It's been a while since I've said anything about my personal life, so I should update everybody who follows me. The good news is that I don't have cancer. I was checked at the end of last month, and there was no cancer. However, they did remove a polyp that would've become cancerous had I not gone in, so that's... A little scary. They want me back in a couple of years due to that. The bad news is that my eyesight is *still* wonky, and based on the symptoms that I have, I think I have retina damage. I'm going to get it checked out on Monday. Lastly, Ash and I recently moved to a new and better apartment in San Antonio, and my god, it's a night and day improvement over the old place.
I'm sorry that I haven't been around these parts lately. I've been busy with work, and I can't use my computer too much these days because whenever Ash & I want to watch something on his PlayStation, all Wi-Fi connected devices must be turned off because the PS is super finnicky. Anyway, I'll keep you all posted!
- Jamie

P.S., if you fave anything in my gallery, just know that I'm extremely grateful for it. I just can't keep up with sending thank you's anymore...

Reporting in. I have some good news and some bad news.

The good news: I like my job at Six Flags. I was able to get a job there in lieu of a job at Bill Miller's, and I've been there for almost a month without any major problems so far! The only thing is, I've been extremely busy lately. But, I'm finally earning some much-needed cash!

The bad news: Well... I had to go to the emergency room over the weekend. I've been having extreme blood pressure issues lately (like, in heart attack/stroke territory), and it's been causing some scary complications for me, including some eyesight damage that hasn't gone away since Thursday. And there's also a possibility that I could have motherfucking colorectal cancer as well, since I've been recommended to get a colonoscopy (due to having literally ALL of the lovely symptoms of that disease).

So yeah... July has been something for me.

Okay, so, Monday was my 25th birthday. I meant to make a post about that here, but the last week has been really grueling and really busy. To start, my first day at Bill Miller's sucked. I don't know if I had mentioned this before, but I am neurodivergant and the job they had me do was incredibly difficult. I excel with repetition and consistency, and my job at Bill Miller's was the opposite of that. I had to do basically everything behind the scenes, which means I would've had to learn how to do a billion things to do and do them well AND do them quickly. About 30 minutes in, I had a bad gut feeling that I was going to crash and burn once the trainee period was over. So, I texted my manager after work to ask for accommodations. The next day, I go back in to talk to my managers and they basically promise nothing and I get sent home right away. Later that night, I find out that my hours and days were cut to the bone. So, I quit that job and took an offer that Six Flags Fiesta Texas gave me. At this point, I'm just waiting around for my new manager to contact me... So, yeah...

I meant to post this last week when it happened, but things have been moving so fast, I forgot to post this here.
Hopefully Ash & I will be doing better financially now, since I FINALLY managed to land a job after searching since Thanksgiving!!!
Also, thank you so much for all of the faves you all gave to the vore pic. I just couldn't keep up with all the faves it got...

I know that I don't really have to apologize for this, but I'm still sorry that my activity on this site has slowed to a crawl this year. I basically just wanted to let all of you know that I'm still here and very much part of the fandom.

I've been working on a story project since 2017.
It started off + before getting assistance from my longtime friend, and then largely setting off on my own. But, I'm still not done, and the premise changed drastically since I first started. What started off as something of a rescue story revolving around my fursona, it has shifted to become a backstory of my first character. While I'm starting to make good progress on this again, I still don't know what the hell I'm honestly doing... And I'm a bit lost as to where I should be going. But, I'll be uploading the first 6 chapters. I'd greatly appreciate it if you could look and give me feedback and some ideas on where I ought to go.

As you may have noticed, I'm not a familiar face at the moment. Where has the fox you've come to known over the last 4 years gone?
Well, he's still here, of course. I just decided to have my newer fursona, Asher, to be this account's icon for now. I have decided that I want both of my fursonas to represent the name FluffyShutterbug going forward (And god I made a good decision in future-proofing this account by not naming it after a character like with my original account). Ideally, I'd like to get a pic or a GIF commissioned that has both of my characters in it, but until then, I'm most likely going to alternate between having Jamie and having Asher be the face of this account.
Uh, any tips on how to juggle multiple OC's as a "brand", though?

I'm in dire straits right now, financially. suggested that I take some writing commissions. I'm willing to give it a shot and I'd be greatly appreciative of anybody who's willing to give me a chance. Sooty has already claimed one slot.
Here's an example of my writing: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40418342/
And my prices would roughly be $25 for short works and $50 for longer works. I hope that's not unreasonable... I'm not good at setting prices.
Anyway...

