hello hello! it's been a hot minute. we've effectively left furaffinity for what is probably for good, and we only operate on TWITTER.

on that note, we're currently hosting a raffle on twitter to celebrate a milestone, and we'd appreciate your continued support! https://twitter.com/batnoise/status.....98558171373570

thank you all so much, it's been a good run here but we're likely not coming back.

HEY UHH we have neglected this place pretty badly and we've been a lot more active on our twitter so if you want to keep up with us then follow us there, we might come back again eventually but maybe not. depends how we're feeling. after this i don't think we'll even want to stay

i mostly made this journal to address something, i was informed that i might have been(/probably was) hacked and someone favorited some really. Really bad shit here. stuff with n*zi imagery. i went and removed them and changed my password but if anyone else saw those i'm sorry that you had to. i feel really unsafe that those were there at all and again i'm considering just leaving the site altogether.

anyway now to abandon this site for another few months if not longer and leave our inbox to pile up Bye

HELLO HI it has been a long while since there's been any activity from me. twitter saw me early 2017 but then my online presence faded into obscurity once again rip (king has been a bit more inactive as well between either doing things for me or not having to be around as much due to myself being better)

i really do apologize for worrying anyone as on some sites i literally haven't had any activity in over a year. this past year was just stressful above all else; art classes from hell, even more mental health deterioration, dealing with distance, the fucking election, absolutely fucked up sleep patterns, and involvement in social things at school. and when it wasn't me dealing with these things, it was king. i can't thank it enough for helping me get through this, it deserves to have the time off that it's getting.

and on top of all this was the general anxiety of coming back to social media/art sites and having a ton of people waiting for me to open commissions or do business. something i realized during my time at college is just how much freelance work actually stressed me, and it's hard to explain why. Generally i haven't had any bad egg customers (who were bad eggs with me specifically) and i tend to do my work in a timely fashion, so why am I stressed?

something i came up with is the fact that the customers i work with reflect on me, and also the potential to start and break friendships following working with a customer.

"but chris, friends are good!" i'm well aware, and I do love having friends!! but i am very, very selective of who i personally bond with. and therefore someone might think of me as a friend where i just consider them a customer, an acquaintance, or even an annoyance. like, not to say anyone I've worked with ever is an annoyance to me and I haven't formed genuine friendships with customers!! I definitely have, and I cherish the ones I've made. but when that isn't the case, when someone has a different perception of me than i do of them, it is stressful to no end.

that and there was just so much stuff that I did for others and not enough time to just do things for myself. almost everything I drew before my break was commission work. i haven't been able to breathe and think clearly about myself because i constantly felt the need to please others, and it clouded what really mattered for a long time. like a legitimate concern of mine was not being able to open commissions because of my school workload, because i figured there would be a lot of potential customers waiting for me to open, and clearly that ended well (it ended with me panicking over how i failed to please people who haven't even gotten the chance to do business with me)

and that's why I've been so anxious about going back to social media and stuff. but i kinda realized that like, if i just sit on this for a while and don't do anything then coming back will only be worse, so better to get it over with and deal with my demons now

so with that, I officially declare shop closed. I no longer will do freelance work until further notice (and no amount of bribery will convince me otherwise) HOWEVER now that this weight is off my chest I can return to creating content again and focusing on myself again, like how i used to before i was so caught up in needing to please people constantly. and once I definitely get back into the groove of things I'll set up a patreon at last so that you can support my content or whatever and maybe have a say in the stuff I'll produce, not like a request but as a suggestion

I'll also continue to sell designs for characters, and also plushies at some point!! I learned to sew in college and I want to get some more practice under my belt before I start actually selling anything. And I might do YCH auctions with ladder features from time to time, so it may be possible to get art from me.

so yeah the long and short of it is, I'm alive, the last year kicked my ass, and no more commissions

i'm glad to finally have gotten this off my chest so i can sleep. tomorrow I'll post some sketches and stuff that I've done over my absence on twitter, and try to find more complete works to post here. if you read all this then good job sport, and if not I don't blame you bcos my attention span almost couldn't handle typing this all in one sitting. in any case thank you for reading and understanding, I hope to return to more regular activity soon!!

