they un-abolished gender, rip non-binary folk, gender's back on the menu

fa has abolished gender as a social construct
let's gooooo


on a more serious note, i'll post again sometime. i legit don't feel like posting unless it's a bigger art piece, and doing this as means to financially get by... art kind of becomes a product that i don't happen to be fond of, at the end of the day. got like 2 things i could toss in here, tomorrow, maybe, we'll see

posting to this site is legit too much effort to me, too much to handle by my unmedicated ADHD, it's literally overwhelming even with postybirb. there's no way i can really handle any of the tags, even if i pre-write them, because i just draw so much of EVERYTHING that the templates are basically fucking useless. then sorting by categories, again, i do a little bit of everything, it's an absolute CHORE, it's not fun, I hate even trying.

the 2 arts that i posted are literally the only ones i could handle before everything got overwhelming to manage, i'll try to keep on top of the uploads here in the future, but legit, don't expect anything from me, it's unironically torture to even try.

would y'all throw money at me if it meant i inflated big and round? lmao

but like, with no arts to show for it, i legit have nothing interesting to post. YCH dropping soon, but like, who cares, idk

COMMISSIONS OPEN

DIGITAL ART // TRADITIONAL ART // AVATAR RETEXTURES

SLOTS: [will manage workload as needed]

devvart.carrd.co
devv3d.carrd.co



i am essentially doing art full-time because i can't find a job, this essentially keeps me functioning beyond just basic survival level. and also my second monitor broke, so I really wanna try and get enough money to cover saving needs for the month + extra so i can actually afford that monitor. that's all ig

I am trying something different!

This round of commissions will be open throughout all of March, and I'll start working on them in April! A bit more detail as to why on the bottom of the post!

8 SLOTS ARE OPEN ACROSS EVERY POSSIBLE COMMISSION TYPE!
Yes that includes STICKERS too, since I'll get some practice in throughout the free time I have in March for it!

>10% off for dragons, year of the dragon is in effect :3
>25% off for stickers, I need to get as many new designs for them as humanely possible, just so I have some assortment of pre-made bases to show the next time I open up!

devvart.carrd.co (please note that to commission a sticker you need to click the form all the way down on the page, in the sticker section!)
devv3d.carrd.co




As to what's the idea... Basically aiming to try and complete 2 commissions per week in a month, seeing if that approach works for me or not. With 8 commissions in a 30 day month, that amounts to about 3 days per commission, and 1 day fully free to do whatever I want.

Of course, every commission is different, some take more time, some take less time. And that's good, actually! If a commission takes me just 1 day to complete, that means I can spend even longer on commissions that might need more time, or just relax!

If all goes to plan and this works - this might become the standard way I take commissions from now on!

Commissions closing in a week! 2 avatar retexture slots still open!

Small, special, discounted batch of commissions will be open on 19th and 20th of February as well, so be on the look out for that then!

Non-discounted commissions reopening ~1st of March after that!

2/2 art slots
3/5 VRChat texture slots (10% OFF! Novabeast also included among them!)


For prices and Google forms to submit your requests:
https://devvart.carrd.co/
https://devv3d.carrd.co/





Also as a clarification sidenote: is it better for y'all if 2/2 means "2 out of 2 slots are open" or "2 out of 2 slots are taken"? Genuine question, saw people get really confused and think my commission slots are all taken when it was the opposite, want to figure out which of the two ways people default to.

Pay what you want commissions are open! Throw 10 american bucks my way (or more!) and I'll draw you something cool you'd wanna see!

Apply here: https://forms.gle/hZcuziVq22SwAP2F8


ALSO YES I WILL POST ART SOON GIVE ME A SEC I AM KINDA IN THE MIDDLE OF SOME IRL STUFF AAAAAAAAAA

YEAAAAH I AM DOING A LOT OF THAT NOW SINCE I AM KINDA TRYNNA MAKE A LIVING AND SURVIVE OFF OF THIS NOW

So yeah, comms open, brand new, lower prices!
https://devvart.carrd.co/
click the button on the site, will take you to the commission form to claim your slot! Stickers are, unfortunately, unavailable for now!

also if you're in the market for a VRChat avatar texture - I happen to offer that too!
https://devv3d.carrd.co/


that all, will maybe post art in like a century from now idk, i'm quite bad at posting anywhere rn with moving out right around the corner, oopsie

Mini update: Due to how finding a job is going, I'm going to make a last, proper, big-time push to make my art business profitable enough to more than just live off of where I'm going.

