Well this is something I haven't done in a while, but I've got to get this off of my mind and chest. And since the year is coming to an end, it's time I be brave and make peace with who I am.

For as long as I remember my life has its ups and downs. I tried to get through it like anyone else, and it's hard honestly, I won't go too much into detail with my childhood and present but for those who were wondering why did I disable my account a few months ago, it's because something really terrible happened within my family and it broke me, mentally. I had to leave my home for the rest of the year, and stay with my mother. It was a break i needed since New York turns out to be depressing as fuck but rn I'm doing quite well. Thanks to the amazing friends that stood by me through my darkest of times. I wish I could say for the two best friends I had, but it's a harsh lesson to learn. That not everyone is going to be your friend, and you can't trust nothing on the internet, it's you against the world and you are all you got.

I do have regrets and guilt with the things I did while in this community, as well as telling those two friends about what happened with me and expecting them to understand, but boy was I wrong. I drove them away like moldy cheese. It broke my heart but I understand. After some time I learn to heal and let things go, making peace with what transpired.

Now with that out of the way it's time I express my gripes and frustration with everything within this community. And of you feel hurt or offended by what I'm about to say, well I say too fucking bad go cry about it, I ain't you daddy yall grown lol.

First off people, although the furry community has wonderful and awesome folks, there's also the worst and boy I've been holding myself back because I was afraid I won't be able to experience their content again. Now, I wouldn't care if those types of morons call me a fucking devil or p*do. Secondly, artist with amazing talent but terrible personality it makes me sick to find some artist with glorious art but in irl they be shitty! It's criminal! I understand at the end they're human have different lives. It's crazy that it be hard to approach or meet some artists during my time here. I just learn to interact when the time is right or just be myself, and that's the third thing. Everyone has different fetishes, some be disgusting and demoralizing as fuck but others are tame or more normalize. But what bothers me is that people would go out of their way and make everything political and about themselves. It's your fetish or character to enjoy so why you gotta bend a knee for some loser you don't even know. They'll criticize you with no facts behind them. Some are true and it can be discouraging but my pals remind me that the stuff I do it's for me not them and that's what I'm going to do.

I'm tired of the mocking, the bullying, ideas getting shut down just because they're mine, people going behind my back instead of being honest, and acting like no one cares how I feel. Fans and stans defending artists who don't even care about them, terrible people hiding in the community (some of them artists), servers turning parasocial and political, it all infuriates me. I came here to relieve stress, explore my fantasies for myself, and share with friends as a bonus, but too often it turns into judgment and drama.

You know what? Fuck those lame ass niggas, who mock, doubt, abandon, or talk shit when you need support most. They can fight me, and I'll die protecting my peace. As much as I like avoiding confrontation, conflict finds you sometimes, and now I'm ready to face it head-on. I'm throwing away the mask and showing the world who I really am. If that path leads to loneliness and isolation, I'll gladly take it, because I have real friends at my side.

Now too those who've stuck with me through all of it, thank you from the bottom of my heart. And to those who've hurt, mocked, doubted, or given up on me, you only made me stronger. I won't stop until I achieve my goals, even if it takes forever. At least I know I have a purpose, and I'll make sure it counts.

There will be some changes in the new year, I'm excited for what's coming. As for my content, there will be fetishes some won't like or that might freak people out. All I can say is too bad, touch grass and go somewhere else if you can't handle it. I don't need you. Finally, about my sona Celo Grim: I've been thinking of putting him to the side for a while because I want to pour myself into a new character that better represents the most positive and wacky parts of my personality. I just need time to adjust and plan, you'll see what I mean sooner or later.

Okay, enough rambling. I know next year is going to be a blast and itll be my time to shine! Till then Celo out!

Hey guys Celo here, uh so far the books writing is pretty much done, but the editing and the additions are still in progress, but as I continue on this project I thought it'd be a cool idea if I could add a language factor to the world's lore. I know it's probably not that much to worry about but I want to go fancy with this one. I know you probably don't need to be an expert languist to make a conlang but I may need an extra pair of brains for this to work. If there's a conlang expert out there hit me up please.
As for the my project of thunder Storm I do have a few things finished but as much as I want to share, that'll have to stay in the oven.

