I really want to say something a little more upbeat, once again, because I'm worried that everyone might be concerned about my overall mood lately, myself included, to be honest. Anyway, if anyone is in need of some emergency cuteness, check out this board I made on Pinterest, dedicated to the red fox! ^W^
https://www.pinterest.com/missingno152/foxes/

Jamie_Foxworthy is the name. I thought that I'd follow my BF and create a Twitter account for my OC, Jamie, and so I could troll that ultra-punchable Ajit Pai. I have no idea what I'm doing and how to get started, so any help or advice would be much appreciated. Oh, and please visit https://democracy.io/#!/ if you're mad about the Net Neutrality repeal. Please!

This morning, my boyfriend,  beatle9 shared a video with me that talked some more about the Net Neutrality debacle, and the video included a link that caught my eye. I've been wanting to write my two senators and local representative, and this method makes it so easy! If any of you are concerned about losing Net Neutrality, please visit https://democracy.io/#!/ and write to congress! I hate to admit this, but they're our last hope at this point.

BREAKING! A friend of mine just shared some important information with me regarding the Net Neutrality repeal. If what she says is true, and I have reason to believe her, the FCC's plan also threatens our First and Tenth Amendment rights.

I support Net Neutrality as a cornerstone for the open flow of knowledge and information essential to civic life, education, research, and community building in the digitial age.

To end Net Neutrality is to inflict damage on our democratic life as well. The first amendment requires freedom of speech, freedom of association--and in the digital age, that occurs in the virtual world.

To refuse to permit the States to enforce Net Neutrality is such an overreach that it violates the separation of powers between the states and federal government, also a cornerstone of our democracy.

To refuse to share with New York Attorney General requested information about the bots attack that overwhelmed the feedback period and that created a huge demand to revoke net neutrality is highly suspect.

That bots were engaged in the feedback period also robs us of our first amendment rights to air grievances.

If you didn't already write to congress, be sure to include this information.
And, if you already did, write them again, because the government needs to know that the FCC an Telecom Industry is going to dismantle the constitution.

Some further thoughts on Net Neutrality....
I'm pretty sure that Net Neutrality is gonna be nuked. What incentive does Pai and his cronies even have to listen to us? Forget trying to save Net Neutrality; that's a lost cause. What we REALLY should be doing at this point is to figure out our next move. The American consumer is going to be in check. It's gonna be in our best interest to figure out our next move and not lose this game of chess.
Seriously. I won't sleep well at night unless I know that there's a next step planned, whether it's a march or a protest or pestering members of congress or the ISP's or anything at all to send a message that we won't shut up and take it, which would be utterly foolish not to do.

I thought that I'd say something more positive for a change. Today's Thanksgiving, and I thought that I'd mention a few things that I'm thankful for.
- I am thankful for my family. I am thankful for my mother, and all of the sacrifices she made for my siblings and I so we could grow up to be smart and healthy adults. I am thankful for my two sisters and one brother, despite all of the issues you'd expect for having siblings. I am thankful for my grandmother and late grandfather for assisting my mother with raising all of us and for all of the great memories we had. I am also thankful for my father and how he hung in there all of these years despite losing everything to his name and having his dream of being a musician slip through his fingers. And of course, I am thankful for my pets. My three kitties, Katty, Maddy and Annie, and my sister's doggo, Scout. I love all of them so much!
- I am thankful for my friends. Until the spring of this year, I didn't have any friends that I would consider to be true friends, but thankfully, that isn't the case anymore. I am thankful for  feralfrenzy. Without him, I wouldn't be running a Discord server today. I am thankful for  zeofawx and  rubbervixen for helping me make the first connections within the furry fandom. I am also thankful for  clinker for being my first-ever boyfriend that I actually enjoyed interacting with. Although we're no longer together, I will never forget our summer love. I am VERY thankful for my current boyfriend,  beatle9. We have SO much in common with each other, and he has proven to me many times that he's willing to go above and beyond the call of duty for me. I cannot wait for the day we can finally meet IRL. I am also thankful for  faunathekitten for being a constant in my ever-changing life here in the fandom. Many of my friends have come and gone, but you've been here for me since the day we first met. Thank you so much. Lastly, thank you,  rimna,  borknugget,  violet_trixx ,  aarpple,  pipistrele,  simotheskunk,  therealzenoth,  drexodium,  jsands294 ,  thunderstreak and everybody else who's been an outstanding friendo to this foxxo. You all make me squee with delight~! ^W^

