I just don't have any real motivation to post much, say much or really be around. Just sort of floating along in life and I have no idea what's going to happen or what I'm going to do.
I am alive, I have things written, I'm just super bored and with my slow internet and how I don't like all the steps to update things it just takes me a long time to actually want to post things up here.
For those of you who read these I have a tumblr now where I post a lot of random stuff at times and occasionally stories if you want to follow me:
http://will-zeke-thomson.tumblr.com/
and if I can remember to I'll try and post chapter 11 of New Kid here next week.
Also in case you didn't know I'm on SoFurry.com here:
https://will-thomson.sofurry.com/
And I've got a lot more posted there if you want to check that out.

My little brother is getting married this weekend and that's nothing major or important to me, but what he told us all today was news. Turns out my sister in law is pregnant and she'll be having the kid around May most likely. Only me and my parents so far know and we're keeping it that way for a few weeks but seeing as no one within 100 miles will read this I can tell all you this news and not worry about it. So... There you go.

This is from an actual conversation I had with someone, I typed this all in less than 2 minutes I think:

your name is J
I could go to Homer Jay Simpson
Homer who wrote the Iliad
which took place in Greece
which was a movie based on people in the 60s
along with the hippies
which leads to a hippo
which is called a river horse
an Equestrian is a person who rides a horse
which sounds like aqua
Aqua Velva is a type of cologne
Velva can look like Velvet
which I can make into a type fabric
can look like Faberge
which was popular in Russia
and the last Czar was Nicholas
so now I'll call ya Nick!

Yeah... My mind is weird, but I gotta say that thinking like this is sometimes fun.

Anyone out there willing to help be a beta reader for me?
You just have to read the story, give me some feed back, and tell me if I've made any mistakes or anything. Really easy, nothing to fancy but needs to be able to read things in a timely fashion.
If anyone is interested just leave me a note, or if you know someone who might want to help tell me too, thanks.

Seriously, I have no one to talk to besides my bro Ty and my bf Stan both of whom have problems talking to me at times because one is often busy during most of the day and the other is at a training camp and can only talk to me on his phone.

I really do wish I had more friends I could talk to, and people to hold a decent conversation with and talk to things about. Heck I'd love to have a fan talk to me even if it was just to ask about my works and bug me for details on things.

Ehh Guess this is just more or less a "venting journal" I'm alone, bored, and inspiration is really lacking tonight.

Not sure what the deal is but I'm spreading the word about it to help them out further. If you can help please do.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2331575/

In other news... well no one reads this much so I won't bore you with things.

Ok so I'm not dead, I'm just lazy and have nothing to talk about that anyone would actually care about, but that's not what this journal is about.

So we all have things we feel guilty about liking, in this case it's some songs that I like. I like them and all but it's just embarrassing to say I like them and I'm wondering if I'm alone in that feeling.

And here are a few of the songs I feel guilty about liking:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V3eJNJOVAq0
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R_aRThwCHnc
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q97c5szTgIA

So that's just a few songs I hate to admit I like, who else out there has a guilty pleasure?

And just so you know my tastes in music vary much further than these genres I just like these songs but here are some cooler songs I totally enjoy:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6JlpTjgmjsU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z74yDeYOGTo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZKjEe_ev-5I

And in other news: New Kid is coming back soon! And soon after another new novel I finished for NaNoWriMo last year.

HA and again I say HA!

So the other night I'm watching this cooking show with that "Hell's Kitchen" guy and these people have to bake and frost and decorate a cupcake to present to the judges in less than 45 minutes. They had everything they'd need set out for them and so they just had to get it all done in 45 minutes like I said. As the show is going on I say to my mom when she comes into the kitchen that I wish I could work that fast and she's all like "You can't do that because you're slower than slow".

Well... After that you just know I had to prove her wrong with extreme prejudice. So today I set out to make some red velvet cupcakes and frost them with a couple recipes I'd found. The cupcakes themselves took less than 30 minutes for me to prepare and get done and the frosting didn't take but a couple minutes either. The only problem was that the cream cheese I got was strawberry cream cheese and so the icing didn't come out thick enough and my mom had to help me a bit to try to get it to thicken up but it didn't matter either which way.

The point of the matter is that I was able to do it all in less than an hour and if I'm ever going to do something on a time limit, I CAN do it and no one is going to tell me otherwise without something more constructive than: because you're slower than slow *phhbbt*

Well anyway I made them and they came out great and I may post a picture of them later so there's that to look forward to. Ga'night everybody!