HI I'M!!! BACK KINDA SORTA i've been a bit better emotionally and the semester is over so i have some time to cool down...
this semester has been really tough and Darien hasn't had a lot of time to tend to things here either so we've kinda just disappeared completely for a bit. i've been blabbing a bit on twitter and also posting sketches and things in case you're interested in seeing those.

i'll be opening commissions soon probably after this weekend but first i gotta set myself up a proper terms of service and decide on prices. :0

this was a relatively short update but i don't really have much else to say, darien drew some things while we were at school so i'll remind it to post those when it gets a chance to.

HELLO!!!! it's darien here, posting this on chris's behalf uou

chris haaaas not been doing too well. i mean, he has!!! emotionally, anyway!!!! college and being back here has deeefinitely helped with that.
however, he's been in a reeeally bad art rut since coming here. he's had almost no time for himself and has been overwhelmed and as such has been unable to check much social media or art-posting-places without getting panic attacks, especially since he's bad at saying "no" when asked about commissions. soooo he's just been avoiding things altogether.

so until further notice, his account will be under my management. even though all i'll really be doing is responding to comments and notes, anyway. lmaooo. but!!!! please wish him luck in college and recovery in his mental health!!! he'll appreciate it lots!!! ♥

-darien 🔪

http://twitter.com/batnoise

finally made myself one, currently i'm posting a backlog of some of my favorite recent pieces. feel free to follow!!!
all art i post here will be crossposted there as well!!

[this is an art-only account, ask for my personal!! i might decline, however!!]

$25 each, they'll look like this when finished:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20136270/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20156416/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20512363/

just three, no waitlist this time, first come first serve. will be done in the order recieved.
and i won't do nsfw, sorry!! gore is ok tho

1-  spazzticglitch
2-  dinomemes
3-  ryunohito

please COMMENT that you will note me/have noted me (since last time not checking my notes soon enough caused confusion), and THEN note me with a ref and pose/expression (or personality to work off of). i will respond with my paypal and any further questions.

i'll Try to get them done today ;o;!!

just a few though, since i dunno if i'll be able to handle a larger workload.

anyway, I'm taking TWO slots (at a time) for flat-colored commissions like these:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19094320/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19094387/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20106884/

$25 a pop, first come first serve. there will be no waiting list, since i'm terrible at managing them; being able to get a slot after these close is all on you.
won't do nsfw, sorry!!
violence/blood and mild gore is okay tho!!

1- CLOSED
2- CLOSED
NO MORE AFTER THESE, THANK YOU!!

please note me with a ref and pose/expression (or personality to work off of). i will respond with my paypal and any further questions.
i'll get these done today!!!

fitting title since it's halloween and all

anyway!! sorry for neglecting this place for approximately ten years ~_~

college ate up a lot of my time, and then i had an accident and had to come home from college, and it's basically been a mental roller coaster for me for the past few weeks and i've been in no frame of mind to draw, nonetheless check this place (half-assed thumbs up)

recently i've been getting a little better so i'm gonna try and do some warming up before i get to the few trades i still owe, so sorry about the wait!!

hELLO I AM ALIVE and it's been over half a year without a journal so let's change that up

okay so!! i started college last week and things have been really busy and I haven't had much time for anything (that and I'm still not used to my workload) but when I settle down a bit i'll be more productive (i say as i haven't uploaded one piece of art this month) (that was because of preparing for college though i swear).

I have a few art trades to finish and then i think i might open some bust commissions or something to help pay my college fees?? nothing complex bcos i can't really handle that And my classes but i'm still thinking about it

anyway sorry for kinda just like Vanishing and i hope you all have been well!!

especially to my commissioners

i've been in terrible emotional shape for the later half of this year and i am finally getting my act together. unfortunately, all of you have had to suffer because of that, and only now have i fully realized the scale of my error.

i feel terrible that i've had you all wait so long with no results thus far, some of you since this summer, and even a couple since before then.
i completely understand if you're fed up with me and how shitty my service has been and if you'd like a refund i'll try my best to get the money.

i have bitten off much, MUCH more than i could chew and now i have to pay the consequences; unfortunately my actions also have impacted others and for that i need to take further action and fix as much as i can.
if you have commissioned me and are waiting, let me know if there's any way that i can repay you, either literally/in refunds or even (small) art maybe. i know that it won't fully compensate but it's the best i can do at the moment.

i'm sorry that i've had you all wait this long. i'm sorry for all the excuses i've made. i'm sorry to those who were excited to commission me but ended up with some long dragged-out shitty service. i'm sorry to those who i've disappointed, i will do whatever i can in my power to make it up to you.

i'm making the remainder of today a get-shit-done day. i'm hoping to get most of what i owe, done today.