As such:
>Price sheet has received a complete overhaul! While you can still find it through the main devvlink.carrd.co, not only is it easier to read, it now is two price sheets for clarity!
>>DevvArt.carrd.co for art commissions
>>Devv3d.carrd.co for VRChat-related commissions
>Prices were updated across the board! My art is simultaneously cheaper in some aspects, while reasonably more expensive in others!
>By default, I get a lot more creative freedom for my arts now, in order to hopefully reduce any potential accumulated burn out from doing it for a longer period of time!
>I'm temporarily closing texture commissions, preparing for a proper advertisement effort to hopefully get a decent amount of them next week, in a short time! HOWEVER...
>ONE (1) SLOT FOR ART COMMISSIONS IS NOW OPEN! Just 1, because I know I have a lot more art stuff to do right now!

That'd be all for this update, quite a lot of things to come very soon, you'll get sick of me by the end of it probably!

Sorry for the super delayed update on this, me dumb. Go follow my SFW or NSFW Telegram channels, in case if I slack for several days again out of lack of convenience!


As of the time I'm writing this, I'm sitting at 152% of the $500 goal, I have processed that information in my brain finally, thank you all very much for contributing! There's absolutely no necessity for more contributions, you've covered an entire month's bills + food at the new place with that amount, without any other financial contributions being taken into account! I'll still honour the discount and a repayment art for anyone else who wishes to donate until the end of September, however - do remember, the goal's already met, there's no "emergency", so to speak! I will not be repeating or linking the donation page anymore, as a result, because I feel like that's the right thing to do here!


The submission form that lets you submit ideas for how I should draw Dev is still up and running, available to everyone regardless of their financial contribution! (https://forms.gle/1ow1JxM6iZvBBem4A) If you have any fun idea or situation to suggest for my de-facto sona to be drawn in - you've got time until the end of September too!


Speaking of drawing - I'm starting to nibble on creative works again, although I'll probably get back up to some sane speed next week, got to finish up some business the rest of this one! There are a few doodles in the super slow works, but hey, slowly getting through it all while also trying to take care of myself and my mental health, somewhat! Will post things here as soon as it's done!


That's it for now!

So yeah, it's been... Right about 24 hours since I announced this, and the goal is... Almost 3/4ths of the way there. Like, I gave myself a few extra hours to try and find the words, but nah, I fail to find anything more to say other than a bold, capital letters THANK YOU!

Considering the reduced stress by one major source of it... I'll be taking this month super easy, rest up, at the very least try not to degrade further in my mental health, before I'm able to seek professional help.




Except... I can't just sit still, can I?

If y'all surpass the goal with donations alone by a 100 bucks - I'm gonna at least doodle something for that occasion whenever I get the motivation! My sona's all in your hands, I'll draw him however you guys desire, within limitations of it having to be at least relatively SFW! I don't want to give y'all any ideas, I'm sure you'll find something silly or humiliating from the depths of your mind!

EVERYONE can submit their idea, but of course - those who thrown money at me will get priority when considering what I'm going to doodle!

The form to submit your ideas to is here!
Link to a super basic fact/ref sheet is also included!

Once again, massive THANK YOU to everyone who showed support, you're giving me hope at a time when I really need some!

Not a journal I wanted to make or thought I'd ever have to make... But alas.


Before getting to the meat and potatoes from the title, a quick update I didn't make here: Ko-Fi subscription tiers are disabled, I don't feel like I'm able to offer enough content for to justify their existence. However, earlier access to my arts is still granted upon any one-time donation.

And a quick update on commissions:
>Using PayPal will now add extra 5% to the price to compensate for the fees being introduced this month.
>Commissions will be closed most of the time, they will periodically reopen according to what I feel like doing at the time. Reason: moving out soon, and... The thing that's looming below...






SENSITIVE CONTENT WARNING









Onto the part that sucks to have to say...


I am asking for money with not much to offer in return (in the more immediate sense, at least).


