Fursona Sprite Announcement and M'Birthday! :D
Posted 14 years agoJust two quick things to run by you guys.
First- Slug is TEMPORARILY closing bead sprite commissions. She's awfully busy with some important things. I'll let y'all know when she's open for that again.
Also, I'm turning 24 on Monday. :D Not gonna make a huge deal of it, and this is probably the last you'll hear of it.
Enjoy the weather- today's beautiful out there.
Love you guys.
First- Slug is TEMPORARILY closing bead sprite commissions. She's awfully busy with some important things. I'll let y'all know when she's open for that again.
Also, I'm turning 24 on Monday. :D Not gonna make a huge deal of it, and this is probably the last you'll hear of it.
Enjoy the weather- today's beautiful out there.
Love you guys.
Update journal #34290, and FREE ART?
Posted 14 years agoNo, no free art. I'm a huge douchebag. People just gravitate towards things with 'free' in them. Maybe it's free in the sense of I'm not holding it back. Yeah, that's it. The art is free of it's own will and volition to express itself blah blah blah sex
Douchiness aside..
It's that time again!
I'm not dead. I promise. I'm just super lazy. My weekends have been gloriously lazy lately. I love it. I'm sitting on my ASS watching YouTube and meeting furs on F-List. When I'm not doing that, I'm working. It's a nice cycle.
Here's what has been going on in m'life:
My dad was in the hospital Friday. He's fine. He was getting a cardioversion, which is essentially where they apply an electric shock to the heart in order to restore normal rhythm. His resting heart rate was about 150, which is..well, that's not good. We were in and out of the hospital in a few hours. Besides being a bit sore, he's doing A-OK.
Colena is doing well. She's a cute fussy baby girl. Awesome.
The rest of the family is well. With warmer weather coming along, we are out and about, cleaning up everything.
ANYWAY NOBODY CARES ABOUT THIS BECAUSE YOU ARE HERE FOR BEADWORK, SO HERE ARE THE RELEVANT BEADWORK UPDATES SO I DON'T HYPOCRITE MY LIST OF PET PEEVES (specifically #6)
If you have ordered a bead sprite from Slug and I, it is either in your possession currently, or is completely beaded and waiting to be shipped out. I have had difficulty getting to a post office. The remaining orders I have to ship out are International orders, which requires me to be filling out some paperwork. I will get them out shortly. Demonacer, assuming you are reading this, your sprites are done, and I will be uploading the scan shortly.
I have one small coaster to do, and then I'm clear on commissions. I don't have an idea of what to make next. My reasons for not doing much lately sprite-wise mostly lay in the fact that I don't have a particular series or direction to work on right now. If I had something like that, I would probably be cranking out more stuff. Also, anyone interested can always poke me on Skype if you wanna watch me do some beadwork. That helps motivate me a TON.
Don't say "Fuzz, you should do Pokemon!" because there are approximately eleventy three fillion different styles, and most of 'em are bleh. Also, no Earthbound. I don't like their sprites. Chuff. So there.
What else..um..I may try and look into better shipping solutions. Shit keeps arriving to people slightly messed up. I don't know if that's because I suck and can't fucking package, or the postal service is deciding to send my mail through the FUCKHOUSE 9000 mail sorting system that decides to bend my clearly labeled DO NOT BEND envelopes. Thanks, guys! Also, they charge about 3 times what UPS does. Bitches!
So yeah. Wolf is still around. I'm working, being lazy, and then working some more. If you guys need anything from me, feel free to ask.
Douchiness aside..
It's that time again!
I'm not dead. I promise. I'm just super lazy. My weekends have been gloriously lazy lately. I love it. I'm sitting on my ASS watching YouTube and meeting furs on F-List. When I'm not doing that, I'm working. It's a nice cycle.
Here's what has been going on in m'life:
My dad was in the hospital Friday. He's fine. He was getting a cardioversion, which is essentially where they apply an electric shock to the heart in order to restore normal rhythm. His resting heart rate was about 150, which is..well, that's not good. We were in and out of the hospital in a few hours. Besides being a bit sore, he's doing A-OK.
Colena is doing well. She's a cute fussy baby girl. Awesome.
The rest of the family is well. With warmer weather coming along, we are out and about, cleaning up everything.
ANYWAY NOBODY CARES ABOUT THIS BECAUSE YOU ARE HERE FOR BEADWORK, SO HERE ARE THE RELEVANT BEADWORK UPDATES SO I DON'T HYPOCRITE MY LIST OF PET PEEVES (specifically #6)
If you have ordered a bead sprite from Slug and I, it is either in your possession currently, or is completely beaded and waiting to be shipped out. I have had difficulty getting to a post office. The remaining orders I have to ship out are International orders, which requires me to be filling out some paperwork. I will get them out shortly. Demonacer, assuming you are reading this, your sprites are done, and I will be uploading the scan shortly.
I have one small coaster to do, and then I'm clear on commissions. I don't have an idea of what to make next. My reasons for not doing much lately sprite-wise mostly lay in the fact that I don't have a particular series or direction to work on right now. If I had something like that, I would probably be cranking out more stuff. Also, anyone interested can always poke me on Skype if you wanna watch me do some beadwork. That helps motivate me a TON.
Don't say "Fuzz, you should do Pokemon!" because there are approximately eleventy three fillion different styles, and most of 'em are bleh. Also, no Earthbound. I don't like their sprites. Chuff. So there.
What else..um..I may try and look into better shipping solutions. Shit keeps arriving to people slightly messed up. I don't know if that's because I suck and can't fucking package, or the postal service is deciding to send my mail through the FUCKHOUSE 9000 mail sorting system that decides to bend my clearly labeled DO NOT BEND envelopes. Thanks, guys! Also, they charge about 3 times what UPS does. Bitches!
So yeah. Wolf is still around. I'm working, being lazy, and then working some more. If you guys need anything from me, feel free to ask.
So what's next?
Posted 14 years agoHey folks,
Things seem to be calming down in the Fuzz household finally.
My niece is doing well. She is an absolutely adorable little baby girl. Good lord, the natural instincts come out when I see her. I just wanna curl up and growl at anything that gets within 100 yards. Good lord, I hope I'm never a father.
