im NOT leaving FA and i probably wont for a long time, but i will also be attempting to be equally active on Weasyl, seeing as alot of the people i watch are making an 'exodus" and i don't blame the reasons they have, sadly I run a business and I need to put my job as an artist before my personal thoughts on the matter. For those of you who ARE moving you will be able to find me there as well.

https://www.weasyl.com/profile/foxena

A while back I had my life threatened via email from an angry ex-client who lashed out angrily at me for blocking him from my Livestream channel. He stalked me for a time and then left me alone after i took measures against him. My methods at the time were diegned Questionable by a small few, my referal to my friends jokingly as minions, ironically, was taken worse.

Over the past year I've seemd to aquire a reputation of being ironfisted, and possibly tiggerhappy with my temporary ban-hammer on livestream, banning for 5 minutes or a day, 2 weeks at the most. It takes a HUGE breach of trust, dignity and loyalty to see a true perma-ban from me.

The "Overlord Fox" character is resultant of that, and to refer to my friends as minions is a JOKE, it is a jest, I DO NOT seriously order my friends around as if they were slaves or against thier will in a malicious fashion. Its is a Game, it is a farce, its nothing more than good fun among me and my friends who humor me and its nice to feel.. APPRECIATED and cared about in such a fashion of reverence even if only on the "Stage" that is my livestream.

Allow me however to put a few rumors and wildly imagined thoughts about me to rest. I'm not a cruel person. If i hurt people 95% of the time its 100% uninentional, im scatterbrained and absentminded and oddly enough my catholic guilt makes me deeply regret every single slight ive ever made against a person for AGES, I litterally loose sleep over things that i later find are 'no biggie" to the people i snapped at in a moment of angst and anger, Even after profusely apologising i feel as if some penance must be sacrificed on my part to make everything 'okay' again. I have a very hard time accepting pure generosity in any form and usually work myself up in a tizzy in an attempt to pay everyone back for thier kindness. I also have utter totall MELTDOWNS if i HAVE honestly done something very wrong and beg for forgiveness only to have that denied to me.

Its something im still struggiling with that not everyone is going to forgive me for stupid shit i've done in the past and its something im working on overcoming. We've all had those times when we've screwed up, said something we shouldn't have and done something we shouldnt have. Its a fact of life we aren't perfect and I realize I can't expect to be forgiven for everything ive ever done ever in my life. Alot of this stems from my childhood and family where I was a brat when i was a kid, only to realise i'd said something hurtful and want to fix it.

The best I can do is forgive myself (harder honestly) for some of my shortcomings. I apologise for being and irritble twit sometimes, I apologise for snapping at you if you accidentally got on my nerves. And Im sorry for showing my teeth when it wasn't really necesary.

Fun things to know about me:

1.) I no-longer can sleep without the help of sleep aids at a reasonable hour, my body's sleep schedule would otherwise be 5am to 2pm.

2.) I cannot exist in total silence without going insane. My mind DOES NOT shut off. Im halfway convinced it CAN'T, if left alone in total silence it takes roughly 15 minutes before i start wondering how im going to die, when, and where and what will happen after. (you'd think being a Catholic would give me peace of mind on that, WRONG)

Im not suicidal by any streach, i actually fear death.

It doesn't stop there, i also contemplate the mortality of EVERYONE I KNOW and how it will effect me if they die before i do.

People make fun of me because i can't sleep in silence, i have to have white noise or a fan or something *ON* for me to go to sleep. (its also why its hard for me to sleep at all)

This isn't an excuse for why i might be cranky because ive suddenly started operating on 6 hours of sleep instead of 10 its more "hey this is what comes with being a little crazy"

3.) my most creatively charged time is at night, which is why i work in the evenings and not during the day.

I will often be struck by a muse at odd times and usualy when i have no means of "lettng it out" which is also maddening.

