TLDR; Still around, more stuff eventually maybe, trying not to pressure myself.

It’s been a while since I’ve posted, and I was thinking of working on a new script. So I figured this would be a good time to put something out, let folks know I’m still alive. And to offer a little insight as to where my head is at for those who are curious.

I haven’t had the energy to focus on creative projects as much as I would like over the last few months. I took a break from writing after suffering some burnout pushing through a script last December. It was for a contest posted over on r/gonewildaudio but I didn’t feel it was appropriate to upload here. (I’ll leave a link at the bottom for anyone curious)

It’s just been a year where motivation is in short supply and my batteries are slow to recharge.

During my downtime there has been a lot of thought put into why I’m doing this in the first place. I don’t think I will ever be a prolific writer or hypnotist, I have no desire to be. Putting words to paper has always been difficult, even getting to this point in the journal has taken me over an hour. By the time I'm finished with a script, I’ve been staring at it for so long I never want to come back to it. Furthermore, I don’t really find the idea of hypnotizing others in itself all that appealing. Not that I'm against it, I just strongly prefer being the subject. I enjoy a lot of BDSM themes and I have no dominant streak.

So then what drives me to write?

(Besides my dearest friend, owner, and favorite hypnotist who has given me so much of her love and support through all of this. <3)

My love for Hypnosis, it’s ability to create powerful moments between people, to explore the mind and experience fantasy in very unique and personal ways.

I’ve been practicing as a subject for at least 8 years. In that time I’ve had the pleasure of several live sessions and listened to more files than I can count. I regularly set aside time to trance, and I try to keep up to date on new sessions and hypnotists. Quite frequently there are topics or ideas I want to explore in a session but have no avenue to do so.

Why not commission files or work with a hypnotist one on one? Short answer: I’m weird.

It isn’t the money, I strive to support content creators to the best of my ability, I buy files, and subscribe to several Patreons. It’s just that I would much rather pay someone to continue making things they are into and excited about, than to force someone to make something to my exact specifications. I’ve tried several times in the past, and while I love the work people have done for me, the dynamic just isn’t right in my mind. I like giving people plenty of room to interpret and express their own ideas on-top of the concept I've given them. And when I'm looking for a particular type of file, it can be difficult to find someone who is a good match to get the results I'm looking for.

Working live (over voice or in-person) has its own set of challenges, I don’t have as much privacy as I would like, and it limits how interactive I can be as a subject. It can make sessions feel very one-sided, and I don’t think that’s fair to the Hypnotist, even if no one I’ve played with has ever had a problem with it. It still makes me uncomfortable to ask, I worry about being distracted and potentially wasting their time, so I default to recordings. I’ve been extraordinarily lucky to have very generous and supportive friends who’ve made things happen despite this, and I’m eternally grateful for them.

Anyway, this is why I started scripting. To create the kind of content I can’t find elsewhere. Perhaps to learn a bit more about the inner workings of Hypnosis from the other side as well, gain a deeper appreciation for the art. And to work through some of the issues I have with not only writing, but starting and stopping projects.

Of course creating something for others to enjoy is lovely too. Sharing with the community that has given me so much over the years. <3

Besides getting back into writing, the next step for me is to try my hand at recording and editing a session. The person I’m sharing a room with is looking for a new job, so hopefully their work hours will afford me some private time to experiment with things. I’ve played a little with text to speech, but I think this could be a good opportunity to become more comfortable sharing my voice and getting over the performance anxiety that also inhibits my musical interests.

That’s about it for this mind-dump, thank you for making it this far! If you have anything you would like to share, challenges you face in your own creative process, things that motivate you, tips you think might be helpful, anything, I'd love to hear them. Comment or note.

