I would say hello, but this is my final journal and my last good bye here.

I'll do my best to keep it short: I am too ill to continue any more activity. My surgeries were a success but they do not cure the disease I inherited, and they've been getting worse. I need surgery every 6-12 months. I figured why come back when I'll just be gone away for another surgery or ER visit, and I can't even draw because it hurts. Not only that, but I've gone through so many tests and scans for cancer and I still am not out of the clear. Nobody knows what's wrong with me, so I need to take time and be with close friends and loved ones just in case. I've been diagnosed with ptsd, high anxiety, borderline personality disorder; all things I've had since age two but never knew until last December. Now my pancreas is malfunctioning and I can't eat anything without becoming ill- few times forced me into the ER.

I sat around all these months, hoping I could become stable (mentally and physically) enough to come back and get into a drawing routine for once and for all. But everyone (close to me and doctors) noticed it has been getting worse with time, so I can't even say when and if there would ever be a day where I am healthy enough to pick up activity here.

Sure, I have a general idea of what others will think.
'oh, that's too bad', 'wish her well', 'damn, that sucks cuz I really enjoyed her art', 'good riddance', 'hahaha', 'she's just crying for attention', 'what a shame', 'no wonder she's been gone for so long without saying a word...'
And I don't care for any of them. I don't want pity, sympathy, attention, etc.

I was never truly comfortable sharing my art with the world. Call me a coward, but its actually me who feels the world isn't ready, or in ways, the world is not good enough to have my work. I am much happier sharing my stuff with close friends who understand me and the symbolism behind my art. I have been drawing once again after I recovered from my last surgery and my fractured arm healed in March. I just post it in my Discord server where me and close friends hang out. I only trust few people due to my ptsd+bpd, so do not take it personal. I will leave what art I posted here for whomever, but I will never share another piece again. I just wanted to inform those who admired my content and were possibly wondering about me but didn't wanna ask.

For those who do care, just know I am okay and doing my best. Try to picture a happy Sam, for me, okay? :)
Take care, everyone.

Yesterday's ultrasound confirmed another tumor formed and it can only be surgically removed...
I just had surgery to remove not one but two in May so this was unexpected but I wasn't surprised based on my horrible pain.

Again, I'm sharing my gofundme as I will be in and out of the hospital for the time being and would like some support.
Even if you can't donate, the next best thing you can do is share my Ko Fi http://ko-fi.com/cryssy or GoFundMe https://www.gofundme.com/emotional-support-required&rcid=r01-1536269120-c77293d76d154b33&pc=ot_co_campmgmt_w

I'll be inactive until further notice. Until next time, take care.

I hate to ask for help, I prefer to earn my stuff but since I am too ill, well, I don't have much of a choice.


Once again I had to call off Commissions because I am in chronic pain, daily. I am still fighting this incurable illness and now I can't even draw; or at least not on my pc. I can sketch from bed but nothing more. My art submissions will be at a halt for the time being, Sorry.
I had taken in commissions only to cancel, then reconfirmed them, then to cancel yet again because of my chronic pain.


I'm asking for donations to help me save up for a Nintendo Switch since I cannot work due to my health. I get it, asking for money and the donator getting nothing in return is a long stretch and I'll most likely go ignored or "sorry, wish I could but can't" but it's all I got left since I've tried to earn money as best as I could; I even sold valuables just so I can afford pre-ordering Let's Go Eevee... Alas, I can't reach the goal to bring home a Switch.

So here is my pathetic gofundme https://www.gofundme.com/emotional-.....pport-required

If anyone is kind enough to tip my art or donate, Thank You. I want to use gaming to help me cope with my physical pain and given how I'm often bed-ridden, a switch being portable will help a ton.

If you are interested in commissioning me, all I can offer is sketches; traditional sketches.
If it's of ham-hams, I'll gladly sketch from bed and scan it in, clean it up, and deliver it. I can't do fully detailed or digitally colored art anymore. Contact me if this is something you'd like.

Yup, I'm finally having my third surgery on 5/7, this upcoming Monday.

It's for my disease but also to remove two very large growths that are obstructing vital organs and it's been cutting into my daily normal life besides the disease. It's been a very rough few months, and it took a year to diagnose the growths buuut I'm glad to finally get it resolved.

