So I'm semi-back, have lots of things to upload. These past 3 months have been so so soooooooo troubling and just lots of appointments at the pulmonary clinic back and forth. Had a sleep study last month. So for the updates, well.... The 10th of last month I was informed that I will be put on this expensive medicine to treat my pulmonary hypertension until I see the Pulmonologist again in September to determine if surgery will be the best option. Haven't started the meds yet but I was informed that a nurse would have to come monitor me once a month and that side effects of the med would include nauseousness, vomiting and extreme fatigue. I'd also have to take a pregnancy every month because this medication can cause severe deformities to a potential child, so even if I wanted to get pregnant(I can't due to PCOS and not sexually active at the moment) it's out of the question.

With that being said, I've contacted my Universities disability office and that's giving me some trouble. Got a call this morning from the disability office at my University. They told me if they don't have the forms filled out by Friday for disability(I sent it to my Pulmonologist to fill out but he's hella busy) I'm being denied for disability. If that doesn't suck, I also don't get financial aid because of my academic standing but like it wasn't my fault I had to drop the class earlier this year because I didn't have the $678 to pay for it despite the aid only paying half. So that's causing me lots of stress and signaling off my anxiety and depression x.x.

Oh and I turn 30 next Wednesday and I'm nowhere where I wanna be in life. But eh. If I could draw, I'd draw chibis of all my characters XD. Anyways, that's all that's going on with me.

How's everyone been?

As the title suggests, I've gone back into being a hermit. Life has really been hard for me these past couple months and weeks lately.

Emotionally, mentally and physically, I'm drained. I can barely function enough to stay awake and when I am awake I don't want to exist. My depression is at an all time high and I'm back to feeling useless because I'm not doing anything, so I'm forced to just sit, regret and be left to my thoughts. Seeing my friends even my age(I turn 30 this year) or even younger than me being successful and doing shit with their life and not seeming to struggle just makes me honestly realize I suck at adulting :D.

Long story short, this semester I was doing my second semester of University. Notice it says was. Basically I was taking one online class and they only paid 25% of the class. They being financial aid. They expected me to pay the rest which was $678 out of pocket, which is money I don't have because I don't have a job and didn't want to seek a job currently due to my never ending health problems.

I mean that's also why I don't live on campus. I'd have to have an oxygen tank following me around as I walk around campus and you know how judgmental people are. I mean I already have a rescue inhaler because my chest tightens a lot. Though as it stands right now, it'd be best if I tried to live on campus because there's no bus nor train that goes to my University from my town and so I'm currently confined to taking online classes but that can only last so long. So just ugh.


Speaking of health stuff, last time I went for my pulmonary stuff, I was told that my pulmonary arteries are too narrow and blocked by fibrous tissue so my blood clot in my right lung hasn't shrunk because of it and also I recently got a Right heart catherization that measures the pressures in the right heart and lung chambers to see if I have heart disease, heart failure and etc. I was told after the test that my pressures were a bit high, but that's it. I'm awaiting for the pulmonolgy team to get back to me to see the more in depth diagnoses and treatment. I know my grandpa back in 2009 died from Congestive Heart Failure and it's scary to think I may possibly have something like that. Like this is the second time I've had pulmonary embolism, so I'm scared.

So yeah. Everything's been hella stressful. I had to drop out this semester due to not having the money to pay the rest of the class, my health is basically shit and because I take blood thinners, I have to get permission from my pulmonolgist in order to get my tooth extracted. So I'm so over everything. I need a good....long.....year vacation.

I can't feel happiness or anything. I feel like I am wasting away :C. But anyways, how's everyone?

A lovely friend of mine is is dire need of help. If you can't help her, at least share. She's open for story commissions~

More info here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8998045/

To everyone that celebrates it. In between cooking, I'm getting college work done because my English World Literature teacher thought it was a good idea to have some work due by midnight Saturday. So I have a full book to read, 2 questions to answer, a 30 question quiz and 2 responses to do v.v. Such fun


But yeah enjoy yourselfs :D

All of them come with extra art. Just note me. Currently just offer a price or whatnot. Link here https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....66548/For-Sell

Not really expecting to get anything, but why not try and do this just because?