Take care~



The aforementioned script:
https://www.reddit.com/r/gonewildau.....hange_you_are/

Inspired by Hypnovember and encouraged by some knowledgeable friends, I've decided to give hypnosis script writing a shot! (And maybe I'll get around to some normal stories too, for old times sake) Wanting to have something up by the end of the month, but we'll see, there are a couple projects at various stages of completion. I'm also trying to figure out my process as I haven't actively written for a long time, and even when I did on my old account it was spotty at best. ^^;

I wouldn't consider myself a Hypnotist (yet?) but I feel fairly familiar with a lot of techniques and theory from being subject to a wide variety of sessions. That being said, it will probably be a good idea to give my scripts a dry run before attempting to trance with them, for safety. So far most of these scripts are written with the intention of being recorded, so they may not work well as a text-session. Planning on giving recording a try, as well as writing for others to record. But I may also play with dedicated scripts for reading.

You can expect bondage, goo, latex, transformation, and various other kinks. A peak at my favorites would probably be a good indicator. I'm currently working on a "VR Induction" for a series of kinky game-related modular files, A Christmas script for an erotic hypnosis contest on reddit, and a sub for dom relaxation/worship/self-positivity thing.

Having a bit of trouble pulling the trigger on finishing projects, part of getting adjusted to the workflow again. But as an exercise I have two scripts technically finished. They were written mostly in a single sitting with little fore-planning or heavy editing, just to prove to myself that I could. So the quality isn't what I would consider my best, considering posting them to scraps. Let me know if you would be interested in checking them out!

There is a plush suiting/tf file with an 'experimental' arcade themed induction, and a very self-indulgent layered-bondage induction that includes a bunch of different scenes/kinks focused around feeling stuck/aroused/submissive. They both feature permissive awakeners that allow you to enjoy the feelings for as long as you desire.

Hope you're all staying safe and healthy out there! Take care~

Depending on where you're from anyways...

Happy New Years!

(Mind the disorganized brain-dump)

Happy Holidays one and all!

Coming up on my first year in the new profile, trying to be more active these days. It’s still super awkward seeing all these artists and cool people I’ve been following on and off for years. Stumbling across some I remember from old Yahoo Groups and other little sites. It’s like this odd sense of one-sided familiarity, I want to say something, but it feels weird and stalker-ish. “I’ve been watching you” ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Getting over it though, everyone I’ve talked to so far has been super approachable and nice.

Anyways, hope this last little stretch of the year has been treating you all well. I know some people tend to get a little depressed around the holidays, if you’re feeling down don’t be afraid to drop me a shout or note. I’ve always got a spare ear to lend and a shoulder to lean on.

Question for anyone reading this, what do you want for Christmas? My own wishlist is a little lackluster, I’ve been told I’m hard to shop for. But I have any of the games I’m interested in, and really there’s just nothing I want. Other than to spread a little joy where I can, I have a lot more fun giving gifts than receiving. If for whatever reason you want to do something for me for Christmas, just spend some time with me, talking, gaming, etc. That kind of stuff means more to me than anything. Recently I’ve been trying more to reach out to people and make those connections, friendship really is the gift that keeps on giving.

Management shenanigans aside, if there’s anything I really like about this website it’s the openness and sense of community. Coming from the conservative capital of Canada, it’s a real breath of fresh air to see so many people upfront with their creativity and sexuality. No dicking around with facades, everyone I’ve talked to has been genuine and kind.

I really want to do more to support some of the artists whose work I’ve enjoyed for so long. I’ve been keeping an eye out for commission opportunities where I can. Sucks money is so tight around this time of year, it seems like this is when it’s needed the most. Doing what I can though.

Doesn’t help I’m so damn indecisive, I’m actually really easy to please once the whole process is started. Just that initial topic/subject is hard to settle on. I got a really nice YCH piece by DrBugaboo the other week, really happy with that one. I think it would be cool to get a picture done for each of my interests/kinks. To be honest, I’m not really obsessed with having my character/’sona in a bunch of art, I just to want support these artists more.