You've gotta love America.... I heard today that the FCC is planning to repeal the Net Neutrality laws. This.... Is utterly terrifying. If this passes, and it most likely will, I'll be at the mercy of Xfinity. If they don't like a certain site I use, it could be slowed down or even blocked. Like.... What if one of the higher-ups at Xfinity decides that furries and yiff is bad and decided to block this site or Weasyl or SoFurry or DeviantArt? How screwed am I and how screwed are my fellow American furs?
(I apologize if anyone's offended by me bringing up current and political events, but this is utterly terrifying....)

I'm still too upset to explain why I left FAF, and it's such a long and complicated discussion, but if anybody needs to know why I won't be participating in the Forums anymore, this is the reason why: http://forums.furaffinity.net/threa.....limit.1639645/

Basically, my identity was directly attacked and belittled, and when I attempted to defend myself, I was personally and directly insulted. Thanks to this person, my anxiety is now off the charts, and I'm concerned that being a femboy isn't a legitimate thing anymore.

I'm never using the Forums ever again, for reasons that I'm far too riled up to explain at the moment. But, I'll still always be here, on the mainsite, on Discord, and now on SoFurry, like how I mentioned last week.
Is there an alternative to the Forums I can use?

My boyfriend,  beatle9 suggested that I create a SoFurry account because written submissions are apparently more appreciated there. Being a writer, I thought that I might as well give it a shot. If anyone's interested, here it is: https://fluffyshutterbug.sofurry.com/
(P.S. I've been having some strange issues with trying to access my SoFurry account via my contact info link on my profile page, so if something out of the ordinary comes up, please let me know.)

This might sound like a random tangent to go off on, but I learned a little more about a certain sport that was once popular in Great Britain, and I'm still feeling utterly distressed about it. The sport? Fox hunting. I bet that most of you are already aware of what it is, but just in case, it's a sport where a group of men send their dogs after a SINGLE fox and chase the poor creature until it can't run anymore, and then the dogs finish it off. This is obviously a despicable and rather sadistic thing to do, especially to an animal that is as gorgeous and as cute and lovable as the fox, but what's distressing me most of all is why? Why, out of any animal that roams the earth, was the fox picked to be hunted in such an over-the-top and vile manor? Seriously, why? And, I know that this sport has fallen out of vogue and has been outright banned in certain cases, but it still doesn't make me feel any less distressed that this would happen to our little vulpine friend. I uh... Need some help. Obviously, foxes are my favorite animal, so this has weighed heavily on my mind.

Those who've been following me since the early days (Well... since about 6 months ago, tbh...) will know that I've been working on a pet project of sorts: A novella by the name of "Corrupted Souls". For anybody who's been interested in the project, I have had the 5th and 6th chapters done for a while now, (thank you in part to my wonderful co-writer,  faunathekitten) but it's been so damned tedious to replace all of the punctuation to characters that'll actually show up on the site. That, and my Photoshop class has proven to be a lot more stressful than I thought it would. Rest assured, though, I haven't forgotten about the project. ;3

Hey, all! Uh, I just wanna cut to the chase, here. As you all hopefully know, I'm still stuck living with my parent, being a broke-ass college student. Those who've been following for me a while know that I hit a bump in the world with my mother when I began to commission artworks. I recently found out that my wonderful and lovely BF,  beatle9 let his folks know about me, and it apparently went over well. Very good... However, the concerns start for me on my end of things. How would I even tell my overprotective mother that I have a boyfriend that I met online and haven't had any IRL interactions with him yet? I'm so nervous that this could have the potential to be a major disaster...