Posting this up now because I'm currently battling severe allergies which is making me unable to be online...
I hope you all do well in my absence and I can't wait to be back soon as I've recovered : )
See ya next time!

hai gais


so liek, I completely deleted my entire FA gallery from 2010 through (May) 2013 and it's why you don't see any artwork older than that. I had been putting off going through storage and boxes upon boxes of where I hoard old (good) artwork. I have some from 2006-2013 that I once posted here but due to a bad moment in life, I regrettably nuked my entire gallery here.

SOOOOO~ I'll be resubmitting old art that I found worthy and good enough to share with ya'll.
I did some real nice sht from years ago and I'd love to have them back here again to look at.
(And I actually have to rescan them in (all paper/traditionally drawn) and no, I'm not going to color a damn one cuz that's too much work. soz. They were all on my old pc but I wiped that clean years ago so they were lost digitally too.) Look forward to that, and some new art as well in the near future, as well as very limited commissions.

tldr; I'm resubmitting old, lost artwork into my SCRAPS sections.

yeahhh, I know I posted few stuff but they're not new, not to me anyway. Been sitting around collecting dust while i'm too busy irl.
I have a couple more (actual artwork, not photography) that I'll post l8r and then I'll be back after the holidays are over.

Das all I wanted to say. plus the old journal was... old and ew. xD Just gonna say before I go:

Happy Holidays and have a safe and Happy New Year <3

before I continue, this nsfw art makes me SO happy https://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=49832522
my GAWD, thank you for making that. bless the artist. Found it a while ago but just felt like sharing.


So, I finally got WAI's next plot down, something I am entirely and 100% happy with. It took me four years, wow.
I kept changing it and each attempt I didn't like at all so it was why I had put off updating the current storyline and worked on revamping old pages instead. I'll be drawing the new pages soon, after I finish this gosh darn animation that's taking forever. (Well, I'm taking my time on it cuz working at my desk really wears me out... And it's why I don't post somethin' every day.)
Also, the domain bought for WAI is "gone" until November, so I can't do shit about it until then. Technically it's still mine and yet they won't let me use it cuz of blahblahblah, but hopefully by then I can have the official site back and running properly. ///I hate the temp site with a fiery passion///

Random, but dontcha just hate it when an artist decides to quit drawing a specific fandom? Like, Hamtaro is ded enough as is, so to have artists drop it left and right over the course of thirteen years now is pretty sad. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad there are some that are still out there but I've lost a lot all cuz someone said this or that about their art and the drama in the fandom. There's no such thing as a perfect community in each and every fanbase. I had some bad experiences with h8rs too, but I didn't let them knock me down, not for good anyway. I said it many years ago and I'll say it again, I'm gonna keep drawing what I love. Hams are just something I enjoy workin' on more than anything else, even if it's more of OCs than canon crap.

People are gonna talk no matter what, so why let it get to you? Best mosey along and continue doing what makes you happy.
Speaking of not caring what others think, hmm, how do I put this subtly... I'm lookin' for a Mark <3 sRs InQUIRieS oNLy-- jk jk, I doubt I am split personality but part of me is Mark and all this time I been searching for someone exactly like myself cuz wah, the world is so cruel and dark and sawb, I've lost all faith in humanityyy- <insert drunken text here>

hey whoa, if you're serious on replying to any of my slander, come back in 24 hours. Notes?? what are those.

dudes, my anxiety is SO bad that I cannot open for requests or commissions and even a patreon page,

I was about to ask for suggestions (of canon stuff, not OCs) to put on my patreon but I cAN'T DO IT.
I completely shut it all down. And I sorta feel bad for potential peeps interested in my work? but my health is more important.

My profile info says it, right there. I'm a selfish artist. I'm not into creating stuff for a profit or attention, I just do what makes me happy. The frustration is that I'll have friends and admirers tell me I should open shop but the moment I even think about having to draw for others makes me sick. No really, the past few days I was working on patreon I had to leave abruptly to get ill :"") So I had to back down. I'm still feeling sick and stressed out over the subject but hopefully it'll die out soon.

I wouldn't mind an order maybe once every few months...? but I'm so gawd damn particular, there's a good 80% chance I will decline what is asked for, even a commission. I'm not meant for the art whore business, BOO~HOO. nah, I pour my heart and soul into my work so I don't find money of any value to me...

