Updates!
General | Posted 13 years agoSo Hey folk! It's AlmostIllegal here with another bunch of updates..
first of all letting ya'll know I have a Facebook now for my fursona and well generally for playing Dragons of Atlantis. You can add me if you'd all like to!: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100003774006204&sk=wall
(I'm pretty sure it's a public one)
Oh! As ya'll are aware a few months ago I tried getting on Welfare (but failed) I'm trying to get on it now again, and I have a meeting for it on Monday! Wish me luck, I need the money! XD
I plan on getting a place and if anyone in Kitchener, around Ottawa, Etobicoke, Toronto, or London are looking for a place to perhaps we could rent a 2 bedroom together! (it'll make things easier I guess. o^o).
Ah well I guess that's all for now..
btw I lost my art inspiration. -.-
first of all letting ya'll know I have a Facebook now for my fursona and well generally for playing Dragons of Atlantis. You can add me if you'd all like to!: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100003774006204&sk=wall
(I'm pretty sure it's a public one)
Oh! As ya'll are aware a few months ago I tried getting on Welfare (but failed) I'm trying to get on it now again, and I have a meeting for it on Monday! Wish me luck, I need the money! XD
I plan on getting a place and if anyone in Kitchener, around Ottawa, Etobicoke, Toronto, or London are looking for a place to perhaps we could rent a 2 bedroom together! (it'll make things easier I guess. o^o).
Ah well I guess that's all for now..
btw I lost my art inspiration. -.-
Hey Folk Updates! (Please Read!)
General | Posted 13 years agoHey Folk! I'm not dead don't worry. XD
Everyone's probably wondering where I ran off to this time..
I happen to be living with my godfamily.
I've been completelty neglecting this website and not keeping my good friends updated.. sorry.
So I guess some updates would be lovely for all of you folk.
First I would like to say I am now in a lovely relationship with a lovely girl
by the name Susie, Love you loads.<3 - go spam her with faves folk ;)

03.30.12
Second I would like to tell everyone I am no longer living in a Youth Shelter,
I now live with my "god"family in Glenelg/Priceville/Durham area.
Which means I am not dead. XD
Well Yeah I like it loads up here and I have met 2 furries and 5 My Little Pony Fans.
But I do miss the entertaining and thriving city of Toronto, of course including all my furry pals.<3
Oh also guess who turned 18 March 26th? Me!<3
Last but not least I would like to thank all 10 new watchers for adding me,
The following people who added me are:






Bit314icon:


So yes Thank you all for watching me.<3
Everyone's probably wondering where I ran off to this time..
I happen to be living with my godfamily.
I've been completelty neglecting this website and not keeping my good friends updated.. sorry.
So I guess some updates would be lovely for all of you folk.
First I would like to say I am now in a lovely relationship with a lovely girl
by the name Susie, Love you loads.<3 - go spam her with faves folk ;)

03.30.12
Second I would like to tell everyone I am no longer living in a Youth Shelter,
I now live with my "god"family in Glenelg/Priceville/Durham area.
Which means I am not dead. XD
Well Yeah I like it loads up here and I have met 2 furries and 5 My Little Pony Fans.
But I do miss the entertaining and thriving city of Toronto, of course including all my furry pals.<3
Oh also guess who turned 18 March 26th? Me!<3
Last but not least I would like to thank all 10 new watchers for adding me,
The following people who added me are:






Bit314icon:

So yes Thank you all for watching me.<3
Living at a youth shelter.
General | Posted 14 years agoWell folk, I live at a shelter.. the Covenant House to be exact.
it's not really that bad here, I mean there's Food, bathing room, a bed, and well internet and TV. And a lot more. It's kind of interesting. I've lived at the Covenant Before so I already know how things are done, and what the expect (Hey I don't have chores not even doing my own laundry!) a lot freer then living at home where everything was far away, little food, had to do most of the chores never got the chance to go out with friends really and more.
In about hopefully a few months I'll have my own apartment. XD
it's not really that bad here, I mean there's Food, bathing room, a bed, and well internet and TV. And a lot more. It's kind of interesting. I've lived at the Covenant Before so I already know how things are done, and what the expect (Hey I don't have chores not even doing my own laundry!) a lot freer then living at home where everything was far away, little food, had to do most of the chores never got the chance to go out with friends really and more.
In about hopefully a few months I'll have my own apartment. XD
Pain.. so much pain.. x.x
General | Posted 14 years agoSo I'm sitting here just talking to a few friends when all of a sudden pain hits me, and this pain.. is like people kicking me in my stomach and trust me I've felt that before (I don't come from the greatest neighbourhood) It just totally caught me off guard I didn't feel it coming but it's here and I swear it hurts a lot. I'm bitting my lip and trying not to cry I just want to curl up in a ball and wait and see if it'll still be like this tomorrow. I don't know what happened it might be because I'm on my monthly but I have never experienced as much pain as I do now it hurts if I take a breath because of my ribs.. And folk you know when it really hurts me when I want to take medication I never take medication I just bathe in a nice bubble bath and use a lot of scents.. I'm usually horrible reluctant to take any medication what-so-ever, but I need it so much right now.. sadly though there's no water so I can't do anything..