Over the past several months, my goal was to move out, get some actual control over my life. There were... A lot of unexpected and sudden bumps along the way, before finding something that I could confidently go with. And through all that was going on at that time... My mental health was deteriorating more and more, getting stressed out, drained with everything that's going on, letting not just the impostor syndrome creep in, but all other uncool things that come with depression. Including suicidal thoughts, as of late. I have reasons to live, I still have hope, even if there are moments I feel awful.

Motivation is... Barely there, I'm struggling to get to do anything productive done, which makes me feel worse for not doing that, falling behind on actually getting enough money to comfortably move out... So I arrive at a low point where I need some support, just to try and get by without destroying myself further.


So, what's needed?

500 USD, right about, to not have to stress out over making it through October at the new place, getting an entire month to settle in, rest up, find a job and live on, hopefully way better off than right now.

What's in it for you, the potential contributor to the budget?

A permanent 5% discount for providing $5 or more.
And art, later down the line, once I'm able to do it unimpeded again. Any amount above $5 (anything less and the fees eat it all up lol), you'll receive something in return.
And if you throw in more than that - you'll get to actually decide what you want drawn. You can even throw in any OC of mine into it, I'd even encourage it. You're throwing money at me, I see no issue in drawing my OCs (or myself) in scenarios that you put me in, within reason.

In addition to that, as mentioned in the previous post - avatar texture commissions are still open! I still have just enough motivation to slowly chew through those while at it. So while I am barely going on and asking for help - I'm still going to try and do as much as I can, even if my capacity for doing things is diminished.

https://ko-fi.com/devv_rm
https://ko-fi.com/devv_rm
https://ko-fi.com/devv_rm
https://ko-fi.com/devv_rm
https://ko-fi.com/devv_rm

For those who are going to donate: put your contact information (non-twitter pls) into the message, so I can contact you for references and any other relevant details at a convenient time!




SIDENOTE: Fixed PayPal payments, they're now available, as they should be!

...that in terms of creator and consumer... uhhhh... no i'm not going any further



SO ANYWAY, TO THE POINT: Did you know: you can have an earlier access to my arts if you just throw me any amount of money via Ko-Fi? Literally any amount, even just one-off payment, will let you see the stuff I post there! May be worth it for some of you, perhaps! There are also Patreon-like monthly tiers that also receive some love and cool benefits, check it out if you wanna support me!

https://ko-fi.com/devv_rm


Also the commissions are open! All the info on that matter is available under this link!




Why a sudden push towards making cash?

Literally all about moving out. I want (and, honestly, NEED) to move the hell out of here, and so... I need money. Can't find a job in here because a) this place SUCKS for finding anything in that regard and b) even if there is something - that then gets filtered through my disabilities and amounts to nothing in a small bumfuck nowhere town for me. So... I'm entirely reliant on art to get me out of here and kickstart the rest of my life to move forward. And so... Here I am, reaching out for some help. Even if you can't throw in any spare coin my way - even just sharing my art around helps a lot, especially if you can credit me and point people either back here or to any other place I post. No time limit for me to move out, but I am genuinely aiming for next month, because I can't stand this place for much longer, and because I still want to try and make it to MFF later this year. Tough and a bit uphill task, but should it work out and should the process of moving go smoothly - it will only get way better from there.

So yeah, it's me, actually, officially and publicly reaching out for some financial help. That's how it be now.


I have no idea how to sign off, so lemme just tell y'all that:
1. There is an YCH on the way! Keep an eye out on that, might be of interest to some of you, even if not presented big and round!
2. Should nothing else work - I'm also keeping an inflation drive thingy sketched out and ready to post, but I'd like to avoid it if I can.

That's all, bye lol

Pay what you want commissions are open!
Limited time offer, closes:
2023-07-26 at 06:00 CET or
2023-07-25 at 12:00 AM EST

https://forms.gle/hZcuziVq22SwAP2F8

So... Here I am, a year later. Coming back here, after all, as much as I'd rather not do that. It be how it be. Doesn't matter, not the point of making a journal about a return, after all.


