So.... A few days ago, we declared The Bunghole a failed experiment and locked her up for good. However... It was immediately replaced with a new, adults only server called "The Fuzzy Muzzle Cafe". My buddy Clinker and I are always looking for new and fun members, so if you're interested in joining this Discord server, fell free to shoot me or Clinker a DM and we'll get you started. :3

As I have mentioned before, I'm the administrator of a Discord server known as The Bunghole. However, there has been a recent shakeup in the membership, and to make a long story short, I'm short a few members now. Because I'm worried that my server's vitality will suffer a bit from this, I am basically asking anyone if they'd be willing to join my server. If you have a Discord account and if you're interested in joining a fun furry server, shoot me a DM and I'll get you set up. :3

So, I've finally committed myself to the idea of myself being referred to as a "they" instead of a "he". However... I'm having a ton of issues figuring out what works grammatically when using that set of pronouns. I'd appreciate any help with this. :3

For a fur who's username outright states that he's a photographer, I haven't been able to do much at all in my profession in about 2 whole months. *Shudder* And, here's why: I don't have the damned software on my laptop that allows me to do anything at all with the file type I shoot my pictures in, RAW/.CR2. Since I'm a stubborn bastard who refuses to shoot in JPEG and henceforth lose my ability to make vital adjustments to my pictures in postproduction, I need to find the software for my laptop somehow. Which brings me to impass #2: I don't want to have to shell out $100 for a program that I used to use for free in college 2 months ago and will be able to use for free once again when the fall semester starts. I have tried various freeware versions of this software, but my computer has been even more stubborn than me in this regard. Nothing I've tried allowed me to open and edit RAW files and any attempt to install software that supposedly can results in my computer throwing a hissy fit over lacking some sort of file that I can't safely download off the web. Urrrrrrrrrgh!!!
(Rant Over)
Anyway, since I'd really love to resume my photography work before I've forgotten all of the skills I've picked up in Photoshop, does anybody have any advice for me, short of sucking it up and paying $100 for the software? I'd greatly appreciate the help.

So, I probably could've handled my anxiety towards Thursday's conflict a little better, and I think that I made the situation worse by giving a blow-by-blow of the situation in my journals. Anyway, I apologize for my impulsiveness in handling my first big conflict, and I'm so sorry if I hurt your feelings or your standing in the furry fandom,  all_american_flying_foxdog . But, just know that it was an accident instead of a deliberate decision. Also, to the users  shia-misaki and  cocoapanda, I apologize if we got off on the wrong foot with each other. I hope that we can be amicable with each other. Anyway... Hopefully this marks the end of all of this.

For reasons that you might or might not be aware of, yesterday was my darkest hour in my relatively brief time in the fandom. I need to know. For everyone I call a friend, close or casual, I need to know that you have my back and that my place and the reputation I've earned in the fandom hasn't been lost. I'm so worried that my wild ride as a fur has ground to a halt just as it was truly beginning.
In other news, a few nights ago, I created a Ko-Fi account for myself, following the advice of my buddy  feralfrenzy It's https://ko-fi.com/fluffyshutterbug/...

I realized today that I haven't touched two writing projects of mine, "Corrupted Souls" and "A Legend is Born" for well over a month. But, that doesn't mean that I have forgotten about them. The former is a bit of a problem, because I'm not the only writer for that.  oakenheelthewolf and  madkiyo are my co-writers, but it's been really hard to reach them lately. The latter... I only have myself to blame for the frustratingly slow progress. That one has actually been done since the winter of 2014, but I've got to convert it all into Notepad documents, and search for replace each and every character that won't be rendered properly in the file type transfer. Pretty darned tedious... But, I haven't forgotten 'em.

I cannot even comprehend to believe how much things have changed in a mere three months. In the end of March, I was a lonely noob, desperate to make some furiends, and now it's the end of June and I'm now the owner of a furry Discord server. In three months, I have gone from the new kid on the block to a popular greymuzzle. Thank you to all who helped me get to where I am today; you've all made me feel like I mattered and that I have a spot in the fandom. :)

Today was sort of a big day for me. My best friend,  feralfrenzy created a new server on Discord, and he made me an admin. OwO I've NEVER been in charge of anything before in my life, so this is a sort of exciting, albeit nerve-wracking experience for me. If anybody is interested in joining a fun Discord server, ran by me and Jayson Husky (FeralFrenzy) here's a link to join: https://discord.gg/HXqNKV
Anyway... I hope I do well as a server admin!