well that's all. :/
well that's all. :/
About Me (200 questions. x.x)
General | Posted 14 years ago200: my middle name is: Katelynn
199: i was born in: none your business. >.>
198: i am really: a furry! :P
197: my cellphone company is: Rogers. x3
196: my eye color is: Hazel Green/Brown/Blue
195: my shoe size is: 6-8 womens
194: my ring size is: I don't know
193: my height is: 5'10'' and a half
192: i am allergic to: Coconut, Blueberries and Raspberries
191: my 1st car was: don't even own a car but I'd love a 1987 Chevrolet Muscle Car. O:
190: my 1st job was: Delivering Flyers. >.>
189: last book you read: Percy Jackson Series Neptunes Son
188: my bed is: a Double Bed
187: my pet: a cat named Snowball, a Rottwelier named Coo a Beagle named River and a horse named Kahn
186: my best friend: a Girl named Christina. x3
185: my favorite shampoo is: European Formula extra body
184: aim name: Sanity the Crazed.
183: piggy banks are: annoying. >.>
182: in my pockets: I don't have pockets
181: on my calendar: don't have a calender.
180: marriage is: a wonderful thing to show how faithful and lovable you are to the one you wish to spend the most time with.<3
179: spongebob can: go die in hell. >.>
178: my mom: is dead. -.-
177: the last three cd's i bought were?: I don't even remember.
176: last youtube video watched: I Dont Wanna Miss A Thing
175: how many cousins do you have?: theres Alyx, Alicia, Tyler, Alex, Alex, and a bunch of others at least like 31, no joke but that's included first and second cousins.
174: do you have any siblings? Yes.
173: are your parents divorced?: They where yes.
172: are you taller than your mom?: I was yes.
171: do you play an instrument?: yes I do.
170: what did you do yesterday?: had a big dinner with my brother stepdad and aunt.
[ i believe in ]
169: love at first sight: Yes
168: luck: Yes
167: fate: Not really.
166: yourself: not really again. x3
165: aliens: Of course! There has to be another life form somewhere.
164: heaven: no
163: hell: no
162: god: no
161: horoscopes: depends
160: soul mates: yes
159: ghosts: yes
158: gay marriage: Well duh! I'm a lesbian. x3
157: war: no
156: orbs: yes
155: magic: yes
[ this or that ]
154: hugs or kisses: hugs
153: drunk or high: drunk
152: phone or online: online
151: red heads or black haired: red heads
150: blondes or brunettes: brunettes
149: hot or cold: cold
148: summer or winter: summer
147: autumn or spring: spring
146: chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
145: night or day: night
144: oranges or apples: oranges
143: curly or straight hair: straight hair
142: mcdonalds or burger king: mcdonalds
141: white chocolate or milk chocolate: milk chocolate
140: mac or pc: PC
139: flip flops or high heals: Flip Flops
138: ugly and rich or sexy and poor: oh hard.. sexy and poor? o.O
137: coke or pepsi: pepsi
136: hillary or obama: ???
135: burried or cremated: burried
134: singing or dancing: dancing
133: coach or chanel: chanel
132: kat mcphee or taylor hicks: say what now?
131: small town or big city: small town
130: wal-mart or target: Wal-mart.
129: ben stiller or adam sandler: adam sandler I guess.
128: manicure or pedicure: manicure?
127: east coast or west coast: west coast.
126: your birthday or christmas: Christmas.
125: chocolate or flowers: chocolate
124: disney or six flags: disney
123: yankees or red sox: neither.
[ here's what i think about ]
122: war: it's stupid.
121: george bush: >.>
120: gay marriage: I love it! It should be allowed everywhere, after all love is love, and I'm lesbian. x3
119: the presidential election: I really don't care.
118: abortion: unless raped you should abort a child.
117: myspace: meh.
116: reality tv: meh.
115: parents: I loved my mom.
114: back stabbers: can go die in hell for all I care. >.>
113: ebay: cool! ^-^
112: sex: if you love the person enough then maybe but I hate being forced and would never force someone.
111: work: if it brings money to your pocket it's a good job.
110: my neighbors: Hey I don't hate them, but I don't exactly love them either.
109: gas prices: to high. x.x
108: designer clothes: depends on the make and look, and of course where it's made.
107: college: I have to go!
106: sports: I like sports I guess.
105: my family: I love my family.<3
104: the future: unpredictable.
[ last time i ]
103: hugged someone: yesterday.
102: last time you ate: 7 hours ago.
101: saw someone i haven't seen in awhile: like, 4 months ago.
100: cried in front of someone: a long time. x3
99: went to a movie theater: 3 weeks ago with my sister.
98: took a vacation: I've never been on vacation before.
97: swam in a pool: 8 months ago?
96: changed a diaper: oh wow, never. x3
95: got my nails done: hahah like 2 years ago.
94: went to a wedding: hm, a year ago?
93: broke a bone: 10 years ago. x3
92: got a peircing: 2 years ago.
91: broke the law: never.
90: texted: 10 months ago. o-o
[ misc ]
89: who makes you laugh the most: hm, my brother. >.>
88: something i will really miss when i leave home is: my cat Snowball.<3
87: the last movie i saw: -sigh- that new Twilight movie.
86: the thing that i'm looking forward to the most: being adopted in the summer. =3
85: the thing im not looking forward to: my 18th Birthday on March 26th 2012. >.<
84: people call me: not often.
83: the most difficult thing to do is: write with my right hand.
82: i have gotten a speeding ticket: no.
