EDIT: Thank you all for your interest! I hope to open again later this month. <3

Okay, I am opening for 3 commission slots.

*USD$25 for a single character, plus USD$12.50 for each additional character.
*An extra USD$10 for a basic background

Expected deadlines will be about 1 - 2 weeks.

Note me if you are interested!

(In case you are wondering what kind of nappies I’ll be willing to draw… I can do the toonish cloth (pinned or tied-on), or a disposable fastened with a safety pin.

But again, will be happy to answer any questions about that kind of stuff. c:)

Hey guys, I am hosting a raffle over on Twitter for one of three chances to win a piece of art from me... I will be picking the first winner tomorrow, so click the link below if you want a chance to win! c:

https://mobile.twitter.com/Billy_Co.....38263443087361

I’ll say one more important thing about the decision in the last journal and that’ll be it…

My goal isn’t to go ‘quiet’ from the fandom, but rather I only want to interact with the fandom in ways that I feel is meaningful and relevant to my own interests.

That’s the ultimate goal for me. :)

It’s time to end a chapter…




I’ll try not to drag this out too long, so I’ll aim to just hit the main points of the things I want to say…



So…. After over 7 years, I will be no longer considering myself a “babyfur/diaperfur” and be stepping back from the ABDL fandom as a whole. 



This isn’t some brash decision, I have been spending the last few weeks carefully deciding whether I should do this or not… And honestly, it’s not surprising of a decision based on my behaviours over the last year. 



My ABDL interests have essentially flat-lined… I don’t really engage with these interests with others anymore (such as talking about diapers, engaging with very ‘babyfur-y’/‘diaperfur-y’ art, taking IRL diaper pictures, talk about hanging out with other peeps doing IRL ABDL things, etc, etc), and I don’t feel a desire to start these engagements with others in the ABDL fandom…



I did try to engage with these interests a bit more (even attempting another AD account) to see if something would stick, but that fell flat and didn’t feel right with me.



And honestly, that is fine… I acknowledge that the ABDL fandom is based around certain key aesthetics with a certain interests, and these things just simply don’t click with me anymore. The only interests I do have left are so peculiar (and hardly count as “babyfur/diaperfur”) that I can’t really engage the fandom outside of a few selected individuals.



Because of this, I feel it’s my time to let go of my role in the ABDL fandom.



So what does this mean? Am I leaving the wider furry community as a whole and disappearing off the face of the planet? No. 

I will be sticking around the furry fandom as a whole, and I will be friendly towards the babyfur/diaperfur fandom, open with interacting with them and not having a problem with you wanting to share ABDL interests with me. It’s just for me personally, I just don’t identify with these terms/things anymore.



As for my art? I will continue to draw anthros/ferals in nappies, but in my own special way in the style/aesthetic I enjoy and what makes me happy (a double-down of what I said in a previous journal).



So yeah, despite me no longer associating with these terms anymore, not that much changes with me… It’s all really about making these decisions much more concrete rather than the ‘wishy-washy’ and ‘back-and-forward’ attitude I have had towards these ABDL interests… It’s a done matter now.



Just to address one last point… Does any of this have to do with the recent controversies in the fandom? Not really, stuff like that unfortunately happens in a lot of different spaces, so it’s nothing new.



Other than that… Yeah…. That’s it. That chapter is over for me. I know I never played a significant or notable part of community, but I do appreciate the folks who do take the time out of their day to read my silly little problems and reach out to me, you guys are awesome.



Going forward, I will adapting to my new identity outside of the ABDL fandom and be presenting myself in a fashion that now reflects that fact, both in terms of my online profiles and future interactions… And trust me, I have plans and ideas I am excited to expand into.



Until the next time, stay safe crinkle-butts! I am not of you anymore, but I wish you the best in your little community. <3

TLDR: To describe my new identity in the fandom going forward, I would consider myself a toony furry with minor babyfur interests, not enough to no longer class me as one but not zero.

Resolved!

Kind  WittleWolfyKota had a copy of the story for me, thank you so much again! c:

Hey guys!

A few of you may have noticed by absence from FA due to my previously disabled profile.

Well... I went on hiatus two months ago for an array of different personal reasons (I will spare you the details, haha). I returned to Twitter a month ago, and now I am re-establishing myself on FA.

