Happy Birthday to me T_T

Yup i DELETED my Twitter page! I am no longer associated with Elon Musk's dumpster fire of a website now. if you wish to find more of my posts i will be on Blue Sky and try to find other sites to post as well

https://bsky.app/profile/decusq7.bsky.social

So remember I am NOT ON TWITTER, i heard people might try to jack my handle but... come on theres no benefit to impersonating me and you all know me enough to know how i am in social media. Love you all and thanks for the support!

and if you wanna watch me play games on twitch or do art or chat sometime here is my twitch!

https://www.twitch.tv/decusq7

Thank you everyone for commenting B0day wishes to me i greatly appreciate it and it lifts me up a bit despite having a cold and a wasted day at jury duty. I love you all and appreciate your support with my art and well being.

Yay some birthday wishes will cheer me up please i need them for jury duty happening at the same time please.

So i'm rebuilding my twitch discord server. If you would like to be invited you must be following me on twitch and use 1000 channel points to be invited in. Also must be over 18 no minors allowed and be body positive. You all know what i post and who i am.

https://www.twitch.tv/decusq7

So here is what happened to me, i stupidly beleived an old contact that I could demo their video game and my PC got hacked enough to earn a reset, taking out the virus and saving my personal files. So after two weeks i finally got the old account deleted attached to my email and i have a BRAND NEW ACCOUNT.

If you have my contact information delete it and contact me for the new Discord Address. I apologize for causing anyone any trouble and I would like to reach out backto my client base i had on discord as well.

Love you all and thank you for your patience with me as i rebuild my client discord base and my Twitch Server!

Today's my day and I demand cake X3

Like it says I'm 36 now, not much else but i appreciate any b-day wishes and have a good weekend everyone.

So my family found out through the final tests my dog has Cancer. The vet originally thought it was only a Staff Infection which the medication was clearing up. However the worst came true and George has cancer. My mom is devastated by this news and were trying to plan what to do next. To those I still owe commissions to I will try to get back to you as soon as i can. I appreciate your understanding and patience.

Yay my day! I feel so old! I'm 35 now! I appreciate birthday wishes and shinies if your feeling generous XD Thank you all and thank you all for watching and faving my work!

Well the worst of what i fear came to pass. My laptop after downloading a current Windows 10 update has all but crashed it. Whats worse is I tried to factory reset it but for some reason the laptop's latest updates do not allow a factory reset for some reason. Thankfully I was able to save my most important data like commission info, all my tablet drawings and my writing ideas for now on some usb drives i keep around just in case.

What does this mean for now?

Well for now until I can replace the laptop or get it fixed I will have to put current commissions on hold until I can find away to drawing using alternative means.

For now my mom is letting me borrow her Chrome Notebook which is a little limited compared to my laptop but it allows me to browse as usual. I'll try and see if i can find a way to get my art programs and tablet to work on it another day but for now my primary source of income and rent has now been delayed and i am worried.

My hope is that I will recieve a stimulus check in order to buy a new laptop and give my business a new fresh coat of paint in the form of a new laptop, art tablet and possibly a new more advanced art program i was using before.

I apologize to everyone i owe a commission to and I will try to solve the problem soner then later and get back to you. I will be contacting people later to jot down their info on what i still need to finish when i have the means to draw again.

Until then I imagine my only means of income will be writing commission again. As they are my only means at this time. I appreciate those who have been my long time and short term clients, and I hope to get back to drawing soon once i figure out my options in case I can't repair my older laptop or I don't recieve a stimulus check.

Thank you for taking the time to read my journal and have a great day!

So my family recently convinced/forced me to make an appointment with a doctor to talk about my possible depression, weight and life in general. So i went to the doctor to find out that there's a chance i have sleep apnia, depression, high levels of stress and i need a blood test to check my cholesterol and stuff to make sure i'm not at risk for Diabetes or anything.

So i'll be seeing a possible therapist from now on, i have to have a blood test done and i need to make an appointment for a Sleep Apnia clinic to see how my sleeping patterns affect my daily routine.

As some of you know alot of my clients and friends love my fat fur art and commission me for it. I still will do these commissions because i love the fantasy of it but i always told myself if my real life self's health were in danger i'd take the steps needed. I'll still do these commissions but my schedule might get a little more hectic with the self care my family wants to put me on.

So we'll see what happens on the road ahead and i'll be taking it one step at a time.

Wish me luck and good health both mental and body.