81: my zodiac sign is: Aries but I act more like a Pisces.
80: the first person i talked to today was: Queenie.
79: first time you had a crush: when I was eight years old.
78: the one person who i can't hide things from: my sister Ida.
77: last time someone said something you were thinking: to long ago.
76: right now i am talking to: Queenie. x3
75: what are you going to do when you grow up: not sure yet, time will lead the way.
74: i have/will get a job: I hope soon.
73: tomorrow: will be a lazy day.
72: today: was a lazy day.
71: next summer: will be interesting.
70: next weekend: not sure.
69: i have these pets: Cat, Dogs, Horses
68: the worst sound in the world: fingernails on the chalkboard.
67: the person that makes me cry the most is: my exes.
66: people that make you happy: my best friend, brother, and sister.<3
65: last time i cried: 3 days ago.
64: my friends are: to many.
63: my computer is: slow and stupid. >:O
62: my school: drama filled.
61: my car: don't own one.
60: i lose all respect for people who: only care about themselves.
59: the movie i cried at was: I've never really cried over a movie before. o.O
58: your hair color is: brown.
57: tv shows you watch: to many. x3
56: favorite web site: Chickensmoothie.
55: your dream vacation: a summer retreat.
54: the worst pain i was ever in was: chest pains.
53: how do you like your steak cooked: vegetarian.
52: my room is: messy. x3
51: my favorite celebrity is: tied between Adam Lambert and Lady Gaga.
50: where would you like to be: with a friend right now.
49: do you want children: perhaps I'd like to adopt but I do not wish to give birth.
48: ever been in love: I've felt like I was in love once.
47: whos your best friend: Christina.
46: more guy friends or girl friends: girl friends.
45: one thing that makes you feel great is: my eyes.
44: one person that you wish you could see right now: my mom. -.-
43: do you have a 5 year plan: nope.
42: have you made a list of things to do before you die: nope.
41: have you pre-named your children: nope. x3
40: last person i got mad at: my stepfather.
39: i would like to move to: I'd like to stay where I am now.
38: i wish i was a professional: coach.
[ my favorites ]
37: candy: Big feet.
36: vehicle: 1987 Chevrolet Muscle Car.
35: president: none.
34: state visited: none.
33: cellphone provider: none.
32: athlete: none.
31: actor: none.
30: actress: none.
29: singer: to many.
28: band: Skrillet.
27: clothing store: G21
26: grocery store: Nofrills.
25: tv show: to many.
24: movie: a Knights Tale.
23: website: Chickensmoothie.
22: animal: to many.
21: theme park: Canada's Wonderland.
20: holiday: Christmas.
19: sport to watch: Tennis.
18: sport to play: Swimming.
17: magazine: n/a
16: book: n/a
15: day of the week: Saturday. x3
14: beach: n/a
13: concert attended: Three Day's Grace in 2009.
12: thing to cook: Spaghetti.
11: food: Spaghetti
10: restaurant: Rawlicious.
9: radio station: 105.5 Pride Radio
8: yankee candle scent: ???
7: perfum: n/a whatever smells nice I'll buy.
6: flower: Roses.
5: color: Tropical Green.
4: talk show host: n/a
3: comedian: n/a
2: dog breed: Rottweiler.
1: Panite/Bra Colour: white. x3
199: i was born in: none your business. >.>
198: i am really: a furry! :P
197: my cellphone company is: Rogers. x3
196: my eye color is: Hazel Green/Brown/Blue
195: my shoe size is: 6-8 womens
194: my ring size is: I don't know
193: my height is: 5'10'' and a half
192: i am allergic to: Coconut, Blueberries and Raspberries
191: my 1st car was: don't even own a car but I'd love a 1987 Chevrolet Muscle Car. O:
190: my 1st job was: Delivering Flyers. >.>
189: last book you read: Percy Jackson Series Neptunes Son
188: my bed is: a Double Bed
187: my pet: a cat named Snowball, a Rottwelier named Coo a Beagle named River and a horse named Kahn
186: my best friend: a Girl named Christina. x3
185: my favorite shampoo is: European Formula extra body
184: aim name: Sanity the Crazed.
183: piggy banks are: annoying. >.>
182: in my pockets: I don't have pockets
181: on my calendar: don't have a calender.
180: marriage is: a wonderful thing to show how faithful and lovable you are to the one you wish to spend the most time with.<3
179: spongebob can: go die in hell. >.>
178: my mom: is dead. -.-
177: the last three cd's i bought were?: I don't even remember.
176: last youtube video watched: I Dont Wanna Miss A Thing
175: how many cousins do you have?: theres Alyx, Alicia, Tyler, Alex, Alex, and a bunch of others at least like 31, no joke but that's included first and second cousins.
174: do you have any siblings? Yes.
173: are your parents divorced?: They where yes.
172: are you taller than your mom?: I was yes.
171: do you play an instrument?: yes I do.
170: what did you do yesterday?: had a big dinner with my brother stepdad and aunt.
[ i believe in ]
169: love at first sight: Yes
168: luck: Yes
167: fate: Not really.
166: yourself: not really again. x3
165: aliens: Of course! There has to be another life form somewhere.