So... Alex turned out to be a very forgettable OC and a rather forced lover for Jamie, so I decided to drop her, since I don't even have any artworks of the collie at all. Anyway, here's the main event: Completely out of the blue today, I developed this very strong affinity for deer. Particularly femboy deer. So, naturally, I decided that I just HAD to have a deer sona for myself, not only because they're the absolute cutest, they also have a gentler and quieter appearance to them, which suits me very well. Of course, I'm not scrapping Jamie. That promiscuous foxboy is here to stay, of course. I have a few friends with multiple sonas, and I think I could give it a try.
Anyway! This new guy! He's a femboy deer of course. He has long, beautiful silver-blonde hair, pale blue eyes and positively voluptuous body. Name? Uh... I don't know yet. Some suggestions would be appreciated. Anyway, although I'm excited to welcome this cute new guy into my heart, I'm concerned that it might lead to the abandonment of Jamie...

Update: The name if this new sona is... Drumroll please! ... ASHER BUCK! So... How does that sound?

Heyo again~! I just thought that I'd give a little thank-you shoutout to everyone who wished me a happy birthday. *Takes a deep breath* Thank you,  zeofawx,  kidchameleon,  jarren_ironclaw,  yakamaru,  rubbervixen,  therealzenoth,  dinosaurofthenorth,  wolfnightv4x1,  aerofox~,  evcollie,  faunathekitten,  feralfrenzy and of course thank you to  yamaneko30 and her awesome pixel art of my OC, Jamie. *Exhales*
Thank you all so much~! You've made this foxboy feel loved! ^w^

Heyo~! I just thought that you fellas should know that tomorrow is my birthday. I turn 21 tomorrow~! Anyway, please be sure to send me plenty of delicious birthday cake~! :P

An ongoing saga of mine is figuring out what exactly my gender identity is. I finally got around to doing some looking... And I found out what I already knew: I am an androgyne. However, I still don't like the whole stigma and baggage attached to the masculine set of pronouns very much. And, I also feel like using those pronouns might sort of trivialize my feminine characteristics that I hold dearly to my heart, both for my self and my fursona. Therefore, I am considering the idea of using neutral pronouns (they, them, their) for myself. Any thoughts?

At last!!! I finally opened a bank account today, and I was finally able to pay  faunathekitten and  solaris91 for the commissions that I've requested them to do for me. Thank you, you two, for your patience. It means so much to me. ^w^

Oy........ This commission headache won't go away without a fight. Now that my mum is willing to help, the next step is proving to be incredibly frustrating. We've searched various stores in the area, and we've had no luck finding prepaid PayPal cards. As always,  rcanheta,  solaris91 and  faunathekitten, please remain patient. I'm trying my best to get this straightened out... I'm so sorry for all of these problems...

This commission saga just refuses to die. Of course after I go and try to cancel all of the commissions that I've asked for, my mum relents and allows me to try to use PayPal. So, now it's looking like I CAN pay for this schtuff now, but I'm going to have to keep all of you guys ( solaris91 ,  rcanheta and  faunathekitten) up to date, because this has been a very strange roller coaster. Hopefully, this is the turning point...

It's really looking like I have no option to pull out of all of the commissions that I've requested, because the two options that would fly; cash upfront or a prepaid gift card of sorts just won't work. I don't really know what else to say, but I'm so sorry for wasting your time,  solaris91,  rcanheta and  faunathekitten. I just hope that we can all still remain on friendly terms after this...

I suffer from anxiety and depression; this shouldn't be news to most people I know, tho. So, having years and years worth of bad experiences, I feel obliged to help out those who suffer from similar problems as me. One of these persons are Luna Silvervale, the admin of one of the Discord servers that I am a part of. She appeared to be depressed today that various acts of self-promotion she did went unnoticed, so I decided to help her out a bit. Anyway... If anyone's looking for an OC to adopt, visit her page at https://www.furaffinity.net/user/lunasilvervale/ . :3

Welp, I finally had to break the news to my mum, whom I'm still dependent on despite being an adult, that I need to begin paying for some commissions that I've requested, and it went over exactly how well I thought it would: She flipped out on my and accused everyone of being shysters preying on a naive and trusting person. So, since I'd rather not have to do more confrontations, I've decided that I should just try to cancel everything that I have in the works right now and never pay for artwork ever again... It looks like it's gonna be free art or no art at all for me for the foreseeable future...

UPDATE: I think I MIGHT still be able to make schtuff work, granted that I don't use PayPal or anything that can be traced back to me personally. Whether or not that'll work remains to be seen.