Well, I heard a somber piece of news today.  feralfrenzy has decided to leave the fandom today. I was honestly not surprised, since there really wasn't anything left here for him to do, and he felt like most of the folks he dealt with were toxic to his mental health. That being said, I just wanted to put it out there that all of the good things he has done for me, and my friends still count. If it wasn't for him, I wouldn't have the circle of friends that I have today. Nor would I be the head of a fairly successful Discord server. FeralFrenzy, or Jayson Husky was a very important friend of mine in the earlier days of my time in the fandom, and no amounts of jerks or ill will will ever erase all of the good things that he has done. That being said, Jayson and I are still friends and will remain in contact. But, I want to drive home that he has made a positive impact in the fandom, even if it has gone mostly unappreciated.

Two weeks after  clinker and I broke up, I find myself in a new romantic relationship. This time, with  beatle9. Several days ago, Clinker informed me that Beatle had a crush on me, and after that, we quickly hit it off with each other. We are both clearly sweet on each other, and I really hope to see that this spark will grow into a large, healthy, bonfire of love. Dang, I'm giddy... XD

Damn, I haven't been doing too well lately. I have found myself falling prey to my anxiety more frequently and for a longer duration than I have been used to, So, what have I been worried about? Well, this, that and everything, to be honest. Most of it is directed towards the two big hobbies of my life: cars and the furry fandom. However, there is another problem, one that hasn't gone away like usual. For those not in the know, I am an atheist. However, for some reason, my anxiety has latched on and has relentlessly attacked me over my (lack of) faith, and I haven't really been able to get out of this funk. It has been such a drain on me... I don't know what to do...
I have already talked to a few of my friends about this, but it only proved to be a temporary respite. I need more help, but I am afraid of looking like a burden and seeking help for the same issue over and over again. But, yeah. In any case, Jamie Foxworthy has been very stressed lately....

Well, I have found out today that  yamaneko30 has officially left the fandom, for her own reasons. While I support her decision to do the right thing for herself, I will miss her dearly. While I do regret that the fandom wasn't right for her, I do hope that I helped to make her brief time here fun and enjoyable, and I will never forget the fun times that I had with her. There is also a chance that  feralfrenzy will be leaving as well, but in any case, I hope that their time in the fandom was a good one, and should they choose to return, they will be greeted with open arms.

One of my friends,  faunathekitten came up with a good idea, and I thought that I might as well roll with it, especially because a really expensive commission that is in progress uses this character. So, what is this idea? Well, Fauna has three OC's that look really similar to each other. Fauna, her main OC, "The Mistress", Fauna's twin sister and Luke, a male femboy version of Fauna. Those who have known me since the beginning will have known that my OC, Jamie, started off as a vixen. And, since that version of my OC is in the "Le Palais De Plaisance" comic, I thought to myself, why the hell not? It wouldn't hurt to have a male and a female OC. Anyway, the female version of Jamie is also named Jamie because that was the name that character had. But, she does have a different middle name than my primary sona (Alice instead of Oliver). Any questions? XD
Note: Jamie ALICE Foxworthy is intended to be more of a specialty OC of sorts. She'll only be used for RP's and stuff. ;)

Well, I don't really know how to explain where I'm at now, but things are better. Things, for the most part are better between  clinker and I despite no longer being a couple. That being said... I'm still somewhat bummed about losing a few of the friends I've picked up in the fandom, not counting the ones that have more or less taken a hiatus in the fandom. For those who are absent from the fandom at the moment, I dearly miss you all, and for those who I've fell out with, I deeply regret that things didn't go better than they did. But, in any case, I'm not leaving the fandom, I'm not opening a new account and I'm not scrapping Jamie.

