Words can not express how much fun I had.
And I met lots of wonderful furs!

That is all. I am pleased. :3

Can't wait till next year!!

So much has happened to me in the past year.. And it really has been a year since my roller coaster of drama left the platform. To the month, to the week. I think I can finally say I've come to the end of it.

With all the shit my own family gave me, and all the love my family here has given me I'm finally done. I'm picking up the pieces and getting them all fixed up. No more moving around, at least for a little bit. I'm going to look into going back to school, I have a job again that's actually fun (oddly).
Working my way to get another car, saving up to also pay back and then hopefully go back up there to visit her and maybe this time drag along for some fun.

Hopefully by the end of the year (really hoping!) I will have said car and drive back down to San Antonio, get all my things from my grandmothers storage unit, hug my younger siblings and officially tell my dads side of the family fuck you. :3 I do not plan on seeing them again past that until the kids (3 brothers and 3 sisters) want to come see me.
As for my moms side, as much as I am angry with her for shipping me off twice, she has at least apologized and comes to visit me, buys me things when I need them (food, clothes, ect) and actually cares, unlike my father, his parents, and his "wife". Even my aunts who I hardly talk to show more intrest in my well being then my dad. So if he wants to act like I don't matter, I don't formally exist, then so be it. I will not exist in his life, just as my older half sister has done before me for similar reasons.

I'm coming out of my depression, thinking of things I want to do with myself, my life. Gaining goals and ambitions and a real family. Next year will be a good one for me. I'll make sure of it. Nothing is stopping me this time.

Trying my best, and doing no less~

Thinking of posting an audio clip on an update of how things are going for me. Too lazy to type it all lol.

Stay tuned :P

Awesome. I made it. I'm here. I'm out. I'm safe. I'm happy. I'm feeling way better.

First thing I did was CRAASSSH. Nice 6 hour nap. Another will be coming, guaranteed. After not sleeping hardly for 3 days (an hour or 2 within all days I napped slightly) It was nice to get some UNINTERRUPTED Z's. Didn't have to be woken up by someone screaming at Borderlands 2. c:

So, after a nearly 12 hour ordeal, breakfast in first class on a brand new 787 dreamliner with the works, first class again (lucky!) on my second trip, losing my phone charger, and getting a surprise birthday present from my ex during my layover in Dallas, I think I can finally say things are going to get better.
I mean I can do this. I've worked 3 jobs at one time and done a bunch of different things. I think I got this. And I'm thinking of going back to school. Not sure, still working on that but I want to do something with my life. Just need to get back on track.

Thanks again to those who helped me during all of this. I will never forget it.

You have done me a great deed.
Thank you  Marbles for getting your family together to try to find a solution for me. I wish I thought of asking you about it when the problem originally arisen. But even still, so far so good. You got me a ride, gave said ride 10 bucks to take me, and stayed awake until it was time for me to get on the plane. You are loved my magical bunny. <3
Thank you  MasterDireWolf For letting me hitch a ride with you, and for the bit of cash (his own and Marbles $10) to grab some noms, you have no idea how much I appreciate it!
I got a chai tea latte instead, seeing as I've pretty much been awake for the past 3 days with the occasional 1 to 2 hour nap. That really came in handy. What was also awesome, was I was able to snag First class, and with that came Breakfast! Oh my stars let me tell you how long its been since I had a real good meal like that.. I couldn't even finish it off.. but I did anyways since I hadn't been eating a whole lot and figured, hey, its a FREE, GOOD, and even a bit fancy meal. I damn sure was not wasting that. And I took my time. I had to rush the end because the flight attendant gave me my food first and I was the last to give her my plates and tray >-> Thanks for letting me eat lady! Lol
So now, after getting on that flight at 6:30, and arriving in DFW, my home.. area I should say, lol.. I get to wait for my next flight because the first one was too slow to get here for my connecting flight. D< I blame the food, but then again, I aint mad. I will gladly hang out for another... hour before I get on this plane lol.
Just gotta watch out for the ex <-< He works here.. Somewhere.. -Does the Jaws sound- DUN DUN!

Enough dramatics. Thank you  Marbles  wildpawe  MasterDireWolf  ChemicalDrgn  Miina  Kira_Swiftpaw  arclis and everyone else for rooting for me and becoming my new family. I really needed one and am grateful to have you guys. Love you all. <3

I sat there and practically saved my brother from my abusive dad. When CPS came around to investigate I pulled the woman aside and told her everything that went on in that house. My dads mother of course defends EVERYTHING he does. When he had a bastard child with some whore co-worker and my parents got divorced she didn't care. No she sat there with open arms to her and all her fucking children. So of course she didn't mind kicking me out and making sure I was out that night. I couldn't even get everything.. I couldn't get my guitar, all my clothes.. Personal belongings that held certain sentimental points that I can never replace. So mom came and got me, battled it out with them and was able to take my brother and I out of that situation..