.:-Step 1:.
Make a post in your journal containing your list of or up to 10 holiday wishes.
The wishes can be anything at all, from simple to really big.
The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
If you wish for real-life things, make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post,
whether it's your address or just your email address where folks could get in touch with you.


.:-Step 2:.
Surf around other lists to see who has posted their list. If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true.
Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream for free--do it.
You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call. There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special

.:-Step 3:.
(Note me for email/address)

The Wish List
1. Lose weight
2. Continue college
3. Try to grant some wishes somehow
4. Art of my characters(ref sheets, chibis, full character lineup[really want])
5. All flavors of Lotte Milkis soda/ Kpop Cds(ask group and CD)
6. Candy from all over the world that's not America
7. Ramen(all kinds)
8. Christmas cards/ post cards from outside the US
9. Everyone to have a good Christmas
10. Language books, tarot books, tarot cards

-Step 4
Other Wishlist
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8930291/
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So hey guys, reuploading a lot of those characters I didn't want anymore and selling them. Most of them are reasonably priced.


Just go to my gallery and click on the "For Sell" folder and you will find basic refs/pieces of the characters and if any interest you, note me and whatnot~

Are coming so I'm sorry in advance but like I stated in a previous journal, got rid of a lot of characters and might sell them, just need to figure out how to link to them or where to put them to do so.


But yeah re-uploading some pieces of characters and stuff I am keeping. Just fyi

I know you see my gallery is mostly empty from all the pictures, but fear not. I'm redoing a lot of things and re-organizing my gallery. I had 28 characters and I decided to retire most of them and instead of 28, I'm only going to keep 10-18 of them in which I will be deciding over the next few days so just bare with me~


That's all

Check it out here http://www.furaffinity.net/view/28692432/

Hey hey watchers, long time no actual engaging on my part. Welp about the 21st of last month, I started University and am currently working towards getting my two Bachelors degrees in the Modern Language Department, specifically the Critical Languages area with both a major in Mandarin & a Minor in French(.....I wanted to do German but I don't think I'm going to do that language any justice because I'm scared of sounding dumb like with all my languages). Anyways, it only took me forever to get into this University. I'm 30 next year and still not finished with school, please kill me ;.;.

Anyways, onto happier things aka the help part of this. So it has been decided between my mom and I that next year around June or July we'll be traveling to Amsterdam, Netherlands for about 3-4 days. Why then? Well because I never do college summer or winter classes and because it'd be early/late birthday gifts. I don't know too much about Dutch culture or food other than Stroopwafels, Bitterballen and Stamppot. So I was wondering if any Dutch natives? Native Netherlanders.....people from the Netherlands can kind of direct me to what there is to do in Amsterdam. Like suggestions for places to visit, food to eat and stuff because I want to make sure I have fun(which that's a given already since I love Europe so much) and avoid possibly getting lost or some shit. Your help is greatly appreciated.

So how has everyone else been?

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http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8850280/

So hello to my watchers. I made another account specifically for food that I cook. So nothing but recipes will be over there.

It's going to be a slowish transition over there and I will re-upload recipes on this account to over there and future food I plan on sharing that I cook. So if you want to take a look or watch specifically for that, the account is . Again nothing is there yet but slowly it will be. :3 thanks

First of all I want to say thank you to all the new watchers that have watched me. It means a lot to me. I hope you stick around and art that I will be uploading be it commissions or writing, I hope you find something you like.


Onto updates. Well as you can see, it's been about a month since I've uploaded anything or whatnot. That's because I've been in and out of rescue clinics for my health. If you remember my prior journal, I mentioned I had been hospitalized due to Pneumonia and low oxygen levels which also resulted in pulmonary hypertension and they didn't know what was causing that.

Well I've been having multiple CT Scans of my chest both with and with contrast(aka dye) for the past 2 1/2 months and they finally found the cause about a week ago, during my last appointment at the Arc rescue clinic. Basically I have blood clots in my right lung again, not serious enough to be massive or submassive but still bad enough to be on blood thinners and have an appointment with a pulmonologist in about a month.


Bad news aside, I turn 29 on the 12th of this month(June 12th) and if everything works out(because they take forever), I should be starting University this August and going for my Bachelors. So yeah.

That's all that's been going on. How're you guys?