For those who don’t know... Going forward, I have decided to keep a lot of my personal interests/kinks to myself. So you won’t see myself expressing certain ideas in the public space anymore (admittedly that has been much more on Twitter than here). I will also be solely focusing on art I enjoy, rather than be tempted to draw stuff that I feel the community wants, so every piece of art I will be producing from now on should come from a place of personal passion. :)

So yeah... That is basically it. I will be posting up some art in a little bit, so I hope you all have a good rest of the day! :)

- Billy

So the title says it all... Unless you have heard otherwise from me, I will be cancelling the commissions in my queue.

I do apologize wholeheartedly, I was trying to avoid making this decision for as long as I could believing I can get my large commission queue done... But it's just not feasible for me in the end, and it wouldn't be fair on you guys to be waiting so long for your commissioned pictures.

So why did I take so many commissions in the first place? Well... I wanted to stay open for 24 hours so anyone could get a chance to commission me no matter their time-zone. The result is that I ended up with around 2 dozen commissions. I didn't take any payment for them before-hand, so it was entirely just a commitment from me to get these pictures done on time.

Immediately after I accept all of those commissions, I was already beginning to experience problems getting these commissions done... I struggled to get a handle on my new 'toony derp chibi' style which caused the first set of delays... Then my IRL job started getting hectic between late September - December, meaning I had even less time to complete my commissions.... And Finally, but also honestly... It didn't put me in a great place... My fun hobby became a second job with that stack ton of commissions, and I felt I had no free time anymore... I didn't want that.

Will I do commissions again? Possibly, but it won't be until later next year... And I will be imposing much shorter commission queues (2 or 3 slot maximums, allowing for quick turnovers), but I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.

I do want to end by saying I am assigning zero percent of the blame on my commissioners... You all have been awesome, patient and haven't been unruly towards me over the last 4 months. However, I do understand if this does deter a good number of you to never wanting to commission me after this mishandling. I should have managed this a lot better.

Again, I am sorry for these cancellations.

Kind Regards
Billy

CLOSED! Thank you so much for your interest! Hopefully it won't take anywhere close to a billion years for me to open up again, haha

A do/don't draw list for curious peeps who'd like to trade/commission with me!

Won't draw:
* Vore
* Gore
* Scat
* Visible body fiulds (with minor exceptions)
* Discolored diapers
* Private Parts
* Copyrighted Characters
* CUB PORN (An absolute no)
* Promotion of immoral views such as racism, sexism, homophobia, transphobia, etc. (Again, an absolute no)


In regards to diapers/nappies I'll draw:

* Only white-colored diaper/nappies, no other colors or patterns.
* The diapers/nappies I am willing to draw:
1. Cloth with either one or two safety pins
2. Tied-on cloth
3. Cloth blank
4. Plain disposable with tapes
5. Plain disposable with safety pins
6. 90s-style disposable

* Dirty diapers/nappies are always shown with visible green "stink lines" wafting from the back, sometimes accompanied with flies. An additional of a colorless 'diaper/nappy sag' can be requested if desired (if the character pose allows for it).


If I haven't mentioned something in particular, chances are good I am willing to draw it. c:

Any questions feel free to ask! c:

Do people even use these journals for non-serious conversations anymore? Probably not, lol.

Just writing to say that I believe "nappies" is an under-appreciated word... Sure in a few contexts it can be a little 'cringy' (hate that word, how ironic haha), but in the right context it can be super adorable with a certain charm to it!

Plus for those who watch "Bluey," I am sure you are more than familiar with this word by this point. ;3

Hey guys!

With a new Twitter account and a new identity, I figured it would be a good time to start kicking-up on my art again after a little bit of a break. I hope to open-up commissions again some time this month after I finish re-setting up my account on both here and Twitter... That way, the process to commission me with a lot clearer and easier to understand! (Think easy-to-find commission price sheets, do/don't draw lists and TOS)

I'll announce when I open commissions again, so be on the look out for that if you are interested!

Kind Regards
Billy

Now... Before I proceed with writing this journal, I will state that I don't expect many of you to read it.

And that's okay.

This journal is going to be something that's more of a personal reflection about who I am, what I have done in regards with the community and how I see myself going forward. So it's more of a 'for me' thing beyond all else... So I apologize if the following text seems unclear or confusing.

For those who are curious about it's contents, but no eager to read a long wall of text, just read "Part 3"



Part 1

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As some of you may know, I've been in this community for a while now. Back in 2014, I re-joined after a year long absence as I assigned myself an identity of 'babyfur,' Billy became my fursona and ultimately my vehicle of expressing myself within this fandom.