People think being an artist is awesome because you can breath life into the ideas you see in your head. It CAN be, but think for a minute of how this might feel if it were you.

You're walking down the street, on the bus, and suddenly you feel inspiration strike. and in that moment you feel this uncontrollable urge to MAKE something with your bare hands and you know that its going to be a masterpeice but the only things you have around you are not exactly condusive to the creative process. you DONT EVEN HAVE A PEN OR PENCIL to write the idea down and if you do when you finlally enter an environment where you can create the muse is gone.

This happens to me ALMOST EVERY DAY. And it is maddening. (i've learned to be a bit more apathetic to it but its no picnic if your muse is litterally stabbing you with awesome and you have nothingg to translate it into)

4.) I've said this before and ill say it again, I laugh, ALOT, but i also laugh as a defense mechanism. If im nervous, uneasy, afraid, or shy, i will giggle at the end of my sentences. I HAVE NO CONTROL OVER THIS and it ticks me off to no end because I litterally titter like a hyena with tourets. *apologies out there to the hyena's with tourets*

5.) Wolfbane, nothing more need be said.


tl;dr,

Im not a scary person, im human and im a twit sometimes. thats no reason to fear me or think im some sort of crazy woman who lashes out whenever she's cranky or angry. I've gotten alot better and im much more closer to zen despite my issues with things.

i am exhausted and i have another flight tomorrow to take me back to ohio. and i'll at least be able to rest and sleep with nothing hanging over me, I DONT like loosing the income but i'll just work extra hard to make it up later, no biggie. I'll be back in full swing tomorrow after a long and much needed nap tomorrow. weee.

Sorry for any inconvienence, if you want to see me i'll be attending Genesis Whitmoore's stream tonight instead. http://www.livestream.com/littletales she's amazing and a person i count strongly as a damn good friend of mine. So go check her out, i'll be quiet most of the time while watching so don't expect much conversation out of me

So i'll be back in ohio by tuesday afternoon (and will be taking a long-ass nap before the stream that day)

but i'll be back in the appropo saddle doing commissions again on Monday as I'll be with the parents in nashiville for a day before i get back proper.

lots of traveling in two days time im NOT looking forward to. and a taxi ride from the airport i need to take for lacking having taken a car TO the airport. whoops. Hopefully the fare won't be too much.

aaannnyway. I've decided to go ahead and make speed-paints Auction only, the baseline price will be the same as what it has been so if theres only one bidder, you'll pay the original price of $80 (which i honestly expect to happen, since Speedpaints don't usually get much demand as of yet) I will be offering ONE speedpaint per-week, because i like doing them, and I don't get to do them nearly enough in my opinion. Its my way of being able to really streach my abilities as an artist.

The first will be "volcanic" theme and I will be starting the bidding this friday, my day off, so I can gauge the interest and plan appropriately.

Another thing that im working on is PROPERLY pricing the "splash" works.
Ex:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9633517/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9648634/
http://d.facdn.net/art/foxenawolf/1.....pplesplash.jpg

I'm still on the fence with pricing them lower than shaded works mostly because they take almost 2 hours to do if not more. but there appears to be "less" of it because the only thing that shows are the drips (which trust me takes alot longer) So im on the fence of thier pricing.*I* think $60 is fair for ME but im not sure if its fair from the view of my clientelle. So i'll be working on that.

Contemplating making speed paints themed with auctions. I'd like to be able to do more of them and to make them unique. Possible themes are: Western, water, volcanic, and starlight to name a few. Depending on how high the prices climb will determine the level of detail of the background.

Ahh the superbowl, a day when for some reasons the powers that be grant me AWESOME focus. No clue why.

SO in honor of this remarkable day of clarity we're having a three-themed stream.

Sports, (for you FBAers) Macros, and my personal favorite, Nuclear Cute. (hell if you can combine all three i commend you)

As per the norm. Spending $50 or more on a themed picture gets a free sketch.

prices as a reminder:
$10 sketch
$30 ink
$50 flat color
$60 shading

We'll start out with 5 slots and if the night is realy hopping i might open more.