Maybe when I'm less busy I'll post a journal with very few commission slots and very strict guidelines but bby
it's not gonna be any time soon.

son i am disappoint-- yeah but I still got goods comin'. This is the most productive I been in ages and it feels gr8. Since I'm nearing 11K views just wanted to say thanks <3 whether you're lurking, stalking, admiring, hatin', or a regular, thaaaanks for dem views.

Get to kno the arteest. stahp putting off talking to me and do eet already.

I'm bored af and I've lost motivation to art.
W/O art, life has no meaning! Give me purpose again.


I don't want requests, ideas, or suggestions.
Just friggin drop me a line. >:U

I got tired of seeing the claimed kiriban crap.
which I still need to draw

I got incoming smut; but not of furries :"")
Like I said b4, I need to practice more anatomy.
Idgaf how the practice sketches turn out, so you'll have to bare with me <//3
After all, practice makes perfect! Or whatever.


Also, major thanks to a couple of great friends for being active here again!!
"Oh Nicky, how I've missed you..." ;33

I've also got some scrap to upload, not art but game screenshots.
Idk but lately I'm into mmd vids on YT and wish badly I could make some of my owwwn.

so none some of you prolly noticed I'm nearing 10,000

WELL. I'm doing the whole "first one to screencap my 10000 views on my profile gets free art"
yeah, that. It'll be a while but I'm giving a heads up now before I get too busy with classes
and then forget, and then it'll creep up and all that bs.


anywayyy, it's simple. Just send me a screenshot of your browser viewing my page with the 10K (even if it's 10,001; as long as its 10K and you're first to show me, thats all that counts). I'll draw you what you want, but keep it at a minimum of two characters.
See my gallery? My about section? :0 that's what I draw. I can take on stuff I haven't drawn before but we'll talk about what I will and won't do l8r when the person claims the prize. Only one winner, DUH.

das all.

IT HAS BEEN CLAIMED.

to my tail fin

Nooo, Twelve years ago, a thirteen year old girl in an 8th grade charter school created the worst fanfic comic ever.
I had a school notebook but as usual, I drew in it. I was growing to be quite popular amongst my classmates of 7th and 8th graders for they looved my Hamtaro art. I had made my own spin-off comic stories before, but never had I made them public.

So what began as five pages quickly grew into seventy, then a hundred fifty, two hundred, closing in on three hundred. Yeah, all in one notebook. That notebook was passed around like weed, and it wasn't long before the whole 7th and 8th grade had read it. Every school day I was asked for any new pages and lent out the book to those wanting to read at home, etc. No teacher questioned it because I came off as a good girl. They gave us looks, but praised me for wanting to make stories... It was gr8. Sadly I had to move to a far away town and lost contact with 'em all, but shared my story with new classmates and even took it to high school.

By 2006 though, I had dropped it. I was struggling with drama and stress that it pained me to work on the comic and I threw it away. Only a few pages remain of the original WAI comic, but they're sealed up in a safe place.

It wasn't until 2008 where I began to test the waters, I made a newer version strictly for the internet and wanted to see viewers reactions. The quality of the comic was shit, and still is! (first 100-200 pages) but people liked it, they loved to laugh at it. Yeah, there were some weird moments, but I didn't care how readers took it anymore. The point of the story being online was for my own enjoyment and if others wanted to enjoy it along with me, then that was a bonus. It was never a goal of mine to be #1 or be popular for it, I am not a boaster... in fact, I hate being known. I hate the attention.

So the comic had surged by 2010 where I met some 20+ readers for once, cuz before then I had never known a single reader personally. I let the crowd get to me though, and I tried to please some of them by changing the story and plots to their liking. I had some growing up to do, but in the end it was all worth it. The comic's dead since like, 2013 or something, but I have been slowly working at reviving it. I been through so much the past few years that held me back but after this hiatus I will be continuing it and yes... Finishing it. (It's only going to take me another 12 more years ;3)

For those curious, I have a location for the comic. It's not quite stable, and I do hope your computer is well protected because you'd be dum to browse the net without a proper secure protection on your pc...

Here's the story, but be warned that it is R17+
http://wai-online.com/comic/1

or evening, whichever

so like, my doodles are gonna slow down again because of class.
you have noo idea wtf I have been going through with my personal life but man
I been getting so many set backs, but hey; third time's a charm, rite??

school- set for august. HA- Nope
oh school is pushed back to 9/6! that's okay! NOPE
so getting a late start but it's happening on 10/3.

