My family had gotten a letter in the mail yesterday saying that we will lose our house due to foreclosure... They want to move to Maine and I have no other choice but to move with them... I really don't want to, but they feel I'm not mentally mature to be left behind yet... That and I don't have a job or a place to stay... I really don't wanna leave Jimmi and my good friends behind, but my parents are now set to move to Maine... This is a really tough moment for me and my brain can't process what's going to happen... I'm at this state where I want to find a way to stay in New York, but I feel I can't leave my parents... I don't know what to do except want to cry and get frustrated because I know I can't do anything to stop it from happening... It's nice to know that I'll be around more family, the beach, whales, and Stephen King... But I have soo much to leave behind... My birthplace, childhood, memories, familiar places and people, friends... And most of all... My boyfriend...

This is all way too much for me to handle... I'm holding back tears typing this out... I can't do this... I would say I need help feeling better because I really do, but there's no absolute way to... *curls up under the covers, tightly squeezing her plushies*

My profile keeps getting signed out if I don't use it for a couple minutes. Is this some new thing on here, or am I getting hacked? D:

I have a plush coming from Hong Kong. It was shipped out December 26, and it was processed through the sort facility at the Hong Kong Air Mail Centre on the 29th. I haven't gotten any tracking history since then. Does this mean that my package is on a plane on its way to New York? It's been freaking me out the past couple days, and nobody knows the answer to my question. I thought I'd ask here because I'll probably get an answer here. I hate being soo paranoid. >_<

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On a side note; A friend has brought to my attention that a certain someone has been peeking at my FA. That certain someone has tried to get me in trouble about my fursuit and failed miserably at it. If you sir are reading this, I ain't going down with a fight! My parents never got mad at me for Tesla, but instead love her to death and have been saying they would have their own fursuits if they could. Unfortunately you underestimated how "strict" they were.

Keep pushing your friends down the way you are, and you'll have no more friends. Keep digging your hole deeper, all your doing is making it worse for yourself. I'll just sit up here and laugh.

Ohh, and if you ever think you have the slightest chance of ever gaining our friendship back together? Nope! You ruined that for good! Me and Jimmi won't even give that a second thought.

I never usually do this, but since everyone else is. Why not?

Dedenne plush
DMC
Tesla feetpaws
Shiny Phantump plush
Doctor Who Monopoly
Giroro plush
Pokemon Red, Ruby, Emerald, X
Airbrush station
Mindflex
Cat Guard dog toy (Battleblock Theatre)
Flaire plush
Isabelle plush (Animal Crossing: New Leaf)
A Day To Remember- Common Courtesy cd
Despicable Me 2
10th Doctor sonic screwdriver

If you can't figure out any other presents, anything Pokemon will suffice!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

What I am thankful for is my family and how they love my uniqueness no matter how strange I can tend to be.
All my good friends who are all by my side every step of the way.
My talent in art and the people who love it.
The hobbies and fandoms that always keep me going.
The people that made me the strong chick that I am today.
My super awesome boyfriend who appreciates me everyday and never forgets to tell me every day.
And most of all, I am thankful to be alive.

Gobble Gobble everyone!

I was wondering if anyone would like a painting of their fursona by me for a fursuit head? It would look similar to this:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11238870/

I was roaming around Route 20, training my Eevee to evolve into Umbreon (which I accidentally evolved into Leafeon). I was getting exhausted because it was soo late and was thinking about giving up and going to bed. I was gonna go through one more wild encounter, then fly to a Pokemon Center and save. But all of a sudden, a shiny Noctowl popped up on my screen. Trying to hold back such loud squealing of excitement, I quickly snapped a pic for Facebook and I threw a Quick Ball and got her right away!

I've been trying to chain for one for the longest time, and had given up over a week ago. The fact she popped up and surprised me made me feel soo much better. I named her Shiku and gave her a spot in my team. I've been waiting for this to happen since I was little. X3

Another crazy season done. It's unfortunate that it went soo quickly. Got to be a crypt boo, doctor's assistant, zombie, and a soot spirit in the fireplace this year. Made some new friends, missing the old ones. Had a used napkin thrown at my mouth. Lost my memorable scream. Got my zombie snarl perfect. Saw my friend Scott in a dress. LONDON DANCE PARTY! This season was interesting.

It's soo upsetting that it's over though. I hate knowing I'll never truly get to hang out with my boo buddies outside of the Mansion, but at least get to say hi to Kit and Cayla when I visit the mall again.

I would've gone trick or treating since it was my first year with Tesla, but I needed to work. Not many people showed up that night, but I at least had fun and leedled like Patrick Star. XD

Hopefully next year I can go to Furfright and see everyone, just wish Jimmi could get a fursuit head too.

I only have 8 followers, and it's kinda sad considering that I post soo much... Look up TeslaJPatch and you'll know it'd me if it has fursuit pics. I can also follow you back too!

