It's been a while since I've commissioned art (not request, but actually commission) , and I've had so many different ideas that I can't really decide what I should get. Before anyone asks, yes, I intend for it to be NSFW. A few strong ideas that I have so far would be a redux of one of my old requests, "Yarnbound", a commission of Ash & I doing missionary on a bed in a candlelit room, maybe some WAM art from  kritterfox , or perhaps maybe even Ash & I in some spider peril together at the same time. >;3
Lemme know what your thoughts are on the ideas I've proposed, and if anyone has any other cool ideas to set forward, don't be shy.

I haven't touched my story, Corrupted Souls in ages. I feel rather guilty about it... XD
But, yeah, I'm having some issues with writers' block. A combination of depression and preoccupation is making it a real chore to write... :/

Tomorrow, I turn 22 years old! I hope to get plenty of birthday wishes from my fuzzy (and scaly) friends~! ^w^
Also, it's been about a year since I became the owner of a Discord server. Man, does time fly! I never thought that I'd ever be a veteran at moderation. OwO

Net Neutrality in the US is now officially executed. From here on out, I'll only be able to do what my ISP, Comcast, wants me to do, and if I suddenly disappear from this site with no warning, that'll be why. I'll be damned, though, if even more extremely shitty internet policy is passed around the world, and it's looking like the EU is now in the firing line. The EU is going to be voting in about two weeks on its own version of SOPA-PIPA. They want to put a tax on links, and implement copyright-seeking bots, like the ones YouTube uses, to track down infringing material, all across the web. Please, for the love of god, contact your MEP if you happen to live in the EU. I really don't want things to get worse than they already are. For more information, please go here: https://saveyourinternet.eu/
I'll be so grateful if you take your time out of your day to do this. I know that this doesn't really effect me, but I feel like the least I can do is spread the word while I still can.

Just wanted to wish everyone here a very happy Pride Month. I'm so proud and happy to be gay with my lovely lovie of a BF,  beatle9 ~! ^W^

Over the weekend, I visited my friend,  theloonerking , and he gifted me a Lucario costume that he no longer needed. So, uh, yeah! I have a costume now! Only problem, I don't really fit into it right now, 'cuz I have a dad bod IRL. I might be able to do stuff with the head and paws for now, but I haven't tried yet. I'll keep ya posted! ^W^

Today, the US senate voted, 52-47, to stop the illegal and harmful rollback of net neutrality in America. However, this is just a single battle that has been won; the war still rages on. Don't listen to the news stories saying that we can't win the House of Representatives too. I know that the odds are decisively not in our favor, but if we don't try, we definitely won't win. So, I'm urging any American who sees this journal: Please contact your state's representatives and ask them to vote in favor of stopping the "Restoring Internet Freedom Act" via the Congressional Review Act. I'll say it again. The odds aren't in our favor, but if we don't try, failure's odds will be at 100%. It's worth it to even get that 1% chance at success.

As of tomorrow, around 12 PM EST, my forums account will have officially been deleted. I will no longer be able to be found there! However, I can still be reached here, on Discord, on Twitter and SoFurry. So, if anyone on the forums wonders what happened to me, please spread the word.

This time I'm serious. I'm going to be deleting my account on the forums. Why? Moderation has gotten so piss-poor that recurring trolls keep on popping up and spreading hate speech and posting content that could be classified as illegal. If stuff like this can't be dealt with posthaste, then I don't even feel SAFE using the forums. Websites, now more than ever, need diligent moderators. With the new FOSTA-SESTA law, failing to deal with a troll could mean disaster.
Also, Net Neutrality finally dies in less than 12 hours. If I suddenly can't be reached here, please try Twitter or Discord.

I mentioned this a while ago, but I have a Twitter account. Jamie Foxworthy. Uh... I have no idea what I'm doing, so I'd appreciate if someone could give me some advice.