TL;DR: back here primarily cuz I need money to survive, and people still use this site, follow me here and are willing to follow me here. Plus it also does grow my audience. Besides that... I'm still myself, even more myself than ever before. Might be more responsive and faster to upload in other places, though!




And as for those of you who care:

It's been an interesting year for me. VERY interesting. Ended up doing even more DJing, even more textures for 3D models, learned how to 3D model to a degree, I know how to work with Unity to some degree too! Even went to a furry con! Not just any furry con, but the 3rd biggest one out there - FWA! Honestly - the best fucking time of my life. Seeing so many good friends of mine, fellow DJs, artists... And most importantly - the person I love too! You can ask me in the comments how it went or anything else that you feel like, you do that if you wanna.

It was my first trip (mostly) alone beyond just my own little fuckshit nowhere town, and... I survived, in one piece. And so, my next plan is... To move the hell out of this place. Live on my own. And there's been... SEVERE complications and shake-ups to my plans for that, in a short amount of time. And it's gonna be difficult, and I'll definitely need at least some assistance from art to get by. And also make profit, and try to go to MFF to, again, see the person I love a bit sooner than the next FWA around. That's why I might need some of y'all's help here. And I'm gonna very politely suggest to maybe throw some money my way, or at least share my art with friends, if you like it enough to do so!

And also... I feel like I want to acknowledge some things, and say sorry for the past. The way I used to be, my attitudes in the past, the unnecessary, thick layer of cynicism, some excessive edge in places... Yeah. I've not been in good places mentally, or in good friend circles at the time, I'm not proud of that time, but it is what it is. Most I can do about it now is say sorry, move on and change, since that past doesn't define who I am now, and hopefully... you guys agree.

I'm a full on furry now, I'm not gonna deny that, this is my home, in a way. A place where I belong, a place where people love me for who I am, however weird and unusual I can be.

And with that I feel like I might as well announce: I am no longer dergy. At least... Just dergy. There may be a bit of both a dragon, and a kangaroo in me now. A hybrid of both, if you will. Once I find time in between commissions - I might draw a ref for that!


So anyway, that's all for this journal! I'll likely be posting older drawings for like 2 weeks before the scheduled stuff runs out, starting today! Hope everyone's doing well, and hopefully y'all's futures are looking bright. Hopefully, mine's the same way - brighter than I fear it might be.

SORRY FOR NO UPLOADS LIKE, I am really kinda bad at keeping track of what I did and didn't upload here. Like, honestly, you're probably way better off just following my Telegram channels or Twitter at this point tbh. Or Ko-Fi cuz I'll actually start using it a bit more, aye!


But yeah, well, bad news don't end there: I am now actually diving right into music. YEAH, THIS GUY HAS THE TOOLS TO MESS WITH NOT ONLY YOUR EYES, BUT NOW ALSO YOUR EARS. RUN WHILE YOU STILL CAN. and no don't ever fucking ask me about 'james hetfield busting a nut' because i just might actually post it somewhere and share it with the world and you don't want that because it'll forever ruin an entire song for you. On the other hand... that song's already ruining itself anyway, so... YOUR CALL.


Other than that, I'm taking commissions in a very different way than I used to. Instead of opening up, taking in too much stuff at once and then closing quite quickly after... I'm instead asking YOU to let me know that you're interested in getting a commission, I'll then put you on the list and will come asking you if you still want to commission me once I actually free up and can take another comm. So yeah, things are going, just at a different pace. And oh, prices might rise a bit sometime soon, not too much though, you know me.


And as for me personally, in life? WELL...
Things are actually better than ever! As usual, don't want to go too much into details, but let's just say that for the first time in my life I feel actually inspired and motivated to do something about myself and get somewhere better in life, both literally and proverbially. And well, I even have a very clear goal now! Right about... 1 year from now there's something happening around the world somewhere, and I'll abso-fucking-lutely be there. If you know - you know, if you don't... Feel free to guess, not that hard if you've been around the fandom for like, a moment or two. But yeah, big changes coming, big projects ahead, hopefully all for the better :)

firstly I AM NOT DEAD I JUST FORGOT TO UPDATE THAT IT WAS INDEED COVID AND I DID GET KNOCKED OUT FOR A SOLID WEEK CUZ OF IT. But then I forgot to make any update about it, whoops. Sorry to anyone who got scared, if there even was anyone.

secondly
if i won't upload tomorrow please pester me on discord, telegram or idfk, even just on twitter to go ahead and start uploading here again, cuz i do have a slight backlog for once, ayyy

potentially caught covid so uh

uhhhh

commissions will not reopen yet as a result, will update this journal if it is covid or not. so until then I'm kinda boned when it comes to earning cashews from my arts. I'm not in some dire need of cash, so if you wanna comm someone else - just do that instead, idk when I'll reopen properly. But yeah, I'd still appreciate any donations you'd feel like making to me, if you do want to make any via ko-fi.

