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Dragon of Eternal Darkness: Bio
Posted 13 years agoWrote this to help describe my dragon's personality in detail to an FA artist I watch, so I thought I may as well write it down here as a journal :D
what would you like to have drawn? I do not know your dragons personality at all so I do not wish to draw something that may be totally out of character for him. You also said with safyras, so what idea would you think is best?
a single 3 headed dragon with 3 personalities that act on their individual accord, 3 minds that share the same intellect (each knows what the other knows, "The three are one, the One is three"), and their body controlled partly by instinct, partly of their own free will depending on current situation.
Features:
1) Color: Jet Black
2) Silver Plating
3) His skeletal composition is of metallic nature, which allows him to conduct electricity through his skeletal structure. (he cannot create electricity Himself however).
Tendencies:
1) Loves enslaving his prey, rather than killing them (unless necessary, or in the mood for it at the time).
2) He finds pleasure in being serviced by all inferior species (He's actually quite Proud to be the Evil and Dark Natured Dragon that He is, He views all other species besides Dragons Inferior, He might go as far as to say that all dragon breeds are inferior besides Black dragons, and even then, not all Black dragons posses 3 heads, which he might go as far as to say that even they are inferior to him, just slightly though)
3) He is a mild treasure hoarder, He sees treasure hoarding as a slave's job, but he can't help but desire having treasure around to either bait, or show off to those unfortunate to wonder into his cave, and become his slave
4) He Loves Teasing and playing mind tricks with His prey
5) He absolutely loves bending / breaking the wills of those he enslave to get what He wants out of them (whether willing or by force)
Abilities:
1) As most dark dragons should, this one can use Hypnotism / Mind Control, he also possesses the ability to control time for short amounts of time.
2) Use the Element of Electricity whenever stricken by lightning to his horns which act like lightning conductors
3) Possesses several dark magics, some of which are: Rebirth (to others), Healing (Himself and others), blindness (to others), transformation (only others)
4) Regular Fire Breath that burns the physical body
5) Flames of Darkness: Characterized by a dark purplish blue flame that unlike regular fire that burns the Physical body, Leaves the body unharmed, but Burns and consumes the Spiritual Soul, Condemning his Victim to cease to exist utterly (this also regarding the afterlife). all that remains is a shell of a memory that once existed. [This ability is only used as a last resort]
Personality:
He has a somewhat dark and less than desirable past, due to this he's often a loner, undesired for the misunderstood nature of his cursed breed. He loves himself more than anything else, and because he's never known what love is like, He forces His slaves to love him.. in other words, He hardly knows how to give love, but He Loves To Be Loved.
1) Right Head: Calm, Collected, knowledgeable, and Possibly the more docile of the three. Unlike his two brothers (they're technically one being, but refer to each other as brothers), he Features Regular round eyes.
2) Middle Head: Cool, Comfident, Vicious looking, most often the one who performs hypnotism / Mind Control
3) Left Head: The most aggressive of the 3, Bold, Not hesitant to show off his talents, and is eager to to establish who is Boss around here.
Habitat: (Not set in stone, but it's what i've gone with)
1) A Cave inside a snowy mountain range, He's learned to resist the cold weather despite the fact he's cold blooded
Diet:
1) Cows, Sheep, any easy target he can come across. He usually has to eat 2 grown cows to satisfy his metabolism.
Orientation:
1) Straight, he feels attracted to females who are also dark, and can show their dominance upon the weak. He values others like Him, because He knows He most likely can relate to them, and vice versa.
Possession State:
1) As rare as this dragon breed is, Due to his depressing past, he also developed a Darker Entity, born of His inner Rage, Anger, Hatred, and a heavily burdened and callus heart, all of which he attempted to conceal bottled inside. However when he is deeply angered and emotionally disturbed, try as He might, His inner demon surfaces, taking possession of his body as his physical appearance becomes rough and rigid, His eyes turn blood red, dark smoke emanates his body like an aura, and is taken over by a 4th entity that is no longer dormant. The dragons themselves are no longer in possession of the body, and His actions are left at the blind mercy of this Evil spirit that resides within him. His Voice Echoes with a chilling voice (much like luna from MLP), He is beyond aggressive, but knowledgeable and intellectual at the same time (similar to Malefor in a way).
Possession lasts however long the spirit deems necessary, the brothers have no choice in the matter, however this state is strain full on the body, so prolonged possession can prove to feel quite tasking on the brothers once Possession is released, though their body goes back to normal, they will feel very sore and tired.
The Brothers eventually learned to take control of this ability, and unleash it at will without loosing full control
Well, that was fun to write in one go, lol
what would you like to have drawn? I do not know your dragons personality at all so I do not wish to draw something that may be totally out of character for him. You also said with safyras, so what idea would you think is best?
a single 3 headed dragon with 3 personalities that act on their individual accord, 3 minds that share the same intellect (each knows what the other knows, "The three are one, the One is three"), and their body controlled partly by instinct, partly of their own free will depending on current situation.
Features:
1) Color: Jet Black
2) Silver Plating
3) His skeletal composition is of metallic nature, which allows him to conduct electricity through his skeletal structure. (he cannot create electricity Himself however).