My boyfriend,  beatle9 uses the furry site, SoFurry much more frequently than FA, so I thought that I'd branch out and use it more often than I have. I'd greatly appreciate if anyone who knows me who also has a SoFurry account follows me there. https://fluffyshutterbug.sofurry.com/

I have absolutely no idea why, but I feel better about net neutrality. I don't really think it's optimism, though, as much as it's burnout and a feeling of "I don't care what you do to me anymore. Do whatever the hell you want" I don't really give a fuck what happens to any of the websites I use anymore--there's just so many threats now, anything could go "poof" for any reason now. That being said, if I were to lose Discord, I'd be feeling the pain. But, that's the only thing that truly matters to me anymore.
In any case, I'm worried that I've been harming my image by constantly reacting to all of these alarmist stories and stuff. It's very tiring to be stuck worried about the same thing for 4 months, and I can assume that it must be tiring to those who follow me as well. I'm rather concerned that someone has thought "Stop beating a dead horse!!!", since there seems to be a shelf-life for outrage on the internet. Worry/be angry about something for more than X amount of time, then YOU'RE the problem, and YOU need to get over it! But, yeah... Lemme know what you all think about my reaction to this ongoing saga...

The passage of FOSTA-SESTA has already done a ton of damage to the internet, most notably the shuttering of the personals section on Craigslist and various sub-Reddits. But did you all know that a furry dating set, Pounced.Org has been shut down as a direct result of this? Scary stuff. I'm so afraid that FA or DeviantArt or SoFurry or any other area of the fandom will be next... I tried talking to  dragoneer about this and even opened up a trouble ticket, but none of it helped me feel any better.... :'(

So, as of tomorrow, I will have officially been on Fur Affinity for a full year, with my current username, that is. (If we include my original account, it would've been 14 months) Anyway! I still can't believe all of the strides that I have made in just a single year. I went from a social outcast, obsessed with furry art and finding friends, to a relatively popular fur who runs a Discord server and who has a loving boyfriend. Thank you all who have helped bring this foxxo to where they're at today!

So, there's a bill that's just been passed in the U.S. called the Fight Online Sex Trafficking Act or FOSTA, a.k.a. the Stop Enabling Sex Traffickers Act or SESTA. While the cause might sound noble, it ends up severely weakening Section 230 of the Communications Decency Act, which if weakened, makes the admins of any website legally responsible for stuff its users do. Which naturally means that anyone who runs a website is going to have to take precautionary measures if they don't want to be sued or thrown in the slammer. Since this a law targeting "prostitution" with tons of grey area in it, I am deeply concerned that this is going to fuck up this website. And, as if I didn't already have enough to worry about with Net Neutrality protections lapsing in a month!
It just seems like my entire world is being threatened on multiple fronts, and if I lose it, I can't get it back. I can't leave the U.S., so I am forced to live with this ever tightening leash. I have backed up all of favorite images from this site, but it still doesn't make me feel better. I'm just so afraid that one day, I'll be booted from the party and I'll be missing out on the stuff that I so desperately wanted to be a part of...

I don't know what to do... I don't feel any better about this. Nothing that I've done has even softened this feeling of trepidation I feel about April 23rd. I have a lack of faith. A lack of optimism. And this is really starting to take a toll on me. Part of this is due to the fact that I'm naturally a pessimistic person, but I also have a rather damaging superstition where if I believe things are going to work out, it essentially jinxes it. This... Wasn't helped by the outcome of the 2016 election. But, in any case, despite all off the weapons and armor the American consumer has been given to fight back against Ajit Pai and his team of oligarchs, I'm afraid to have faith. I'm afraid to believe that justice will prevail over greed. Not that being prepared for all possible outcomes is a bad thing, but the thought of losing my whole world, particularly my access to the furry fandom and my vintage car hobby, has me teetering on the razor's edge of holding it all together and winding up in some dire situation. And with some of the extreme thoughts that I have, I am legitimately afraid what will happen to me should Xfinity decide this website be blocked or slowed down to the point where it doesn't work anymore. I apologize that I have perseverated on this now old topic, but I just don't know what to do anymore...

I need help... I NEED help! While most of society has decided to wait and see what happens with the repeal of Net Neutrality, which will be officially a law as of April 23rd, I've fallen into a rabbit hole of misery and despair. I'm SO worried that I'll lose access to Fur Affinity and other furry websites, because that's technically a legal thing for my ISP to do to me now. And no positive words have been able to lift me out of this dark place. I am officially stuck. I am in desperate need of help. I've always had an unusually strong love for the internet, and even before all of this bullshit began, even simple Wi-Fi issues would send me into a panic attack and shove my blood pressure over the edge. So, naturally, I have taken this whole thing, way, way harder than everyone else. I guess it goes back to a pervasive fear that I've had since the beginning that something'll happen that'll erase all of the gains that I have made over the last year. I know that that fear might be unrealistic, but I can't escape it. I don't know how to escape it... My anxiety over Net Neutrality has evolved into full-blown neuroticism and borderline mania....