1. Fringedog
2.shanerufus
3.
4.
5.

So i finally found a fairly good song for Overlord Fox.

too bad its damn hard to find a kareoke version of it.

Anyway for those of you familiar with Ratigan's Theme song "the world's greatest criminal mind"

I give you my rendition. (to be actually recorded once i DO find a kareoke version i can extend for my own purposes)

From the Genius that developed the Size ray Caper,
that's sure to make headlines in every newspaper,
From my time on the street till I rise to the top
my ingenuous plotting no hero dare stop

and soon comes my true cute de force,
adorably genius of course!

The size ray crime was fine for it's time
but now that i'm at it again,
a much more adorable plot has been simmring
in my perfectly genius brain!

Even better? you mean it?
Worse than the west boro baptists you cowed,
YOU'RE the best of the worst around!
Oh Overlord, dear overlord! the rest fall behind!
Dear overlord! "AND WOLFBANE!"
the world's greatest criminal minds!

I'm not that big and by far not tall
in this game I am playing the winner takes all

Melting thier hearts with a stare!
Heart-attacks diabetes everywhere!

My minions too are long overdue
for a chance to show their true skill!
and now with my nuclear cute thats brewing
they'll find out that cuddly can KILL!

Oh overlord! Dear overlord!
your the best and thats that!
oh overlord! dear overlord!

"To our overlord the world's greatest CAT!"
"...... what was THAT!?"
"SQUEAK"
"WHAT DID YOU CALL ME?"
"oh oh he didn't mean it my lady, It was just a slip of the tongue!"
*hissing* "I AM NOT A CAT!"

"NOOO of course not!"
"you're a fox," "yeah a fox!" "a really... SMALL fox"
"SILENCE!!"

"sigh... oh my dear Forvet... i'm afraid you've gone and upset me.... you know what happens when someone upsets me..."

"ahh Wolfbane my preacious my baby, did mummy's little fluffy woofie enjoy her tasty treat?"

"I trust. there will be no further interruptions...now.. as you were singing?"

"even cuter! we'll do it! No one can doubt what we know you can do!
You're more adorable than even you! oh Overlord! "AND WOLFBANE!"
YOU'RE TWO OF A KIND! To overlord and Wolfbane the worlds greatest criminal minds!

(yes part of this is a joke that im more cat-like than fox-like... for the character of Overlord Fox however, Im totally going to make this her berserk button, because she is cat-like enough that it would show.)

There's no easy way for me to say this, my Favorite Uncle died sunday night and I may be distant for awhile. And Streams may be canceled wed-thurs. This is hard for me, of my extended family he was one of the few who didn't treat me like a pariah growing up because I was adopted. I will miss him dearly and I don't want to bother people with my crap right now. There seems to be too much of it lately.

Goodbye Uncle Ronnie, i'll miss you so much.

everyone I know save a few prime examples seems to be spiralling into a black hole or having crap piled on them at once and I'm super wary of not falling into the same thought process knowing full well i could and can. I find it infinately helpful to my own mental wellbeing to help my friends however so even though im tired and drained from the week, im still trying to be there for the people who need it. But MAN this week has been insane for everyone i know. Has anyone else noticed this?

this week i bought myself two little toys to play with, an upgrade for mangastudio, and some instamorph plastic beads.