Although I still think FA is going to remain my primary site to use, I'm going to start using SoFurry more, primarily for my written stuff. Here's the link if you wanna follow: https://fluffyshutterbug.sofurry.com/

I had to remove about half of all of my artwork posted last year. I was told by the person featured in all of those artworks that they don't want to know me anymore, so, I can't be realistically be expected to keep artwork to remind me that none of it ever fucking mattered. If there's an art piece in my gallery that you miss, let me know, and I'll try to track down the original artist so you can find the piece in someone else's gallery.

While I'll never stop using Discord entirely, I've mostly been using Telegram these days for talking to my friends here in the fandom. If you want to talk to me, please try to reach me there instead of Discord. If you want to reach me, I'm Jamie Cinder. I use the same icon there that I do here on FA.
Also, I've been struggling badly with money lately. That's why I haven't been posting much in the way of artwork lately... 'Cos I can't afford it. But, just know, I'm still here.

P.S. Good riddance, Donald Trump! I'm so happy that America will have a president that doesn't actively hate me and other marginalized folk for next 4 years, at least.

So, as you furs probably have heard by now, a raving band of far-right lunatics tried to overthrow my country's government on Wednesday. Yes, I know that there was not a snowball's chance in hell that they could've ever succeeded. But that doesn't matter. A mob of fascists still burst into the US's seat of government with the intent of dissolving the government that has existed since 1787 and replacing with something unspeakable.
If you voted for Trump in 2016 or especially 2020, I no longer wish to speak with you. I don't care if that sounds harsh, but I can't be friendly with people who helped make the events of January 6th, 2021, as well as all of the damage done between January 20th, 2017 and today, happen. At best, I can't trust your judgement. And at worst, you are an actively malicious or nihilistic person. In any case, your actions have consequences. Deal with them.
As for everybody else, everything's calmed down for the moment. As I said, the insurrection failed. I'm safe, and everybody else I know living in the US is safe as far as I know. But I'm still afraid for the future, both near-term and long-term. Ash and I are going to try to finish up the process of getting our passports and we're going to begin to save up money so we can get out of the US just in case something goes wrong.
Even though I'm an atheist, I think I'm justified when I say god help us all.

Here's an interesting journal of mine from 2017:

4/4/17: "I've been thinking... I've mentioned how the comic "Archeologis Vixen" (which I initially found on Tumblr, lucky me) got me into the furry fandom. Isn't that amazing? How seeing a picture COMPLETELY changes your life? Like... It was an epiphany! I never knew until then that furries AND um... certain mature/adult subjects, existed together until then. And, it was all up to chance. If I didn't use the query that I did at the time that I did, I may have never found "Archeologis Vixen" on Tumblr. It's absolutely crazy... A life changing picture. Imagine that!"

Yeah, uh, I'm married and a resident of San Antonio, TX, because of that one little thing I found on Tumblr (Well, when it used to allow NSFW content, that is). I can't believe how Butterfly Effects can work that way...

Okay, so it's 2021 now. Even though I doubt that this year won't be horrific, the fact that I get to say that my husband and I survived 2020 in one piece, which many didn't get the luxury to say, was cause for celebration. I was legitimately joyful when the clock finally flipped over to 12 AM! And while I still don't think 2021 is going to be a good year, the best we can do is to hang on and keep going. Here's to hanging on and keeping going, lol!