It's been over a month since I've posted a journal, so there's a few things I'd like to say.
1. I don't think there's a good chance at all that I'll be able to make it to Anthro New England this year. It's a bit of a triple-whammy. I'm busy with college, I have to mooch off of someone else for transportation, and it costs money, which I'm sorta reluctant to spend at the moment, and not to mention, the cost for my partner to bring me there and stuff.
2. I've been growing concerned that I've been growing a little too hotheaded. I've seen a lot of friendships over the past year die out in the blaze of glory due to conflict and such. I had legitimate reasons for cutting off contact, but there's only so many conflicts one can have before they start to think that they might have something to do with the problems.
3. This isn't news for those who are in constant contact with me, but I have totally lost faith in America. As a gay progressive, I'm seeing the signs that America is rather secure in its current Christian-conservative trajectory, and since I feel like voting, signing petitions, joining activist causes and writing congressmen won't change the fact that people like me are just simply outnumbered, I would love to find a way to move to a country that gives the minority a greater chance to have a say in the way their government works. My boyfriend,  beatle9 would like to do this too, but I have no idea how to make a plan. It is compounded by the fact that not only am I autistic, I also showed no desire until recently to move out of the country, so I'm getting minimal help from my family AT BEST to try to do this. Any advice here would be greatly appreciated.
4. I haven't forgotten about my love for writing. I'm still interested in completing Corrupted Souls, but my anxiety and depression, as well as rampant procrastination keeps on causing delay after delay.

Wow, I sure had a lot to say today. As always, if anyone's interested in talking to me, you can leave a comment here or send me a DM. I'm also on Discord, of course, FluffyShutterbug#4621.
(Oh, and I"m still freaked the hell out that I won't be able to use this website one day, thanks to the loss of net neutrality)

I just found out that this year's Anthro New England convention is going to be held on Feb. 23-25. I'm curious. Would any of my fellow New England furs be willing to try to get there?

Welp, it's finally here. 2018. Despite all of the trouble and all of my personal low points, 2017 was my biggest and best year yet. Here's hoping that 2018 will prove to be even better. Happy New Year, everyone~! ^W^