164: heaven: no
163: hell: no
162: god: no
161: horoscopes: depends
160: soul mates: yes
159: ghosts: yes
158: gay marriage: Well duh! I'm a lesbian. x3
157: war: no
156: orbs: yes
155: magic: yes
[ this or that ]
154: hugs or kisses: hugs
153: drunk or high: drunk
152: phone or online: online
151: red heads or black haired: red heads
150: blondes or brunettes: brunettes
149: hot or cold: cold
148: summer or winter: summer
147: autumn or spring: spring
146: chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
145: night or day: night
144: oranges or apples: oranges
143: curly or straight hair: straight hair
142: mcdonalds or burger king: mcdonalds
141: white chocolate or milk chocolate: milk chocolate
140: mac or pc: PC
139: flip flops or high heals: Flip Flops
138: ugly and rich or sexy and poor: oh hard.. sexy and poor? o.O
137: coke or pepsi: pepsi
136: hillary or obama: ???
135: burried or cremated: burried
134: singing or dancing: dancing
133: coach or chanel: chanel
132: kat mcphee or taylor hicks: say what now?
131: small town or big city: small town
130: wal-mart or target: Wal-mart.
129: ben stiller or adam sandler: adam sandler I guess.
128: manicure or pedicure: manicure?
127: east coast or west coast: west coast.
126: your birthday or christmas: Christmas.
125: chocolate or flowers: chocolate
124: disney or six flags: disney
123: yankees or red sox: neither.
[ here's what i think about ]
122: war: it's stupid.
121: george bush: >.>
120: gay marriage: I love it! It should be allowed everywhere, after all love is love, and I'm lesbian. x3
119: the presidential election: I really don't care.
118: abortion: unless raped you should abort a child.
117: myspace: meh.
116: reality tv: meh.
115: parents: I loved my mom.
114: back stabbers: can go die in hell for all I care. >.>
113: ebay: cool! ^-^
112: sex: if you love the person enough then maybe but I hate being forced and would never force someone.
111: work: if it brings money to your pocket it's a good job.
110: my neighbors: Hey I don't hate them, but I don't exactly love them either.
109: gas prices: to high. x.x
108: designer clothes: depends on the make and look, and of course where it's made.
107: college: I have to go!
106: sports: I like sports I guess.
105: my family: I love my family.<3
104: the future: unpredictable.
[ last time i ]
103: hugged someone: yesterday.
102: last time you ate: 7 hours ago.
101: saw someone i haven't seen in awhile: like, 4 months ago.
100: cried in front of someone: a long time. x3
99: went to a movie theater: 3 weeks ago with my sister.
98: took a vacation: I've never been on vacation before.
97: swam in a pool: 8 months ago?
96: changed a diaper: oh wow, never. x3
95: got my nails done: hahah like 2 years ago.
94: went to a wedding: hm, a year ago?
93: broke a bone: 10 years ago. x3
92: got a peircing: 2 years ago.
91: broke the law: never.
90: texted: 10 months ago. o-o
[ misc ]
89: who makes you laugh the most: hm, my brother. >.>
88: something i will really miss when i leave home is: my cat Snowball.<3
87: the last movie i saw: -sigh- that new Twilight movie.
86: the thing that i'm looking forward to the most: being adopted in the summer. =3
85: the thing im not looking forward to: my 18th Birthday on March 26th 2012. >.<
84: people call me: not often.
83: the most difficult thing to do is: write with my right hand.
82: i have gotten a speeding ticket: no.
81: my zodiac sign is: Aries but I act more like a Pisces.
80: the first person i talked to today was: Queenie.
79: first time you had a crush: when I was eight years old.
78: the one person who i can't hide things from: my sister Ida.
77: last time someone said something you were thinking: to long ago.
76: right now i am talking to: Queenie. x3
75: what are you going to do when you grow up: not sure yet, time will lead the way.
74: i have/will get a job: I hope soon.
73: tomorrow: will be a lazy day.
72: today: was a lazy day.
71: next summer: will be interesting.
70: next weekend: not sure.
69: i have these pets: Cat, Dogs, Horses
68: the worst sound in the world: fingernails on the chalkboard.
67: the person that makes me cry the most is: my exes.
66: people that make you happy: my best friend, brother, and sister.<3
65: last time i cried: 3 days ago.
64: my friends are: to many.
63: my computer is: slow and stupid. >:O
62: my school: drama filled.
61: my car: don't own one.
60: i lose all respect for people who: only care about themselves.
59: the movie i cried at was: I've never really cried over a movie before. o.O
58: your hair color is: brown.
57: tv shows you watch: to many. x3
56: favorite web site: Chickensmoothie.
55: your dream vacation: a summer retreat.
54: the worst pain i was ever in was: chest pains.
53: how do you like your steak cooked: vegetarian.
52: my room is: messy. x3
51: my favorite celebrity is: tied between Adam Lambert and Lady Gaga.
50: where would you like to be: with a friend right now.
49: do you want children: perhaps I'd like to adopt but I do not wish to give birth.
48: ever been in love: I've felt like I was in love once.
47: whos your best friend: Christina.
46: more guy friends or girl friends: girl friends.
45: one thing that makes you feel great is: my eyes.
44: one person that you wish you could see right now: my mom. -.-
43: do you have a 5 year plan: nope.
42: have you made a list of things to do before you die: nope.
41: have you pre-named your children: nope. x3
40: last person i got mad at: my stepfather.
39: i would like to move to: I'd like to stay where I am now.
38: i wish i was a professional: coach.
[ my favorites ]
37: candy: Big feet.