Caleb Charles Sloan, he was born 23 years ago as of June 2, 1987 and for over two decades he was the closest friend I'd ever had in this small town of mine. He was more than just a friend he was over here so much that he was like family and he was like a brother to me and another son to my mom and dad.

Yesterday though he was shot and killed in Iraq and he leave behind a wife and an 11 month old baby boy who will never know his father. I don't know what is going on over there any more. I don't know why we're over there anymore but we need to get out of there. I have lost someone very dear to me, and my family is hurting because of it. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers and someone please pray that this God forsaken war is over soon and that our soldiers will come home soon.

Sorry if this upsets anyone I just needed to put this out here since it's so close to Independence day. He served and died for his country and will be missed. God let him rest in peace.

People who read and respond to these journals of mine, remember this day!

I was at the doctor today and weighed myself and it said I weighed a bit more than I normally have been, so later today I hit the gym and after I'm done I'm in the locker room and all alone, so I strip down to my socks and shorts and weigh myself and what do you know the scale was right earlier. I've finally reached my goal of getting to be 160 pounds!!! I am actually at 162, took me long enough but I'm happy with finally reaching my goal.

In other news... still working on my story, the chapter I'm on is getting worked on finally but got a lot to think about, but in the mean time maybe read my last poem and think about what I talk about there if you'd like.

Take care peeps. Will is out!

Ok last journal was mainly to vent because I was frustrated and alone, now leave it be. I know the shows aren't real but they are still sad so drop it.

In other news, I'm going to a gym lately to improve myself and get outta the house more. So far it's going good but got a lot left to get used to. I'm taking boxing lessons and so far I guess on a scale of one to ten I'm doing about a 7 so far but I'm going to stick with it for as long as I can and see it through and who knows I could be the next golden glove medium weight champion of the world hahaha (yeah that's never gonna happen so no fantasies there, people).

Also been mowing lawns for work lately and while that is not the kind of job I like to have for $10 an hour I can't say I'm in a right place to complain.

Oh well this was just a minor update to change that last journal so just letting ya know I'm doing well and feel a lot better too.

My gracious and glorious God why do season finales suck so F*#^ING MUCH!?

I just watched the Criminal Minds SF and I can't stop crying and I'm actually afraid to go to sleep now, I have been scared to the point of wanting to curl into a corner and just sit there until morning comes.

I was so depressed and horrified by its finale that I couldn't watch the CSI:NY finale which I knew was going to suck because it had that damned stupid prick that first appeared after he decapetated a young woman and hung her body from a fan, removed the eyes of this other guy and stabbed his head with rail road spikes, and used a peach pit to kill a prison gaurd and escape from a prison riot.

I think his name was Sean or something but anyway the end had him falling into the ocean, and then at the very end he's in Danny Messer's place and is holding his daughter and is laughing and looking like a deranged lunatic and then it goes black and a gun shot is heard. It sucks that that bastard is alive and he just won't die.

I'm so upset and I can't stop crying, and I hate that even more. I know it's not real, I know it's just actors and that everyone is ok and no one is really dead and all but it still doesn't help the fact I'm laying here trying to hold it together and not just fall apart...

Heaven help me I want to erase the last 2 hours of my life from my mind forever. I'm so depressed and upset and I just can't get over it. I'm afraid to sleep I am tense and sore, and I just am so sad...

That's all I gotta say, maybe I'll hopefully feel better tomorrow... Here's hopin'. Night everyone.

Ok here's the thing:

I'm the author of a webcomic me and my bf  stanthelion have been working on for the last few months, but the sad thing is that he's goin off to the **** or $$$$ camp, or something for the next 15 weeks and without him we have no comic.

I know it's a lot to ask but all we need in a few short simple panels for a comic each week, I can supply the script and anything that is needed. Wish it didn't have to come to this but what can you do that's life for you.

Thanks for any who comment on this journal, and in other news: Whooo finals are over now and my cold is almost gone.

Ok so really it's the only prank I've ever done but it's still funny.

Anyone watch the new Bones on Fox tonight? Well if you didn't then this joke has to do with the ending.

In the ending Dr. Sweets proposed to his girlfriend Daisy and I was like "He proposed" and then I got an evil idea and sent the following text to my parents because they are also fans of Bones (and let's face it this was just too good to pass up):

"HE PROPOSED TO HER!!!"

Then I get another text from my mom asking what I was talking about and I was all like "what do you think?"

Of course they think it's my brother who has proposed to his girlfriend and they text me back saying "You're kidding me, where is he, how do you know" and blah blah blah... so then I start bursting out laughing (very messed up according to my brother's friend) and she calls and asks what is going on, the friend explains that my brother hasn't done anything and I explain what I meant to her after I get the phone back.