Until then, I'll see ya later.

Ladies and Gentlemen! This is Celo here with some beeg beeg news!! I was holding this off for a while but I believe it's time to introduce a serious project of mine, for some years now it's been in my mind and I decided to capitalize and invest. The idea is what if there's a world that is comprised of storms, lands that dance with the skies, and the people that can command the elements of the storm themselves? Well that give you a Sci-fi fantasy story that'll shock you two your core and take you on a magnificent journey across the vast world of Zeo Tormenta. May I present to you, "Thunder Storm."

You're wondering what that is, and the answer is a potential novel series. I know that I'm not the best writer but I got ambition, imagination, ideas, and my own flow in things. Through out my time in this community I experience the good and bad, bit I trudge on like a lion leading it pride. Anyway the plot of this story revolves around a prince, who was branded a murderer and criminal by his people, yet the true culprit is his elder brother whom now sits on the throne and rules the planet with power and cruelty. Maxwell Gigavolt once a hopeful prince, now a vengeful warrior of lightning travels the world of Zeo Tormenta to find a way to liberate his home and his people with the help of like minded allies with different elements of the storm.

Hopefully it's good enough to get you invested but, I will he dropping a preview pretty soon so stay toon and don't be afraid to get some feedback too.

Hey guys happy holidays! I haven't done much on this site and hopefully I could change that next year to come. Speaking of next year, 2025 is near and I'm quite excited, so far i got plans resolutions to make. But I do have doubts, because of my current mentality. Despite what I've been through the these past years and this one, I've always pushed through and realize who my true friends are and who my ops are. For now a new year is coming and a new chapter to my life is about to begin soon.

Here are my plans for next year, but fair warning don't take what I say too seriously, for in life things change on a whim.

1: I've thought of giving most of my ocs a new ref, some revamps and others a reintroduction.

2: I want to dedicate more time working on my art and stories cause I'm aiming to get better.

3: save money, cause I gotta get my money up not my funny up. While also I need to stay true to myself and be better.

Well I'll end it here, all I can say that a lot has happened in 2024, I just hope the next year would be bright with hope as we March on.

Celo out.

Yep my bud has reach 550 followers really happy for him, so make sure you guys give his raffle a try and support him too.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal...../#cid:60857591

As expected my pal kyburz have reached another milestone, so feel free to check it out.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10987032/

God damn that was a lot to post, I'm glad that i have posty birb to help with all that, and it took almost 3 days! anyway sorry, not sorry for the spam, but come on, you know you love the stuff i got for you all. there are more stuff in the near future so keep a look out.

May you rest in peace knowing that you left behind a legacy for your community to enjoy. It shook me whenni found out, honestly if it wasn't for this sight I would've met these amazing folks that reside here. Although this is time to mourn but this is the time where we as a community must come together. Rest in peace dragoneer, I may not know who you are, but thank you for making Fa.

Hey guys Celo here withba question, a very important one, it could be the biggest move I'll every do but. How would you guys feel if I make a boom series of my own?. It's challenging and it seems hard to do since not often people read, and when they do they often criticize then to give a advice but this is some I want to do for a long, long time. And I hope you'll all will be my audience for this spectacle. For now I shall plan and see where this story will go.

You see although I'm still active, I just haven't been posting my stuff at all recently we aside from the pace in a blue moon. It's just I got a lot of stuff cook in the oven and they're not ready yet. I hope yall understand I hate keeping my followers waiting.

Hey guys, my pal kyburz reached 400 followers go check out his awesome raffle too get your chat win!

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10885105/

that's right ive been so busy today that i forgot to announce my own birthday lol. in other news i apologize for being absent from posting i wanted to make sure everything is in order before i do any big moves but expect some post here and there.

Hey yall my buddy kyburz is doing a raffle for his achievement on 350 followers come check it out!