Anyway, my taxes are finally done. I have my new phone, my internet is back up and running. I'm not here to dwell on that, though.
I really wanted to know if any of you guys wanted to see any sprites done up. I know it's been a real long time since I've cranked out much. I feel bad about being inactive, but life just got in the way, y'know? I should have some time this weekend, and I'd love to have a project to work on. I'm definitely beginning to push into more advanced spriting, so by all means, lay on the requests! It would be sweet to see some new stuff in the ol' gallery. :)
Thanks guys. Have yourselves a good evening.
Things seem to be calming down in the Fuzz household finally.
My niece is doing well. She is an absolutely adorable little baby girl. Good lord, the natural instincts come out when I see her. I just wanna curl up and growl at anything that gets within 100 yards. Good lord, I hope I'm never a father.
Anyway, my taxes are finally done. I have my new phone, my internet is back up and running. I'm not here to dwell on that, though.
I really wanted to know if any of you guys wanted to see any sprites done up. I know it's been a real long time since I've cranked out much. I feel bad about being inactive, but life just got in the way, y'know? I should have some time this weekend, and I'd love to have a project to work on. I'm definitely beginning to push into more advanced spriting, so by all means, lay on the requests! It would be sweet to see some new stuff in the ol' gallery. :)
Thanks guys. Have yourselves a good evening.
Phone updates.
Posted 14 years agoHey folks,
I'm real sorry about that last journal. Reading it today, it sounded way too "OH WOE IS ME" and I was just really fucking grouchy. I was exhausted, work was being stupid, and I dislike not having net access.
So..I ordered myself a new phone. An Evo Shift. Pretty awesome an' stuff..'cept I have to pay $20 more a month now to have it. I didn't really think too much of it- it would be worth it to have a new, working phone with all kinds of fancy features.
I get home from work last night, plug in my old phone (which hasn't been working data-wise for 3 days, mind you), and the fucker connects to the Internet.
So I'm basically out $270 and $20 more a month for 2 years 'cause of this.
At least I'll have a fancy new phone.
Fuckin' technology. What can you do though.
Good to be back.
~Fuzz
I'm real sorry about that last journal. Reading it today, it sounded way too "OH WOE IS ME" and I was just really fucking grouchy. I was exhausted, work was being stupid, and I dislike not having net access.
So..I ordered myself a new phone. An Evo Shift. Pretty awesome an' stuff..'cept I have to pay $20 more a month now to have it. I didn't really think too much of it- it would be worth it to have a new, working phone with all kinds of fancy features.
I get home from work last night, plug in my old phone (which hasn't been working data-wise for 3 days, mind you), and the fucker connects to the Internet.
So I'm basically out $270 and $20 more a month for 2 years 'cause of this.
At least I'll have a fancy new phone.
Fuckin' technology. What can you do though.
Good to be back.
~Fuzz
Pissed off. Important.
Posted 14 years agoToday has royally sucked. I won't go into details, but yeah. Today has fucking sucked.
I won't have Internet access for a while.
I'm writing this from work on my lunch break. It's the only opporunity I have, so I might as well take it. My phone is being a stupid piece of shit and randomly decided to no longer allow data in or out. Sprint didn't notify me, and there is nothing on my account page indicating they stopped service. I'll get on the horn with them tonight and try and fix this shit. However, until some form of solution is found, I will be completely without Internet until then. I have no access to IM clients while at work (unless I can get on at lunch or sneak on towards the end of my shift), and will have NO access to FA. I don't want that in the history.
Work is also being a bitch, but that's all irrelevant.
Anyway, though I would let you all know. If I'm not around, it's not by choice. A master reset may clear things up. I"ll be trying that first tonight, and failing that, guess I need to call tech support. Not looking forward to that.
Phone and text messages still work on the device, though. If you want to text me, my number is [redacted, those who need to know it, know it]. Just tell me who you are if I don't have you added already.
Sorry if I'm grouchy. I'm sick of shit. God knows a lot of people in the world have it worse right now. They're in my prayers. Maybe I'm just tired. I dunno.
Have a good one guys.
I won't have Internet access for a while.
I'm writing this from work on my lunch break. It's the only opporunity I have, so I might as well take it. My phone is being a stupid piece of shit and randomly decided to no longer allow data in or out. Sprint didn't notify me, and there is nothing on my account page indicating they stopped service. I'll get on the horn with them tonight and try and fix this shit. However, until some form of solution is found, I will be completely without Internet until then. I have no access to IM clients while at work (unless I can get on at lunch or sneak on towards the end of my shift), and will have NO access to FA. I don't want that in the history.
Work is also being a bitch, but that's all irrelevant.
Anyway, though I would let you all know. If I'm not around, it's not by choice. A master reset may clear things up. I"ll be trying that first tonight, and failing that, guess I need to call tech support. Not looking forward to that.
Phone and text messages still work on the device, though. If you want to text me, my number is [redacted, those who need to know it, know it]. Just tell me who you are if I don't have you added already.
Sorry if I'm grouchy. I'm sick of shit. God knows a lot of people in the world have it worse right now. They're in my prayers. Maybe I'm just tired. I dunno.
Have a good one guys.
Uncle wolf is uncle. :D
Posted 14 years agoI'm an uncle again!
Everyone welcome Colena Elizabeth Clark into the world. She was born today at 3:16 pm, weighing 7.5 pounds. A beautiful baby girl.
I'm so excited. :D
Everyone welcome Colena Elizabeth Clark into the world. She was born today at 3:16 pm, weighing 7.5 pounds. A beautiful baby girl.
I'm so excited. :D
Is it Spring yet?
Posted 14 years agoHowdy folks.
First of all, let me say this. Fuck winter. Fuck everything about winter. Fuck snow. Fuck ice. Fuck cold. FUCK. God damn, am I sick of this weather. Sunday was a typical example of NY bullshit weather. Mid 40's in the morning and afternoon. Downright balmy. Windows open and everything. It was raining! The snow was melting! Sunday evening? 10 inches of snow, followed by 2 inches of ice. Fuck winter. Lost power Sunday night, got it back Monday night. What a boring way to spend a day off.