Needless to say insofar im loving playing with instamorph and thanks to having a bucktonne of copic markers i can color my peices to my hearts content without using paint. (so far). I proved my level of furry by making a set of claws or my right hand, sharp enough to do some damage but short enough they're concealed in my fist for a little bit of added self defense when i go out on the town for whatever reason. Second thing i made (after experimenting with dyeing the plastic with copic ink was a mini pony, (airbrush of course)

you can see her here: https://www.dropbox.com/s/gx3iqks0v.....01.26%20AM.jpg

Still in limbo on Mangastuido five, SO FAR however i find it FAR more intuitive than its previous versions, which is a plus, now its finding what can/will distinguish itself further from photoshop but im sure i'll find it. one little problem ive encountered is it basically is supposed to have shapes" applied to brushes and they're all circles. Not quite sure what to make of that but im sure theres a fix somewere. (for example a brush labled "leaf" is a bunch of oddly smooshed or streached circles at varying opacities and spacings. instead of leaf shaped) STILL once i get that little issue resolved im fairly certain i can manipulate the program further to explore its full potential.

Just a reminder that tomorrow (saturday) is the Ask Overlord Fox Stream, we'll be treated with Dr. Horrible's sing along blog and many other villanous songs, AND if you have a witty phrase for a villaintines card we'll be doing that as well.

ALSO I have convinced bane to allow some people to hold her as a puppy. Just remember to sign the waiver, the overlord Fox Corp holds no responsibilitly for lost limbs, sanity, or another extremity big or small, Bane is "handle at your own risk."

onward t more fun.

Im sad that our day and age and the false sense of "acceptance" that the furry community is SUPPOSED to embody, falls so short that there's a strong sense of passive aggressive misogyny in our fandom and to an even greater extent the internet in general.

When i go to cons and bring my parents many of the people there say "the furry community is the most accepting fandom! No-one is considered a freak here.

LIES.

outright BLATANT LIES.

I was afraid for the longest time as being proud to be female, and proud to be a feminist because to do so would label me as "one of those" people. That being a "Feminist" has somehow become a filthy word only reserved for the most pragmatic and doggedly fanatical members of the female gender/sex.

But this isn't JUST about women. this is about acceptance and tolerance period.

Neer said it fairly well. Hope he doesn't mind me linking to it.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4243441/

I could go on for hours about it, but I won't because by the end of it i'll start wanting to cave in skulls.

tonight after i draw the bikers comic, we'll have a specal fun Pawsie stream, get all your paws up in heah.

1. Pathfinder
2.
3.

Limited slots tonight mostly because the comic will take up a chunk of the time.

A few added expenses are coming up for a long and much needed vacation for yours truely. I wanted to do a fun little event stream so help with that sooo.

As many of you are aware of the ask the overlord Fox Blog. (and its current stagnation, SHAME onme)

The way the event will go is, donators will ask questions and donate an amount they want. The amount donated determines how many panels your answer will get. Your character will be featured and, if you have a blog, your blog will be linked back.

The donations will run like thus:

$10- 2 panels

$20- 3 panels

$30 - 4 panels

$40 - 5 panels

You get the idea. The first panel is always free. And you can choose depending on how much you donate if you want 5 panels or one fully colored panel, etc etc.

I'm planning on doing this on Saturday.

Alot of people ask me how long i've been drawing. I get this question at least once a week.

The answer is i've been drawing since i got my motor skills and was never discouraged to stop. From the moment i started drawing, I never stopped. But that's not the point. The point is that it takes a long time to master a craft, and i would never consider myself a master of anything, especially not art. Im always working always improving always striving to be better. I'm fortunate however.

Why?

I was born in 1985, i began drawing around 1987 in 1998 i put my first peice of artwork on the internet. no-one ever saw it but the few friend i'd made in various chatrooms, i was 13. This was my first real experience with the internet. It was still very much in its fledgling state, and during this time i POURED over places like Yerf.

Then for about 4 years my family went without having a computer. I was 17, once again i began to put my work online again.

im gonna let you digest that for a second.

for 15 years i was doing artwork with ONLY my close friends and family to support and ecourage me. (and in some cases discourage me) but i KNEW the people who discouraged me. i knew what my standing with them was. Whether they hated me and everything i did, or wether they liked me and wanted me to draw for them, or if they cared at all for what i was doing and wanted me to suceed. FIFTEEN YEARS and i had only a small pool of people from which i could draw upon for support and encouragement.

