So i decided to hop in to check up on FA and ive seen that many submissions from my fave watch artist have popped up. Everything looks awesome. Everything i have come to expect from the artists style is there. So cudos to you guys, i will comment on your pieces soon when i kick the morning grogginess off me. As for life, well its settled for the most part. I am ok now, been working, will be working twice as much the next month. Its a good thing though, money is a good thing so :P Also i have been painting some, nothing fury related..well maybe two or three things but its not really my creation. Its like i look at a drawing and i paint it onto a playing card. So i hope the artist don't mind XD.

Well i think thats about it. Note to self, if i don't finish the mat by the end of the week you will not receive any pleasure for a month! so you better finish it :P

Harsh...

But i don't know which other way to put it. I recently just lost the only friends i had to talk too. It blows because i feel really alone. I have done some panting recently, the only thing that keeps me occupied. But it can only occupy my time so much before i get bored of it and start to yearn for human contact. I really don't know where this road leads but as the weeks go by i seem to grow a bit more isolated every day more and more. I get the feeling things wont get any better and i doubt any one will reach out to me, but it would be nice to have some one to talk to or at least say hi. The worst thing some one can go through is being forgotten or being isolated. But those are the fates of some people. Its funny in this modern age where communication is pretty much instant, to find ones self alone is a ridiculous subject but i find it very hard to reach out to people, or rather i guess people don't reach back out. It must be me? i guess. All i can do i guess is draw up stuff, paint stuff..find some way to leave a mark in this planet before i expire. Until that day comes i must keep doing some artsy stuff.

So i started drawing, looks somewhat good but i have two problems, i can't draw heads and i can't draw hands >_< i have noooo idea where i could start to learn how to draw furry heads and paws are just hard as well. Maybe some more practice. I decided to start up with nude female furs. I dunno but i think ill make my character or fursona a bit later after i get these porn thoughts out of my head..or at least finish these two drawings up. Also its late so it might look good to my fatigued eyes but maybe in the morning onward it will look like total crap. I guess i can always scan it and fix it up via photoshop and mess around with coloring and such. Also i was thinking about getting a tablet to mess around with digital drawing. Thought i doubt any one reads this lol it would be nice to get some input on how to go about this dilemma. ugh also my wrist are being annoying...i think its either poor circulation or carpel tunnel syndrome..which will be hell >_< Also i was going to start painting but not any fur related stuff rather anime type stuff on these playmat thingies for trading card games, they seem to be good money if done correctly. also as a reminder remember that stupid song from that adidas commercial called...ughh what was it called? i think justice is the name of the band and civilization is the name of the song..but its pretty catchy, i thought it was daft punk at first then all i youtube was from that tron movie which didn't impress me much. Soo lol there goes the commercial again, makes me wanna go jogging...i think..oh wait nvm stupid nightly job will kill my nightly jogging...maybe during the weekends? oh well onwards towards the future we go!

Been thinking about drawing, though i really have no clue where or how to start. I doodle some very childish crayola looking drawings a couple of days ago. Though afterward when i looked at the drawings it looked horrible...well not horrible, but very childish. As if a child had just gone doo dee doo daa. What a waste of pastels >_<. But yes I felt very inspired by this game i was playing called muramasa the demon blade. Basically the game has beautiful levels and the music. It really is a game one can really appreciate. Which brings me to my next inspiration fueled by the previous one, which is Japanese folk lore. Like really the one that i really like is the whole foxes being holy like beings with magical powers to turn into beautiful women. ahhaa its sorta silly but i wish a fox would do that for me (what a weirdo!) . Also ive been drawn to samurai a lot because of this game. Oh well that's all i can say for now.