Tendencies:
1) Loves enslaving his prey, rather than killing them (unless necessary, or in the mood for it at the time).
2) He finds pleasure in being serviced by all inferior species (He's actually quite Proud to be the Evil and Dark Natured Dragon that He is, He views all other species besides Dragons Inferior, He might go as far as to say that all dragon breeds are inferior besides Black dragons, and even then, not all Black dragons posses 3 heads, which he might go as far as to say that even they are inferior to him, just slightly though)
3) He is a mild treasure hoarder, He sees treasure hoarding as a slave's job, but he can't help but desire having treasure around to either bait, or show off to those unfortunate to wonder into his cave, and become his slave
4) He Loves Teasing and playing mind tricks with His prey
5) He absolutely loves bending / breaking the wills of those he enslave to get what He wants out of them (whether willing or by force)
Abilities:
1) As most dark dragons should, this one can use Hypnotism / Mind Control, he also possesses the ability to control time for short amounts of time.
2) Use the Element of Electricity whenever stricken by lightning to his horns which act like lightning conductors
3) Possesses several dark magics, some of which are: Rebirth (to others), Healing (Himself and others), blindness (to others), transformation (only others)
4) Regular Fire Breath that burns the physical body
5) Flames of Darkness: Characterized by a dark purplish blue flame that unlike regular fire that burns the Physical body, Leaves the body unharmed, but Burns and consumes the Spiritual Soul, Condemning his Victim to cease to exist utterly (this also regarding the afterlife). all that remains is a shell of a memory that once existed. [This ability is only used as a last resort]
Personality:
He has a somewhat dark and less than desirable past, due to this he's often a loner, undesired for the misunderstood nature of his cursed breed. He loves himself more than anything else, and because he's never known what love is like, He forces His slaves to love him.. in other words, He hardly knows how to give love, but He Loves To Be Loved.
1) Right Head: Calm, Collected, knowledgeable, and Possibly the more docile of the three. Unlike his two brothers (they're technically one being, but refer to each other as brothers), he Features Regular round eyes.
2) Middle Head: Cool, Comfident, Vicious looking, most often the one who performs hypnotism / Mind Control
3) Left Head: The most aggressive of the 3, Bold, Not hesitant to show off his talents, and is eager to to establish who is Boss around here.
Habitat: (Not set in stone, but it's what i've gone with)
1) A Cave inside a snowy mountain range, He's learned to resist the cold weather despite the fact he's cold blooded
Diet:
1) Cows, Sheep, any easy target he can come across. He usually has to eat 2 grown cows to satisfy his metabolism.
Orientation:
1) Straight, he feels attracted to females who are also dark, and can show their dominance upon the weak. He values others like Him, because He knows He most likely can relate to them, and vice versa.
Possession State:
1) As rare as this dragon breed is, Due to his depressing past, he also developed a Darker Entity, born of His inner Rage, Anger, Hatred, and a heavily burdened and callus heart, all of which he attempted to conceal bottled inside. However when he is deeply angered and emotionally disturbed, try as He might, His inner demon surfaces, taking possession of his body as his physical appearance becomes rough and rigid, His eyes turn blood red, dark smoke emanates his body like an aura, and is taken over by a 4th entity that is no longer dormant. The dragons themselves are no longer in possession of the body, and His actions are left at the blind mercy of this Evil spirit that resides within him. His Voice Echoes with a chilling voice (much like luna from MLP), He is beyond aggressive, but knowledgeable and intellectual at the same time (similar to Malefor in a way).
Possession lasts however long the spirit deems necessary, the brothers have no choice in the matter, however this state is strain full on the body, so prolonged possession can prove to feel quite tasking on the brothers once Possession is released, though their body goes back to normal, they will feel very sore and tired.
The Brothers eventually learned to take control of this ability, and unleash it at will without loosing full control
Well, that was fun to write in one go, lol
Reddit account Deletion Inminent
Posted 14 years agoI Give up On Reddit, That Site is just full of degenerate lower life forms that only seek to pester and annoy you..
and so, I've blissfully deleted my account. Yey for Internet Freedom, they can keep their Reddit for all I care
and so, I've blissfully deleted my account. Yey for Internet Freedom, they can keep their Reddit for all I care
Release my Soul.. from This Prison I'm forced to live in...
Posted 14 years agowhat happened? why did this have to happen?!
I feel an explosion has blown my mind from within the very walls of my skull... Just when things... appeared to fare thee well for me....
Today.... I have come to the unfortunate realization... that my parents both value their social status.. more than they do my success...
to be so utterly despised... for the good I thought I was doing.... My freedom to expression.. has been tossed through my very window...
why... why can't I be free... why can't I be released from this hell in disguise? This place.. that forever haunts my every waking day...
it is true what they say... Hell is other people....
Sorry... My mind was blown... and I'm to upset to speak about it...
I feel an explosion has blown my mind from within the very walls of my skull... Just when things... appeared to fare thee well for me....