Also, some topics are harder for me to commission solo, I’d love to find some people to commission with, have some group pictures done. To that end it might help if I was a little more open about my own interests instead of pointing them to my favorites, which I know isn’t the best representation. Especially when I head off and visit other sites for different topics.

I toyed around with the whole FA group thing but I think including all this on my profile might be a little cluttered.










I also tried setting up an f-list profile, but I’m feeling like that’s more of an RP thing, and I haven’t RP’d in a long time.


I know a lot of people do TMI days where you can ask them questions and get to know them better. I feel like that's me on any given day, so if you have any random questions feel free to leave a comment. Anyways, that's about everything rockin' around the ole' noggin for now.

Stay safe, stay warm, stay happy. ~<3

I suppose I did ask for this... Tagged by

A- Age:
8,542 days and counting

B- Biggest fear:
That I'll spend too much of my life surviving, and not enough living.

C- Cold weather or Warm weather?:
Cold weather all the way, but I'm Canadian so probably biased. Being warm and cozy is so much better in the winter with contrasting cold, rather than trying to keep cool in the summer.

D- Drink you last had:
Water, last non-water drink; green tea lemonade from Starbucks.

E- Extraterrestrials (Aliens), are they real?:
Statistically, I don't see why not. Have they visited earth? Unlikely/doubtful.

F- First thing you do when you woke up:
80% Go back to sleep, 15% Check internet to see what I missed in the news/whats new with friends, 5% Damage control.

G- Ghosts, are they real?:
Life after death is a romantic idea, hellish in some aspects. But I prefer to put emphasis on the time we spend living. I don't think believers are crazy, I'm just not necessarily one myself.

H- How tall are you?:
5' 11''

I- In love with someone (Just answer Yes or No):
I love people, but in love, as in an active relationship, not at the moment.

J- Jealous of someone (Just answer Yes or No):
Nope

K- Killed Someone?:
Not that I'm aware of, or that can be proven in a court of law.

L- Last time you cried?:
Happy tears, watching/supporting a charity event.

M- Music genre you hate the most:
Music is too positive of an influence on me to illicit hate. I'd rather not dismiss an entire genre, but if I had to choose one I dislike the most of... Probably some of the more artsy/avante garde styles like Bull of Heaven.

N- Newest acquisition:
Guitar capo

O- One Wish:
Infinite wishes (duh). On a serious note, that people in general would be more positive in life and learn to let go of the negative things around them. (Including myself)

P- Pie, wich flavor you like the most?:
ANYTHING with a graham cracker pie crust, particularly Lemon Meringue.

Q- Question you usually ask:
Did you get that thing i sent ya? (Not really... Boring stuff/hows it going?/etc)

R- Reason to smile:
Who needs a reason to smile? Just smile! : )

S- Song you like the most:
UUuuuhhh... I don't think I can limit myself to a single song. Some I've gone back to the most might include Pomplamoose's Lorde 2Pac Beck mashup and We Come Together by Goldfish. But it really depends on the mood I'm in/looking to get in.

T- Time you woke up:
That's my secret... I never wake up... #dreamer. ~11am today though, you'd have better luck predicting my sleep schedule with a D20.

U- Underwear Color:
FREEBA-I mean black, always black boxers.

V- VideoGame you like the most:
Always changing, the one that had the most impact on my life was probably DDR. I've met many wonderful people perusing arcades for machines, including some of my oldest and dearest friends.

W- Worst Habit:
Turning into a hermit when times are tough.

X- X-Rays you've had:
Teeth/jaw, ankle, chest, neck, back, its a wonder I don't glow in the dark :p

Y- Your favorite food:
Boring answer: Pizza/Pasta/Rice (diversity). Otherwise anything I can cook for myself from scratch, double satisfaction of a job well done and a good meal. Essential Canadian answer: Poutine.

Z- Zodiac Sign:
Taurus, what a load of bull...


I tag... no one! Remember maymay the bear says; "Only you can prevent memes!". I don't know who I'd tag anyways. Swift three times as revenge! >:3