They said they'd had a bit of a shock and it was just really funny for me and thought I'd share it with all of y'all here tonight.

So there ya go as it turns out I do have a devious and cunning side. Thank you and good night! *bows to the audience and walks off stage*

I'm so happy, I sent a care package to my bro in NYC and it contained a bunch of apple cookies I'd made, and some strawberry cream banana bread and not only did he like it but his mother liked it too and they both complimented me greatly on it.
I feel so good now, that really made my day.

That'll be all, just thought I'd change that last journal.

Edit: I have now been adopted by my bro's momma. I'm now a part of a black family, haha.

Ok no idea why I'm doing this but I'll likely delete it in a week or something because I'll have something better to put up.

(NOTE: I am simply re-posting this to prove I am sincere, though this are not necessarily my feelings towards anyone.)


"You have a cough? Go home tonight, eat a whole box of Ex-Lax, tomorrow you'll be afraid to cough."

no offense, but ... There are some people who are getting too fake on FA. They only want posts, comments, or to see how many friends they can get. So let's see who will actually re-post this. This is a test to see who's paying attention. This is a test to see how many people in my friends list actually pay attention to me. Copy and re-post in your own bulletin. Lets see who the true friends are and I think I know who you are... Re-post this if you are a friend...Don't reply... just copy and paste this in a new bulletin as "Fake Friends'True friends will read and repost this. Fake friends will just ignore it Fighting for all that is right!!!

It's 1PM, do you know where your pants are?

Ok for those of you who read these things (which I doubt few of you do *glares*) you will be happy to know that part 10 of my New Kid series has FINALLY been completed... it's nearly 7000 words long and quite likely my longest one yet.

For those who know the story you're likely wondering:
"10? But he's only posted up too..."

What number am I posted up to? 4? Ehh whatever, the point being I want to stay ahead of my writing so I only post once the current chapter I'm working on is done, this means that for the last few months I have been working on chapter 10. Now that it's done I can post the next on in the series and get to work on #11. It's been a long trying journey and in the story only a few days have passed so far but this is only one part of a series and all good ones have to start slow before they gain speed and momentum to snowball into something great I always thought.

ANYWAY...! I'm going to post the next part here soon. The story is almost over and after that I can have more free time to start and work on another project that I've also been working on when I get inspired enough for it. I'm thinking of calling it "The Path to Eden" and so far I only have one chapter of one book so far but it's going to be something I'm really going to put a lot of my heart and soul into to make great, and once I get enough of it together I am going to somehow scrape together a boat load of cash and commission some of the best artists I can find to do some cover work for me, if and when this ever gets off the ground.

Well I know most of you likely didn't read half of this so let me end by saying I am now also the captain of the 6th squad furs  squad6furs here on FA and while nothing is there yet, I hope to be changing that later on, but if you wanna join feel free to ask either me or the Lt. I'll have more to go on that as I come up with things and do one of the hundreds of things I've got going on in my life including the new comic that I'm helping write onto that I'll post more info towards later.

Good Lord why do I pile so much onto my plate at once *falls into a pillow*

Take care folks and look for something new from me in the near future, hopefully before the end of Saturday.

Will is o-u-t, Out! PEACE!

Ok well for starters, I'm back home, so that last journal was a bust.
Secondly I just finished a story I've been working on for a dog's age! I am very happy with this one. Now I just have to edit the heck out of this thing and get some feedback on it and then I can finally post it! This could take awhile yet as my editor is well to put simply, his life is heck right now.
So just be patient, I'll get it posted eventually and hopefully everyone will start to enjoy this new series I'm working on.
Thanks for your continued support, keep watchin' furs and furrets. Later, peace!

That's right all you out there, I'm in Florida for a few days and just letting you know because my last journal is very depressing and I needed to change it!
So moving right along then.

Ok so I'm sitting in my swimsuit here just thinking and wandering what to do here. I mean the beach is ok and all but there's a ton of trash and the ocean is not that great, plus with no one around it gets boring quickly. In fact yesterday I spent most of my beach time just walking up and down the beach and ended up walking over 2 miles while just enjoying the heat and trying to find some nice guys and gals to look at. Sadly as this is Florida there aren't as many good looking young people as I'd like to see. Oh well maybe later, not like I'm really looking anyway.