Today.... I have come to the unfortunate realization... that my parents both value their social status.. more than they do my success...
to be so utterly despised... for the good I thought I was doing.... My freedom to expression.. has been tossed through my very window...
why... why can't I be free... why can't I be released from this hell in disguise? This place.. that forever haunts my every waking day...
it is true what they say... Hell is other people....
Sorry... My mind was blown... and I'm to upset to speak about it...
Ustreaming Live! Tamurross Commission [Session 3 Ended]
Posted 14 years agoStreaming once more live for 
tamurross and his Commission
Come and Enjoy enjoy my work live!
http://www.ustream.tv/channel/cadc-drawing-live!
tamurross and his CommissionCome and Enjoy enjoy my work live!
http://www.ustream.tv/channel/cadc-drawing-live!
Ustreaming Live! Tamurross Commission [Session 2 Ended]
Posted 15 years agoStreaming once more live for tamurross and his Commission
Come and Enjoy enjoy my work live!
http://www.ustream.tv/channel/cadc-drawing-live!
tamurross and his CommissionCome and Enjoy enjoy my work live!
http://www.ustream.tv/channel/cadc-drawing-live!
Ustreaming Live! Tamurross Commission [Session 1 Ended]
Posted 15 years agoFelt in the mood to Live Stream for a bit, a Commission I'm working on for tamurross
http://www.ustream.tv/channel/cadc-drawing-live!
Come and enjoy my work Live ^_^
tamurross http://www.ustream.tv/channel/cadc-drawing-live!
Come and enjoy my work Live ^_^
Commissions Currently Open!
Posted 15 years agoHappy to say that my commission status is now open!
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Please contact me if you have further questions
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Bowser's Inside story, what a great game...
Posted 15 years agowhen my friend lent me this game, I was a bit skeptical about how good this game was going to be.
In comparison to Mario RPG, Legend of the 7 stars (by square Enix), I did not think anything would come close to that game's glory.. (especially after playing the paper Mario series, which don't get me wrong, its also a great series, but nowheres close to Mario RPG)
however to my surprise, what I found was awesome music, great character developed driven story line, very creative puzzle solving and fighting systems and very very clean graphics.
though it had some corny and mildly amusing moments, the game overall was very well thought out, and I can't help but to have special feelings for every well developed character, even Fawful, who I gotta say, has earned its place as one of my favorite villains in Video gaming XD
though I regret not owning a copy, atleast I'm glad to have had the chance to play this game, it really is worth owning
In comparison to Mario RPG, Legend of the 7 stars (by square Enix), I did not think anything would come close to that game's glory.. (especially after playing the paper Mario series, which don't get me wrong, its also a great series, but nowheres close to Mario RPG)
however to my surprise, what I found was awesome music, great character developed driven story line, very creative puzzle solving and fighting systems and very very clean graphics.
though it had some corny and mildly amusing moments, the game overall was very well thought out, and I can't help but to have special feelings for every well developed character, even Fawful, who I gotta say, has earned its place as one of my favorite villains in Video gaming XD
though I regret not owning a copy, atleast I'm glad to have had the chance to play this game, it really is worth owning
Why do mothers feel the need to nag the hell out of you?
Posted 15 years agoIs it not fair for every human being to have the right to choose what it is that individual wants to do, or not do? Is there no fine line between forcing and suggesting?
Is that line really that hard to conceive this day and age?
Yes, I suppose a need for this is justifiable when one is young and stupid, but look at me.. I'm turning 23 in 16 days, you still believe I don't have a conscience right to choose my wants and not wants?
I may be your child, but i'm not a child anymore...
Is that line really that hard to conceive this day and age?
Yes, I suppose a need for this is justifiable when one is young and stupid, but look at me.. I'm turning 23 in 16 days, you still believe I don't have a conscience right to choose my wants and not wants?
I may be your child, but i'm not a child anymore...
You and Me meme
Posted 15 years agoTaken from 
shadowsani
1) Who are you?
2) Are we friends?
3) When and how did we meet?
4) Would you kiss me?
5) Give me a nickname and explain why.
6) Describe me in 1 word.
7) What was your first impression of me?
8) Do you still think the same?
9) What reminds you of me?
10) If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11) How well do you know me?
12) Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
13) Would you meet up with me?
cus I couldn't resist after filling it for
safyras
shadowsani1) Who are you?
2) Are we friends?
3) When and how did we meet?
4) Would you kiss me?
5) Give me a nickname and explain why.
6) Describe me in 1 word.
7) What was your first impression of me?
8) Do you still think the same?
9) What reminds you of me?
10) If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11) How well do you know me?
12) Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
13) Would you meet up with me?
cus I couldn't resist after filling it for
safyrasBoiling Kettle of Creativity will explode on October 1st!
Posted 15 years agoIf you guys have been wondering why I haven't posted art for a very long time now, is because I joined a group working on an Indie Game Project for a Contest, and I am its Lead Concept artist.
The game is a Space RPG Adventure game, encompassing Unique environments, interesting characters and a very involved story line.
My work ranges from 2D concept art, all the way to actual 2D Game Interface. The work I've done for the team so far has been incredible, never knew I still had this type of Creativity!