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10842862/

Hey guys, Celo here and with big news for you guys. For those who do or have not known, that I've been using my phone to manage my account for God knows how long, but now as for the foreseeable future I am happy to say that I've obtained a brand-new laptop!!! Wahoo!!! with this new gadget in my arsenal who knows what achievements ill come across, I just hope I can get use to using a pc again. well, that is all bye.

I hear it's better than Twitter I mean anything is better than Twitter these days so yep as the title says I got blue sky, so if you want to follow me there, then go for it, just no I haven't used it much cause there's so many sites to manage.

https://bsky.app/profile/celogrim.bsky.social

Oh god, I've been gone for god knows how long, but long story short I need some time away to recollect myself, to work on my art, and to mentally strengthen myself in a way that I don't feel depressed at times. I admit I don't know where I'm at concerning my emotions but, I feel like I'm always safe here with the people that have my back from the beginning. So as of now, I'm sorry for those who were thinking I would never come back, there's no way I would give up on everything I work for because of me feeling left out. Cause I got something that no one has, imagination, ideas, and a story to tell.

Speaking of stories I do want to disclose that the Megaverse is dead, never to be seen the light of day again. However in turn I created something new, I made a promise to myself that I'll see this through and improve, so here's hoping to what I have for you all to see once it's ready.

Last thing I'll say is this, I'm back, and I'm here for good. So thank you for your patience on waiting for me, I'll make sure to give you what you came for.

I wanna wish all my followers and friends a happy Thanksgiving, go spend time with your loved ones and be thankful for the things you cherish, despite the dark history this holiday has.

Time to have a feast!

Hey its Celo here with some news, updates, and the usual side off rant I may or may not put in but it doesn't matter. What matters is about the content I have and the foreseeable future of my universe. Well let's start off with the Megaverse. It'll be getting a big haul of reworking towards the stories, Characters and the lore behind it. Though, that doesn't mean I'm changing everything to make something new, I'll be doing some well rounded changes to make my characters and the stories a bit more better than the original.

I mean shoot I can say this with complete honesty, some of my shit is trash, and that cannot stand! I want to make my readers feel good, feel empathy, and learn something great from what they read, not just for you guys, but mostly for me. Like all artists in their craft, they want to create and leave something behind they can be proud of.

With that said let's take a rain check on my art work. To tell you the truth, it's still going the infant phase, I think I'm not improving at all, or if my mind makes it to believe it is, but I can look back now and see that I am improving slowly, and my friends could see it too. I realize on this art journey I learn to not care about how good it looks and what others would think, because at the end of the day, art is art, and I can't get distracted by how good other artists like me are. I got to worry about me, and me alone.

But that doesn't mean you can't ask for help, it always good to have friends at your side to help you on this journey. Sadly I wish I could see it sooner, because of how I am before, I was discarded. I admit I was angry, sad, and hateful towards them, but I remember what my grandfather told me. "Son, what matters is that you still have people who loved you no matter what and god at your side."

So all I can do is be patient and go for it when the opportunity laid itself out for me to take. So thank you my friends if you read this for being there even at my lowest, and you two my followers, I won't let you guys down, it may take a lifetime for me to get good but right now we're in the present and we gotta put in the work, focusing on what matters.

Okay okay enough rambling on. So the point is my gallery is going to have a big haul of tuning to do. Ngl I wish I change my fa name, I don't want to make another account for it.

Anyway thank you for reading and all see you later! *fades away*

Okay, um for some of you be wondering why I disabled my account, well all I can say is I ran into some sad outcomes. And it made me mad at everything and myself include.

Before I could continue I want to apologize to all of my followers, and I understand if you unfollowed me because of my sudden deactivation. But if you still here then thank you so much.

Life us cruel at times and I myself is my worst enemy, but that doesn't mean I'll give up. Look don't feel bad or sorry for me, I'm an adult who has to figure things out instead of making excuses, but that doesn't mean I won't reach out, we all need friends.