In this day and age of internet awareness we strive to become recognized, encouraged and adored. And if the people seeking that recognition fail to get it from thier family and friends around them they seek the internet. .... this is a bucking dream killer for someone whose just starting out. the internet has standards, they don't know how old you really are, how long you've been doing something, and even if that information is divluged its not common that it's beleived. So many people get discouraged by this because even your friends DON'T know how long youve been trying, how far you've come and how much you want to be encouraged. They see your work, and only your work and they judge based onthat.

i was fortunate. for 15 years i was encouraged by people who knew me, who saw how much id improved, knew how long i'd been drawing. Its an experience that, sadly i see less and less of and artists who have potentail give up because the praise and encouragement isn't there.

Now this isn't always the case and im not purporting that this is the "problem" with people who "give up" on being an artist. But i offer more than just lessons to my students, i offer encouragment. I offer the reward of knowing "YES you are getting better and im PROUD of you." thats what everyone really needs. For the people they care about to be proud of them, to care about what they're doing.

so remember guys, whether your a pro or just starting out, remember that you just need the right amount of perserverance and you'll get there. don't let the jerks put you down.

This is your little reminder, Hug an artist and tell them they're awesome, and bonus points if its a beginner.

We're gonna have a party.

Tonights Themes are:

Macro,
Micro,
Pony,
paw,
and
the overlying theme of
"OH MY GOD FA IS DOWN FOR 2 HOURS EVERYONE PANIC"

we look forward to you attending,

and as for all official themed nights

purchases over $50 gets a free sketch.

Slots:

1.cosmofoxen
2. Zaxxiah
3.
4.
5.

So people have expressed an intrest in getting T-shirts of this peice: http://www.furaffinity.net/full/9633517/

.. Ask and ye Shall Receive : http://foxtayls.spreadshirt.com/

im currently workong out how to get on WeLoveFine but i think i'll need more designs before i get on there So i decided to do do the "Splash" style with the other 5 ponies.

Wanted to basically play with re-writing this song because its too much fun, playing with hector's duplicty as a capitalist agaisnt his pathetic health :

This say is going to be perfect,
the kind of day of which I've dreamed since i was small
all my auctions late to sell
im a capitalist neer-do-well
what they don't realize is I controll it all!

this day was going to be perfect
a few more hours yet and i'd be standing tall
but my health is on the brink,
how much lower can it sink
my liver can't take this much alchohol

I don't care about the prices
I can undercut and gouge
Fair! i'd be lying if i say,
I don't care about the money
and im not that power hungry
the truth is I just want to rule them all!
No I don't not love the Horde, Garrosh will die on my wife's sword
but i want his nation to be MINE!

I must slow down before its too late
im too weak to save the day..
hope? i'd be lying if i say
That i feel i will survive this
while tiberon may contrive this
the truth is don't think i'll live at all...
but Tiberon has a plan, and it may just be my last stand
oh Fox my darling, will soon rule all the land!

Finally my plans are bearing fruit!
And soon all azeroth will surely fallow suit!

I fear i am too late, this is the hour of my fate,
Tiberon will be....

MINE all mine AHAAHAHAHAAHAHHA.

So first thing on the agenda is I want to offer more options to my peeps. I'll be resuming Advertising as well.

Things that will be added:

Auctions:

these are basically things that i might offer to help pay off a week or a few days when im out of town depending on how high they go. Basically its an auction for a digital painting like what i do with Airbrush, Firefly and Rainbowdash. Something cool but also expensive and seeing as i have NO idea how to price them I figured an auction would be best.

YCH auctions. Pre-posed auctions with one of my characters. THESE WILL NOT BE PORNOGRAPHIC. but basically things like being mauled/glomped by Bane, or doing something for Overlord Fox, or something of that nature, fun, silly themed pre-poses that you pay to be inserted into.