After all that recent crap after that asshole Bruce left messages about me hiding Tesla at Jimmi's house, I had finally broke down and told mom about her. She, as much as she thought it was strange, she thinks Tesla's cute and accepts me having a fursuit! As long as I can help sell my dad's van and whatnot, I'll be allowed to have her here at my house and wear her! Now that's a strange turn of events, but I feel soo much better. :3

You know, sometimes I wonder why people have to be such assholes... Yesterday was not a great day at all. :/

A person who used to be a friendly guy towards all of my friends in school turned into a psychotic monster who thinks he's always been superior to everyone. Told someone that me and Jimmi didn't have the mental capacity to listen to his bullshit. Told me to go to hell and that I was dead to him over a fucking opinion about Pokemon. And you know what else? The prick called my house while I was out getting my brother from the bus stop, leaving two messages on the answering machine telling my parents that I'm hiding a fursuit at Jimmi's house. OVER A FUCKING OPINION THAT I DIDN'T AGREE WITH?! Yeah seriously, how stupid is that? I can say I think a pic of the supposed final evos of the starters is fake, and then chose to keep my Quilladin the way it is. You have no right to say I'm being childish and that you'll kick my ass at the tournament. Then also say "Then again, I forgot who I was talking to. Like Pokemon, like trainer." Seriously, what is your deal?! Then he goes and insults everyone who calls him out on it in chat, causing everyone to be in disbelief as to what they're seeing.

You know what Bruce? I can't wait to see your life go down the shitter. Just you wait...

Sorry if that was all over the place, I've been soo furious since it happened. I'm lucky that I'm safe about the fursuit business for now. Just not looking forward to seeing things get bad at the Pokemon tournament, so I hope the library gets rid of the issue so I don't have to deal with it and have fun... Ugh...

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5072412/
http://igg.me/at/Mermade/x/4671770

I'm looking to make more badges for anyone who can help. These badges will be 2 1/8" x 3 2/5" traditional, hole punched, and hand cut. I will send you one if you can help me get the following:

-Custom collar
-Big dog tag w/ "Tesla" on it
-Derpy collectible vinyl figure
-Fluttershy collectible vinyl figure
-Rainbow Dash Pop figure
-Tesla feetpaws (2 badges)
-Fire Stone necklace
-Saw: The Final Chapter DVD
-Pawprint/ Tesla metal necklace
-Draikior plush (2 badges)

Please note me if interested!

Twitter: TeslaJPatch
Livestream: TeslaSparks

In other news, me and Jimmi are going to New York Comic Con on Friday, October 11th! Gonna be dressing up as a humanoid Flaire. Trying to get fur for the tufts on the head, neck, and tail. If anyone has red fur that I could use, I would greatly appreciate it! Send me a note or contact me on Skype.

I have Jimmi's old iPhone now, so communication is easier now, so don't hesitate to message me on Facebook or whatever if you talk to me on there!

Also, thinking about doing a mini transparent badge giveaway soon. What do you think?

Yes! is doing a raffle!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4908633/

Are you looking for a Halloween badge for this Oct, or maybe a horror themed icon? I know the place you need to go, scales4sales scales4sales is doing some commissions go here.:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4907195/
Also in the spirit of Halloween She doing a free auction for a chance to win a free Morbid Portrait of your Anthro self posing in something terrifying. This badge will be mailed to you for free , laminated and signed.Here a few examples:
examples:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6895916
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9100280/

Now to sweeten the deal every time she gets a commission from some one you referred to her, the commissioner and you will get an extra 2 chances in the raffle. Not bad huh so go to this journal (link:http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4910732/)
and enter to win!

Welp, today has been interesting... O-o
Went to the local waterpark to celebrate my little brother's 11th birthday, and had to go to the ER because I hit my head really hard going down the new waterslide and got a concussion. I'm out of the ER now and doing fine. Everyone's just keeping an eye on me in case I should go back. I seriously hope I don't have to, but I will if I absolutely think I need to. Ughh...

He hasn't posted anything yet, but here he is!

REPOST! Trying to make money to get a Draikior fursuit head from ! Please advertise my journal and spread the word around!
$0/$200

Highly doubt anyone would be interested in buying these, but I thought i'd give it a try anyway. I don't have a credit card for Paypal nor do I know how to use it yet, so payment's gonna be an interesting thing... Note me if interested!

Eeveelutions:
3DS- $10
3DS XL/ Laptop- $20

Other Pokémon:
3DS- $30
3DS XL/Laptop- $35

Anything else:
3DS- $35
3DS XL/Laptop- $40

Color Options:
-Pink
-Beige
-Shiny Reflective White
-Silver
-Gold
-Red
-Black
-Dark Green
-Lime Green
-Sky Blue
-Dark Blue
-Brown

Examples:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10591291/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11185846/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11185888/
*I can also take payment in plushies, badges, Pokemon merch, or fursuit parts! Prices are high due to a limited amount.

What should I do to get acknowledged more not just as an artist, but for people to actually want to hang out with me...?

Also, trying to find a cheap but amazing fursuit head maker for either of the wolves I drew recently, Frequency, Flaire, or Draikior. I can try to save a little over $100, but that's it. Unless I get a job soon, I won't be able to go any higher. :/

Can everyone and anyone spread the word about my page and have them do the same please?