Sadly, I've signed agreement papers, so I can't reveal any of the work I've done till the First Demo Release date in October 1st, but when that day comes, Prepare to get showered with the epicness of my twisted mind ^_^
Really look forward to that day
The game is a Space RPG Adventure game, encompassing Unique environments, interesting characters and a very involved story line.
My work ranges from 2D concept art, all the way to actual 2D Game Interface. The work I've done for the team so far has been incredible, never knew I still had this type of Creativity!
Sadly, I've signed agreement papers, so I can't reveal any of the work I've done till the First Demo Release date in October 1st, but when that day comes, Prepare to get showered with the epicness of my twisted mind ^_^
Really look forward to that day
Pixar Never Dissapoints
Posted 15 years agoWatched Toy Story 3 in 3D today, I liked it alot, more so than the second one
I'm always impressed by the quality, care, and creativity that Pixar puts into their movies, and Toy Story 3 Was no exception :)
The ending of the movie was very touching, I almost teared up, and it takes alot for a movie to do that.
I hope for another toy Story to come some day :)
I'm always impressed by the quality, care, and creativity that Pixar puts into their movies, and Toy Story 3 Was no exception :)
The ending of the movie was very touching, I almost teared up, and it takes alot for a movie to do that.
I hope for another toy Story to come some day :)
New Futurama episodes!
Posted 15 years agoJune 24th on Comedy central, New Futurama episodes have been announced!
after so many years, they're finally bringing the awesome series back to life with brand new episodes! and by the looks of the previews, seems they are gonna be just as awesome as the original series!
Woo! can't wait =D
after so many years, they're finally bringing the awesome series back to life with brand new episodes! and by the looks of the previews, seems they are gonna be just as awesome as the original series!
Woo! can't wait =D
ustreaming right now :)
Posted 15 years agoBetter off Alone...
Posted 15 years agoI'm starting to believe
believe that I can only live life...
Live life the way I want to live it
My life... it yearns to live along side a special someone
Sadly, I don't think
Don't think that I.. would be able to live life
live life.. the way I want to live it..
But by the deprevation, the loneliness, and absence of anyone that thinks that they have enough authority, and every right, to tell me what to do...
I recently ran across the quote "Hell is other people"
It never made sense to me in the past... but now... I'm starting to understand... just how right... that quote actually is....
believe that I can only live life...
Live life the way I want to live it
My life... it yearns to live along side a special someone
Sadly, I don't think
Don't think that I.. would be able to live life
live life.. the way I want to live it..
But by the deprevation, the loneliness, and absence of anyone that thinks that they have enough authority, and every right, to tell me what to do...
I recently ran across the quote "Hell is other people"
It never made sense to me in the past... but now... I'm starting to understand... just how right... that quote actually is....
David Tennant - "The" Doctor
Posted 15 years agoWhat a "Brilliant" actor, my hats off to the guy, for making his dreams to star as "The Doctor" in Doctor Who, a reality..
I didn't start watching Doctor who, untill his Season, and I gotta say... I'm glad I did..
Jees, the guy, has to be the most unbelievable actor I've ever seen (second being the Joker in "The Dark Knight")
He had passion, he had emotion, he was funny as hell at times, and serious when needed to be. He had... Everything....
Its a real shame that he will no longer be acting as the Doctor, but you can bet I'll be owning the DVD collection of his Season some day..
its a must have...
I didn't start watching Doctor who, untill his Season, and I gotta say... I'm glad I did..
Jees, the guy, has to be the most unbelievable actor I've ever seen (second being the Joker in "The Dark Knight")
He had passion, he had emotion, he was funny as hell at times, and serious when needed to be. He had... Everything....
Its a real shame that he will no longer be acting as the Doctor, but you can bet I'll be owning the DVD collection of his Season some day..
its a must have...
How to train your Dragon
Posted 15 years agoI got to watch this movie in 3D, whose previews showed nothing of what the movie was about, and I gotta say, I was outstanded..
more so than probably everyone else, because my life got somewhat reflected with the life of the main character...
a guy no one really believed or cared about, simply because he did not meet expectations, as best as he could to prove himself of worth
and then toothless, with the instincts of a black dragon, much like my alterego's instincts..
when I saw this video, I kind of felt I was watching my own life, although with the ending that has yet to come..
Regardless, it was 1000% better than I was expecting, Props to Dreamworks
and btw, did I see David Tennant as one of the voice actors?!
more so than probably everyone else, because my life got somewhat reflected with the life of the main character...
a guy no one really believed or cared about, simply because he did not meet expectations, as best as he could to prove himself of worth
and then toothless, with the instincts of a black dragon, much like my alterego's instincts..
when I saw this video, I kind of felt I was watching my own life, although with the ending that has yet to come..
Regardless, it was 1000% better than I was expecting, Props to Dreamworks
and btw, did I see David Tennant as one of the voice actors?!
"So long as everyone around you is happy...
Posted 15 years agoIt doesn't matter how bad you feel..."
Well.. while I'm not currently in that type of mood, I was reminded of this feeling when one of my friends used this quote as a shout out on their Windows live profile.
I was reminded, because I often felt this way during my 10 years of tribulation...