But yea, fear not, I refuse to die, I ain't gonna.
thas all for now


UPDATE: I have tested negative, AGAIN, despite having exactly the same symptoms as my mom does. And she? She tested positive, so... YEAH. IDK HOW THIS KEEPS HAPPENING.

So... It's THE final update journal! Was an interesting road, for certain, I'll reflect on it further into the journal, but yeah... All good things come to an end eventually, unfortunately. Unless suddenly, overnight, there's a HUGE demand for me to continue these for '22, then fuck yeah, I can go on like this! But yeah, a quick thank you for reading these journals! If you've read all of them when they came out - congratulations! You now own a voucher to redeem exactly 2 bread crumbs!



CRIMBO

that time of the year again, yeah. Prolly won't be too eventful for me, but who the fuck cares! Enjoy your halloween or whatever you wanna celebrate, aye! May it be spoopy, y'all!


NEXT YEAR PLANS

Yehp... I do have plenty planned for next year. Not all of it I can talk about, but... I can give you a brief idea of what I want to do. Finish off all remaining commissions this year, obviously, but... After that? After that... The BIG goal: moving the fuck out and living on my own. That's literally it. And, to achieve that... There are multiple smaller goals along the way. FINALLY getting Patreon going, that's one. Another... Is to possibly get a comic (series) kicked off, finally. Won't say what it's gonna be, but all I can say is that it will likely not be the usual format for a comic that you're gonna see. And yeah, I'll probably sort out commissions too, take some in and all. Gotta get money for moving out somehow. Ideally I'll be able to sustain myself financially to a decent extent from art alone, let's hope it's gonna be that way and I'd just have to get a part-time job to fill the gaps :)


QUICK RECAP

So here is the summary of this year... Let's get right in then, without any extra fluff to it, shall we?

January... Was a bit of a weird month that set the tone for the first half of the year, from what I can gather. I've fucked something up socially, and that then dragged along with me. Something that I had to overcome at some point and reflect on. That single chain of events is kind of why I went with "Fresh start" kinda vibe to the year. Things may still not be the same in regards to that, the things I've fucked up cannot be fixed completely, but hey, whatever. In the end, I feel it's kind of better for everyone that things are not the same anymore. And yes, I still have no idea how I never got covid. Glad I didn't, but... Still odd to realize that now.

February was... Oddly rushed. I wanted to open that discord server and have it thrive. WELL, THAT DIDN'T LAST LONG, AS PER USUAL...

March is the perfect month to describe the first half of the year for me. Not very productive, kind of a mess, trying to hold together and not have the cracks show to the outside world, despite there being many, MANY of them. The free art thingy didn't stay around for long either. BUT... It did morph into something that I still do on Telegram sometimes, so if you want some - keep an eye out for that there! And Twitter... Well, it morphed back to being NSFW while I also started a SFW account there, so there's that.

April is when the cracks actually began to show, but... Not an eventful month otherwise.

May was mentally a disaster. That fuck up from January? Well... It just kinda made me die inside there and then, so... Yehp. It's why that odd journal happened.

June and July were also mentally tough on me, but... Out of that emerged a bit of a need for money. Right about that time real life stuff started to be tough too, especially financially. I've tried, and I've failed again with Patreon. And business-wise I wasn't doing all that well either outside of that. It's... A bit of a thing with me. I'm a really fucking poor businessman, some things never change lmao

August was just a continuation of that again, except I also explained it to everyone else. And... Of course, went back to pretending things are all fine and all that. Yehp.