!!!! yale filtered through their applications and i'm getting interviewed tomorrow!!! i'm really excited but kinda nervous but please wish me luck!! ;w;

eDIT:  gojithefox thank you so much you're a lifesaver ;__; but no seriously like please give him my love, he helped me out of this terrible situation and i'm definitely repaying him hfhf

mom wanted me to get all my college apps done and apparently i don't get waivers for application fees since i never took a waived SAT?? bullshit

anyway basically i didn't realize i only had $56 in paypal when i was finishing up applications sO between northwestern's fee ($60) and ucf's fee ($30) iiiii am now overdrawn by like $40 q-q;;

i don't want to open up more commissions bcos i'm already stressed as is but i don't wanna just ask for donations???? but i really need the money right now i can't be overdrawn this'll kill me i need to get the money back really soon ;-;;;

i guess i'll sell some designs or something (although i'm not doing any extra art) because i really can't waste any more time since i owe so much stuff

i've been super stressed with stuff as of late and i don't really want to go into details but i've been physically sick and basically bedridden ;w; i''m trying to get my ass to work but it's a little difficult in my current state (although i'm definitely trying my hardest)

i may end up having to refund some of the commissions i took earlier '~' i really don't want to and i'm afraid that it'll seem like i'm giving up but there's no way i'll be able to get /all/ of them done,,,
the thing is though i don't have the money to do refunds. do i take more commissions in order to refund the previous batch?? do i just keep working on those while i'm already stressed enough as is?? although, i'm basically done sketching all of them. now it's a matter of that i gotta finish them.

anyway it's a tough decision and i'm not sure what to do /~\ i'll sit on it a bit i guess, although if you have any ideas or solutions feel free to let me know! and if you definitely do want a refund then we can work something out u-u;;

hEY alright i dunno the details of what happened but from what i do know it's pretty urgent

anyway my pal cyril  vindiko is having a character sale http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14749996/
i don't have money myself so i can't really help but if you could boost this too then that'd really help cyril out ;;

thank you!!

college applications are so stressful @_@;; i've been working on them from since i get home from school until i go to sleep, and i've been sick and sleeping so much from all the stress of this

i've applied for nearly 20 scholarships at this point just so i can make a dent in the tuition i'll have to pay
i've been writing essays at a ridiculous pace, at least three a week

iTS KINDA stressful hfhf
there probably won't be much art for a little bit until this is all overwith i'm sorry

aLRIGHT my mom finally moved my computer back into my room ;; which is rEALLY CONVENIENT because now i won't have to go into her room to use my computer or do schoolwork (or currently, college applications)

that said!! i have one major commission left to finish from a previous batch, so that becomes top priority.
also, to any commissioners who have commissioned me and are waiting for a piece- since i do have my computer back, feel free to ask if i can use that to draw it instead!! no extra charge either, all you gotta do is let me know!

yeah this was kinda a short journal but that's it really!!

EDIT: the character has been sold, thank you so much!!!
not mine though!! my pal halloweener on dA
she's selling her old sona Quinn bcos she's in major need of funds: http://halloweener.deviantart.com/j.....sale-480658889
the character is $40+, she comes with a ton of art (some of which is in her dA gallery; the rest is on the colorsLive gallery tagged #yoBatzilla)
and i'm offering to do a flat drawing or a colorful bust to whoever buys!!
please boost this it'd be super helpful ;; thank you!!

i do my art with my 3DS?? why do people get so shocked by that

alSO!! i swear i'm working on commissions but school's been just a little hectic. once i get back into the swing of things i should be uploading more frequently, thank you for your patience with me!!

alright sO school started up again as of today. i have a pretty heavy workload (including AP calculus BC and AP lit and composition) so i'll possibly have less time to draw. again, that only remains a possibility. i may be able to find time between classes or since my school runs on block schedule, some days i'll have less homework than others. i will spend as much time as i have available dedicated to finishing all of my commissions.

anyway with school coming up, there are also some expenses that have to be paid, whether in supplies, donations, books, etc.
well the thing is, despite that said i'd use it for college applications, no applications actually opened until august. so i've been giving my money to mom for when she'd need it. and then her car broke down a couple of weeks ago and i helped pay some of it off to keep her a little financially secure. the bill came out to $600, and i chipped in approximately $400 of it. i only have $20 in paypal left as of right now.