So my newest foster dog is an 8 month old 3 legged puppy, as cute as she is she causes alot of problems like not being able to go to the bathroom outside properly like our other dog and get around easily. I'm losing sleep over her constant barking since shes sad when my mom leaves for work and i'm the only one in the house to calm her down. Two days now i've lost sleep and can barely stay awake during the day which has affected my ability to draw and properly concentrate on my work. My hope is either we can transfer her to a new home or push her adoption process through quicker. I'm sorry to those whose commissions i'm still working on but this dog is taking up alot of my time right now during the day.

I am now 33 years old! Thank you for the lovely messages on twitter to those who responded and i forgot to make a journal entry for this hear!

I know I don't do too many of these journals cuz i normally think i'm not worth paying attention to but i like to think someone does read these. Xmas is coming around the corner again and one of my greatest wishes is just to curl up in bed with someone. I know I could do more to look for a guy but as poor as i am my options are limited and I'm not exactly quality boyfriend material. I look at my sisters and see that their lives aren't perfect but at least they have someone special. I thought I had a chance for someone special once but it was never meant to happen i guess, logic won that fight and I suffered my first heart break. I even wrote a song about it once, i don't remember all the lyrics to it but to sum up it was about burning the bridges to possibilities or something like that. In the end were still friends but, that feeling comes back now and then wondering if the possibility still exists. So i guess even if it's with a fur friend, I just wanna feel warm next to someone for the holidays cuz i figure physical contact is all i've ever known. Sorry to be a downer, just had to get that out and i didn't know where else to put it. Someone never had a relationship and only ever kissed twice in his life. Anyway...

So for all my fans on a better note I'm doing my best to catch up with what i owe to those who have been supporting me through my roughest of times. Without a stable job I've had to rely on my fans support and applying for government help. I have foodstamps but they won't be arriving until the 14th of this month so thank you everyone who has been supporting me with commissions. I apologize to those who have been waiting for a while on me. I wish my home situation was better then using what money i can to get delivery pizza to get me by for a few days. So thank you to everyone who watches me, spreads the word about me and even commissions me. It means allot to me that so many people are willing to support me by purchasing my art.

I don't think I've been to thankful lately with allot of my fans and customers, especially my long terms fans and those who i would call my fur family at this point so thank you all who have helped me these last few years with my rent and my food and bills it means allot.

I wanna get better as an artist and a business man and I know i have to be better for you all for putting up with me and doing so much for me. I think thats something i needed to remember is be appreciative of my fans and doing better by them all who support me. So i think if I never find a conventional job again I need to be more serious but have more fun with being an artist in the community of furs. I've made mistakes and promised more then i can deliver to a few of you and I wanna say I'm sorry. I'm doing my best to get by but it's not enough. One of my friends helped remind me, i need to find more enjoyment in my work and making people happy with my art, even if it is just a fetish it's something that makes people happy and I forgot that feeling out of my desperation to survive lately.

So I wanna do right by my fans and my supporters by trying to be a better artist and do something nice now and then. Like have free sketches again just for practice or for fun. I wanna practice my craft more to make money but have fun with it too.

I want to make Video games as my ultimate dream come true and I wanna make it happen someday with help form the community or my friends or maybe on my own... though that might be a stretch cuz I'm terrible working on things on my own. I need collaboration.

Anyway sorry for all the feelings and stuff, i don't like to emote much cuz sometimes i feel like it's a waste of time on my part and it feels like i'm complaining to anyone who'll listen but if you've read this whole thing I gotta say thank you and wow you have the patience of a saint. I know it's not fun listening to other peoples problems and stuff but it makes me feel better knowing that people see me more then my fursona and more then just a fetish artist that I'm a person who loves to do what he does with fetish art but still wants to do more, so thank you for listening.

And if you read the whole thing I would appreciate hugs in the comments cuz i'm love to give anyone hugs who read this so

*hugs* thank you

AND sorry one last thing I will be taking pre-orders for my video game pack soon, I still have a few more pics to get to 25 so i can open the pre-order bonus. I'm also working on a Hyper Female pack if anyone is interested, it's mainly sketches so it'll be cheaper then my usual packs. I'm also planning for a fairy tale creature pack of fat Fairy Tales since allot of you loved my Big Bad Wolf mini series i did, so thank you for that. And look forward to any other projects I might do with animatics again and more. Thank you all my friends, fans and supporters, i wouldn't be here with out your upport and I love you all.

