Its been a month since the last entry. I have been wondering partially what to put to an extent, and worrying to another. But my mind has been all over since last entry.

The box still hasnt got to my girlfriend. It worrys me there to no end still. It will eventually arrive I hope, but I also wonder if it already has and is being secreted. That wouldnt shock me in the slightest if it was.

I am worried sick about her, cause we havent spoke properly, voice to voice, since before the box was sent. Thats like 6 weeks without hearing her voice, which comforts me when I hear it. Which makes me strong enough to not cry, which, and I havent told her, I have cried almost every day begging to hear her voice and hold her.

I love her. Its a weird thing to say, about a girl I have never even physically held, but I do. I hope she knows how much as well.

I think if I heard her voice the first thing I would do is cry really.

The other things on my mind are related to where I live though. I have had rumblings of one of 2 big things, but both are scary...

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Now Playing - The Promise - FFXIII OST

As gathered from last post, I was sending a box to my girlfriend of Stuff.

Sent it Monday of last week (yeah, not mentioning that for a while is logical), and it should have took (from the mail people here the day I sent it) 5 working days.

Which means it should be there either now, or tomorrow (working days arent weekends).

Imagine nervous twitching abound from me about this. No, SERIOUSLY nervous. Like it can be mistaken for shivering. But Im not cold.

Im getting overly nervous for nothing, right?..

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Now playing: Disturbed - This Moment

Since my last entry, a lot has happened. One big thing is my girlfriends Parents are keeping me and her apart (I can tell, cause I went through it).

Despite that, I am still going to go through with a promise I made to her. Im still sending her the box of stuff.

I dont know if, despite everything, it will be intercepted, but I am hoping it wont.

I am worrying horribly about her though, cause I still love her, with all my heart and soul...

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Currently playing: That is where the Spirit becomes certain - Michiko Narude - Wild Arms 4 OST

My first journal, if anyone read it, knows I was planning to send mail to my girlfriend. I have almost completed the mission.

Ive got a box, and most of the items are within. The only few things left are a letter (which I still need to write), and the paper hardcopy of the art I uploaded here. The letter I can fold, the art I may need some way to roll it safetly up so its not creased badly. Maybe a rubber band.

I can give people details on what I am sending, if they want to know, and they ask for it by commenting.

Writing this letter is tough though. Partially cause I have trouble putting pen to paper (figuratively, meaning I can type better than pen), and whatever I write wont compare to what I feel.

I guess it will come to me soon...

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Now playing: One Winged Angel - Sephiroth Choir

I guess I need to do one of these things, as much as I feel like noone reads these.

Yeah. I am here (like I said) cause of my girlfriend. I had tried to join yesterday, but it was broken <_<.

I guess the shopping I did was the big thing today. I bought stuff to send her.

Just need to get a paper mail bag or box of the right size for it all.

And pay postage and packing. And get her the goodies I promised.

I dont mind paying though, cause simply I love her truly.

Maybe when she reads this she wont cry, though chance will be a fine thing.

Excuse me while I hide my face in shame...