But that didn't last long, cuz in September I just straight up said how it is. Still understating a lot of things and hiding detail away from the public, BUT... Hey, finally accepted that I'm a bit of a wreck! No longer for the same reason that I was in January, but depression did catch up to me!

October... I just straight up ranted about my life situation, didn't I? If you have a moment - do read that rant bit of that journal again. Like, right now. Trust me, it will probably set the stage a bit better for next section of this journal. But, a long story short, finally came out with some of the issues and fears that I've had. November was an extension of that, with a slight hint of financial despair, despair that I still sometimes feel, but we'll get to that later.


HOW ARE THINGS NOW?

Well, it is 19th of December, that's for certain. For about a month now I've... Actually managed to change for the better. Found some confidence, found some stable support somewhere, I'm no longer dependent on antidepressants to be happy (discovered by forgetting to take them sometimes lol), financially still struggling, art-wise still slow and probably a bit inconsistent sometimes, BUT... I've found the most important thing that I needed - that mythical confidence in myself. And hell, considering that I'm (mildly) autistic and was diagnosed with social anxiety, you'd never think that the very thing that gave me confidence was... Socializing, A LOT. And in VRChat, of all places, without a VR headset. Some things just don't seem logical, and yet... They happen to have a very good effect, against all odds. I've never expected myself to even come once to a rave party, be it IRL or in virtual world, but... Here I am today, with 1 HFF event, 3 PHC events (incl. yesterday's one) and several smaller ones on the counter and still going strong, making new friends left and right (some of 'em will read this bit probably - hello there. If you see cauda on weekends - say 'hi, PITCH!' from me!), generally finding out a lot about myself and putting some future plans into motion already. Never expected myself to end up happy in this particular way, and I'm kinda glad I managed to discover it just at the right time. Sure, I still have my lows, but... Honestly? I'm glad I'm no longer having breakdowns every other day about something petty. I still average out about 1 per week, but even then - it's relatively mild and goes away the next day, or goes away with just a bit of talking to other people. I'm more positive than ever and I wanna spread that positivity around me, 'cause that's just who I am. Thanks to all that, I'm also slowly getting into 3D modelling, I've already edited quite a few textures for 3D models and I at least comprehend a slice of Unity engine. So hey, there's that! If I ever end up releasing some public avatars (or making my own 3D models) for VRC - I'll let y'all know here about it too!



So, overall... 2021 might've been a bit of a shit year for me in a lot of aspects, but honestly? I'm glad it was shitty and instead ended on a high. That... Makes me a lot more positive about next year, and hopefully things will align just right for my future to be brighter than I ever anticipated it to be. Couldn't have made it without y'all, people who actually did "invest" into me by simply following me, leaving a comment or just faving or viewing my arts. I may still be hidden in plain sight and not quite visible out there as an artist, but I'm sure as hell not an absolute nobody, and I've got only y'all to thank for that! For just, putting some trust into me, trust that I'll deliver what you're eager to see. I hope I'm making at least someone's day brighter out there, because honestly? If I had to pinpoint what my purpose on this world is... I'd say it is to improve the world around me, leave it better off and happier than it was when I entered it. And I know I can't make everyone happy, but I'll damn try my best to make at least someone happy out there!

Either way... Hopefully your futures are also gonna brighten up sooner rather than later, if you're struggling! Y'all deserve better. And hey, here's a question for you, if you've come down all this way into the journal: What have you done thus far in your life that you're proud of, what one, single thing you want to share with the world about yourself, your life, something that you've done? Please, do share it here, my dudes!

But that's it from me. Merry Christmas and happy new year y'all!

it's that Christmas time of the year again, so it's also time for me to do some unusual discounts, aye!

From now on until the very Christmas day (or until I get overloaded with commissions lmao), if you commission a headshot for a friend or anybody else - it'll be 20% off! Can deliver it at any time you want me to. Can be right away, can be on Christmas day, can even schedule it at the precise hour you want! Headshots will probably look like this one quality-wise, can do any angle for it too! Can add a few props, whatever ya want, as long as it's SFW!

Either way here's the link to commission sheet along with prices: https://bit.ly/2w6etUU
Have fun and happy Halloween or something!

well, same as previously, but anything coloured or shaded is now discounted 15%, yo

comm sheet

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