I've been planning to do this journal for quite a while now, but thanks to the Net Neutrality vote that's happening tomorrow, I've gotta get this out here just in case Xfinity decides that I can't use this website anymore... Anyway...
As each year draws to a close, people start looking back on all of the stuff that happened to them and society around them, including the good, the bad and the ugly. While I personally can't stand the cheesy and sappy recollections you see around, such as YouTube's Rewind 2017, I feel like now's the time to reflect on how far I came in a short year.
In January, I attended Anthro New England for the first time. It was my first-ever furry convention, and it was there I learned that Fur Affinity would be a good place to try to get my foot in the door of this fandom. This had followed about 2 months of lurking and 4 months of curiosity within the fandom. After I attended the convention, I created my first account here called "AlyssaKat", because my sona was originally going to be a female Maine Coon named Alyssa Wells. Which takes me to two months later....
At the end of March, I decided that my fursona should be a red fox, and should have a different name than my original idea for a sona. I desperately tried to figure out how to rename my initial account, only to find out that it wasn't possible. So, on Saturday, March 25th, 2017, I decided to just bite the bullet and start all over. My new account was named "FluffyShutterbug".
I quickly made connections with  amazonrex,  rubbervixen and  zeofawx who all helped, in some way, to show me the ropes of the fandom and how to make some more connections. Who would've thought that faving some bondage pr0ns would've created these vital connections! XD At about the same time, I created an account on the forums, where I met a few nice people, such as  faunathekitten,  msgrandpabacon and  oakenheelthewolf . I also wound up making one of my closet and most valuable friends,  feralfrenzy after freaking out over one of the site's bugs to him, because I saw that he had a lot of tech know-how.
It is also worth mentioning that in the first half of the year, I was still having a bit of a gender identity crisis, and those who knew me since the beginning will have known that Jamie was originally a vixen and then a herm. After a spat I had with someone, I began to reconsidering what I was doing, and then I came to the conclusion that I should fall somewhere in the middle of masculinity and femininity. So, Jamie became a femboy. Also, around this time, Jay noticed that I was feeling sorta lonely, and he invited me to a friend's server where I would eventually become best friends with another fella, an otherkin named  borknugget.
Things kinda stayed steady for the next month or so until I began to get my first tastes of furry drama. Also around this time, Jay created his own Discord server called "The Bunghole" and I was selected to be one of the administrators. And, once he stepped down, he handed the keys off to me. And just like that, I was now a PopFur. I also ended up getting my first crush around this time, and wound up falling in love with  sooty_brassworth
After some more drama broke out, the others and I thought that we needed to create a new server with a more selective vetting process. Thus, it was goodbye to "The Bunghole" and hello to "The Fuzzy Muzzle Cafe". More time passed, more spats of drama popped up every now and again, and we ended up getting quite the awesome team together. Bork, Sooty (Clinker) and I were the admins, and :therealzenoth: ,  akartoshi and a fella by the name of Maximus were the moderators.
I began to feel the sting of having friends coming and going. While I always had plenty of people to chat with, there were some from my early days who sadly disappeared, and I really missed them. This was compounded when summer faded into fall and Sooty broke up with me due to doubts of being to sustain a Pan-Atlantic relationship.
Fortunately, though, a moderator from my unofficial sister server, Fuzz's Bar & Grille, joined the cafe and he quickly became sweet on me. This half-coyote, half-wolf was named Ash Cinder, a.k.a.  beatle9. Once I found out that he had a crush on this 'ol foxxo, I just couldn't say no such an adorable face. 3 months later, and we're still together~! ^W^
Despite all of the utterly disgusting news stories to come out of this year, I found myself having my greatest personal year to date! I had a group of REAL friends, I was part of an awesome fandom, I was running a Discord server that today, almost has 100 members, and an utterly wonderful boyfriend. And then I saw a news story on the afternoon of Tuesday, November 21th, 2017 that threw me into utter distress.
You've guessed it! It was the FCC's announcement to repeal Net Neutrality in 3 weeks. I won't bother explaining it for the millionth time, because most already know of it by now, but I am utterly terrified that all of the gains that I have made this year could all be flushed down the crapper starting tomorrow. And, this hasn't been good for my mental health. I have felt anger, rage, depression, hopelessness and every emotion in between due to this. Hell, there was even a few times where I thought that I was going to have to be hospitalized, because my mood was getting so volatile.
Yeesh! What a heavy way to end this journal... In any case, 2017 was a year of higher and higher bounds for this foxxo. I hope to god that I'll still be able to move forward in 2018, or at least not lose any of the gains I made this year.
Have a merry Christmas, a happy holidays and a rockin' new year, my furry friends!

Lately, I've been rather dissatisfied with the way things have been going on the forums, so yesterday, I submitted a request to have my account on the forums closed. However, I'm starting to have some second thoughts about it... I have until the 28th to change my mind, so what do you all think I should do? Should I cancel the deletion request or should I just let the account expire?