As for what I've been up to- I know things are quiet around here. That's just how things are. I haven't had much interest in beadwork lately, as I've been occupied with other things. Don't worry though, I have..plans. Things. Plans and things.
To anyone that's ordered a character sprite from Slug and I, it will probably be another week or two before I get them out in the mail. Sorry for the delay. These things take time. I just haven't been getting off my ass to prep the sprites and get them to a mailbox. Rest assured you'll get 'em, though. Still have a bajillion slots open if you want one made.
This weekend, I will not be around. I'm attending a hockey game Friday (Go Union!), and then will be at a LAN the rest of the weekend. I intend to drink heavily, smoke a metric fuckton, and party hearty. It will be most excellent. No idea what we're playing yet.
Speaking of games, I got sucked into Eve online. Fuck off if you're gonna start bashing that game, or any other MMO. I'm not in the mood. I'm liking bold text today. Holy fuck though, that game is gorgeous. Technically and aesthetically, I'm blown away. I dunno if any of you play it, but I'm Fuzzbutt d'Artilla if you wanna add me. Mind you, I'm a total noob to that game, and Eve is famous for it's learning cliff/curve..so just bear with me.
I'm totally copying Slug, by the way. I have a formspring. Ask me questions. Lots of questions.
http://www.formspring.me/BoxMacLeod
Anyway, yeah..that's what's up with this wolf. Y'all are awesome. Thanks for the continued support. You'll be seeing more from me eventually.
First of all, let me say this. Fuck winter. Fuck everything about winter. Fuck snow. Fuck ice. Fuck cold. FUCK. God damn, am I sick of this weather. Sunday was a typical example of NY bullshit weather. Mid 40's in the morning and afternoon. Downright balmy. Windows open and everything. It was raining! The snow was melting! Sunday evening? 10 inches of snow, followed by 2 inches of ice. Fuck winter. Lost power Sunday night, got it back Monday night. What a boring way to spend a day off.
As for what I've been up to- I know things are quiet around here. That's just how things are. I haven't had much interest in beadwork lately, as I've been occupied with other things. Don't worry though, I have..plans. Things. Plans and things.
To anyone that's ordered a character sprite from Slug and I, it will probably be another week or two before I get them out in the mail. Sorry for the delay. These things take time. I just haven't been getting off my ass to prep the sprites and get them to a mailbox. Rest assured you'll get 'em, though. Still have a bajillion slots open if you want one made.
This weekend, I will not be around. I'm attending a hockey game Friday (Go Union!), and then will be at a LAN the rest of the weekend. I intend to drink heavily, smoke a metric fuckton, and party hearty. It will be most excellent. No idea what we're playing yet.
Speaking of games, I got sucked into Eve online. Fuck off if you're gonna start bashing that game, or any other MMO. I'm not in the mood. I'm liking bold text today. Holy fuck though, that game is gorgeous. Technically and aesthetically, I'm blown away. I dunno if any of you play it, but I'm Fuzzbutt d'Artilla if you wanna add me. Mind you, I'm a total noob to that game, and Eve is famous for it's learning cliff/curve..so just bear with me.
I'm totally copying Slug, by the way. I have a formspring. Ask me questions. Lots of questions.
http://www.formspring.me/BoxMacLeod
Anyway, yeah..that's what's up with this wolf. Y'all are awesome. Thanks for the continued support. You'll be seeing more from me eventually.
Want your character made out of beads? Well, guess what!?
Posted 14 years agoBig news, folks!
I am now going into business with the oh so lovely
! Yes, the same Slug whose banner is on the front page right now.
For those of you who don't know, besides drawing insane scary monster dong, Slug is also a very talented pixel artist. We've been in contact for a while, and have been planning this out in SECRET for quite some time. We've decided that we're going to pool our talents together, and well, this is the result!
If you want your character/fursona/whatever made into a beadsprite, now you can have it done. Slug will be designing a completely custom sprite, which she'll also make into an icon for your use. I will then create that sprite and mail it to you for whatever you desire!
This is a permanent, ongoing offer. We're only limited by the number of slots available!
Check out this submission for further information.
1. Contact
via note expressing your interest in having a bead sprite made. Include all relevant information, ref sheets, mailing address, etc.
2. Slug will get in touch with you and work out fine details.
3. Once she gets the sprite made, she will send it my way, and I will get it mailed out. It's simple.
Please have this information available ahead of time if at all possible. It will help speed things up!
A note: The pixel art will not be a problem, time-wise. However, I work full time, and as a result, I will not always have time to get to making sprites in a punctual manner. These things take time. I will do my best to get them mailed out ASAP, but I cannot and will not make promises on a timeframe.
Prices start at $25 for the sprite, icon, and mailed bead sprite. $1 extra will get you international shipping, or your sprite made into a magnet or a keychain. Please specify ahead of time if you'd like your sprite done up as such!
Payment will be sent to mephitoad[at]yahoo.com via Paypal ONLY.
If you have any questions at all, please don't hesitate to ask Slug or myself! Thanks so much!
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I am now going into business with the oh so lovely

For those of you who don't know, besides drawing insane scary monster dong, Slug is also a very talented pixel artist. We've been in contact for a while, and have been planning this out in SECRET for quite some time. We've decided that we're going to pool our talents together, and well, this is the result!
If you want your character/fursona/whatever made into a beadsprite, now you can have it done. Slug will be designing a completely custom sprite, which she'll also make into an icon for your use. I will then create that sprite and mail it to you for whatever you desire!
This is a permanent, ongoing offer. We're only limited by the number of slots available!
Check out this submission for further information.
Here's how it works:
1. Contact

2. Slug will get in touch with you and work out fine details.
3. Once she gets the sprite made, she will send it my way, and I will get it mailed out. It's simple.
Please have this information available ahead of time if at all possible. It will help speed things up!
A note: The pixel art will not be a problem, time-wise. However, I work full time, and as a result, I will not always have time to get to making sprites in a punctual manner. These things take time. I will do my best to get them mailed out ASAP, but I cannot and will not make promises on a timeframe.
Prices start at $25 for the sprite, icon, and mailed bead sprite. $1 extra will get you international shipping, or your sprite made into a magnet or a keychain. Please specify ahead of time if you'd like your sprite done up as such!