36: vehicle: 1987 Chevrolet Muscle Car.
35: president: none.
34: state visited: none.
33: cellphone provider: none.
32: athlete: none.
31: actor: none.
30: actress: none.
29: singer: to many.
28: band: Skrillet.
27: clothing store: G21
26: grocery store: Nofrills.
25: tv show: to many.
24: movie: a Knights Tale.
23: website: Chickensmoothie.
22: animal: to many.
21: theme park: Canada's Wonderland.
20: holiday: Christmas.
19: sport to watch: Tennis.
18: sport to play: Swimming.
17: magazine: n/a
16: book: n/a
15: day of the week: Saturday. x3
14: beach: n/a
13: concert attended: Three Day's Grace in 2009.
12: thing to cook: Spaghetti.
11: food: Spaghetti
10: restaurant: Rawlicious.
9: radio station: 105.5 Pride Radio
8: yankee candle scent: ???
7: perfum: n/a whatever smells nice I'll buy.
6: flower: Roses.
5: color: Tropical Green.
4: talk show host: n/a
3: comedian: n/a
2: dog breed: Rottweiler.
1: Panite/Bra Colour: white. x3
Merry Christmas Folk!
General | Posted 14 years agoHey Ya'll wishing my local and not so local furry pals a very merry Christmas, and of course later on a happy new year! I have a bit of a hangover right now though.. heheh. Have any of you ever had tofu turkey? Yeah That's what we're having tonight with veggies, Uncle Bens Stuffing, Mashed Potatoes, turnips, and gravy. And for desert? Homemade Apple Pie, Sugar Pie, Banana Bread and Chocolate Cake. Of course none of us will be able to finish this all before the end of the day there's only me, my stepfather, aunt and brother eating all of this and trust me there's a lot.. we'll have leftovers for a few days.
Gift wise? I got a pack of 12 pencils and a pack of 200 sheets of white lineless paper from my brother, a $20 IMVU gift card from my great aunt, and Rolos oh and a Sketch of my fursona by elietheblackwolf.
Merry Christmas Folk! =3
Gift wise? I got a pack of 12 pencils and a pack of 200 sheets of white lineless paper from my brother, a $20 IMVU gift card from my great aunt, and Rolos oh and a Sketch of my fursona by elietheblackwolf.
Merry Christmas Folk! =3
Rant time. (sorry everyone)
General | Posted 14 years agoSo.. I never ended up getting welfare last week, so it is official that this year for me, my brother, and stepfather there will be no Christmas.. we can't go visit family members either because my stepfather is on house arrest for 6 months. Plus either way.. my father's side of the family appears to want no face to face contact with us.. let alone any contact what-so-ever on my dad's parents side.
Rant time:
so this is my grandparents house up north: http://i1236.photobucket.com/albums.....rentshouse.png
Doesn't look so big you might be saying.. well last time I checked they had seven bedrooms, another house being built.. a huge basement with a sitting area, inside bar, a hot-tub and swimming pool. Along with 10 acres and a lake right there.. They live the rich life.. they where this year in Florida for 6 months then in June went to Europe until Saturday of last week.
Now they aren't my real grandparents as my father was adopted.. they can't have kids neither of them. So they adopted 2 girls and a guy (my aunts and father). To this day I know my aunts are still close to my grandparents my cousins get sent loads of gifts from them every year.. that is if they're not all up celebrating Christmas with one another.. and yet, each year We don't even get a phone call.. nothing.
My brother told me he spoke to them a few months back and they said on their will they'd put something big for each of us.. They think by giving us things they'll make all the years of not even calling us better. I don't think so, The last time I saw them was when I was 12.. at my fathers funeral, but that was only one day. and before that? I last spent a week with them when I was 7 years old.. up until I was 7 years old I spent 1-2 weeks of my summer with them.. but it's been 10 years since I've spent more then just a few hours with them.
I love how in our greatist time of need they took my cousins to Florida (I have pictures) and to Europe, didn't bother to call. Nor did they pick up the phone when we tried to call to tell them that our mother was dead.. well Now, I'm crying here finishing writing this.. and I just wanted to rant out and get everything out, because I really do hate my life right now.
So on a side note.. I've been sick for almost a week (really bad) and have to go for my first eye test sometime this week, my family doctor is also thinking about sending me to see a specialist who will break my pinky fingers in order to fix them.
edit: I know last time I spoke to them I was talking about possibly going FTM they said they would pay for the surgery and everything to go with it.. but I'm not sure if they still will or not. :/
Rant time:
so this is my grandparents house up north: http://i1236.photobucket.com/albums.....rentshouse.png
Doesn't look so big you might be saying.. well last time I checked they had seven bedrooms, another house being built.. a huge basement with a sitting area, inside bar, a hot-tub and swimming pool. Along with 10 acres and a lake right there.. They live the rich life.. they where this year in Florida for 6 months then in June went to Europe until Saturday of last week.
Now they aren't my real grandparents as my father was adopted.. they can't have kids neither of them. So they adopted 2 girls and a guy (my aunts and father). To this day I know my aunts are still close to my grandparents my cousins get sent loads of gifts from them every year.. that is if they're not all up celebrating Christmas with one another.. and yet, each year We don't even get a phone call.. nothing.
