Not much has changed in 5 months, Ex got remarried, which is nice for them. I started taking up drinking as well as other vices. I haven't been in the best state of mind.. I haven't really been active in this community in a while, nor in any community for that matter so my sincere apologies. I feel bad for my lethargic actions or better yet lack of actions. I have goals but haven't seemed to meet any of them. Can't believe it's been a year, time sure does fly. The good news would be that I have finally, reluctantly at the urging of people started to get professional help, lets hope it gets me somewhere. I really hope it does. I don't really have any other alternatives as during this year I have tried all of them. Thank you all for being a part of my life, sorry for all of my shitty depressing posts, but if I don't get it out somewhere then it stays in me bottled up. I wish everyone a wonderful summer to any who read this.

== Results from http://bdsmtest.org/ ==
100% Switch
97% Primal (Predator)
91% Bondage Giver
90% Primal (Prey)
89% Dominant
88% Brat Tamer
84% Daddy/Mommy
84% Degradation Giver
83% Brat
80% Submissive
76% Master/Mistress
75% Bondage Receiver
75% Masochist
71% Degradation Receiver
71% Experimentalist
66% Sadist
63% Exhibitionist
59% Girl/Boy
55% Slave
54% Voyeur
25% Vanilla
24% Pervert
13% All-Rounder
13% Non-monogamist
See my results online at http://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=52207

Exe here, still haven't really got past my demons. Tried to convince myself otherwise thus far and to no avail. I have my ups but they are fleeting. I tried really hard to draw but I can't. I wake up every day in a daze, lost in myself and try and keep it all together but I'm worried that won't last. I keep trying to find some way to be happy. I have no . I find myself out of my element. Dazed, pained, and lost.

Was mainly inactive this week due to the madness of working in retail sales. Eep... I already consider myself a lone wolf (pun :3) and my anxiety was through the roof the entire time. Glad that the general chaos is almost over (cyber monday). But i'm preparing for the holiday shopping ahead.. It does surprise me though how much people go crazy for stuff on sale... I'm sure quite an overdone statement but I had to say it. Once you've been in the middle of the zombie shoppers it's completely different. One day maybe I can leave sales behind ^-^

Back for the moment. To put things lightly i'm single again. When I started my FA account I was in a very serious and long term relationship. My mate at this time was also my furry muse. Unfortunately they hurt me more than my patience allowed. 4 months after our separation and here I am again back in FA. And I must say that the welcome and support I have got since I have popped back on has been a HUGE help. Both to me, as well as my motivation and general esteem. So thank you very much everyone for that. As far as furry art goes i'm sure i'll take it up again, I have considered reverting to my old art style of dark surrealism. Either way I know that I will take this style up again.

Just got fired from work, so my motivation for drawing right now is dead. Hell, motivation for anything is dead.

I want to start off by saying thank you very much to everyone who as given me support as an artist. Be it by favorites, watches or any other method. If you've done this you may have noticed there has been a very long hiatus since I've put out any work. I am very sorry about this and the reason is simple, work. I am currently juggling 2 jobs at the moment and put out art when I can, I just currently don't have the time to work on any projects so thanks for your continued support!