I'll be lurking around, maybe do some more phone drawings in between now and then.
I know it suuuucks that I am bursting with ideas and gift art and I won't be able to do them lul.
super happy with what I have done, here's to many more oodles of doodles.

Wellllll, tons of things happened over the summer so big woop;
didn't get to be as productive in art as I had aimed for but oh well.


Going to med school in September but will try to complete what few outlined or mostly finished art I have.
I'm shutting down my art and 99.9% of my socializing to set my focus entirely on my med classes.
I fucked up my former college courses because of too much goofing off and arting and my career is my main goal and priority for me for the next year or two.

So I'll be faving here and there but after sept. I'll be absent for some time. Take care!

I know I mentioned in my recent art how I'll be absent until mid-May
But felt like posting it here to inform ya better.

Don't have new works as of lately, but I know I have plenty of piled up sketches to color.
I look forward to a productive Summer, though. Tons of art.
Woooooo. After Summer I'm finally off to a vet program so that's why I'll be working my tail off to finish crap before the summer is over.

vent posts to me are like trying to use your Bicycle inside a building and Oak says no.
When it comes to me posting them, I mean. duh.

while in the midst of working on art, I couldn't drown out the nagging thought that wanted to get out and say what I want to say. like, ever since six years ago I had to deal with so much crap. I became overwhelmed with middle-class popularity; no I wasn't famous but it was the most noticed I had been in my time on the internet. I hated it. I was hated on, I was envied idk what for, I was pressured into doing things I didn't want to do (art), I was a role model to other inspiring artists for whatever reason, and eventually was preyed on to the point I went into hiding. nah, not playing victim here, not crying for attention either. What brought me here was the annoying fact of how I'm often stuck at the same situation. I can never seem to draw and post what I want freely, happily. worry-free. stress-free.

No, not talking about people in general not liking my work; I'm talking about what friends I have who have problems with what I post. I get told I should forget about them, to not let it interfere with what makes me happy which is my art-
But it bothers me too greatly when I hear a friend doesn't like this or that, or makes 'em uncomfortable. I know I could be a dick and tell them to unwatch me or stop following my posts, but I'm not the type who does that.

I've wanted to hide away for a long time in hopes enemies or former friends would forget about me. I was targeted on at one point as an artist that I tried to move, deactivate, anything to get away from the bad crowd. but really I think me being on the 'net is the issue. I can't even fucking draw fan art, gift art for a friend, a commission for some kind soul who actually loves my art because it'll set at least one friend off that they don't like what I drew. How am I supposed to draw in peace when I have that in the back of my mind? Yes, I know this is the internet and you either face it or don't, you leave like a coward. Me? I'm soo much more happier in ignorance. I rather not know gossip or rumors. I rather not be told I am someone's idol, favorite artist, when they don't like at least one thing I drew. I am a sensitive lil prick but it's normal to have feelings, I just cannot deal with *friends* not liking this or that of what I draw. I keep telling myself I'm not going to listen, I'm going to press on forward and do what makes me happy, yet it keeps coming back and stresses me out.

I guess it's a painful pleasure. anyway, I've got some art I'm working on that's sorta gift art, but it'll be the last I draw someone gift art when I know a friend doesn't like the character(s), lol. why do they even follow me, I do not know but wish they'd stop if that have that much of a problem with it. lmao. too many friends hate friends of friends. I prefer my isolated island of happiness where I don't deal with immaturity lol. I'm respectful towards others' opinions, a little too respectful, but do they respect the feelings for artist who put their time and sweat into the artwork? nah. I'm glad I don't have much of an audience but even what I have now is unbearable. Oh well, end of rant.

I'm seeking nsfw commissions to order of hamtaro ocs.

what a first.

........ ................ seriously. Somebody hook me up.

Although I have been gone long before the 29th, I took time off to myself to prepare for surgery.
It was a successful procedure and I was out of the hospital by the 30th. My surgeon and his team were great, the nurse staff that cared for me after surgery- Not so much.