Everyone expected something out of me, and damned be me if I didn't comply inmediately whether I liked it or not. (Not like anyone cared about about my feelings, or opinions)
but oh when it came time to do something for me... yea... that can wait... we'll see, maybe, tomorrow, its not important, not now.
why must a younger member of a family be any less important than yourself?
Well.. while I'm not currently in that type of mood, I was reminded of this feeling when one of my friends used this quote as a shout out on their Windows live profile.
I was reminded, because I often felt this way during my 10 years of tribulation...
Everyone expected something out of me, and damned be me if I didn't comply inmediately whether I liked it or not. (Not like anyone cared about about my feelings, or opinions)
but oh when it came time to do something for me... yea... that can wait... we'll see, maybe, tomorrow, its not important, not now.
why must a younger member of a family be any less important than yourself?
Till death do us part....
Posted 15 years agoI will be patient... I will be waiting....
I will be patiently waiting....
For the day... For the hour...
For the moment...
The chance... I have a taste of freedom of my own....
The day... that death... will strip them from me by force...
These so called shakles called parents... that bare little support to my emotions... and are ever ready to tear me down... with every humble attempt I make... to build myself back up again...
Why... why would I find happiness in utter loneliness? why does the feeling of their absence makes me feel complete?
the knowledge alone... that I will outlast their life time... is already my Victory...
A Toast... to the day... that Death will do us part....
- Indefinitely....
I will be patiently waiting....
For the day... For the hour...
For the moment...
The chance... I have a taste of freedom of my own....
The day... that death... will strip them from me by force...
These so called shakles called parents... that bare little support to my emotions... and are ever ready to tear me down... with every humble attempt I make... to build myself back up again...
Why... why would I find happiness in utter loneliness? why does the feeling of their absence makes me feel complete?
the knowledge alone... that I will outlast their life time... is already my Victory...
A Toast... to the day... that Death will do us part....
- Indefinitely....
Ustreaming!
Posted 15 years agoUstreaming Lincard's commission right now =)
http://www.ustream.tv/channel/cadc-drawing-live!
enjoy!
http://www.ustream.tv/channel/cadc-drawing-live!
enjoy!
Farewell Apollo
Posted 15 years agoR.I.P. 3/17/2010 approx: 8:30Am
Life is full of irony...
my cat.. who we struggled to save, and was almost certain had little to no hope of survival, has escaped Death's grip.. Today.. my mother's Shi-tzu (a runt), who seemed healthy and happy, died this morning.. no epic struggle for survival... nothing... just dead..
Needless to say, my mother is crushed, and all I can do is watch in silent sadness..
I know how she must be feeling, I was in sad despair while my cat was struggling to stay alive.. that cat means alot to me, and I'm sure it meant alot to her..
oh well...
no amount of crying will bring him back to life, but hopefully the memories will live on.
Its too bad Zeus (our other Shi-tzu) has lost his brother..
Apollo will be missed.
Life is full of irony...
my cat.. who we struggled to save, and was almost certain had little to no hope of survival, has escaped Death's grip.. Today.. my mother's Shi-tzu (a runt), who seemed healthy and happy, died this morning.. no epic struggle for survival... nothing... just dead..
Needless to say, my mother is crushed, and all I can do is watch in silent sadness..
I know how she must be feeling, I was in sad despair while my cat was struggling to stay alive.. that cat means alot to me, and I'm sure it meant alot to her..
oh well...
no amount of crying will bring him back to life, but hopefully the memories will live on.
Its too bad Zeus (our other Shi-tzu) has lost his brother..
Apollo will be missed.
I'm not a robot...
Posted 15 years agoI know this is what my parents wish I could be... a robot that requires no sleep, no recreation, and lacking in feelings and emotions..
Saddly I cannot live my life that way, I refuse to live my life that way, and if that's what it takes to meet their expectations, then I'm sorry that I will forever remain a dissapointment.
My parents still cling to the idea, that the more I carry on my back, the faster I'll get out of college, and the sooner I can get on with my life... but who cares what I think, I'm just a young Dragon with an unexaustable power supply. He can handle it..
Even Dragons have their limmits... and I don't know how much more I can take before my health goes down the gutter...
I'm already struggling to stay concious for everything I have to do in such short ammounts of time..
Saddly I cannot live my life that way, I refuse to live my life that way, and if that's what it takes to meet their expectations, then I'm sorry that I will forever remain a dissapointment.
My parents still cling to the idea, that the more I carry on my back, the faster I'll get out of college, and the sooner I can get on with my life... but who cares what I think, I'm just a young Dragon with an unexaustable power supply. He can handle it..
Even Dragons have their limmits... and I don't know how much more I can take before my health goes down the gutter...
I'm already struggling to stay concious for everything I have to do in such short ammounts of time..
Its time I let my burdens go...
Posted 15 years ago - So I was speaking with 
test-tube-baby via Windows Live Messanger a week or so back, when the topic of "What caused you to write such a Dark Journal," came up..
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1115276/
- To be honest, I didn't have an inmediate answer, as 12 years of my past had become a deluted nightmare on a never ending Roller Coaster of dispair and Insanity...
- But then.. Fragments of my past started piecing together in my mind,and I started remembering the things that caused me to become such a Dark, Hardened, and Cold person...