Payment will be sent to mephitoad[at]yahoo.com via Paypal ONLY.
If you have any questions at all, please don't hesitate to ask Slug or myself! Thanks so much!
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Phone died- looking for numbers!
Posted 14 years agoHey folks,
Just a quick update here- my phone bricked this morning. I managed to do a master reset on it, but I have lost all of my contacts as a result. If you'd like to be re-added to my phone contacts, please note me with your name/number, or feel free to text me. Thanks guys.
~Fuzz
P.S.- Announcement coming soon. Be ready!
Just a quick update here- my phone bricked this morning. I managed to do a master reset on it, but I have lost all of my contacts as a result. If you'd like to be re-added to my phone contacts, please note me with your name/number, or feel free to text me. Thanks guys.
~Fuzz
P.S.- Announcement coming soon. Be ready!
Updates, announcements, and 12 vitamins and minerals.
Posted 14 years agoHey folks,
Figured it was about time for one of my random pointless update journals. I won't focus on my bullshit too much this time.
I've mostly been working a lot. Things are all over the place. Stupid machine and stupid parts, but I'm gettin' shit done. The weather in the Northeast is horrible and I hate it. Snow everywhere.
Beadwork is slowly picking up. I know I've been rather quiet with it, I've just been too busy or not in the mood to work on any. However, the Bowser sprite was a lot of fun to do, and I really want to try and get more sprites of that size and quality done. I feel like I've been gradually calming and becoming more patient the past few months. It's vital when working with thousands of carefully placed beads.
I still have not gotten the post office. I have mail for about 7 or 8 people that needs to go out. I don't know when it will go out. I hope soon. The weather has kinda fucked my ability to go out. I hope you can understand that.
I may have an awesome bead-related announcement to make in the near future. :) Keep your eyes peeled, I will let you know.
In completely unrelated news, there are two things I wanted to pass on: If you're big into RPing or just chatting with other furs, you really should check out F-List. It's a site for basically posting a character dump, fetish lists, RP preferences, and they have a real active chat. I've met some real awesome faces on there lately.
Secondly, Fallout: New Vegas is such a good game once you get the proper mods for it. God damn, I'm enjoying it so much more now. I'm considering doing a Let's Play of some various games I have laying around. I ha ve no idea if any of you would be interested in that, but I will post more info if that works out.
Thanks everyone.
Congrats to
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on their recent mateship. I wish you both the best. :)
Figured it was about time for one of my random pointless update journals. I won't focus on my bullshit too much this time.
I've mostly been working a lot. Things are all over the place. Stupid machine and stupid parts, but I'm gettin' shit done. The weather in the Northeast is horrible and I hate it. Snow everywhere.
Beadwork is slowly picking up. I know I've been rather quiet with it, I've just been too busy or not in the mood to work on any. However, the Bowser sprite was a lot of fun to do, and I really want to try and get more sprites of that size and quality done. I feel like I've been gradually calming and becoming more patient the past few months. It's vital when working with thousands of carefully placed beads.
I still have not gotten the post office. I have mail for about 7 or 8 people that needs to go out. I don't know when it will go out. I hope soon. The weather has kinda fucked my ability to go out. I hope you can understand that.
I may have an awesome bead-related announcement to make in the near future. :) Keep your eyes peeled, I will let you know.
In completely unrelated news, there are two things I wanted to pass on: If you're big into RPing or just chatting with other furs, you really should check out F-List. It's a site for basically posting a character dump, fetish lists, RP preferences, and they have a real active chat. I've met some real awesome faces on there lately.
Secondly, Fallout: New Vegas is such a good game once you get the proper mods for it. God damn, I'm enjoying it so much more now. I'm considering doing a Let's Play of some various games I have laying around. I ha ve no idea if any of you would be interested in that, but I will post more info if that works out.
Thanks everyone.
Congrats to


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Posted 14 years agoEmo bullshit off front page.
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Emotional Checkpoint.
Posted 14 years agoHey folks.
First off, let me send out an enormous thanks to pretty much everyone. I've been receiving a shitload of emotional support and camaraderie from all over, and it means a lot to me. It's really nice to know that you guys have my back in a time of need. I sure as hell have yours.
In regards to how I'm doing, I'm getting there. This whole week has been rough on me for a few reasons, which I won't really go into specifically. Just heartbreak, honesty, realizations about myself and others..it's a lot to really balance at one time. I'm not really in a -good- spot, right now, but I'm stabilized enough to the point that I won't be lashing out at anyone anymore. To those that have had to deal with that (and hopefully you know who you are), I'm sorry I did so, but I also hope you understand where that was coming from. I suppose it's natural for animals to act out when they're wounded and scared, y'know? Being vulnerable is not something I'm used to.
I'll keep this relatively short, because this doesn't need to drag on any more than it has to. Given time, I'll be back to normal. I plan on doing a bit of beadwork this weekend if I can. Hopefully things will return to normal in a week or so. I'm just trying to keep my mind and body focused on other things.
Never mind the above.
Times are difficult, but that's life. Thanks again for your support, everyone. You guys really are my world, even if I don't always show it outright.
First off, let me send out an enormous thanks to pretty much everyone. I've been receiving a shitload of emotional support and camaraderie from all over, and it means a lot to me. It's really nice to know that you guys have my back in a time of need. I sure as hell have yours.
I'll keep this relatively short, because this doesn't need to drag on any more than it has to. Given time, I'll be back to normal. I plan on doing a bit of beadwork this weekend if I can. Hopefully things will return to normal in a week or so. I'm just trying to keep my mind and body focused on other things.
Never mind the above.
Times are difficult, but that's life. Thanks again for your support, everyone. You guys really are my world, even if I don't always show it outright.
Loneliness. (WARNING: VENT EMO SHIT)
Posted 14 years agoTurn back now if you don't want to listen to a bunch of my whining shit.
So, this weekend has pretty much sucked nuts. Big time. I've come to a few realizations about myself that have kind of really screwed me.
Essentially, I'm mind-crushingly, amazingly, stupidly alone. Painfully alone. I think having a job and things to occupy you has afforded me the luxury of not thinking about it.