Welp, I'm in a pretty bad place right now. I feel like I have gone from living in the penthouse of the highest tower when I ran The Bunghole back in June to muddling around a dark, damp alleyway in the bad part of town. A few of my treasure friends, such as  oakenheelthewolf and  msgrandpabacon have completely dropped off the face of the earth or don't appear enough to even have a coherent conversation with. A few others, such as  feralfrenzy,  yamaneko30 and  fatpandaluke barely talk to me anymore and I have lost a few friends outright, such as  yakamaru and  dinosaurofthenorth. And now my relationship with  clnker has ended. So, it looks like my time in the limelight might be over... Have I gone as far as I can within the fandom? I feel like my only option now is to create a new account and pretend I'm a new person, just so I can get some attention back... It's so hard going back to being lonely and unloved after being exposed to so many different and wonderful furs, so my current situation is a pretty crushing blow to me.

So, my first two NSFW requests, done by  msgrandpabacon, https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23377862/ and https://www.furaffinity.net/view/23431083/ were originally completed at an awkward time for me. I was still trying to figure out my gender identity when those were done up and shortly after their completion, I decided to modify my character from a hermaphrodite to a garden-variety male, albeit with a feminine body shape. That, and these were also drawn before my OC's design was frozen. I did manage to convince the artist to tweak the design of my character, but I'm still not satisfied with the drawings now despite being so awesome when they were first done.
I would like to get those two requests redone somehow. But, this is the issue I'm having. I haven't heard from this artist since the end of May, and given my knack for attracting drama, I'm worried that if I were to ask somebody else to take up the mantle of re-imagining those two requests, I'll finally hear back from the artist and I'll find myself in a world of trouble like how I was in early July when I was trying to get a ref sheet for my sona.
So, I'm not quite sure what to do. Any advice would be much appreciated.

All good things must come to an end eventually, and my summer vacation only lasts a few more weeks before I start taking classes at my local community college again. My schedule looks somewhat busy; weekdays will be long for me, and I'll also have assignments and projects to work on in the sidelines. I won't be available all day, every day for much longer. HOWEVER! I will still be checking in here and on Discord daily, so none of you will have to worry about friendships languishing or anything. And, of course, if I'm needed, don't be shy to drop me a line. :3

8 hours later, and things have calmed down between  clinker and his mother. I think everything is back to normal. That being said, I still miss  oakenheelthewolf and  msgrandpabacon dearly....
But, in any case, I'm sort of touched that  jarrenironclaw,  faunathekitten,  drexodium,  taylee, as well as Clinker himself came to my aid in my time of need. If nothing else, that is proof positive that the fandom hasn't failed me. :3

I was dealt a pretty nasty blow today when my boyfriend  clinker told me that he would have to take a limit his time talking to me and not participate in NSFW activities for the time being because of issues he's having with his family. While he says that this'll blow over soon, I'm so afraid that this'll follow the regular pattern of me losing contact with people I care about... People like  oakenheelthewolf and  msgrandpabacon have totally disappeared from my life, and I feel like my friendships with  feralfrenzy,  fatpandaluke and  yamaneko30 have stagnated due to lack of contact. Not to mention the friendships that outright failed. So, at this point, I'm feeling scared and alone in the fandom. And rather heartbroken, too. I sort of feel like the furry fandom has failed me.

A recurring issue of mine is that I'm not exactly the best person when it comes to keeping up with friends. With the exception of my BF,  clinker and the other members of the server that I run, I'm sorta worried that a few cherished friendships of mine might be fading away. Particularly for  feralfrenzy, who helped me find my posse within the fandom,  yamaneko30, who's the cutest and funniest ball of sunshine I've ever met, and  pipistrele, who helped me resolve a large conflict about a month ago. I will NEVER forget about you three. <3

Well! Today as a pretty big day for me. On my Discord Server, The Fuzzy Muzzle Cafe (Previously known as The Bunghole), it was something of a server joke for me and  clinker to romantically banter with each other, much like James Bond and Miss Moneypenny. But, today, I realized that these romantic innuendos were more than just that... Feeling unusually emotional about Clinker, I realized that I could be in love with him. So, I worked up the nerve to confess my feelings towards him and it turned out that the feeling was mutual. We're now going steady! We're now an item, officially! Me and Clinker! ^w^