as i mentioned earlier, school's going on and there's stuff i gotta pay for. there's approximately 7 books i'll need for AP lit (over $30 worth, and the teacher recommended we should get all of them at the start of the year instead of scrambling before we need them). i'm retaking my SAT because if i wanna get a full scholarship for something then i literally needed 50 more points on reading, so i'm doing that. i have to buy a collared shirt for my info-tech academy for when we have field days, otherwise i won't recieve credit.
and then of course, now that they're actually open, i have college applications to deal with too. i settled on four schools that i'm going to apply to- any more and i would stress myself out financially and otherwise. hopefully i'll get into all four, or at least three of them, so my efforts to pay for these applications wouldn't have been a waste.

i'm kinda lower class/poverty level basically so money isn't that easy to get by, which is why i help my mom out so often with my commissions. she says that after this paycheck she SHOULD be alright, but i don't want her to spend unnecessary funds on me when she needs to get herself secure first.

so, what i've been trying to get at- i'm opening a few commissions.
my other commissions will remain top priority, but i really need to have this money as soon as possible.

i'm opening five (5) slots of colorful busts- they're an experimental commission i've been working with, and i think i finally have results that i'm okay with.
examples: 1 / 2 / 3
they're $20 each. you specify expression (or i wing it) and background/overall color (you must specify this). you can also choose black or white. (no black example yet, one to come soonish.)

please comment here (or note me) and fill out this form:

character/refs:
expression (optional):
background/overlay color:
paypal email:

slots:
1-  gojithefox
2-  riocoyote
3-  infamy~
4-
5-

i will not hold or have a waiting list. once these fill i will deny any further requests.

i can't afford to stress myself by taking more slots than this, my apologies! but as i mentioned, i have a lot of other commissions that i still need to finish and now school is going on. if you read this entire thing and you're interested or want to even tell others then thank you and have a nice day!!

aLSO my good friend yuki needs a bit of help in getting her boyfriend to move in with her. she's really close to her goal and only has two weeks left so please boost her journal too: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6038074/
she also has some ych's open: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14242146/ and some super neato designs for sale: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14240544/

are you or anyone else you know doing plushie commissions ??? and if so can you please link your/their prices I'm asking for a friend

i've been really busy lately with little to no time to get anything done, nonetheless even having motivation to do so. school is a week away and I haven't finished my summer reading yet and hh it's just a little overwhelming and i regret that I've procrastinated so much on like everything

commissions will have to wait just a little bit but i promise I am working on them!! sorry again hh

aaah wow this is really exciting for me ;-;!! thank you so much for 1k watchers!! you're all really cool and your support means a helluva lot to me B)

also my apologies in how slow commission progress has been coming along, i hit an artblock and all i've been able to do lately is design things ;w; i need to get a few more designs out of my system but afterwards i promise to pick up the slack!! sorry about this!!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13976148/
also I lowered the starting bid from $15 to $10!!

uhh alright I have this terrible pain in my right arm

I have no idea where it came from but it's been bothering me since yesterday morning and hasn't ceased in intensity at all. Originally I'd thought it was because of the way i slept but that would've been done in a few hours. This pain is still here

It's really weird to explain but I'll try to the best if my abilities? Like it runs up the entire arm (up until the shoulder) but hurts most around the wrist and hand and joints. It kinda feels like soreness although i haven't lifted anything? Also the pain runs on the inside of my arm (the wrist side) all the way through

Now this is only my right arm. My left arm is fine, and that one is actually my dominant arm/hand

The thing is though since i operate from mobile (my phone and my 3DS) i have to constantly be holding small objects and pushing buttons on them. I feel like this may have been the cause

I dunno if it's carpal tunnel or what but if this keeps up then i may have to go see a doctor and at that point i won't be able to work on commissions until its all sorted out

I'll try to work in the meantime but if it proves too much for my arm/wrist to handle i won't push myself. I may be able to get artwork done and then I'll have to take a break, but if it relieves any strain on my arm then so be it.

Also!! Does anyone have any suggestions for dulling the pain because I've tried ice packs everywhere (on the wrist, the inner part of my elbow, and even my shoulder/shoulder blade) but none of it has done anything to soothe it at all ;w;