It's just in those times where I have a moment of clear thought, or in this case, a direct catalyst, that I realize how crushingly hollow my emotions are.
I'm real sick of having my heart broken, and I'm real sick of my own emotions getting in the way of my happiness. Sometimes I wish I could just let go of my own standards, even though I know that's what's really going to make me happy in the end.
I feel like I've done enough good at this point that I should get a bit of happiness. I'm not a saint, but I'm not a horrible person. Don't I deserve a modicum or happiness? Why can't I have someone in my life?
I was talking with a close friend of mine last night when I came to this realization. My own stupid standards and emotions and excitement have fucked me over time after time after time. I can't abandon them, because I know that if I don't ahere to them, I'll just wind up with someone that I don't want to be with.
I play for keeps. If I take a mate, it's a serious deal for me if I want to take on a mate, so naturally I take things really slowly. Then recently I met someone that seemed to get along really well with Fuzz..and I didn't know if IC interactions wind up leaking emotionally into OOC interactions. I know I'm being really vague and may not be making a lot of sense at this point, but I don't really care. I'm a wreck.
I'm sorry to the one person who I ruined by being honest with. I'm sorry that I'm such an idiot and rushed into shit that I shouldn't have. I'm mad at myself for being so fucking integrated with Fuzz. I'm mad for coming off as desperate and ruining a good time. I'm mad for giving a shit about something I shouldn't be. I'm mad at myself for reading too much into stupid shit constantly. I'm mad. I'm pissed. I'm fucking alone and I hate it so god damn much. Fuck all of this.
Just fuck it man.
I hate being alone.
So, this weekend has pretty much sucked nuts. Big time. I've come to a few realizations about myself that have kind of really screwed me.
Essentially, I'm mind-crushingly, amazingly, stupidly alone. Painfully alone. I think having a job and things to occupy you has afforded me the luxury of not thinking about it.
It's just in those times where I have a moment of clear thought, or in this case, a direct catalyst, that I realize how crushingly hollow my emotions are.
I'm real sick of having my heart broken, and I'm real sick of my own emotions getting in the way of my happiness. Sometimes I wish I could just let go of my own standards, even though I know that's what's really going to make me happy in the end.
I feel like I've done enough good at this point that I should get a bit of happiness. I'm not a saint, but I'm not a horrible person. Don't I deserve a modicum or happiness? Why can't I have someone in my life?
I was talking with a close friend of mine last night when I came to this realization. My own stupid standards and emotions and excitement have fucked me over time after time after time. I can't abandon them, because I know that if I don't ahere to them, I'll just wind up with someone that I don't want to be with.
I play for keeps. If I take a mate, it's a serious deal for me if I want to take on a mate, so naturally I take things really slowly. Then recently I met someone that seemed to get along really well with Fuzz..and I didn't know if IC interactions wind up leaking emotionally into OOC interactions. I know I'm being really vague and may not be making a lot of sense at this point, but I don't really care. I'm a wreck.
I'm sorry to the one person who I ruined by being honest with. I'm sorry that I'm such an idiot and rushed into shit that I shouldn't have. I'm mad at myself for being so fucking integrated with Fuzz. I'm mad for coming off as desperate and ruining a good time. I'm mad for giving a shit about something I shouldn't be. I'm mad at myself for reading too much into stupid shit constantly. I'm mad. I'm pissed. I'm fucking alone and I hate it so god damn much. Fuck all of this.
Just fuck it man.
I hate being alone.
Holy fuck.
Posted 14 years agoHey folks,
Man, the parsing on this site is fucked. I randomly went through some of my old journals (specifically the commissions and price breakdown entries) and everything is bold, underlined, or some fucked combination of both. Brutal, man. I updated my profile a little bit in an attempt to clean it. That shit was bothering me.
I know things have been really quiet on my end. Thanks for your patience and sticking with me here. I've either been really busy, or sick. Right now is a combination of both things. I spent a long while yesterday preparing 7 separate orders, getting them magnetized/packaged/etc. It won't be long 'til I get them out. Sorry about the wait, everyone.
I -will- be making some more stuff in the near future. I just don't know when. This weekend was spent recovering from illness, watching Trailer Park Boys, playing WoW, and that's about it. Maybe this coming weekend I will produce more beady goodness. I have stuff planned, but let me know if you want to see something in particular. Illness sucks.
The holidays went well for me. They were quiet, but that's a good thing. The family is well for the most part, besides illness. Today is my nephew's birthday. He's adorable.
Hopefully work will start up tomorrow and it will be a somewhat normal week for me.
Again, apologies to everyone that I've kept waiting. I know idleness is boring to watch. Oddly enough, new watchers have been trickling in, so many thanks to them. Sorry I dont' have anything to show yet. :)
Anyway, how are you guys doing? Got anything you wanna see? Wanna chat about shit? Shoot the poop, hit me up.
Also, enormous thanks to everyone who showed an interest in wanting to come up with a logo for my guild. I have a few people working on things, and I can't wait to see what you come up. Your support is -greatly- appreciated. If anyone still wants to get in on that, let me know.
Have a good one guys. Stay warm.
~Fuzz
Man, the parsing on this site is fucked. I randomly went through some of my old journals (specifically the commissions and price breakdown entries) and everything is bold, underlined, or some fucked combination of both. Brutal, man. I updated my profile a little bit in an attempt to clean it. That shit was bothering me.
I know things have been really quiet on my end. Thanks for your patience and sticking with me here. I've either been really busy, or sick. Right now is a combination of both things. I spent a long while yesterday preparing 7 separate orders, getting them magnetized/packaged/etc. It won't be long 'til I get them out. Sorry about the wait, everyone.
I -will- be making some more stuff in the near future. I just don't know when. This weekend was spent recovering from illness, watching Trailer Park Boys, playing WoW, and that's about it. Maybe this coming weekend I will produce more beady goodness. I have stuff planned, but let me know if you want to see something in particular. Illness sucks.
The holidays went well for me. They were quiet, but that's a good thing. The family is well for the most part, besides illness. Today is my nephew's birthday. He's adorable.
Hopefully work will start up tomorrow and it will be a somewhat normal week for me.