Done and over with, I'm 90% back to normal but unfortunately will have some long term side effects.
Well, they did cut a major nerve (to help prevent the agonizing pain I experience) so it's only natural I face bumps along the road.
Buuuuuutts hopefully by 2-3 months I'll be fine and dandy enough to work again.

Slowly gettin' back to art but not really, I can't be at my desk to complete art work I have piled up since I'm still tender at my incisions and whatnot. So taking one day at a time to get better soon.
Had some struggling days with wanting to be normal again and cant, but getting better at tolerating it.
... Sorta.

So I hope to be back asap! :0 Have a great day.

Not sorry with how slow I am with art these past few months. I get in and out (giggity) of drawing often but no biggie!

I'm actually real happy with where I am in my art. I sometimes find it hard to believe how far I've gotten for the past 10-12 years.
As long as I'm happy with it, that's all that matters :')
I really rather be unpopular than popular... I like drawing for myself, and yeah for friends when I can, but screw it otherwise.
I'm not the kind for wanting or needing views and feedback. I feel proud and content with my shit here even if I humor my flaws and whatnot xD I draw when I am most happy these days, and I share it not for popularity but I guess in a way for me it is posting it on the fridge. LOOK MA, LOOK WHAT I DID. If others like it, great! But if not then I don't care :D

... I been pretty inactive with art in general, so I apologize for not commenting and only favoriting, etc.
I'm not big on socializing or leaving feedback unfortunately. But for me to have you on my Watchlist should be pretty meaningful.
I don't watch artists I don't care for, Lol. Their artwork had to have really moved me to wanna +watch.

Oh, another thing. I'm such a weirdo for this, I can't stand when I made the effort to search high and low for some art I favorite; only for another to fave all the same things I recently faved. Dayum, dem pet peeves. What I am meaning though, is when I notice someone else went through my favorites and favorited the same art I did recently. Been something I noticed for quite a few years but Okay... That is all.

Wishin' the best for those who read this :) Until next time.

I probably missed an update but I have a permanent 1 Submission and 1 Journal on the notifications here for the past few months now...

Did they ever fix the bug or something? It's really annoying. I want to get rid of the whole 2 messages and there's nothing there.

Anyone have info on that or am I a derp.



Also, yeahh I'm not very active here but thanks fer favin' what junk I do upload.
I do have some art coming on the way though (:
... Not much, and I'll prolly take forever to get around to them but yeah, I'm not dead.

Keep on Trekkin' on, dudes.

SUBMIT TO ME-I mean uh.

Yeah, today should be the last day I re-upload new/old art I once had/have never posted here before.

Don't mind me.

So, 5 boxes of Goomy eggs and still none yet.

If anyone knows someone interested in trading, let me know?
I have shinies up for trade. I would prefer a shiny female goomy, nicknamed too v_v;
Hence, why I'm trying to hatch butneverhaveanyluck.

:\ I have a shiny shaymin. Isn't anyone interested in that...?

...s

So Pokebank is out and I've continued my gameplay finally.

Other than that, I look forward to furthering my Pokemon Art experience.
I mean hey, I was surprised with how nice the anatomy on Charmander was. Glameow too!

I may also possibly someday open to requests, but not take on more than I can chew or else I choke and die handle.
Until then, the gates remain closed until I better myself in the motivation department.

Though I can say, thanks for the support as always. Any lil' bit counts, trust me.
I have an urge to draw a shiny caterpie (personal fave), among others ^_^
Such as my Cinccino, a Pidove, Goodra,--And don't be surprised if I lurk your page and draw gift art!
I just may see your character and draw it <3 if that's okay...

that I stole from someone I watch and don't feel like saying names cuz I'm lame like that.


1: Do you have a crush at the moment?
Well, I guess you could say that? He is my boyfriend and I'm quite smitten with him.

2: Have you ever been deeply in love?
Yep

3: Longest relationship you've ever been in?
... Really? This is depressing to answer! I guess a year or two; but can't really pin-point an exact amount of time because my first relationship was on and off often, and to me, break ups push an end button meanwhile getting back together resets everything. Yes, I'm weird like that.

4: Have you ever changed for someone?
FOR someone? Not really. I have changed though, because they broke me in ways. So I'll say no. Gotta take me as I am, is what I try to stand by.

5: How is your relationship with your ex?
Never any good for any of them :) I was one to never believe in exs can be friends or get over their past.