Now to be clear... Billy as my character back-then is not the same Billy as now, he has evolved over the years. Once originally a 2 1/2 year old pup, he was pretty 'stereotypical' (for the lack of a better word) as character personality is concern... He was shy but friendly, timid but liked to 'help-out.' It was a cliched personality to be frank...

Within time though, he developed this almost 'big bro' tendency. Where instead of being this bashful young pup searching for guidance, he were to be confident and more of a goofball... Teasing his 'younger siblings' but also showing concern for their well-being.

To me, that felt 'right.'

That was the moment where myself and Billy 'clicked' as a unit. I myself am an older brother IRL, so it fitted for Billy to adapt that role. Billy himself was suppose to compass who I was at a younger age, and being a big brother is a massive part of me & my childhood. So thus, Billy become a representation of myself during my childhood.

Even to this day, if you were to ask me to describe Billy with one term, 'big brother' would still remain the first term to come to mind...

Now I've talked about a lot of Billy as a character thus far. Why? Well as I mentioned earlier, he was/is my vehicle of expressing myself in this fandom... Whether it be through RPing, or friendly chit-chatting in messages. How I interacted with other furs was through the eyes of Billy, and other furs begin to learn about me, and know about me as 'Billy."

I am Billy, in the most simplest of ways... My desires became Billy's desires, Billy's desires became my desires.




Part 2

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Now... I didn't have the desire for someone to 'baby-me.'I tried it for a while by letting willing folks 'baby me,' but it never clicked... I grew to dislike the vulnerable feeling of being treated/teased like a baby, and eventually announced publicly for folks to stop doing that to me.

It's also why I've grown resentful of any old art that exists of Billy being a quote-on-quote "baby." That's not who he is, that is not who I am.

No... What I wanted was younger siblings, I wanted to re-create my childhood through Billy, I wanted to re-live the times I missed dearly... As it turned out, this is a terrible mentality to have.

That era in my life has ended, it's gone... Nothing I do will 'bring it back.' I need to get that fucking idea stuck in my head. Sure, I can play pretend and role-play the idea of being an older brother to someone else, but that's all it is... Pretend.

My times meeting other furs IRL cemented that fact... My first meet-up went poorly (not bad, just poor) in 2015, and while my visit to US & Canada in 2017 went better, it showed why creating these types of imitate relationships are not possible.

Like I said, you can have good friends, and you can re-enact these types of relationships... But it can't truly replace what is gone... And yeah I am not going to lie, it does hurt... But such is life.

However... Since I have now realized these facts, I can now try and move forward to have a more healthy approach with this community with more sensible expectations... To ultimately build more natural relationships with other members of the community, rather than ones trying to re-create my past.



Part 3

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So now that I've rambled-on about my past for long enough... How does this all relate to "the now?" The current year of 2020? Well... I don't want to be treated like a baby, and I can't re-create my past... And the problem is that Billy represented those ideas,

That needs to change for me to move forward within this community.

How? Well, I could retire Billy and develop a new fursona... In fact, I had experimented around character designs, art and backstories to develop a more relevant fursona for me to adopt as my primary identity.

But nothing 'clicked' for me, Billy was still special to me.

So how I am going to move forward is going to be quite... Dramatic... I want to restart 'Billy.' I want to tear-down my profile, take-down my art and remove old comments/messages. I want it to be like I am re-starting again in this community, but the right way, with just me and Billy.

Billy's new personality will be simple, he is essentially me... But 'me' as in now, the adult me, not the 'me' from a rose-tinted childhood past. So hence he will also be an adult by default.

Will you see pics of him as a pup again? Most likely. Will you see pics of him acting as a big brother? probably. Will you see in embarrassing situations? Perhaps. Will you see him as a mature dom? Maybe maybe...

He can be these many things... But his default state will be an adult, like-minded to me. That is the key.

It may seem very minor to some of you, and may even seem I am making a big deal out of nothing... And perhaps that is true, but this is important for me to adjust my mentality about this community, and be able to interact with other folks that is much more positive for me.



Final Words

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There is many other points I can bring up, but I think I'll leave it here... There isn't a need for me to detail every aspect of my interaction with this community and turn this into a 5000 word essay. I think my point has been, or more accurately, I hope my point has been made.

Writing this has been rather helpful for me, never have I gotten these feelings down to these exact words... It has allowed me to visual the problem in ways I hadn't before, and ultimately to develop a solution to move forward.

Thank you to all who may have read this, even if it's just the last few words...