"In any case, I just hope that 2020 will be a better year than 2019."
I'm not gonna say shit like that ever again. I refuse to have any expectations that things will ever get better on a macro level ever again. After all, what did 2020 get us? The worst global pandemic since 1918, the science denial chickens coming home to roost, the US government telling its people to fuck off and die while constantly writing generous checks to Jeff Bezos and Elon Musk, and one of my only two country's political parties openly rejecting the very concept of democracy while the media incompetently reports on it as though it were normal to pull tricks to try keep the loser of an election in office despite being voted out. America is basically an unstable and despotic Banana Republic now, and nobody seems to give a fuck.
2020, on a personal level, has been both simultaneously the biggest waste of my life and the most productive year of my adulthood. Let me give you a rundown of what happened for me.
January 1st-March 3rd: Nothing of note. All of the complaints I had about 2019 can basically apply to those two months
March 4th-July 1st: The COVID-19 Pandemic hits and I'm left on my own to try to figure out how to leave Massachusetts while being locked inside a house run by a moron who refused to let me visit people 1 on 1. Now, I had no intention on trying to attend a large gathering of any sort. I'm not an idiot, and I can't stand people who refuse to take COVID-19 precautions seriously. But my husband, a health expert, is still okay with one-on-one visits, and yet, I was even banned from THAT...
July 2nd-10th: As a result of being locked inside for so long, I had a bipolar episode so bad, I wound up in the hospital and was committed for almost 2 weeks.
July 11th-August 27th: Essentially me trying to argue to everybody that I'm going to leave and nobody can stop me.
August 28th-October 4th: Finally moved to Texas, but Ash still lived with his parents for about another month.
October 5th-November 1st: Ash finished moving in to the apartment. He now lived with me.
November 2nd: Ash and I got married. Pretty much the only good thing that happened this year besides the Bostock v. Clayton County Supreme Court decision
November 3rd: Another one of the few moments where something good happened in 2020; Donald Trump was to be voted out of office, even though it'd take a few days for the ballots to be counted.
November 4th-November 22nd: More of the same.
November 23rd: I was cut off from SSI benefits, forcing me to figure out to find a job, because the government expects Ash to pay for all of my expenses even though we're dirt poor.
November 24th-November 30th: Began my job hunt.
December 1st: Ash and I finally got infected with COVID-19
December 2nd-December 17th: Both quarantined with a mild case of COVID-19. My cough was pretty bad, but that was the worst of it.
December 18th-December 31st: Still working for work. Almost got a job at Domino's, but backed out when a liquor store had an opening for a better job and my other roommate who worked for them got demoted. Awaiting a response.
But yeah, right now, I have no expectations that 2021 won't be a 10-alarm dumpster fire like 2020 will be. Especially due to the fact that the Republican Party still hasn't given up on trying to appoint Donald Trump dictator of America (Even though I think they'll fail. But, man, is this pretty much like bathing a metal pipe in a bath of saltwater; it's that corrosive...) and that COVID-19 will still be a huge issue for most, if not all of the year, since the government WILL fuck up with the vaccine distribution (since the only thing the US government knows how to do is give money to Wall Street and the Pentagon) and that half the country will refuse to take it. Maybe 2021 will be better. I'm not the type who'll put his money where his mouth is when it comes to predictions. But right now, my expectations are at the bottom of the Mariana Trench.

Well, it's December 25th again. But unfortunately, I wasn't really all that in the holiday spirit this year due to COVID and generally how rough life has been for and I after I moved to Texas in August. But, hey, I felt a little happy once I could finally post the gift I got for Ash that I commissioned last month here! So, I guess I still have the spirit of giving, lol.

Senators Jeff Merkley (D, OR) and Ben Sasse (R, NE) proposed a bill called the Stop Internet Sexual Exploitation Act, or SISEA for short. While the bill proports to target revenge porn and the like, the bill is so badly worded and so overbroad, that it makes it too dangerous for websites to host any image that could be even slightly construed as erotic. This bill would require any platform hosting pornographic content, loosely defined here as sexually explicit video or images, to verify the age and consent of anyone appearing in any video on the site. The problem is, that's way too onerous for most websites to do. And it'd retroactively apply to content already posted.
Worse, this bill would ban downloads of adult content, which is literally impossible to prevent. Dragoneer was saying on Twitter earlier that the only way to fully ban downloads of adult content is to ban all adult content on your site altogether. And if he's worried about that, you know that this mess is bad.
And as I said, this bill is so broadly worded, it applies to EVERYTHING. The definition of pornography is so broad that any platform or service would be required to secure the same age, identity, and release forms for anyone portrayed in any potentially sexual scenario — whether it was a GIF from Game of Thrones, a Robert Mapplethorpe photo, an explicit parody drawing of Trump and Putin, or self-produced sex tape. So, yiff would be banned under this bill, too.
I'm sorry that I sound disorganized and rambly here. I'm really tired and my brain is in a fog, and this is really difficult to explain to those who weren't already following it. If you want more information, check out my Twitter thread on the topic. https://twitter.com/Jamie_Foxworthy.....90194497347584
And please contact your congressmen. And consider doing this too: https://twitter.com/DaddyBisonAD/st.....48062583644161

So, I'm pretty sure that Ash and I have recovered from COVID-19. I only occasionally cough now, and it's weak when it happens. Ash seems okay now, too. And earlier this week, the San Antonio health department said that we don't have to quarantine anymore. So, that's good.

As if December couldn't get any worse, starting with a stolen credit card # and then a dead car, and I have both come down with the Coronavirus because all of the precautions in the world don't matter at all if there's people out there who refuse to follow them. There's literally no justice left in this world.