6: Have you ever been cheated on?
If I was, they hid it well. I've only been in long distant relationships (online dating/but took it IRL as well) so I say no as of my acknowledgement.

7: Have you ever cheated?
Unfortunately when a boyfriend broke me, another friend took advantage of me. Shit happens. It was online only, but it still counts as cheating in my opinion.

8: Would you date someone who's well known for cheating?
Nope o_o

9: What's the most important part of a relationship?
Communication, being able to work out problems, compromise, give mutual amounts of love, affection, and attention. Having faith (and I mean in US), hopeful, optimistic, determination, and willing to sacrifice because all of the above is what I give into my relationships and I expect the same in return.

10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?
Serious relationships... I could never be in a fling :|

11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on "breaks"?
Pff, after last year, NOPE. I've tried that, it didn't work out so no. A break just ends up becoming a complete break up.

12: How many people have you ever hooked up with?
Hooked up? Like, someone set you up with someone else? Pfff, just one. It was one night to the movies and we never took it anywhere, yay! We never dated or got into a relationship.

13: What's one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?
... Giving into doubt and lacking faith in myself... I thought I wasn't good enough for him and still believe that to this very day.

14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?
KIDS? I don't approve of kids having sex at all. The day you wake up and think clearly and with a good head on your shoulders, that's the day I say you're ready for it. But who listens to that these days? *shrug* Age; 19+

15: Do you believe in the phrase "age is just a number”?
yeah, I do actually. I always wanted to fall in love and marry someone who was two years older than I; and yet I opened up and fell in love with those who are younger (but not super young) and surprised myself. I really don't approve if there's an age difference of 5+ years, but hey, love is love.

16: Do you believe in "love at first sight?”
Stupid, but yes I do.

17: Do you believe it's possible to fall in love on the internet?
LOOOL, you're talking to an experienced person on it. So yep.

18: What do you consider a deal breaker?
:\ someone who doesn't have any hope, complete opposite of optimistic, alcoholic/drug addict/constantly partying, cheating, LIARS... I think that's all.

19: How do you know it's time to end a relationship?
When the other person has stopped trying to make things work and gives up and let's the relationship fall apart. That or breaks my heart severely.

20: Are you currently in a relationship?
Yes and I am happily in love with him so much <3

21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?
It's hard. It depends on the break up... but if you're willing to get over each others mistakes, then I do believe you can make it work... Otherwise, you're only hurting yourself for not letting the past go and come off as desperate and pathetic trying to revive something that will never live again.

22: Do you think people should date their friends?
Wh-what? Isn't that one way how relationships form?! You get to know a friend so deeply and you feel so connected, you can't help but have feelings for each other. Isn't that normal? Well! I think people should, so long as they both feel the same way about one another.

23: How many relationships have you had?
uhh, what? Wasn't this asked already? Oh, 'hooked up' Well, my number in total is six; all long distant relationships.

24: Do you think love can last forever?
I believe in it, yes.

25: Do you believe love can conquer all things?
I do! Cuz I'm a hopeless romantic like that.

26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn't approve of?
Nope lol.

27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?
Have more faith and confidence in yourself, and when in doubt, wait it out and talk it out.

28: Do you think long distance relationships can work?
Even though I have yet to be in a successful one; Yes I do think they can.

29: What do you notice first about another person?
Their face... Body structures aren't important to me. Dem eyes and dat smile...

30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual?
Straight but I am a switch, which has nothing to do with this

31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness?
Nope, because I myself have my own medical conditions (not mentally but other areas).

32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?
Nah

33: Do you want to get married one day?
f*ck yeah

34: What do you think about getting your partner's name tattooed?
Absolute no no; not even if they're my soul mate and are my forever one and we actually DO live happily ever after.
I'm not a tattoo fan.

35: Could you be in a relationship without sex?
YOU COULD TRY, BUT I SURE AS HELL CAN'T.

36: Are you still a virgin?
NO.

37: What's more important: Looks or personality?
Personality <3

38: Do you enjoy love films?
sadly yes, NOT ALL THOUGH...

39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses?
ROSES? NO. Just carnations... I love carnations more than roses. Carnations are my roses.

40: Have you ever had a valentine?
Yep.