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8718553/ Read more here but she's in need of some help and she has lovely art :D. I've commissioned her before <3

So Feb 8-11th I went to Furry Fiesta. Had a blast hanging out with friends and de-stressing as much as possible from life stuff. Long story short, my mom's 401k fucked up and didn't take out the 20% so she won't have to pay house taxes so now she owes the IRS $12,500($2500 of that is from me not having health insurance last year) and that whole thing stressed me out for a while, but things will work out there hopefully.


Also yes, I've been hospitalized since Monday the 19th of this month. I went to my regular doctor early and found out I have pneumonia and my oxygen levels were low so she sent me to the hospital and I've been here ever since. Monday I was on 90 liters of oxygen and now I'm on 3, which is still a lot and they also found out I have Pulmonary Hypertension which means there's a lot of pressure and fluid in my lungs and the right side of my heart.......which isn't good considering I don't sleep with oxygen at home and they don't know the cause. So not sure when I'm going home.

That aside, I have things I need to upload here. Sorry for being silent :D

So it's con time in roughly 2 and a half weeks. I'll be at TFF this year. I didn't go last year because I was focused on finishing getting my Associates. Anyways, that aside if any of my watchers are going to TFF(Texas Furry Fiesta) and want to meet me or briefly hang out( I say this because I rarely get time to myself), then hit me up on my telegram, which will be linked at the end of this. I'd leave my twitter but to be honest, I'm not going to be on it much during con time. Okay, now that that is out of the way, meme/info thingie <3


Where are you staying?
One of the hotels near the con

What day are you getting there?
Sometime Friday <3. Way before evening but still early enough

How are you traveling?
By car with my con family <3

Who will you be rooming with?


How is the best way to find you?
By telegram which my telegram is Avalon Anders(my irl pic is there), if I know you well enough, feel free to ask for my cell#

Are there any panels you might be attending?
Not sure what panels will be this year. But if something catches my eye, sure

What do you look like?

Look for this face http://www.furaffinity.net/view/26117254/ and chances are I'll have some ears on or even a wig because why not? :D

Will you be suiting?
I don't own a suit, so no xD

Do you do free art?
I'm a certified procrastinator..... I rarely write, so no

Do you do trades?
Nein. I don't

What is your gender?
Genderfluid but I am anatomically female. So calling me she/he/they is fine

Can I talk to you?
Yes I don't bite =)

Can I touch you?
So long as you smell like you showered. Just no surprise like glomps please...it unsettles me

How can I find you?
Telegram or usually I can be found in the gaming room with all the boys <.<

Can I buy you drinks?
Yes please or better yet if you want me to have a drink with you, let's do it. I do love my tequila <.<. Please buy me a drink x3

Can I give you stuff?
Like art and plushies and stuff? Sure......oh food too xD

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs are fine but snuggles are reserved for friends or if I'm just in the mood to snuggle some random....also please be clean or smell like you've showered

Are you nice?
I'd like to think so

Will you be going to parties?
o3o if someone invites me sure

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Most people yell "Ava" or "Avalon" or you can like hug me from behind and tell me who you are if I don't know you

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Sure if I'm not being swept away

Can I look in your sketchbook?
Won't have one

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
I won't have one

Can I take your picture?
Sure~ Tag me in them, etc

Do you do commissions?
Nope

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Meet new people, enjoy myself, meet the boyfriend of my dreams(totally kidding) and maybe have time to myself outside of sleeping? xD Oh and hang out with old friends too

Hey my watchers. Sorry I've been inactive. I've been trying to get my life together. The job market sucks here in my town and my mom for lack of better word fucked me over for starting University for Spring of next year and I'm pissed because I'm nearly 30(2 years till I hit that age) and I just have an Associates in Liberal Arts.

My time just feels very limited. That aside, I've got a shitton of art to upload along with a few new humanoid characters. I will slowly be doing that. To be honest, the Sims 4 has been overtaking my life as has language studies.


So yeah, fear not, I'm not dead. I'm just really quiet x3

Make a post in your journal containing your list of 10 holiday wishes.
The wishes can be anything at all, from simple to really big.
The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
If you wish for real-life things, make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post,
whether it's your address or just your email address where folks could get in touch with you.