Again, apologies to everyone that I've kept waiting. I know idleness is boring to watch. Oddly enough, new watchers have been trickling in, so many thanks to them. Sorry I dont' have anything to show yet. :)
Anyway, how are you guys doing? Got anything you wanna see? Wanna chat about shit? Shoot the poop, hit me up.
Also, enormous thanks to everyone who showed an interest in wanting to come up with a logo for my guild. I have a few people working on things, and I can't wait to see what you come up. Your support is -greatly- appreciated. If anyone still wants to get in on that, let me know.
Have a good one guys. Stay warm.
~Fuzz
Anyone willing to do a logo for me?
Posted 14 years agoHey folks,
Attempting to call in a favor for anyone reading this.
I don't know how many of you know, but I do enjoy playing World of Warcraft. Our guild is re-designing their website, and the current logo for the guild sticks out like a sore thumb.
I was wondering if anyone out there would be willing to do a freebie (or real cheap) digital logo for our guild.
If you are, please get in touch with me either on here or via note, and I will get you more specifics. Thanks so much everyone.
~Fuzz
P.S.- Things are okay with me. I'm sick currently, will be attempting to get mail sent out this weekend.
Attempting to call in a favor for anyone reading this.
I don't know how many of you know, but I do enjoy playing World of Warcraft. Our guild is re-designing their website, and the current logo for the guild sticks out like a sore thumb.
I was wondering if anyone out there would be willing to do a freebie (or real cheap) digital logo for our guild.
If you are, please get in touch with me either on here or via note, and I will get you more specifics. Thanks so much everyone.
~Fuzz
P.S.- Things are okay with me. I'm sick currently, will be attempting to get mail sent out this weekend.
Quick update!
Posted 14 years agoHey folks,
I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas. Mine was simple, and it was lovely.
I was surprised with a new gaming PC from a good friend of mine. It's quite awesome. Anyway, I'm not here to talk about that kinda stuff.
To anyone waiting on gift stuff (and Samoya, too!) - it WILL go out shortly. Between holiday stuff and work, I haven't had time to really do much. I'm sorry to make everyone wait. I will do my best to see to them.
More beadwork will be coming eventually. I just don't know when. Soon, I hope!
~Fuzz
I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas. Mine was simple, and it was lovely.
I was surprised with a new gaming PC from a good friend of mine. It's quite awesome. Anyway, I'm not here to talk about that kinda stuff.
To anyone waiting on gift stuff (and Samoya, too!) - it WILL go out shortly. Between holiday stuff and work, I haven't had time to really do much. I'm sorry to make everyone wait. I will do my best to see to them.
More beadwork will be coming eventually. I just don't know when. Soon, I hope!
~Fuzz
:)
Posted 14 years agoMerry Christmas, yo.
Quick question
Posted 15 years agoIs profile text on FA screwed up for anyone else, or is it just me? It's almost like Firefox isn't parsing properly.
My F-List</div>
My Tumblr Gallery</div>
^ It looks like that on my front page, for example. I have no idea why. Can anyone clue me in on this?
My F-List</div>
My Tumblr Gallery</div>
^ It looks like that on my front page, for example. I have no idea why. Can anyone clue me in on this?
Moonlit walks on the beach or something..
Posted 15 years agoUh. I just figured I would announce (?) that I'm on Pounced.org now. No idea why I'm posting there here. Chances are you already know me if you're reading this journal. Not much on there that hasn't been said. I'm so awesome for having a furry personal ad. SOMEONE DATE ME.
Anyway, here is the link: http://pounced.org/personals/viewad.....19&hcenc=1
I'm not lonely or anything, but god damn, I need to meet some friendly faces. Living in the middle of nowhere makes it difficult to hang out with other furs. Feel free to spread this around.
Again, dunno why I'm doing this. Probably just drawing attention towards it. Attention is nice.
Updates:
Stuff hasn't been sent out yet. It probably won't be for a while, to be honest. I'm busy, I'm tired, I have work to think about right now unfortunately.
Might have an awesome collab thing coming up soon. I will keep people informed.
Hope everyone is well.
Anyway, here is the link: http://pounced.org/personals/viewad.....19&hcenc=1
I'm not lonely or anything, but god damn, I need to meet some friendly faces. Living in the middle of nowhere makes it difficult to hang out with other furs. Feel free to spread this around.
Again, dunno why I'm doing this. Probably just drawing attention towards it. Attention is nice.
Updates:
Stuff hasn't been sent out yet. It probably won't be for a while, to be honest. I'm busy, I'm tired, I have work to think about right now unfortunately.
Might have an awesome collab thing coming up soon. I will keep people informed.
Hope everyone is well.
Get the depressing shit off the front page, Fuzz.
Posted 15 years agoYeah, fuck that noise..nobody needs to hear about my boring work crap.
Last night sucked. Whatever..it's over. Time to move on. To everyone who had my back last night, thank you so much. I was kind of in shock from another incident, but I'm doing alright now. Your words mean a lot to me.
Updates:
Not much to report. I have an assfuck of free bead art going out in the mail at some point. I'm probably going to wind up asking most of you for your addresses again, because I'm awesome like that. Deal with it.
Ordered another 37,000 beads. Getting a few new colors, and HOLY SHIT a new shade of gray. Exciting stuff. I'm going to probably be working on
's koopas for my next..12, 13 sprites? After that, I may go back to the pokemon series I started, though I dunno if I want to bother with the sprite set I have. Some of those are fugly. Maybe I'll find bigger, higher quality ones to work on.
Considering getting one of those small banner ads on FA. They're pretty cheap and I'd love the traffic. While I'm not nearly as reliant on commissions as I used to be, I'd really like to get some more work. I tend not to make much if I don't have a direct reason to, and this stuff is real relaxing to me.
Uh..what else?
Go check out
- I've been meaning to throw her some pimpage for a while. She does beadwork as well, but makes these amazing bracelets an' stuff. Seriously, they would make awesome Christmas presents.
Last night sucked. Whatever..it's over. Time to move on. To everyone who had my back last night, thank you so much. I was kind of in shock from another incident, but I'm doing alright now. Your words mean a lot to me.