Paintings in general. I love doing "speedpaints" and Id like to offer more of them if people are willing to get them. simple ones will still follow the original pricings but the more detailed ones will be subject to an auction.

I'll add more as the thoughts come in.

friday is my official day off but... im so exhausted from these two weeks i think ive deserved myself a break and a reward. im going to find a nice bottle of some kind of alchoholic beverage i can alctually stomach and drink myself into probably the first drunken stupor ever. Im tired im drained... i deserve a bucking break, and barrnng alchohol i'll probably scour the local fare of "hang outs" and see if i can't actualyl be social in person with people for a change instead of being such a bucking shut-in.

Fun fact, fox's idea of a hangout is a library....

OhGodwe'reSuchPartyanimals

Shaddap Bane...

So yeah, girls night out, me and my Inner Desire turned fatalistic Canine Companion Bane. .... LETS GO TO THE MOVIES! ot the BOOK STORE.... YEAH... .....

i dunno wether this is hilarious or pathetic.

So due to some WONDERFUL clerical errors on the parts of idiots. I have to stay untill thursday at the 'rents place. Not a HUGE deal but still...

ANYWAY thats the state of things so far.

ANOTHER THING and ive mentioned this in streams and on journal or two i think.

As of tomorrow i'll be raising some of my prices.

In order to bring a better product to my clientelle and really be able to expand and be BETTER as an artist I've decided to up the prices of the inking and Coloring stages of my creative process. Not only will this allow me to spend more time on both stages without feeling i need to rush it but also to even out some of the pricing issues that came with halving the commission prices in half for additional characters.

The new prices as of January 1st are:

Sketch: $10
Linework (ink) $30
Flat Color $50
Shaded full color $60

I apologise for any inconvienences this might incur but I plan on making some changes for the better with my process that I think everyone will be happy with.

I just weakly sang "a little fall of rain" to a semi-lucid hallucination of... someone I care about... thinking i was about to DIE of a bucking migrane.... i need to get these headaches checked out ASAP they're starting to scare me.

Overlord Fox: Viva la Vida / be prepared / Brand new Day

Wolfbane Hyde: 21 Guns / The Wizard and I / 99 red baloons

Hector Fen: Drink with me (lesmis) / These wars we fight / how bad can I be

Sagitar: Aldonza / It’s all the same/ Lovley Ladies

Allison Hatcher: I dreamed a dream / Someone else’s story / tear drops on my guitar

Fox Tiberon: This Day Aria / Confrontation (jekyll and Hyde) / I could write books

Redawn Fenwatcher: Toucha Toucha Touch me / baby its cold outside / I’ll make a man out of you

Zhanzing Fenwatcher: Perfect / Out there / I’ve got a dream

Ning Fenwatcher: He lives in you / Circle of Life / candle on the water

Merry christmas one and all,
Merry christmas big and small
Pagan athiest, agnostic and faithful
all are welcome to sit at my table

I do not judge I do not hate
for everyone can have a plate
remember the true message of the season
To love eachother without a reason

This bitter tide give way to care
and find in friends your comfort there.
welcome not is bigotry
I only want your company

Take there this day, take care this night
and take your family hold them tight
And the very last person who reads this too
remember I never stopped loving you.

"Remember, no-one is a failure who has friends"

What: Its a wonderful FBA life starring Shane Rufus.

When: evening Eastern standard time dec 23 and 24

Why: To raise money for St Jude's children's hospital

Where: http://www.livestream.com/devia

Stuff:

one sketched panel: $10

single-panel cameo $20

Minor character cameo $50

important character cameo $100 (limit 5 slots)

(to be added after the story is all sketched out on select panels of the donator's choice: independant of cameo donations)

Inked panel $30

Flat color panel $50

Donation page: http://www.razoo.com/story/Wonderful-Life

$100 cameo slots:

1. Jadedfox
2.
3.
4.
5.