My brother told me he spoke to them a few months back and they said on their will they'd put something big for each of us.. They think by giving us things they'll make all the years of not even calling us better. I don't think so, The last time I saw them was when I was 12.. at my fathers funeral, but that was only one day. and before that? I last spent a week with them when I was 7 years old.. up until I was 7 years old I spent 1-2 weeks of my summer with them.. but it's been 10 years since I've spent more then just a few hours with them.
I love how in our greatist time of need they took my cousins to Florida (I have pictures) and to Europe, didn't bother to call. Nor did they pick up the phone when we tried to call to tell them that our mother was dead.. well Now, I'm crying here finishing writing this.. and I just wanted to rant out and get everything out, because I really do hate my life right now.
So on a side note.. I've been sick for almost a week (really bad) and have to go for my first eye test sometime this week, my family doctor is also thinking about sending me to see a specialist who will break my pinky fingers in order to fix them.
edit: I know last time I spoke to them I was talking about possibly going FTM they said they would pay for the surgery and everything to go with it.. but I'm not sure if they still will or not. :/
Update.
General | Posted 14 years agoSo ya'll know my mom recently passed away.. my dad also passed away in '07. My whole family is now under the poverty line at a $12,000 income (poverty is below $25,000 here). Kind of sucks.. a lot, but my life really hasn't been great at all. So Tomorrow I'm trecking over to Welfare to apply for it so we can pay bills and have a little extra cash in our pockets. After my mom and dad's benefit money start coming in I should in all be receiving nearly $700 a month, hopefully that'll help followed by a part time job at Pet Smart (if I even get it, I'll be a pet washer if I do XD).
-When the benefit money starts coming in I'll start my fursuit project.-
Now let's do some ranting.. so I have filthy rich grandparents in Europe right now, my gosh are they ever rich with a huge house up north, and still land in Brazil, Florida, New Zealand, Norway, and well Europe. It kind of annoys me that they don't even bother to keep in contact with their grandkids (me and my brother). But people are people, you'd think they'd help us especially now? Guess not. >.>
we need to let go of our home phone and cable.
oh we also won't be celebrating Christmas this year.
Well yeah.. update done.
also if anyone wants to add me on MSN feel free to send me a note expressing so.
-When the benefit money starts coming in I'll start my fursuit project.-
Now let's do some ranting.. so I have filthy rich grandparents in Europe right now, my gosh are they ever rich with a huge house up north, and still land in Brazil, Florida, New Zealand, Norway, and well Europe. It kind of annoys me that they don't even bother to keep in contact with their grandkids (me and my brother). But people are people, you'd think they'd help us especially now? Guess not. >.>
we need to let go of our home phone and cable.
oh we also won't be celebrating Christmas this year.
Well yeah.. update done.
also if anyone wants to add me on MSN feel free to send me a note expressing so.
Friends make me happy! :)
General | Posted 14 years agoWell I've been doing so much better with the loss of my mom, gosh she always wanted me to be more social but I've always been so shy. I enjoy so many helpful people in my life right now. Friends most of all Koowie, Jerry, Toadfoal, Loop, Sketh and well frankly everyone else.
Going to a meet tonight with Loop as a spotter, kind of sucks not having a fursuit but I'll be making one around Christmas when I actually have money (not a lot). Or hopefully when I start to get on my benefits for the death of my mom and dad (survival -orphan- benefits for both).
Also finally got a new fursona her name? Monroe!
well yeah, this is the update.
shout-outs (for all the support):

and everyone else I forgot. :3 (the other CS-Furries and Ontario Furs)
Going to a meet tonight with Loop as a spotter, kind of sucks not having a fursuit but I'll be making one around Christmas when I actually have money (not a lot). Or hopefully when I start to get on my benefits for the death of my mom and dad (survival -orphan- benefits for both).
Also finally got a new fursona her name? Monroe!
well yeah, this is the update.
shout-outs (for all the support):

and everyone else I forgot. :3 (the other CS-Furries and Ontario Furs)
my mother
General | Posted 14 years agoI am dearly sorry for my long absence.. my mother has been ill since late Auguest.. and even so before hand but it was not taken into consideration until things became worse.. in Augest we rushed her to emergency where she was put into ICU.. from then she had 2 surgeries the first originally to unblock boils but when they opened her her small intestines and a chunk of her colon had died so they removed that.. a day later her kidneys and liver failed so they tried to restore them.. the second day she was rushed back into surgery to finish what they could not the first time.. sadly, she had a heart attack but they managed to revive her.. she was in a coma from then on for 12 days and woke up four days to the first day of school.
The day before school start I went to see her, she was weak.. and looked very different. She cried when she saw me, even though I had to move for her to focus on me right as she was unable to. Later 3 days, me and my stepfather had a fight.. i stayed at the Covenant house for 2 weeks when.. on the 16th my school had a big concert. But I did not stay through it.. a teacher tapped my shoulder taking me to the principle she smiled at me but it wasn't a very glad one.. we walked down meeting a youth worker and walked into her room there the guidance, vice principle, my grandmother, my brother, myself, the youth worker and the principle all sat down in the room.
I was told that my mother had passed away the previous night at 9:38pm when she went in to get her breathing tube removed and put into a little cut in her throat. Sadly when they did the cut they could not stop her bleeding and she drowned in her own blood. I tell you this, as this is the reason I've been away for so long.. it has begun to be difficult not waking up to her every morning sitting in her chair smiling from looking up from her computer from being on either Second Life or facebook and saying "Good morning Darling Daughter". As of right now both of my parents are dead being 3 years and 2 months away.. I am now considered a "ward of the state" for being an orphan under the age of 18..