Updates:
Not much to report. I have an assfuck of free bead art going out in the mail at some point. I'm probably going to wind up asking most of you for your addresses again, because I'm awesome like that. Deal with it.
Ordered another 37,000 beads. Getting a few new colors, and HOLY SHIT a new shade of gray. Exciting stuff. I'm going to probably be working on

Considering getting one of those small banner ads on FA. They're pretty cheap and I'd love the traffic. While I'm not nearly as reliant on commissions as I used to be, I'd really like to get some more work. I tend not to make much if I don't have a direct reason to, and this stuff is real relaxing to me.
Uh..what else?
Go check out

Stressin' out.
Posted 15 years agoSo, like..things are okay with me. However, they're about to suck.
I love my job, don't get me wrong. But shit is about to hit the fan. A ton of work is finally coming in, which is fantastic, but I'm going to be stuck with it. My 'superior' Sean is taking the week off because Cataclysm is coming out, so I'm not going to have anyone to ask for help/advice/information on all this stuff.
I need to mill about 30 G10 parts, 10 ,5" Lexan parts (I've never worked with Lexan), measure and cut 63 pieces of sheet metal, Polane paint a ton of parts (I've never used Polane), and this is all assuming I've correctly ordered all the bar/round/angle stock and have part quantities correct.
Then I have to assemble all these fixtures for Siemens. I've never assembled these before. All we have to work with are pictures. THis future assumes we can get the frames built and painted out of said sheet metal in time.
ASSUMING ALL THAT SHIT GETS DONE, we have to make these god damn stupidly precise and intricate fixtures for MSK out of G11. Not only are the parts extremely small, with nil tolerances, but I need to make NINE of them. They are THREE parts each, with each part probably taking an hour or two to correctly mill, assuming I get everything within tolerance. These parts may wind up being made of Teflon, which is another material I haven't worked with.
I haven't done most of this shit before, and now it's all being dumped on me the week Sean is off. :C
AGUHAGHAUHGHUAG I'm flipping out here.
Someone tell me it's gonna be alright, seriously.
I love my job, don't get me wrong. But shit is about to hit the fan. A ton of work is finally coming in, which is fantastic, but I'm going to be stuck with it. My 'superior' Sean is taking the week off because Cataclysm is coming out, so I'm not going to have anyone to ask for help/advice/information on all this stuff.
I need to mill about 30 G10 parts, 10 ,5" Lexan parts (I've never worked with Lexan), measure and cut 63 pieces of sheet metal, Polane paint a ton of parts (I've never used Polane), and this is all assuming I've correctly ordered all the bar/round/angle stock and have part quantities correct.
Then I have to assemble all these fixtures for Siemens. I've never assembled these before. All we have to work with are pictures. THis future assumes we can get the frames built and painted out of said sheet metal in time.
ASSUMING ALL THAT SHIT GETS DONE, we have to make these god damn stupidly precise and intricate fixtures for MSK out of G11. Not only are the parts extremely small, with nil tolerances, but I need to make NINE of them. They are THREE parts each, with each part probably taking an hour or two to correctly mill, assuming I get everything within tolerance. These parts may wind up being made of Teflon, which is another material I haven't worked with.
I haven't done most of this shit before, and now it's all being dumped on me the week Sean is off. :C
AGUHAGHAUHGHUAG I'm flipping out here.
Someone tell me it's gonna be alright, seriously.
Let's bitch about the AUP!
Posted 15 years agoHere's my take on this shit, since we're all getting bombarded with journals about cub porn being banned.
Now, if you like cub porn, or if you draw cub porn, that's your prerogative. I'm not here to judge you. I'm not here to make fun of you. I will say this, though. I find it a bit odd and gross. It's not my thing, and it creeps me out. However, some people enjoy it, and that's their preference.
Anyway, here's what I think.
The admins on FA can do whatever the hell they want to do. They're the admins. They have the rights to this site. Us users have NO rights and NO privileges on this site. We don't pay for this site. We're not required to pay for this site. To those who donate to keep this site running- great! Good for you! You still don't have any extra rights or privileges. The admins can do whatever the hell they want. We are bound by their rules, their restrictions, and their choices.
In this case, they have legit reasons for choosing to do what they did. I'd rather see FA up and running without cub porn than shut down. I get a lot of attention from FA, and I've made a lot of wonderful friends on this site. However, I'm fully aware that this site could get shut down at any time, or something could happen. What do I lose? Nothing. The admins on this site work hard to keep this shit running. FA is a huge operation, and there is a LOT of crap they have to deal with from us.
To all the artists that mainly do cub-related art that are getting shafted on this: I'm sorry. That sucks, but rules are rules and you're bound to them just like we are. It's a risk you take by choosing to take an admittedly controversial route with your art. You're just going to have to go elsewhere.
Are we being repressed? Are the admins taking over? No. That's their job anyway- they are admins for a reason. Let them do their job and keep their asses covered. Don't act entitled on this website- because you're absolutely NOT entitled to ANYTHING on here.
That's all. I'm not trying to start any fights- just stating my opinion. Read of it what you will.
Now, if you like cub porn, or if you draw cub porn, that's your prerogative. I'm not here to judge you. I'm not here to make fun of you. I will say this, though. I find it a bit odd and gross. It's not my thing, and it creeps me out. However, some people enjoy it, and that's their preference.
Anyway, here's what I think.
The admins on FA can do whatever the hell they want to do. They're the admins. They have the rights to this site. Us users have NO rights and NO privileges on this site. We don't pay for this site. We're not required to pay for this site. To those who donate to keep this site running- great! Good for you! You still don't have any extra rights or privileges. The admins can do whatever the hell they want. We are bound by their rules, their restrictions, and their choices.
In this case, they have legit reasons for choosing to do what they did. I'd rather see FA up and running without cub porn than shut down. I get a lot of attention from FA, and I've made a lot of wonderful friends on this site. However, I'm fully aware that this site could get shut down at any time, or something could happen. What do I lose? Nothing. The admins on this site work hard to keep this shit running. FA is a huge operation, and there is a LOT of crap they have to deal with from us.
To all the artists that mainly do cub-related art that are getting shafted on this: I'm sorry. That sucks, but rules are rules and you're bound to them just like we are. It's a risk you take by choosing to take an admittedly controversial route with your art. You're just going to have to go elsewhere.