Anyway, little update on what I'm also working on and why I don't post often. Why? Because I'm in such a slump! I can't think of ideas when I'm at home and they don't come out great and blah blah blah you don't wanna hear this. Point is that I am still working on things and soon I'll post up at least the next new chapter of New Kid and maybe a sword design or two in the near future. Also got a new epic coming out soon I hope, and that people will enjoy a new fantasy action story. It's still majorly in the works but I'm hoping that with some ideas and support from my friends and people here that maybe it can become something really good. It should be finished soon and after I've posted it and gotten some feedback I'll work on the next part, I've got the ideas in my head so now all that I need is to get them on the screen.

Well that's it for today, ladies and gents. I'm doing well and hope you are too, so until I get back home, this is Will signing off from the journal here!

Well someone hit my cat Belle last night and she came limping up to the house, at first I thought she'd just gotten into a fight but sadly after taking her to the vet this morning it turns out that wasn't the case and that she would have to be put down. I wish I had been with her in her final moment but I can at least be thankful that she went peacefully and that she now will be in a place where she will feel no more pain again.

I'm really ok with it all, but still a little sad inside, I'll be fine though so don't worry about me. She had a good long 7 years or more of life and I'll never forget her.

This was just a venting journal to get out a bit of frustration over it all, so don't worry I'll be fine.

Just out of curiosity, did anyone watch the inauguration and if so what did you think of it? You think these next 4 years will be better than the last or are there people out there that think it will be worse? Tell me your thoughts people that's why I'm asking for them.

Well it's been over a week since a bad break up with my guy Drew. Lately I've been feeling more aggressive than normal and I've been doing a lot more exercise just because I can, and I'm pushing my body to limits that will likely one day cause some harm to me. Mainly so much exercise is pushing my body to limits and combine that with a lack of proper nutrition and a high pulse rate and life doesn't look good for me overall. Also factor in the stress from college classes, loosing such a good friend and love like the one I had in Drew, the fact my roommate is an annoying effeminate flamer who personifies every gay stereotype I've known, my lack of inspiration to write, my ignorance in how to do a lot of things with school, my lack of an internet connection in my room, the fact my family repainted everything upstairs again in ugly colors, and just everything in my life.

I'm getting angry at people and snapping at family when I'm home. I'm hungry all the time and yet I don't feel like going to get anything substantial to eat. I'm bored and I can't think on things for long on tasks and driving back and forth from school and home is starting to suck more and more.

Physically I'm tired and low. Emotionally I'm all over the map, from regular and calm to upset and angry. For a young college guy with OCD, life sucks, but what can ya do? Overall though I'm doing ok, I'm not feeling all that sad but I am not exactly happy either, and not sure I'll be feeling truly happy for awhile either. I've lost a great deal lately, and I'm not really getting a lot, so I guess I'm feeling a bit in the negative red. I still laugh, and cry, I stress, I smile... I'm still the same over all, but I'm just missing some things now that I don't know when I'll feel those voids again.

Well that's an update on my life. I'm probably missing a few points, but I'm sure no one wants to hear about everything going on in my life. I'm sure I'll get back to 100% at some point in my life, but I've got a ways to go. My apathy is a gift for me, as much as my empathy so I'm sure I'll be able to get on with life and do better soon. Not sure when I'll post something new here, though. I can't post things at school easily, and not like I have much to post what with my lack of inspiration, but hopefully that will all change in the future.

Thanks for taking the time to read this journal, all. Peace out, everyone.

Finally after so long of working on it and thinking and putting various things together, I FINALLY got to my 100th sword and/or weapon idea!

That means that after a bit more of tweaking on things, I'll be drawing and trying to design the swords that I have worked so hard on creating. Got a lot of ideas but wouldn't mind hearing of some other ideas from people. I'll post the full list here when I get it finalized. Thanks again people, take care of yourselves!

Ok for those of you who DON'T know...

Recently I've been really into designing and thinking up swords and drawing them and giving them powers and such... I'm a Bleach fan, and I get easily bored and like sowrds so 1+1+1 = over 50 swords that I've got an idea for, have named, and have powers for.

As soon as I figure out some of them in more detail I'll try and post them here. I've got more free time ahead so there's no reason for me to not be able to do it so here's hoping I can get to it.

Hope y'all will like whatcha see. Thank yee's.

Ok so yesterday I turned 21, I was real bleah... Just not a big fan of my birthday. I've got nothing to do, no one to see, no one to hang with so it's kinda a downer for me.

But anyway today I'm 21 years old and I'm much better, I got some cards from some very good friends whom I care about a lot and even a gift from one of them. I'm very lucky to have such people who care about me, and even though I can't touch them I know that they care about me and that I would do just about anything for them myself. And that is what is new in my life. New things are coming, though they may not be so great, more information later as it comes.