I've been planning to do this journal for quite a while now, but thanks to the Net Neutrality vote that's happening tomorrow, I've gotta get this out here just in case Xfinity decides that I can't use this website anymore... Anyway...
As each year draws to a close, people start looking back on all of the stuff that happened to them and society around them, including the good, the bad and the ugly. While I personally can't stand the cheesy and sappy recollections you see around, such as YouTube's Rewind 2017, I feel like now's the time to reflect on how far I came in a short year.
In January, I attended Anthro New England for the first time. It was my first-ever furry convention, and it was there I learned that Fur Affinity would be a good place to try to get my foot in the door of this fandom. This had followed about 2 months of lurking and 4 months of curiosity within the fandom. After I attended the convention, I created my first account here called "AlyssaKat", because my sona was originally going to be a female Maine Coon named Alyssa Wells. Which takes me to two months later....
At the end of March, I decided that my fursona should be a red fox, and should have a different name than my original idea for a sona. I desperately tried to figure out how to rename my initial account, only to find out that it wasn't possible. So, on Saturday, March 25th, 2017, I decided to just bite the bullet and start all over. My new account was named "FluffyShutterbug".
I quickly made connections with  amazonrex,  rubbervixen and  zeofawx who all helped, in some way, to show me the ropes of the fandom and how to make some more connections. Who would've thought that faving some bondage pr0ns would've created these vital connections! XD At about the same time, I created an account on the forums, where I met a few nice people, such as  faunathekitten,  msgrandpabacon and  oakenheelthewolf . I also wound up making one of my closet and most valuable friends,  feralfrenzy after freaking out over one of the site's bugs to him, because I saw that he had a lot of tech know-how.
It is also worth mentioning that in the first half of the year, I was still having a bit of a gender identity crisis, and those who knew me since the beginning will have known that Jamie was originally a vixen and then a herm. After a spat I had with someone, I began to reconsidering what I was doing, and then I came to the conclusion that I should fall somewhere in the middle of masculinity and femininity. So, Jamie became a femboy. Also, around this time, Jay noticed that I was feeling sorta lonely, and he invited me to a friend's server where I would eventually become best friends with another fella, an otherkin named  borknugget.
Things kinda stayed steady for the next month or so until I began to get my first tastes of furry drama. Also around this time, Jay created his own Discord server called "The Bunghole" and I was selected to be one of the administrators. And, once he stepped down, he handed the keys off to me. And just like that, I was now a PopFur. I also ended up getting my first crush around this time, and wound up falling in love with  clinker
After some more drama broke out, the others and I thought that we needed to create a new server with a more selective vetting process. Thus, it was goodbye to "The Bunghole" and hello to "The Fuzzy Muzzle Cafe". More time passed, more spats of drama popped up every now and again, and we ended up getting quite the awesome team together. Bork, Sooty (Clinker) and I were the admins, and  therealzenoth ,  akartoshi and a fella by the name of Maximus were the moderators.
I began to feel the sting of having friends coming and going. While I always had plenty of people to chat with, there were some from my early days who sadly disappeared, and I really missed them. This was compounded when summer faded into fall and Sooty broke up with me due to doubts of being to sustain a Pan-Atlantic relationship.
Fortunately, though, a moderator from my unofficial sister server, Fuzz's Bar & Grille, joined the cafe and he quickly became sweet on me. This half-coyote, half-wolf was named Ash Cinder, a.k.a.k  beatle9. Once I found out that he had a crush on this 'ol foxxo, I just couldn't say no such an adorable face. 3 months later, and we're still together~! ^W^
Despite all of the utterly disgusting news stories to come out of this year, I found myself having my greatest personal year to date! I had a group of REAL friends, I was part of an awesome fandom, I was running a Discord server that today, almost has 100 members, and an utterly wonderful boyfriend. And then I saw a news story on the afternoon of Tuesday, November 21th, 2017 that threw me into utter distress.
You've guessed it! It was the FCC's announcement to repeal Net Neutrality in 3 weeks. I won't bother explaining it for the millionth time, because most already know of it by now, but I am utterly terrified that all of the gains that I have made this year could all be flushed down the crapper starting tomorrow. And, this hasn't been good for my mental health. I have felt anger, rage, depression, hopelessness and every emotion in between due to this. Hell, there was even a few times where I thought that I was going to have to be hospitalized, because my mood was getting so volatile.
Yeesh! What a heavy way to end this journal... In any case, 2017 was a year of higher and higher bounds for this foxxo. I hope to god that I'll still be able to move forward in 2018, or at least not lose any of the gains I made this year.
Have a merry Christmas, a happy holidays and a rockin' new year, my furry friends!

Just a quick little poll of sorts. There's a story I wrote back in the fall/winter of 2014 that was a fan fiction explaining how my Skyrim protagonist, an Argonian named Little-Fire, wound up in the game. There's one issue, though. I am way too busy and do not have the motivation to change them all into .txt documents and replace all of the punctuation so it doesn't appear as those silly ? glyphs when it's submitted. So... If I were to post them as the .doc files that they're currently saved in, would any of you download them and read them, or am I killing traffic by not uploading it directly as text?

Well, the big vote on the Net Neutrality repeal is a week away now. If I suddenly disappear from this site, it's not because I left the fandom or died or anything--It'll be because Xfinity (Comcast) has banned this website, or slowed it down to the point of being unusable. I'll miss this community so much....