Are we being repressed? Are the admins taking over? No. That's their job anyway- they are admins for a reason. Let them do their job and keep their asses covered. Don't act entitled on this website- because you're absolutely NOT entitled to ANYTHING on here.
That's all. I'm not trying to start any fights- just stating my opinion. Read of it what you will.
New desk!
Posted 15 years agoSo..this seems really mundane, but it's actually somewhat important.
I got a new desk! My brother surprised me yesterday with it.
This thing is MUCH bigger than my old desk, and more importantly, it's a completely flat surface.
This means I have about triple the room to do beadwork on. This means much larger sprites. I'm seriously looking forward to it.
I've been trying to get a bit more work done lately, as you can see. I've had some time, and it's nice to sit back and toss some beads around. Hopefully you will see more in the future. Most of what I'm doing is gift art, as I have no commissions, and I'd like to keep uploading stuff. If you want any small sprites, ask. :) I'd love to crank something out.
Hope you're all well.
I got a new desk! My brother surprised me yesterday with it.
This thing is MUCH bigger than my old desk, and more importantly, it's a completely flat surface.
This means I have about triple the room to do beadwork on. This means much larger sprites. I'm seriously looking forward to it.
I've been trying to get a bit more work done lately, as you can see. I've had some time, and it's nice to sit back and toss some beads around. Hopefully you will see more in the future. Most of what I'm doing is gift art, as I have no commissions, and I'd like to keep uploading stuff. If you want any small sprites, ask. :) I'd love to crank something out.
Hope you're all well.
Help out a friend in need.
Posted 15 years agoHey folks,
Normally I'm not one to do this sort of thing..but I guess this is an exception.
A very dear friend of mine needs our help. I don't know how many of you know
, but he's a good friend of mine and a real sweetheart. His mom has Relapsing Remitting Multiple Sclerosis. He is trying to raise money to get her a new treatment.
You can read all about the story here; http://funds.gofundme.com/15434
Please, if you can take the time to read their story, and possibly donate a few dollars or a few kind words, it would mean the world to both me and him. We're all a community here, it's slowly approaching Christmas, and hell, it just feels damn good to give a little.
Pass this journal on if you can. Spread the word to anyone who will listen.
Thanks for taking the time to read this. <3
~Fuzz
Normally I'm not one to do this sort of thing..but I guess this is an exception.
A very dear friend of mine needs our help. I don't know how many of you know

You can read all about the story here; http://funds.gofundme.com/15434
Please, if you can take the time to read their story, and possibly donate a few dollars or a few kind words, it would mean the world to both me and him. We're all a community here, it's slowly approaching Christmas, and hell, it just feels damn good to give a little.
Pass this journal on if you can. Spread the word to anyone who will listen.
Thanks for taking the time to read this. <3
~Fuzz
Thoughts..
Posted 15 years agoSo, my brain's been pretty active lately. Maybe it's the drugs. Maybe it's my situation. Who knows?
Anyway, I've been feeling pretty good lately, despite all the pain. Putting on a cheerful face and all that. The pain is still there, but it's going away. My foot X-Ray came back normal- so I'm just assuming it's gout. I can walk now for the most part, just some minor limping. I'm assuming it will reside within a few days. It's very nice to be able to move around again. I didn't realize indignity was such a powerful emotion.
I've really been wanting to get in touch with old contacts lately for some reason. I don't know to how many people this will apply to..but if you're reading this, and like..you want to get in touch with me..or we were in touch at one point and we're not longer..or something like that, go ahead and send me an IM. I've made a lot of really good friendships on this site, and I would love to make more. Meeting new people, and re-establishing old relationships gives me a surge of happiness that I could really use.
So I guess it's an open invitation. Throw me a hello. My contact info is in my profile. I'd love to hear from you.
On a more bead-related note, AC Moore is now selling individual bags of beads, sorted by color. That's pretty awesome. $2.69 per 1000 is expensive, but great in a pinch.
Also, they now have GIANT beads. Seriously. Huge beads. Like..5-6 times the size of normal beads. They were really awesome looking..however, I'm not going to get any, I don't think. I -would- pick some up by request though, if someone wanted a smaller sprite made HUGE. A mario mushroom would be like..12" x 12" instead of 3" x 3". They're pretty cool. They are expensive, though, so it'd only be if someone wanted them.
I do have some sprites lined up, which I will probably attempt this weekend. I had a short work week this week, but I'm still pretty worn out. My visit with Sandy went great. He's a wonderful guy. Can't wait to see him again.
Anyway, I've been feeling pretty good lately, despite all the pain. Putting on a cheerful face and all that. The pain is still there, but it's going away. My foot X-Ray came back normal- so I'm just assuming it's gout. I can walk now for the most part, just some minor limping. I'm assuming it will reside within a few days. It's very nice to be able to move around again. I didn't realize indignity was such a powerful emotion.
I've really been wanting to get in touch with old contacts lately for some reason. I don't know to how many people this will apply to..but if you're reading this, and like..you want to get in touch with me..or we were in touch at one point and we're not longer..or something like that, go ahead and send me an IM. I've made a lot of really good friendships on this site, and I would love to make more. Meeting new people, and re-establishing old relationships gives me a surge of happiness that I could really use.
So I guess it's an open invitation. Throw me a hello. My contact info is in my profile. I'd love to hear from you.
On a more bead-related note, AC Moore is now selling individual bags of beads, sorted by color. That's pretty awesome. $2.69 per 1000 is expensive, but great in a pinch.
Also, they now have GIANT beads. Seriously. Huge beads. Like..5-6 times the size of normal beads. They were really awesome looking..however, I'm not going to get any, I don't think. I -would- pick some up by request though, if someone wanted a smaller sprite made HUGE. A mario mushroom would be like..12" x 12" instead of 3" x 3". They're pretty cool. They are expensive, though, so it'd only be if someone wanted them.
I do have some sprites lined up, which I will probably attempt this weekend. I had a short work week this week, but I'm still pretty worn out. My visit with Sandy went great. He's a wonderful guy. Can't wait to see him again.