And the first 4 days at her place were fine.. Until her and her wife printed out an 'agreement' form that I had to follow at all times...
I had to be in bed by midnight, I couldn't be talking at all after 10. I had to be up and 'ready for the day' by 8 am.
From 8am to 5pm I had to look for a job and do nothing else because that was 'my job'. Now Granted, that's really what I should have been doing since I went from San Antonio up to Lewisville.. but was it necessary to type it out? No, it wasn't. One of my pet peeves is I HATE being forced to do something, to be backed into a corner and not free to make my own decisions. I was already looking up new jobs and all that mess. But having her do that made me feel like crap. Plus, they came by to make sure I was actually doing that.. I didn't realize that I was a fucking teenager back in high school. Where the teacher comes to walk around the class to make sure everyone is actually being productive. No. I thought my nearly 22 ass was minding her own business. And! I had to be out of the house by the 30th of June. If I hadn't found anything by then oh well. I have 2 cats and they said they would take them to a shelter 'or something' if I had no job and no place to live.. Keep in mind that I was kicked out earlier back in September by my mom because they were buying the new house and I needed to find a new place to live.. Hm. Familiar much? Well Her stress caused me to lose my job, I flunked out in school, and had no money to find an apartment. Which honestly, with the part time job I had I couldn't do that on my own anyways. So she 'suggested' I go to my grandmothers house in San Antonio and here we are..

Then my brother started saying I was keeping him awake at night when I wasn't. He rolls around and talks in his sleep and wakes up himself. I usually can't sleep because of it. Now, my moms have a 3 bedroom home.. but one of them is an office. So of course I had to stay in the one room that was dubbed 'reeces room' (My brothers). So I have to stay in there with him, sleep in the same bed and all. Which Im like whatever, cause its my bro. and I mean if I was a bitch I wouldn't have gotten him away from my dad.

So of course, I got in trouble. So they said that I was staying in his room, in his bed, and that he needed his sleep for school so I had to sleep on the floor.. and god forbid I sleep on the couch. No one was allowed to do that. They wanted their reclining couches to stay in pristine shape, no sleeping allowed. Yet the cats and dogs were allowed on it. Where is the logic in that..? I was really upset by the way that conversation went.. To the point where I started crying because they were demanding all of this. In the mean time they were sitting there saying, "Because we love you and want you to succeed." Well, you could have a better fucking attitude about it. And I guess I could possibly see where they are coming from.. but they could have a better attitude about it.

So then my mom said I was stressing her out with all of that and it was making her physically sick. Right then she made me find some other place to live. That was Tuesday, April 30th. I had to leave by the end of the week. So because of a past relationship that's an even longer story that needs to not be gone into.. I lost a lot of relationships with my friends and those who I did happen to keep, lost touch with them when I moved to San Antonio. So literally in the State of Texas I had no where else to go.. At first she gave me 2 weeks to find a place and originally I wanted to stay with  Marbles and he even got  wildpawe to let me come visit to see if I could actually do that. But no, my mom wasn't having it.

So where am I? Florida.. I.. am in.. Florida..

I'm in Florida...

I feel sick.
Been up for like 3 days or something. Just.. being random.
Drawing things I'm not supposed to be drawin' and shit. ugh.
Can't do anything right apparently.

Someone shoot me already 8D

Fuckin.. Dad making me babysit on the fly..
Just because I was FORCED to move to San Antonio and currently have no job, DOES NOT mean I am your personal babysitter!
So thank you, for making me watch your SIX kids while you went out, then had me stay the night, and then NOT give me a pillow and blanket so I could NOT sleep on the HARD AS CONCRETE futon.

I appreciate that shit. Mhm.


I wish I knew someone around here who I could just go see in the middle of the night and hang out.. de-stress and shit..

So much bullshit in two months..

I'm so incredibly depressed right now..

Yurp
It sucks ass.
I'm not sure where I'm going yet, but I've already started packing a bunch of crap and throwing 75% of everything I find away. Joy.

During my.. endeavor, I found some goodies. :P
So enjoy the high school drawings. xD

Annnnd they're all in the scraps :P