So as that said, I'm here with a purpose, not to be famous, get attention, or be admired. All I want is to live in the now and tell a story.

That is all from me, I won't be defeated by my own darkness.

Well I was wondering how am I going to announce this, and I'm worried if it's too soon but I feel like I getting my grove back and seeing what's happening I'm not surprised about the Twitter terror that's been happening. I'll give my too canine this.

And that is yall needs to calm down and go touch grass!! Hell, I did, and it was refreshing at the least. This time being away really allow me to get my groove back and I appreciate those who support my decision. And I especially learn to not to break my back fitting in to something just to make someone happy, and that's the same thing with art. I should enjoy my time and not to worry about others and the achievements cause as long as I got me, then I'm good!

So now, updates? Well nothing yet but this means I'll continue to bring up new content for you peeps and myself to enjoy hehehe!

To my amazing friends and to the people of this esteemed community. I got some news I want to share and I'm afraid in the future after I post this I'll just contradict this journal entirely.

But ey, no one is perfect in life, hell, I know I'm not. So I've decided to..... step away for a while, I need to work on myself and my mental health. Nothing wrong I'm not going sicko mode or anything. I'm just saying I'm tired.

Not to a point of exhaustion but tired of needing brownie points and art from other people. And tired of not committing to my own journey, so I been thinking it over, I hesitate, I procrastinate, I'm and my own worst enemy.

The feeling of wanting, having, and needing of attention is holding me back. My worse fear is that I'll be alone, I'll always lose people, and that I'll always be a laughing stock or a loser. I'll never be able to get out and go for myself. I'm like a damn sheep waiting for their farmer to tell them what to do.

Maybe I'm just too scared to take the first step.

Well that needs to change, I need to rediscover who Celo is, I need to find purpose, I need to learn not to care what people think, I mostly importantly need to learn not to rely on my friends, and other things that brings me happiness. That's what I'll do for now on.

This doesn't mean I'm retiring from this wonderful world of furry community. But it just means if I want to get better at my stories and art, this mean I need to get off my ass and touch grass!

And so I'll end it here, and if one of you said I did this before and believe I would fold, imma need you to take this ratio and fuck off! Judge me all you want, it's my life not yours.

Ahem! With all that said I bid yall adu, see you later friends!

OK as you guys been noticing, I've been spamming post none stop today and now I'm calling it, cause damn it's a lot! Anyway I'll probably continue tomorrow and sorry but not sorry about the content dump you guys just received hehehe!

BTW a question before I close off this journal, which oc of mine would you like to see more of in the future and which are your favorite stories from the Megaverse I got to know hehe.

Hello guys, Celo here, and I'm here to give you all some updates on what's happening and what the title of the journal is about.

You see I thought the contract you get a good retrofit, as I want this universe of mine to be more engaging in a sense so I changed a few things around to make it more clear and fun. But take note that some details may change after this post just Incase.

As for the new contract it's in the link below so you can sign it through the docs. As for the current members I apologize but I must ask you to re-submit your terms of the contract in this one, but don't worry it's simple to do now. Just follow the instructions and you're golden.

If you come across rule seven, then please go to the Megaverse files to understand the plot and lore behind it. https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....t?usp=drivesdk

As you read you can chose to skip the first story dark chocolate and read the next story after it which us here.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38973410/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39144089/

The Contract: https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....t?usp=drivesdk

If any questions or suggestions comment below.

It's my birthday!!!

Hey guys, if you're wondering what am I up too and my art journey has been doing, well to tell ya the truth itself slow, but at least I'm still going, I made some stuff on the sides and I feel like I should put in more effort but my brain and myself is my worst enemy. I guess I gotta stay positive, so as you read this I'm using lo-fi music to help me mediate, and so far it's working in my favor.

As what what is my plan now, simply save enough to find me a pc to work with, I got an option so I gotta save enough money to do so. May open up coms for writing if that's needed so stay tuned for that. Mostly at this time I'm trying to finish some left over stories so I can get em out of the way.

Now that I got this out of the way prepare for post spam!

Celo out!