41: What's your imagination of a "perfect date"?
:\ A nice quiet stroll through a park that's very green and has a river or lots of trees and a light breeze but not overly windy, and it's peaceful and serene, and whatever little animals are around lol, is my ideal of an amazing moment to share because it brings out this tranquil state from me and relaxed and at ease, and in a way feels magical to me <_<

42: Have you ever read "Romeo & Juliet"?
Yeah, in 9th or 10th grade. Man, was most of it boring.

43: What's more important: Your partner or your friends?
:\ both

44: Would you consider yourself "romantic"?
yeah... sometimes.

45: Could you imagine dating one of your current friends?
No XD

46: Have you ever been "friend zoned"?
Yep! All too often; especially in real life. And in High school too! Shame shame. Those boys missed out!

47: Which "famous couple" is your favorite?
Whaat? Can it be fake famous? Like, characters in a movie and not the actual celebrities? Cuz I hate celebrity couples. Majority anyway. As for character couples, I loved Adam Sandler and Drew Barrymore in multiple movies; as for real celebs? ... I liked Gwen Stefani and her husband at one point.

48: What's your favorite love song?
Too many to list.
Two is better than one - Boys like Girls
Been waiting for a girl like you - Foreigner
Enchanted - Owl City
Perfect, and Without you - My Darkest Days ...etc

49: Have you ever broken someone's heart?
no sh!t sherlock

50: If you're single, why do you think you are?
I'm not! But I was single by choice. Deh heart, zhe can only take-a so much, noh?

51: Would you rather date someone who's rich but a douchebag or someone who's poor but a nice guy?
Poor and a nice guy.

52: Are you good at giving other people advices regarding dating/ relationships?
Sometimes.

53: Are you jealous of couples when you're single?
Nah, unless they're constantly throwing it in my face.

54: How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on Facebook)?
Not as much, I think as long as our parents know (somehow acceptance is important) then I really don't care who knows.

55: Would you consider yourself "clingy", "overly attached" or "jealous"?
Meh, clingy.

56: Have you ever "destroyed" a relationship?
No.

57: Do you think it's silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?
No... been there, didn't do it, but was pretty stupid... a broken heart is painful yo. I would never, but don't blame those who have and actually went through with it ._.

58: Are you the "dominant" or the "submissive" part in a relationship?
LMAO ROFL LOL!!!!!! I answered this early on! I AM A SWITCH. Neither one or the other, I switch between. Omg, I totally didn't expect this question, but boy am I happy it did. Sorry~ I can never be one or the other permanently.

59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner's birthday or your anniversary?
Nope! When it comes to loved ones (family, friends, dates) I never forget a special day.

60: What's your opinion on open relationships?
LOLNOPE.

61: Who's more important: Your partner or your family?
My family comes first... until I'm married, then it's all of them!

62: How do you define "cheating?”
If you make any sexual connection with someone, kissing, touching, falling in LOVE with someone while you're dating another/they're in love with you and you're with someone, is cheating in my opinion. And yes, I mean in person and online.
Don't act like you don't know of roleplaying~

63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate?
..... Everyone has their own kinks and fetishes. To each their own. I don't find it inappropriate but I'd never suggest to do it... LOL.

64: Do you think Valentine's Day is overrated?
Chyeah. Love is something you should be happy and express all on your own! Not because some lousy day picked out to force yourself to show it otherwise you're frowned upon for not doing something with your significant other. It's all about profits and making money off the weak lol.

65: Would you consider yourself a "cuddler"?
Yep. I dunno why that's in quotations, but yeah, I like to hug and cuddle when I feel like it.

So I forgot to post a journal wishing you all a Merry Christmas :(

Happy belated one though!

I'm doing well, and cannot wait for the Pokemon Bank and transfer! (it's been delayed; saw Serebii)
But still eagerly awaiting. I can't wait to send over my shiny pokemon like Yukio, Mistral, Jazz and my other normal pokemon like Togekiss etc.

I haven't played X in almost a month now, and I feel so bad.
I refused to further continue my journey until I got my Pokemon from transferring from Black (1).
All of my pokemon are near their 40s, and I have the 4th badge so... Yeah, can't wait.


Aside that, I got my Christmas present early...
I fell in love with a friend months ago and was so happy he felt the same ^^
We've been dating since the 12th, and have been the happiest since. Since ever...

So I'm looking forward to the new year :)