's car died. I can't fucking believe how horrible our luck has been.

In real life, I have 2 sisters and a brother, and I've been feeling like it's a dumb idea for Jamie to be an only child for quite some time now. I'd like Jamie's story to reflect my personal experiences a little more, so I'm making some changes here and there. So, here's an updated version of the Foxworthy family:

Existing Characters

Jamison "Jamie" Foxworthy: That'd be me! Born and raised in the sleepy old rust belt town of Chair City, Massachusetts, I've always longed for a brighter future and a better life. Things start to improve when I meet a guy by the name of Ash Cinder, but things get weird when my mother's mysterious past starts to haunt me again.
Alexander "Alex" Foxworthy: You already know him by now. He's Jamie's cafe-owning father who drives a classic station wagon. Also practices necromancy on the down-low. Former archaeologist and widower since the year 2002.
Christa Wilder-Foxworthy: You already know her, too. She's Jamie's mother. She's a hyper-intelligent archaeologist hailing from the United Kingdom, tapped by a world-renowned professor of archaeology to come live in the States. Unfortunately, her go-getter attitude was stronger than her smarts, and she paid with her life in the spring of 2002 in a supernatural accident.

New Characters

Cassandra "Casey" Foxworthy: Casey is supposed to be based off of my twin. Is Jamie's twin sibling. Very close to Jamie. Is a kind and sweet person, but isn't assertive and is rather shy. Unlike Jamie and their younger two siblings, Casey looks like an Arctic Fox.
Ariel Foxworthy: Jamie's younger sister, based on my younger sister. She has the opposite personality to Casey. High-strung, assertive and has a strong sense of justice. Ariel was also gifted with Christa's intelligence and is bound for great things in her life.
Torvald Foxworthy: Jamie's younger brother, based on my younger brother. Is quiet and reclusive, and isn't generally on good terms with Jamie.

(The names of the two younger ones are subject to change, because I'm not the happiest with them)

So, as you know, Christa dies in 2002 and Alex is forced to raise me and the others by himself. I decided that Jamie should meet Ash via the internet, the same as I did in real life.

Those are all of the ideas I have for now.

Ever since the summer of 2017, I have been trying to write the mystery-laden and action-packed story involving my fursona and the untimely death of his mother 20 years ago. But, I always peter out quickly into whichever version I'm working on... I have a few plot points, but I don't really know what the meat of the story should be, let alone who is the antagonist that I, my father and Ash fight against. Here's the basic details I have of the story...

- Alexander and Christa Foxworthy were archaeologists in the past. Christa dies about 20 years ago due to a supernatural accident in one of Egypt's pyramids.
- The story's events, set during 2017 or 2018, revolve around Jamie trying to achieve closure around his mother's death, even though the story's plot was activated trough no fault of his own.
- The curse that Christa unleashed might've given Jamie their werefox powers as a child, but they may not reveal themselves until the events of the story. I haven't decided yet.
- Approximately a year after Christa dies, Alex beings to study necromancy and loses custody of Jamie when he's discovered
- The main villain *may* be somewhat like Bill Cipher from Gravity Falls? The only thing I know is that in an earlier draft of the story, Jamie is possessed by the main villain.
And quite honestly, I kind of like the idea of the story taking cues from the whole Gideon Gleeful-Bill Cipher plotline from said show.
- The story also explains how Jamie meets Ash, and the final scene will be Jamie moving away with him, now as a married couple.

But, other than that, I don't really have a whole lot of ideas, and have only managed to write 4 chapters in the last 3 years... I'm definitely open to hearing some ideas from my followers, because this is definitely something I'd like to work on when I have the spare time.

So, I've been completely cut off from getting any disability money because I'm now married to Ash and the government went, "You're his problem now!"...
I can't pay the rent anymore, and I don't know what the fuck to do from here on out....

Well... Uh.... I'm struggling to think of what I should get with the remainder of my money for this month... Anybody have any ideas?

I just came up with the idea I want for Ash's Christmas gift. Now, I know that early November is early for this, but I won't be getting as much money next month, so I need to get the gift *now*.
With that out of the way, I have two parameters for an artist:
- Needs to be able to do my gift idea for $50 (that's USD.) or less.
- Needs to be good at drawing "dads".
I'd GREATLY appreciate any help here. I'm terrible at finding people who are A, open for commissions, and B, won't cost so much, I won't be able to pay for groceries this month.

UPDATE: I figured out whom I'm going to commission. Why do I even bother making these journals when I usually figure out what I want to do relatively quickly?