I've just completed mass effect 3 those who have already completed it will know why I need a hug

Ive just got mass effect 3 collectors edition, the shop got it in today and it closes half 5 so i raced down there with 10 mins before closing and i got it!!!!

Why does it not come out today in my country *crys* I want it now :(

I finally got the mass effect 3 demo to work!!! Big thanks to greskil countyfan and zion for helping ^^ im so happy now, i can carry on playing with myself! ..... That sounds wrong lol

I'm curious, I have been apart of the fandom since 2007 which means I have been a part of the fandom for 5 years, however I have been a furry all my life but i only knew about the fandom in 2007.

Does this make me a grey muzzle?

OMG OMG OMG The mass effect 3 demo came out today and im just downloading it!! This has really cheered me up after today! :D

Well its that time of year again and once again i am alone for valentines day... Just once i wish i could spend valentines day with someone, treat them to a meal buy presents etc, im beginning to think no one is ever going to go for someone like me, and why should they?... I thought i found someone but she broke up with me because basically i was too nice to her, can you believe that!? It just annoys me that you see these people who treat their partners like shit and cheat on them are in a relationship and can still find people and yet im single and all i want to do is treat people right and love them and no one seems to want to be with me,im not saying im mr perfect because i have my flaws too but i just wish i could be with someone and love them... "sighs" theres no justice...

Boobies

That is all

Skyrim will be coming out soon! Im debating If i should buy the retail version or the steam version, what do you guys think? Im just wondering about mods and if they would work with the steam version

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DHseWNr7iKk

:D

Anyone up for a roleplay one day? ^^

Sorry for being like this, i wish i didnt keep getting these thoughts its just a vicious cycle... Think i need to seek help again otherwise i will drive everyone away, if i havent already...

Im going to be away for a while, my depression is flaring up again, and since i feel my friends arent supporting me i feel i need to go away and sort it out myself, sick of crying out for help and being ignored, im only asking for support not trying to attention seek, but god forbid you suffer from depression in this fandom otherwise your just labeled an emo. It must be great for those people sat in their ivory towers surrounded by everything to pass judgment like that, i tried getting help and im going to try again, but if i feel like no one out there is supporting me then whats the point? This is not aimed at anyone personally but i feel like i have no true friends or even friends for that matter even when im not depressed so there is seriously something wrong there...

Im looking into getting a few more commisions, obviously i want things to do with mass effect but just wanted to see what everyone else thought and if they have any ideas?

One of the reasons i chose to study animal care is not just because i like animals and want to work with them, its because there is a lot of species dying out and maybe in my life time i can be a person who makes a difference to help stop it. I have to make my life mean something!

Its a shame to just sit back and watch these species die out, i dont belong behind a till at a shop working with people i want to be out there making a difference, this is why i like to use my fursuit to help raise money for animal charities.

Sorry for my last journal and if i worried anyone, i havent been myself lately things just piled up too much and it overwhelmed me...
But ive been looking at all the work i did with counciling so i should hopefully not be as bad now.

I did my sponsored walk on sunday the 4th september for the guide dogs with the help of greskil meeko kazi shasta and rayne and managed to raise £81, unfortunately on that evening when me and greskil where celebrating in pub down the road i got a phone call from my mum that she has called the ambulance because my dad was having a heart attack, so we rushed down and me and greskil followed the ambulance up, they are keeping him in but hes looking a lot better than sunday night.

So right now im just staying positive, he got through his last two heart attacks and hes going to pull out of this one, i would personally like to thank greskil meeko and adolphus for being there for me and seeing if my dad and me are ok, it means a lot.

We will see what happens over the next few days.

Im going to fursuiting today to help raise money for the guide dogs, its a good charity which does great work by providing not only a way of getting about for people who are blind but also provides a strong bond and love between owner and dog.

Wish me luck everyone ^_^

gonna be 23 this year D: not really doing a lot just heading into manchester to meet some furs and then buy the mass effect figures, it will give a new meaning to the term playing with myself XD

Like i mentioned in my earlier journal i really miss my old roleplay days, i would love to find someone to roleplay my fursona with because i have so many ideas what would be fun.

Im not talking about sex roleplays i mean roleplays what have a story and development.

Would anyone be interested in that?

What do people think of these two sites merging?

Although i have never tried furocity i do like the idea of the roleplays and it would be good to get into roleplaying again, i have loads of ideas to use for commander tane shepard, and i must admit i do miss my old roleplaying days, so would be good to get into them again.

I want to say thanks for the kind words and the people standing by me, i know its not easy dealing with someone with depression and i can understand why some people would give up on me, i dont blame them because most of my life its just been one vicious circle with no hope for improvement, because i was too proud and also scared to seek help. I never wanted to loose all the people in my life but its happened now and i need to realize this. I spoke with the therapist and she told me upfront its going to take a long time and a lot of hard work to get through this, mainly because ive left it so long and its got worse over the years because ive never really gotten over the things what happened while growing up and bottled them up. Anyway it doesnt matter the reason why i suffer depression, its there and its hurting me and my friends and its ruining my life, im going to fight through this no matter how long it takes. The fandom and a lot of the people in it mean so much to me. Anyway thankyou all again

Just to let people know incase they think i have suddenly vanished from the earth, i am taking a break away from people and concentrating on getting my depression sorted.

Even though i have seen the therapist twice i still end up getting depressed over certain things, past related etc, i dont want to keep hurting people anymore.

I know in the past ive made journals like this when ive been depressed, ''im leaving the fandom forever blah blah''

But its not like that, i have given it a lot of thought and decided its best for me to dissapear for a while until i can start making a break into my depression, im sick of going through the vicious cycles and hurting my friends, this depression needs to stop.

So i wil talk when i start getting better, look after yourself everyone.

Im not expecting more than one reply because to be honest not a lot of people like me and most wouldnt even notice me gone.

But i just like to let people know incase i am liked, which is doubtful

Take care all

Commander Tane Shepard

I for one am enjoying it, im especially enjoying the shrunken parts, i cant help but purposely get stepped on by an alien, how ive managed to progress past them levels is beyond me :P

Although im not really liking the checkpoint system or how easily you can get killed, in my opinion it should of been left with the 100 health and armor shards and have a quicksave feature.

Its not perfect and its been a long time but its good to play a duke game again.

Im going to be getting a vore pic done by the amazing  keblin but im wondering who should be the one eating me. So if people could give me an idea, i was thinking about a mass effect character, but your welcome to use your fursona, Its going to be a micro vore pic, so which mass effect character do you think? Or should it be your fursona? ^_^