A few days ago, I replaced a bunch of the furniture in my bedroom, and one of the items I recovered when cleaning out an old drawer was a thumb drive. Since I figured that it would be a good idea back up various documents and pictures I had saved on my computer, I plugged the drive into my computer, and boy I was in for an awesome surprise. A long time ago, I was working on a Skyrim fanfiction, and I ended up getting stuck in an indecisive rut that led to me cancelling the whole project outright, and I deleted everything I ever did. But, on this thumb drive, I found the entire story saved on it, so now I don't have to start all over again! I'll be posting this story to FA in the coming days, since I need to fix the compatibility quirks that'll arise from converting the documents into .txt files. One last thing: I don't intend to do much editing, since there's other, newer writing projects that I'm working on, so I'd rather not get slogged down from a 3 year old project. So, it might look a little rough around the edges.

I probably should've realized this earlier, but Serena Lion-Heart isn't really my secondary sona; it's really Alexandra, Jamie's late girlfriend. I've actually assumed her role several times already, which is far more than what can be said about Serena. Anyway, Alexandra Collier, a Rough Collie (Yeah, I know. ANOTHER super-obvious surname), is sorta like Jamie, but she's a little more composed and more abrasive than Jamie. Plus, she also has a stronger work ethic than him, is less carefree and nowhere near as promiscuous as her vulpine lover. Appearance wise.... Basically picture Colleen from the "Road Rovers" TV show, and that's Alex; She's a carmel and white collie with a long, soft and beautiful mane of long hair. Her fur is long and soft, too. She has a quiet and pretty face and has mahogany-brown eyes. Now about her being "late": Canonically, Alex dies in a car wreck shortly after the events of "Corrupted Souls". However, she is always open for use for RP's and schtuff. As Zeo once told me, and end doesn't have to be the final end. :3

As you fellas probably already know, I have changed my OC, Jamie to a femboi. Thankfully, the artist,  msgrandpabacon was willing to modify past commissions she did for me. However, that means that there's going to be a bit of a change to the commissions, "Tapesuited!" and "Yarnbound"; My character will no longer have breasts. As for "Jamie's Secret", I'm going to try to see if the artist,  fatpandaluke is willing to modify the character design. If he does, I am going to end up deleting that submission and resubmitting it with a new title and premise. Anyway, I know that it might not be necessary to say this, but I'm just the sort of person who feels obliged to notify people about things like this. I hope you fellas don't mind this change. :3

Welp. Here we are again. Another change to my OC. I'm far too tired and emotionally drained to really come up with something cute or eloquent, so I won't beat around the bush. I have decided that my OC, Jamie Foxworthy should be a femboi instead of a herm. Oh. And, she is now a HE--that's important. That being said... Both here and IRL, Jamie is still very, very feminine despite now having a Y chromosone. And, Jamie looks literally exactly the same as before, except for the flat chest. But, he still has that voluptuous feminine body shape, he still has a long, beautiful vermilion mane and still has a cute, pretty feminine face. And, I picture his voice to sound sorta high-pitched for a guy. So, yeah. A lot of things to say about literally ONE change to my character. But, in any case, I'm so glad that today is over. Seriously!

Ugh.... I've been feeling rather discouraged recently. Why? Because I'm not so sure anymore if my decisions for myself and my fursona are even valid. As you know, my sona, Jamie Foxworthy, is a herm. Also, although I identify as transgender IRL, taking hormones are about as much as I'd be willing to do--I don't want to get the surgery done, if you know what I mean. However.... I'm concerned that this is a textbook case of wanting to have things be both ways when they might not really be able to be. Am I really properly transgender if thinking about the genitals I was born with doesn't make me want to hurl? Am I doing something wrong by having my sona being a herm--should she either be a "regular" female or a femboi instead? God, how words can hurt, even if they weren't meant to be hurtful. I felt so empowered and so happy when I decided that my sona should be a herm, and relieved when I actually thought about the surgery. But, now, I'm worried that I'm either delusional or a fraud or something. I need help....

I've noticed how some of my friends, like Jay Husky (FeralFrenzy) have multiple fursonas, so I was considering giving it a whirl. Anyway, naturally, my "alternate" sona would definitely be my Skyrim player character, Serena Lion-Heart. She's an Argonian with coral-colored scales and topaz-colored eyes who was raised by a family of Nords. Personality wise, she has a bit of a chip on her shoulder, so to say. She has a bit of a short fuse and easily would come of to others as a "bitch". She's strong and tough, and her heart burns with the fire of a warrior. But, she does have vulnerabilities, though...
Appearance wise, she has a similar body shape to Jamie, but she's much more muscular and athletic, and is bustier than Jamie. Also unlike Jamie, Serena doesn't have that "abnormality" that Jamie has.
Anyway, I'm not quite sure about what I'm going to do with this potential alternate OC, since I have no intentions of interacting with other furs as Serena. But, I'm definitely game for artworks, stories and RP's.