.:-Step 2:.
Surf around other lists to see who has posted their list. If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true.
Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream for free--do it.
You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call. There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special

.:-Step 3:.
(if you want my email or note me about address)
The Wish List
1. Language Books/ Literaure books/ Self teaching language books/ Chinese Astrology books(As for languages German, Turkish, Japanese, French, Mandarin, Norwegian, Korean.... yeah)

2. Grant some wishes

3.Food packages from all over the world(Snacks, sweets, etc) and tea and even from the US(homemade food/, food from the stores, idc...I like food) -w-

4. Art(preferably lineups, half bodies, full bodies, couples, ref sheets(simple/chibi) etc) of all my characters(still some I have to load and I have humanoids)

5. Anime plushies/ figures of as follows: Akira & Megumi(Food Wars), Sanji(One Piece), Kanato& Shu& Subaru, & Azusa(Diabolik Lovers), Ferid Bathory(Owari No Seraph), Loki & Hades(Mischief of the Gods), Kuro & Licht from Servamp, Germany/Turkey/Japan/England from Hetalia

6. Amazon Giftcard(so I can get Kpop stuff/albums)

7. For everyone to stay safe and have good holidays and get anything they want

8. Torrid/ Hot Topic gift cards(because they have cute plus size things)

9. Xmas Cards

10. To have a better year than this year


-Step 4
Other Wishlist
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8488358/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8494414/
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8486439/

Tomorrow is my 28th birthday. Won't be on most of the day due to house closing appointment. I don't want to go but my mom's forcing me to go so yeah x.x.

Don't expect me on much tomorrow. I have nothing planned. It's just another day to me x.x

Anyways, did a BDSM test thing so <.< yeah

Results

== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
99% Rope bunny
98% Brat
81% Submissive
66% Masochist
61% Degradee
59% Switch
49% Rigger
48% Experimentalist
43% Daddy/Mommy
42% Dominant
34% Sadist
31% Slave
31% Primal (Prey)
30% Pet
23% Vanilla
11% Ageplayer
10% Boy/Girl
5% Primal (Hunter)
1% Master/Mistress
1% Owner
0% Exhibitionist
0% Voyeur
0% Degrader
0% Non-monogamist


The more you know <.<.

Anyways yeah. My profile will be up and prettier looking within a week or so x3 so yeah

Hi all my watchers, old and new alike. If you haven't noticed, or maybe you have, I've been more or less extremely quiet and inactive(as in posting, socializing, etc) for a good few weeks/months or so.

So where to start? Well since the beginning of around March this year my mom & I decided to start looking into getting our first house because we've since we've been here in Texas(moved from California in 94 to here), we've lived in these apartments. So pretty much 23 years. We decided to move because rent with water and trash for a two bedroom in my city will be around $1050 and I think it's because literally the DFW International airport is like 10-15 minutes away from where I live. So yeah, anyways. We've looked at a few houses, had a lot of troubles and ups and downs, but we finally found a place. We close the 8th of this month and it's a 3 bedroom two bath. So by July we'll be all moved in. Finally I get to geek out my bedroom because my mom wouldn't let me here in these apartments.


That aside, as of May 11th, I graduated community college with an Associates degree in General Art. Haven't really applied for University yet to pursue my Bachelors in Psychology and Critical languages yet because I've been focused on this house situation, but once I'm done with all this and moving, I will be apply and work on that.

Other than that, June 12th I turn 28. Nothing really new. Just job hunting, doing odd jobs to save money to use my passport for the first time hopefully next year. My friend and I are supposed to go to Japan around Spring break next year so we'll see.

I also now have my 3rd tattoo and it's on my wrist and it's of a Matoki, which has to do with being a BABY(fandom name for a K pop group called BAP).

So yeah that's pretty much it. I will be redoing my profile on here eventually hence why it's bare.

But that's all that's been going on with me. Now I want foreign candy lol xD

Fursonas

~Avalon Anders
Fox cat- female
5'4/ 220-280 pounds, 48 D bust, Assassin
Demi-panromantic
Ref sheet SFW- more references: NSFW, NSFW Body accuracy


~ Cassidy Sarvesh
Elf/Rabbit - male
6'2/ 165 pounds, Poet/college student
Heterosexual
Ref sheet chibi ref


Other Characters


~ Madeline Poindestre
Mouse Gazelle- Female
5'8/ 145 pounds, 36 C, Librarian
Bisexual
Ref sheet chibi ref- more references: body, Body 2