous as I moved here without a job (thank you shitty retail store I used to work at, for NOTHING on that one.) but after ~90 applications sent out I have heard back from one management company nearby and they want to interview me, so I must have done something right, eh?

Interview is tomorrow (Tuesday) at 11AM (yes, for you easterners, that is three hours in your past, I'm a time lord! No, really, I am.) and if all goes well, I will be managing a small team of marketing associates and preparing weekly meetings for goals and such, which is something I'm totally new to but sounds very interesting and challenging, and as you all probably know by now, I don't back down from challenges at work. Soooooooooo yeah. WISH MEH LUCK GUYIZE

Furmeets! I will be attending the Prancing Skiltaire house party this Saturday, so if you're headed thar, vvvvv do comment down below and we can actually meet and be merry together. vvvvvv

I will try try try to be more active on FA, as I absolutely need to meet more people and expand my friend/acquaintance network, especially in my hometown area, not like.....San Francisco or something. (sorry but 12h, can't do.) If you'd like to visit me from wherever you hail from, PLEASE DO! Just kindly send me a text or note, text is ALWAYS PREFERRED btw, since I lead an active life.

What else, what else. I went completely out of my comfort zone this past Sunday and saw Tommy Wiseau's The Room (yes, I know, it was THAT bad...but SPOONS!!) with around 100 other 20 somethings and it was actually really fun but I left early due to my inability to comprehend street signs *shuffles off for a bit*

Yeah.

That's all for now, here's my new number for you all:

three 2 three nine one 9 9 two 4 one (SMS ONLY unless I clear you to call me. My schedule is fairly busy and I don't want to miss your calls.)

See you next time!

Hello FA,

I will be moving this summer to Los Angles! I am super excited for this massive change of habitat and surroundings. I have wanted to live in LA since I was 7 years old.

Let me know if you are living in LA and are knowledgeable about the city and want to show me awesome hiking spots and such (am an avid photographer)!

Here are some interesting things I've found. Enjoy!

What if Wikipedia were to be printed in real-time?
http://what-if.xkcd.com/59/


Hendrik Ball reviews some interesting tat from (mostly) the 1980s. Ashens-esque, but with a serious tone.
https://www.youtube.com/user/hender.....?feature=watch

GoComics - I re-discovered just how great Get Fuzzy is
www.gocomics.com

Reddit - Over the past few days, I've pretty much exhausted the site (yeah, that much free time, I'm single, ahah~) I usually lurk the technology subredit, username is atzorthegreat. Currently can't post for some reason, which is a bit annoying, ah well.
www.reddit.com

Enjoy the links and have a good rest of the summer/winter/whatever season it is in your respective countries!

-Lazarus

If anyone has the link to the FA group, please post it here.

Here is my FC, post your codes in the comments!

2251 4113 0423

Updating journal. Here is a new post.

Going to become more active in the community on Steam, PSN as I am still single and have wads of time. Who's got Steam and what games? I have Red Faction Guerilla (thanks !) Ratchet & Clank All4One and a few others.

Need something to take my time up with.

I have always found the 'statistics' page on Pounced.org to be very interesting. For instance, since I changed my ad title to 'Bored lonely looking for others in CT/NY my ad interest has tripled in volume, the majority of traffic attracted being gay and bisexual males. So, interesting, and it makes me happy to see that I am attracting my target audience.

And now, for something completely different!

So what's been up with me since I last posted, you ask. I've been working, as usual, ungodly hours.
That aside, I have been playing a TON of Jazz Jackrabbit 2, and would love to find other furs to MP with, so hmu if you're wanting to start a team with me!

That's about all for now.

AnthroCon - the largest furry convention in America, held somewhere in Pennsylvania, the location of which I've forgot.

I am planning on going, and need a room of some sort, since my car is small and cramped, and not suitable at all for sleeping in. If you've got an extra spot (closet will do fine, so will the bath, as long as I've got a couple pillows and a quilt), let me know.

I will admit I am a tad anxious about going to this event, as it is the first convention I've attended, and not being the most socially-adept person, I'd rather stick around people I know. (unless you count that book expo at the Javits Centre)

tl;dr version:

Going to AC, need a spot to sleep, want to be around people I know.

So there you have it!

www.twitter.com/filthyoptimism

Follow for S's & G's.