I am doing fine, you don't need to worry about me. But if you do see me ripping down my old art, or removing old comments... Then know it's not out of shame or mental distress, I am just simply trying to make one massive leap forward to be the person that I need to be.

Kind Regards

- Billy

From now on, Billy no longer has a set-age as a pup, his age can flick around depending on my purpose/mood.

Why? Well my interests have changed and diversified over the years, extending beyond just simple babyfur stuff (including some potential mature stuff)... So Billy should reflect that (he's my fursona after all!)

So expect to see future stuff of him as both either an pup or adult c:

Hey Guys!

After thinking about this for a long while... If there is enough interest for it, I'll start drawing disposable diapers again (only plain white or 90s style, so no all-over prints or copyrighted designs).

Of course I'll still draw the usual toon-style cloth diapers, as I have a special piece in my heart for them! It's just that it may best to draw disposables too, plus it'd be nice to be able to nail down a disposable diaper look that'll suit the silly toon aesthetic!

So let me know what you all think!

Hey guys! I am hosting an art raffle over on Twitter where I am going to pick 4 winners over the duration of August for a free flat color pic. Check it out if you are interested!

https://twitter.com/Diegesis_Art/st.....59806891053056

With my art queue cleared, I am thinking of taking on an art trade or two for funsie (may accept writing in return)... If you're interested, then let me know!

(Please don't take any offense if I don't pick you this time. It is usually down to a dozens of different reasons. :) )

Heya all, I am back from my little break from social media so I should be active again!

In other news... I've recently been working on a few personal pics, as an excuse to practice and improve the way I draw toon-style adult characters. So, expect some art featuring adults in embarrassing, diaper-related situations very soon! ;p

So I'm going to be taking a break from the community for a few days. It's not for a bad reason or anything, I just need to focus on my own things at the moment, and keeping up with messages has been such a time-sink that I can't get anything done. You probably won't notice it much due to the way FA is laid out, but in the case you happen to send me a message and I don't reply... There is your reason.

So, see ya all in a few days! :)

1,000 watchers! ONE THOUSAND!

Wow.... Thank you so much for helping me reach this milestone! The last 5 years in the community has been a long, but wonderful journey filled with art, stories and interacting with you all fluffbutts (a few even IRL!). A lot has changed over this time for me, especially in terms of my art....Starting off with creating some laughably bad art pieces from 5 years ago, to nowadays where I can create art that.... Well it still kinda sucks, but it's leagues better than my first pieces of art from all those years ago, so I am happy nonetheless! Especially with all the support you guys have given me over the years!

I don't know where the future holds in regards to my role in this community, but I look forward to find out! I also look forward to interacting with all you lovely fluffbutts in the future, and the others who I shall have the pleasure of meeting for the first time.

Again, thank you all so much. :)

After going back and forward a few times on this issue already, I am now confirming that I am no longer going to draw disposable diapers in my art and just stick to drawing the usual toony cloth diapers. The reasoning for this is simple, I don't draw disposable diapers well and frankly I don't really enjoy drawing them even after recent experimenting. Plus, I can point you to dozens of other artists who draw them way better than I can anyway, so that further adds to the pointless of me drawing disposable diapers in my art.

So yeah, this decision probably won't surprise many of you (it's no secret that I prefer drawing toony cloth diapers after all) but regardless I do apologize if you were hoping I was going to draw anymore disposable diapers in the near future, it ain't happening I am afraid. Hopefully you all understand! :)

Hey guys! As the title says, I am looking for fellow collie peeps to draw one big picture with! If you want to be considered for this picture, then you must be fine with the following:

* Must be a collie
* It's a toony babyfur picture (probably be sheep-related. XD)
* It is SFW/Clean
* Characters will be wearing a toony cloth diaper

I am looking for a fair number of candidates for the picture (perhaps somewhere between the 6-10 range) but that all depends on who volunteers (as collies are not the most popular fursona choice in the fandom). So if you are interested in this then please comment down below! :)

 Chrisdavee! Congratulations! I will get your pic done soon! :)

Hey guys, check out my free YCH raffle here at ( https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27735754/ ) before it closes tomorrow! :)

Check it out here if you are interested! ( https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27735754/ )

Hey guys, I have some spare time on my hand again and willing to dive to RPing yet again! So it's no secret I love toony stuff, I said it many times already. Because of this, I'd love to try my hand at more toony RPs involving toony effects, toony physics, etc. Toony babyfur RPs would be most preferred, which can involve either cubs or adults. If this is something that may interest you then you can either comment or note me and we can discuss the details from there! :P