- I guess for starters, I grew up without a father, my mother divorced my father before I had a chance to meet him, she divorced him because he wasn't responsible enough to take care of me.
- Once my Grand Parents Died, my mother had no one to hold her back, so she pretty much became a loose cannon, does whatever she pleases and there ain't no one that will tell her what she can or cannot do.
- So she marries an American, and we moved to the US because of it, had to leave what few friends I had and start anew. I had a bit of a struggle fitting in to school, had to overcome the Language barrier, and the way things were done in the US. also there were a few who were predjudist of my nationality, but that died out over time.
- Among other things, I wasn't exactly the best student, and my step father has always had too high of expectations for me, I think only once or twice in 12 year,have I ever come close to meeting his expectations, in essence... I'll never be good enough for him... Never.. and because of this, it caused me to be a very deprived child (I've must have spent 60% of 10 years grounded)
- To make matters worse, My mother (who is just shy of the dullest tool in the shed), had this brilliant idea that she was going to Run a Mexican Arts and Crafts shop with me, as its only slave worker. (this still drags on till this day, but atleast I now get payed for it...)
- But that store has always been my living nightmare, 10 grooling years I've kept that place alive, I am forced to forefit my own time and work there, and among other things, I have had to move the entire F'ing store 5 times now... (and we're talking Heavy stuff like Pewter, Pottery, Chimeneas, Talavera, and what F'ing have you)
- More to the Point, My parents have practically always put their needs before my own. They never ask whether I have time to do something for them or not... No... its "you are gonna help me do this today, whether you like it or not."
- there was a time when my parents would ask, where we wanted to go eat? and I would respond, it doesn't matter.. not like my opinion counts anyways..
- and yet they wonder why I have no pride in myself, and have a problem with low self esteem...
- But if you think it stops there, trust me, it gets better...
- It was time to enter college soon, and I had to make a decission on which field to study.. I had a choice between architectrue and Graphic Design, well I chose Graphic Design, but my parents objected, stating that Architecture is better cus it pays more..
- Me.. being the fool I was, decided to give it a shot.. after the first year I wanted to get out... I had no previous experience with materials or model building, and the teachers seemed more concerned with the students that were succeeding rather than the students who were struggling...
- But guess what... my parents thought I was just making up excuses as to why I couldn't make it, so they forced me to stick it through and hope things improve.. (it never did..)
- after the second year, and with my GPA basically Destroyed, I was put on probation, and nearly suspended. I had to write an appeal for my suspension, and I typed that I would do better, if I didn't have my parents taking up most of my time.. My parents argued and eventually forced me to erase and dismiss it (Like, how dare you blame us for your short comings?!)
- well... the damage was done,but atleast I finally got my wish to switch to Graphic Design, and I've been steadilly climbing my GPA from this whole I fell into...
- and recently, my mother's car stopped working, so take a guess as to who has to pay the price...
- I've been an only child all my life, have never had anyone stick by me through the hard times, and have never had anything I can call real... I've been the one and only to put up with all this Shit alone..
- Some people are affraid of death, and for some strange reason, I ultimately just don't care whether I live another day, or sophocate in my sleep, and never wake up again...
- If I wake up, good...if Idon't.. oh well...
- I just want peace in my life, and if I can't get it, then I'll just have to wait till the day that death inevitably forces eternal rest on my tired soul.
- In anycase... I've been feeling a bit better about myself... thanks to the support of you guys, who have helped me escape the cold hard grip of Pitch Black, and encouraged me to just go on..
- I do believe things don't stay bad forever..
PS: Sorry for the long read, but I just had to get it out of my system..
test-tube-baby via Windows Live Messanger a week or so back, when the topic of "What caused you to write such a Dark Journal," came up..http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1115276/
- To be honest, I didn't have an inmediate answer, as 12 years of my past had become a deluted nightmare on a never ending Roller Coaster of dispair and Insanity...
- But then.. Fragments of my past started piecing together in my mind,and I started remembering the things that caused me to become such a Dark, Hardened, and Cold person...
- I guess for starters, I grew up without a father, my mother divorced my father before I had a chance to meet him, she divorced him because he wasn't responsible enough to take care of me.
- Once my Grand Parents Died, my mother had no one to hold her back, so she pretty much became a loose cannon, does whatever she pleases and there ain't no one that will tell her what she can or cannot do.
- So she marries an American, and we moved to the US because of it, had to leave what few friends I had and start anew. I had a bit of a struggle fitting in to school, had to overcome the Language barrier, and the way things were done in the US. also there were a few who were predjudist of my nationality, but that died out over time.
- Among other things, I wasn't exactly the best student, and my step father has always had too high of expectations for me, I think only once or twice in 12 year,have I ever come close to meeting his expectations, in essence... I'll never be good enough for him... Never.. and because of this, it caused me to be a very deprived child (I've must have spent 60% of 10 years grounded)
- To make matters worse, My mother (who is just shy of the dullest tool in the shed), had this brilliant idea that she was going to Run a Mexican Arts and Crafts shop with me, as its only slave worker. (this still drags on till this day, but atleast I now get payed for it...)