Happy Holidays season or whatever you celebrate, i love you all 811 of my watchers

So to any of my clients and fans I'll be losing the internet for a while. Apparently bills have been a little hard to pay and cable,wifi and phone are on the chopping block. So getting back to you about your specials i promised will take a little longer because i'll need to go to the public library on the weekdays from now on in order to update everyone on their commissions. I apologize but if mom had told me a week ago we needed $150 bucks i would have tried harder to earn it.

I guess the option is available to anyone who wants me but i'll be an Art Slave to anyone who wishes to help me pay my cable bill for a whole month. that means you take precedent over anyone else for a whole month. From sketches to full blown art I'm all yours.

That being said I doubt theres anyone who would pay 150 bucks for my services for a whole month but i appreciate people taking the time to check on me.

In any case starting monday i'll be going to the library in order to get my internet services done such as messaging clients about my status and their updates on their commissions.

I hope to get the internet back soon because i have allot of friends online and none too many in real life it's gonna get lonely for me for a while sadly.

Wish me luck, ask me for commissions cuz every dollar helps and if you'd like to contribute to my Weight Gain Fundraiser here is the link

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25091398/

Thank you for reading, i honestly doubt people do read this but thanks for paying attention to me, even views lift my spirits a little.

I am in need of rent and face having my internet connection taken down if I don't earn enough money from my art soon. So please read

I will be hosting for this weekend only a YCH AUCTION for a Weight Gain Timeline Animatic that's theme is a Video Diary. The theme is the character is trying a new Weight Gain supplement and recording their progress over the weeks then months. If you wish to see it I only have a simple less detailed Animatic ready for viewing to show the basics of what you get here

here http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24810846/

The Auction is Starting at $60 for a 16 cel animatic showing the character of choice weight gain over a period of time. For more details please follow the link.

So currently I'm having a $20 rent special, details in the link below. Your support keeps a roof over my head and food in my belly!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24661621/

Second is I'm doing a NEW IMAGE PACK! The last one didn't have too many sales but I did sell to ten people so far so thank you to those who bought the pack from me. If anyone is interested it's 20 images of fat disney characters for $20. Link Below

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24363477/

Now for the NEW PACK!

I want to do a Video Game Characters Pack. Fattened up characters from video games. If you have a favorite you would love to see in the pack, please suggest in the comments below. For this pack I mainly fatten up characters in a way that is organic to them. If i do any crossovers i'll try to team up characters in similarity somehow. Anyway make your suggestion if you'd buy the pack with them in it and if you wanna suggest the context of ho they'd fatten up then go ahead.

If this gets enough suggestions and people who might want to buy it I'll consider opening pre-orders. And who knows maybe I'll add a bonus who those who pre-order. Still working on that part but for now I hope to see some suggestions. I have an idea of the more popular ones I want to do and some of the lesser known characters but I still appreciate fan work as well.

Thank you to all who support me and I look forward to your thoughts and ideas.

Hey again, in order to raise money for my rent and something to eat hopefully I have a new $20 special Before and After for anyone who wants to be Royalty X3

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/24661621/

Hello next Monday is my Birthday! And I would like some funds to enjoy my special day. So if there is anyone looking for a vore special I just launched one in my gallery.

Also for this weekend only the Disney FAT PACK will have another sale, for those of you who don't want to pay the full 20 for 30 images i have great news! you can pay $10 for 15 of those pics! or $5 for 8 of those pics at random! Think of it as a cheaper mystery pack X3

So Wish me a happy birthday by buying stuff from me or if your really feeling generous you can send me some birthday money directly to my paypal!

paypal address

decusq7[at]gmail.com

Thank you for your time and wish me luck in turning 32 this monday!

So to compromise my audience I have decided my next Project idea is going to be a Weight Gain Comic about a Video Game Furry Character. Here are some potential ideas I have for a comic ideas and the different characters I might do.

1). Foxy from Five Nights at Freddy's
A possible story about Foxy getting a visit from the Blue Fairy and becoming a real Pirate Fox, sadly coming to life means you need to eat. Foxy Weight gain and possible vore comic

2). Charizard from Pokemon series
Possible Kaiju/vore/rampage story

3). Sly Cooper form the Sly Cooper series
Possible story about a cursed artifact that makes you hunger or heist gone wrong

4). Bowser from Mario series
Possible magic hijinx, sequel to Bowser's inside story wth Boo's Banquet

here is a link to the straw poll where you can enter your vote and see how it goes. If you wish to comment below as well please do on your thoughts.

http://www.strawpoll.me/13641691

thank you and i look forward to the results