- But that store has always been my living nightmare, 10 grooling years I've kept that place alive, I am forced to forefit my own time and work there, and among other things, I have had to move the entire F'ing store 5 times now... (and we're talking Heavy stuff like Pewter, Pottery, Chimeneas, Talavera, and what F'ing have you)
- More to the Point, My parents have practically always put their needs before my own. They never ask whether I have time to do something for them or not... No... its "you are gonna help me do this today, whether you like it or not."
- there was a time when my parents would ask, where we wanted to go eat? and I would respond, it doesn't matter.. not like my opinion counts anyways..
- and yet they wonder why I have no pride in myself, and have a problem with low self esteem...
- But if you think it stops there, trust me, it gets better...
- It was time to enter college soon, and I had to make a decission on which field to study.. I had a choice between architectrue and Graphic Design, well I chose Graphic Design, but my parents objected, stating that Architecture is better cus it pays more..
- Me.. being the fool I was, decided to give it a shot.. after the first year I wanted to get out... I had no previous experience with materials or model building, and the teachers seemed more concerned with the students that were succeeding rather than the students who were struggling...
- But guess what... my parents thought I was just making up excuses as to why I couldn't make it, so they forced me to stick it through and hope things improve.. (it never did..)
- after the second year, and with my GPA basically Destroyed, I was put on probation, and nearly suspended. I had to write an appeal for my suspension, and I typed that I would do better, if I didn't have my parents taking up most of my time.. My parents argued and eventually forced me to erase and dismiss it (Like, how dare you blame us for your short comings?!)
- well... the damage was done,but atleast I finally got my wish to switch to Graphic Design, and I've been steadilly climbing my GPA from this whole I fell into...
- and recently, my mother's car stopped working, so take a guess as to who has to pay the price...
- I've been an only child all my life, have never had anyone stick by me through the hard times, and have never had anything I can call real... I've been the one and only to put up with all this Shit alone..
- Some people are affraid of death, and for some strange reason, I ultimately just don't care whether I live another day, or sophocate in my sleep, and never wake up again...
- If I wake up, good...if Idon't.. oh well...
- I just want peace in my life, and if I can't get it, then I'll just have to wait till the day that death inevitably forces eternal rest on my tired soul.
- In anycase... I've been feeling a bit better about myself... thanks to the support of you guys, who have helped me escape the cold hard grip of Pitch Black, and encouraged me to just go on..
- I do believe things don't stay bad forever..
PS: Sorry for the long read, but I just had to get it out of my system..
If life was but a mere Dream...
Posted 15 years agoOh how I wish it was the truth.. that my life could be a dream, and my dream could be my life..
though to call it a dream would be a pleasent thing..
no.. I wish to wake up from this nightmare I'm forced to consider a life...
My bowl.. was full.. it soon will be overflowing... but why... why such a lonely bowl I ask.. A bowl barely hanging together... why...
How much more can this bowl be dropped on soft carpet, before it finally breaks and becomes of no use, I just don't know...
and yet I know that I will not inevitably cease to exist, so I must stay the course... to whatever end... I will go on..
My only wish, is that this Bowl.. would have a plate, to support the excess that this bowl, tried by time, can no longer hold on its own..
though to call it a dream would be a pleasent thing..
no.. I wish to wake up from this nightmare I'm forced to consider a life...
My bowl.. was full.. it soon will be overflowing... but why... why such a lonely bowl I ask.. A bowl barely hanging together... why...
How much more can this bowl be dropped on soft carpet, before it finally breaks and becomes of no use, I just don't know...
and yet I know that I will not inevitably cease to exist, so I must stay the course... to whatever end... I will go on..
My only wish, is that this Bowl.. would have a plate, to support the excess that this bowl, tried by time, can no longer hold on its own..
Comission Information
Posted 15 years agoWell, Times are hard, and a bit pressed for cash, so I thought I'd offer up an open slot For any one Taker. (I will also be placing a waiting line for those interested in being next)
Now the Reason I'm only taking one, is because I'm a full time college student, and as a responsible person, I won't want to attempt to take in more than I can handle at one time.
(Example Links provided below are from my Deviant Art Gallery, sinceDA doesn't compress image resolution)
So Anyways, Let me give you some information :)
Commission prices:
1) Detailed Charachter Sketch: $8.00 ($10.00 with Background)
Examples:
http://cadc.deviantart.com/art/Nekr.....-WiP-144706260
http://cadc.deviantart.com/art/Arac.....t-Art-50387335
2) Fully Inked Page: $20.00 - $40.00 (depending on Complexity)
Example:
http://cadc.deviantart.com/art/Comi.....Cadc-125982210
3) Simple Digital Coloring: $15.00 ($5.00 for sketch, $10.00 for coloring)
Example:
http://i137.photobucket.com/albums/.....imbarcolor.png
4) Cell Shaded/ Gradient Digital Coloring: $25.00
Example:
http://cadc.deviantart.com/art/Ozon.....y-Bin-56004351
http://www.deviantart.com/download/.....ix_by_Cadc.png
5) Full Detail Digital Coloring: $60.00 (Spare No Detail)
Examples:
http://cadc.deviantart.com/art/quot.....-quot-98830971
http://cadc.deviantart.com/art/quot.....quot-119855070
http://cadc.deviantart.com/art/Vang.....0682&qo=73
Extra Characters: $2.00
(Mind you, 3 characters is my limit and the extra character price counts towards my character!)
Simple Icons/ logos: $5.00
http://cadc.deviantart.com/art/Game.....ragon-51623821
Detailed Icons/ Logos: $7.00
http://cadc.deviantart.com/art/The-.....mbol-100047999
Info on artist:
Expect Any simple Art within 1 - 2 weeks tops (except for Fully inked page, Simple color sketch, Detailed icon/logo, Cell shaded coloring, and Full detail Coloring)
Allother art, expect in a month (could be way sooner, could be a month..hard to say, it all depends on how heavy of a load I have with college)
Full Detail Digital coloring: 2 months, maybe a tad more
(Do Not Worry, I don't rip people off, I do finish what I start, but I do ask for a bit of patience. But for assurance purposes, I will keep you updated on any progress)
I even have a Ustream account, so you can watch me color your drawing in Real time!
Commissioners will recieve link to my ustream page via PMor email, I will also notify you when I start a ustream session
I will draw:
Cute
Humans
Furries
Anthro
Fat
(Mild Nudity - maybe)
Anything with no suggestive theme
I will not draw:
Adult/ Mature content
Scat
Cub
Watersports
Hyper
Vore
Smut
diaper
etc.
(This list might be subject to change.)
I'm an easy going artist, so treat me with respect and I'll show it right back in art. My art is always improving, and you can bet I'll Even take Newer risks to further my artistic skills, and achieve a greater piece of work for you!
Slots:
1: Open
Waiting List:
- None Yet
Ps: if you have any problems with my pricing, please feel free to let me know, so we can work something out.
Now the Reason I'm only taking one, is because I'm a full time college student, and as a responsible person, I won't want to attempt to take in more than I can handle at one time.
(Example Links provided below are from my Deviant Art Gallery, sinceDA doesn't compress image resolution)
So Anyways, Let me give you some information :)
Commission prices:
1) Detailed Charachter Sketch: $8.00 ($10.00 with Background)
Examples:
http://cadc.deviantart.com/art/Nekr.....-WiP-144706260
http://cadc.deviantart.com/art/Arac.....t-Art-50387335
2) Fully Inked Page: $20.00 - $40.00 (depending on Complexity)
Example:
http://cadc.deviantart.com/art/Comi.....Cadc-125982210
3) Simple Digital Coloring: $15.00 ($5.00 for sketch, $10.00 for coloring)
Example:
http://i137.photobucket.com/albums/.....imbarcolor.png
4) Cell Shaded/ Gradient Digital Coloring: $25.00
Example:
http://cadc.deviantart.com/art/Ozon.....y-Bin-56004351
http://www.deviantart.com/download/.....ix_by_Cadc.png
5) Full Detail Digital Coloring: $60.00 (Spare No Detail)
Examples:
http://cadc.deviantart.com/art/quot.....-quot-98830971
http://cadc.deviantart.com/art/quot.....quot-119855070
http://cadc.deviantart.com/art/Vang.....0682&qo=73
Extra Characters: $2.00
(Mind you, 3 characters is my limit and the extra character price counts towards my character!)
Simple Icons/ logos: $5.00
http://cadc.deviantart.com/art/Game.....ragon-51623821
Detailed Icons/ Logos: $7.00
http://cadc.deviantart.com/art/The-.....mbol-100047999
Payment: I only accept Paypal, or delivered check by mail. If Paying By Paypal, Commissioner must cover Paypal fee as determined by the Fee calculator that can be found here: http://thefeecalculator.com/
(for more detailed info, please PM me, or email at cadc.sa@gmail.com) Info on artist:
Expect Any simple Art within 1 - 2 weeks tops (except for Fully inked page, Simple color sketch, Detailed icon/logo, Cell shaded coloring, and Full detail Coloring)
Allother art, expect in a month (could be way sooner, could be a month..hard to say, it all depends on how heavy of a load I have with college)
Full Detail Digital coloring: 2 months, maybe a tad more
(Do Not Worry, I don't rip people off, I do finish what I start, but I do ask for a bit of patience. But for assurance purposes, I will keep you updated on any progress)
I even have a Ustream account, so you can watch me color your drawing in Real time!
Commissioners will recieve link to my ustream page via PMor email, I will also notify you when I start a ustream session
I will draw:
Cute
Humans
Furries
Anthro
Fat
(Mild Nudity - maybe)
Anything with no suggestive theme
I will not draw:
Adult/ Mature content
Scat
Cub
Watersports
Hyper
Vore
Smut
diaper
etc.
(This list might be subject to change.)
I'm an easy going artist, so treat me with respect and I'll show it right back in art. My art is always improving, and you can bet I'll Even take Newer risks to further my artistic skills, and achieve a greater piece of work for you!
Slots:
1: Open
Waiting List:
- None Yet
Ps: if you have any problems with my pricing, please feel free to let me know, so we can work something out.