Life's a bitch..
The day before school start I went to see her, she was weak.. and looked very different. She cried when she saw me, even though I had to move for her to focus on me right as she was unable to. Later 3 days, me and my stepfather had a fight.. i stayed at the Covenant house for 2 weeks when.. on the 16th my school had a big concert. But I did not stay through it.. a teacher tapped my shoulder taking me to the principle she smiled at me but it wasn't a very glad one.. we walked down meeting a youth worker and walked into her room there the guidance, vice principle, my grandmother, my brother, myself, the youth worker and the principle all sat down in the room.
I was told that my mother had passed away the previous night at 9:38pm when she went in to get her breathing tube removed and put into a little cut in her throat. Sadly when they did the cut they could not stop her bleeding and she drowned in her own blood. I tell you this, as this is the reason I've been away for so long.. it has begun to be difficult not waking up to her every morning sitting in her chair smiling from looking up from her computer from being on either Second Life or facebook and saying "Good morning Darling Daughter". As of right now both of my parents are dead being 3 years and 2 months away.. I am now considered a "ward of the state" for being an orphan under the age of 18..
Life's a bitch..
30 day meme
General | Posted 14 years agoDay 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
Single, currently. I hate it to be honest.. I'm the type of person who will hide in my room for weeks/months after a break up. foolish I know, I often don't eat properly barely touching food unless one of my parents put a bowl/plate and watch me eat everything. i don't know why I get like this but generally when I'm in a relationship I want to be social, friendly, and I actually want to eat, my parents know this of me and are watching me whenever I eat now. >.>
but yeah about 2.5 weeks ago I broke up with my ex mate :/
Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
Oh gosh like anyone I plan to see myself doing a bunch of things.. in 10 years I'll be 27.. I'd love to be settling down with a spouse.. perhaps married, and I'd love to adopt a kid.. and would love to finally have my own fursuit. I want to see myself part of a game development team, I want to be able to hold up a college/university graduation certificate, that would make me feel like I've completed something in life.
Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Dear lord.. Drugs and Alcohol have been in my life since god knows how long. My aunt is a alcoholic all she ever does is drink when she's not in jail. I raised 2 of her children actually, she'd come over to my parents house and me and my mom would have to watch, take care, and feed her children while she slept in the living room on our only couch and when she was up she drank. Now Drugs are also big in my family because I've done them before (yes me) but only a few times and I won't go back, my parents where dealers but recently busted, now they're both quitting so it's all good my immediate family is clear of drugs but I still have druggie uncles, aunts, and cousins in London, Ontario.
so my views on drugs and alcohol? Don't do them they're a waste of your time and money, and frankly not only do they ruin yourself but friends and family around you.
Day 04 - Your views on religion.
Religion? i love the topic of religion, i love how so many people can believe in so many things. And nobody knows for sure if their religion is right.. me personally I'm Wiccan/Neo Pagan. I support everyone for what they believe in.. All religions fascinate me and for some time I did consider myself Buddhist (although no longer do I). I don't believe in Jesus however so that's one thing (please do not think I hate him I do not i just do not believe). When however anyone stops me on the streets on most occasions to give me religious pamplits I take them and I will actually take the time to read them.
Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.
Uh.. the other day actually.. yesterday, I've been very depressed lately and overly-emotional so yeah. last night I wanted to just jump off of my balcony.. I was so tempted to be honest. -.-
Day 06 - Write 30 20 interesting facts about yourself.
Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like.
Day 10 - Discuss your first love and first kiss.
Day 11 - Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
Day 12 - Bullet your whole day.
Day 13 - Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
Day 14 - Your earliest memory.
Day 15 - Your favorite websites.
Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music.
Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.
Day 18 - Your beliefs.
Day 19 - Disrespecting your parents.
Day 20 - How important you think education is.
Day 21 - One of your favorite shows.
Day 22 - How have you changed in the past 2 years?
Day 23 - Name 5 guys/girls who are famous who you find attractive.
Day 24 - Your favorite movie and what it’s about.
Day 25 - Someone who fascinates you and why.
Day 26 - What kind of person attracts you.
Day 27 - A problem that you have had.
Day 28 - Something that you miss.
Day 29 - Goals for the next 30 days.
Day 30 - Your highs and lows of this month.
Single, currently. I hate it to be honest.. I'm the type of person who will hide in my room for weeks/months after a break up. foolish I know, I often don't eat properly barely touching food unless one of my parents put a bowl/plate and watch me eat everything. i don't know why I get like this but generally when I'm in a relationship I want to be social, friendly, and I actually want to eat, my parents know this of me and are watching me whenever I eat now. >.>
but yeah about 2.5 weeks ago I broke up with my ex mate :/
Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
Oh gosh like anyone I plan to see myself doing a bunch of things.. in 10 years I'll be 27.. I'd love to be settling down with a spouse.. perhaps married, and I'd love to adopt a kid.. and would love to finally have my own fursuit. I want to see myself part of a game development team, I want to be able to hold up a college/university graduation certificate, that would make me feel like I've completed something in life.
Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Dear lord.. Drugs and Alcohol have been in my life since god knows how long. My aunt is a alcoholic all she ever does is drink when she's not in jail. I raised 2 of her children actually, she'd come over to my parents house and me and my mom would have to watch, take care, and feed her children while she slept in the living room on our only couch and when she was up she drank. Now Drugs are also big in my family because I've done them before (yes me) but only a few times and I won't go back, my parents where dealers but recently busted, now they're both quitting so it's all good my immediate family is clear of drugs but I still have druggie uncles, aunts, and cousins in London, Ontario.
so my views on drugs and alcohol? Don't do them they're a waste of your time and money, and frankly not only do they ruin yourself but friends and family around you.
Day 04 - Your views on religion.
Religion? i love the topic of religion, i love how so many people can believe in so many things. And nobody knows for sure if their religion is right.. me personally I'm Wiccan/Neo Pagan. I support everyone for what they believe in.. All religions fascinate me and for some time I did consider myself Buddhist (although no longer do I). I don't believe in Jesus however so that's one thing (please do not think I hate him I do not i just do not believe). When however anyone stops me on the streets on most occasions to give me religious pamplits I take them and I will actually take the time to read them.
Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.
Uh.. the other day actually.. yesterday, I've been very depressed lately and overly-emotional so yeah. last night I wanted to just jump off of my balcony.. I was so tempted to be honest. -.-
Day 06 - Write 30 20 interesting facts about yourself.
Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like.
Day 10 - Discuss your first love and first kiss.
Day 11 - Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
Day 12 - Bullet your whole day.
Day 13 - Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
Day 14 - Your earliest memory.
Day 15 - Your favorite websites.
Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music.
Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.
Day 18 - Your beliefs.
Day 19 - Disrespecting your parents.
Day 20 - How important you think education is.
Day 21 - One of your favorite shows.
Day 22 - How have you changed in the past 2 years?
Day 23 - Name 5 guys/girls who are famous who you find attractive.
Day 24 - Your favorite movie and what it’s about.
Day 25 - Someone who fascinates you and why.
Day 26 - What kind of person attracts you.
Day 27 - A problem that you have had.
Day 28 - Something that you miss.
Day 29 - Goals for the next 30 days.
Day 30 - Your highs and lows of this month.
Project Fursuit
General | Posted 14 years agoOkay.. so I'm starting "Project Fursuit" when school starts..
I've been looking at a lot of tutorials and fursuits themselves
I have it all down I just need to find something.. to any of the toronto
furs out there.. do you know a good place to get a base for my head?
I've been looking at a lot of tutorials and fursuits themselves
I have it all down I just need to find something.. to any of the toronto
furs out there.. do you know a good place to get a base for my head?
its a girl meme
General | Posted 14 years ago1.) Do you sleep in your bra?
nope <.< >.>
2.) Do you enjoy drama?
not really CX
3.) Are you a girly girl?
uh.. no not at all actually
4.) Who was the last person you hugged?
I thinks it was.. my mom?
5.) Small or large purses?
no purses.. BAM!
6.) Are you short?
is 5'10'' short to you?
8.) What would you do if someone smacked your butt?
hit them and start yelling?
9.) Do you care if your socks are dirty?
I care yes CX
10.) Do you dress up on Halloween?
Of course I do! I love scaring little kids.. I mean I like candy :3
11.) Are you double jointed?
yep in my pinkie fingers and toes wanna see some time?
12.) Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
hm.. in one of those four wheeler tires when I was six years old CX
13.) Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
Hell no o.o
14.) Is there a rumor going around about you?
nope o. o
15.) Do you call anybody by their last name?
sometimes :3
16.) How many guys will read this just because it says "Girl Confessions"?
I really don't care
"X" Marks the spot:
[ ] I do wear make-up.
[ ] I have cried at a movie theater.
[x] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[X] I get jealous.
[ ] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[ ] I love to laugh.
[x] I like death/grind/black metal.
[ ] I like rap.
[ ] I like country.
[ ] I carry a purse.
[x] I’d be lost without my computer.
[ ] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[ ] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[ ] I own a boy band CD.
[ ] I get bored watching football.
[x] I’ve never been called a spoiled brat.
[X] Guys are confusing.
[x] I've been called a bad influence.
[x] I have/had a piercing other than my ears. (lips :3)
1.) What color is your bra that you're wearing?
... it's like a maroon I guess?
2.) Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
I don't like guys jeesh -flairs hands in the air and walks off-
3.) Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
...
4.) Do you have a best friend(s)?
Nope, I was stabbed in the back by a once 'best friend' I don't consider anyone my best friend anymore
5.) Have you ever had your heart broken?
I has with my first ex GF :'(
6.) Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
no
7.) Do you like your life?
right now? no...
8.) Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
Never had a boyfriend and I never will honey I don't like guys!
9.) Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
Yup with two of my school friends :3
10.) Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
Girls, because I go to an all girls school
11.) How long have you had Facebook?
uh.. rarely, maybe once every 3 days?
12. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
Oh yes :3
13. What are your biggest fears?
being lonely for the rest of my life o. o
14. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yup, quite a few times
15. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
i guess -shrug-
16. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater”?
Yes.
17. Have you ever had a good/bad feeling about something?
all the time
18. Do you ever wish you were famous?
eh.. when I was little, now it would suck to be.. I'd have no privacy
19. Are you currently missing someone?
Perhaps >.>
01. Eyeliner or Mascara? = eyeliner.
02. Louis Vuitton or Dooney & Bourke? = what? o. o
04. Skirts or pants? = Pants
05. Socks or leggings? = socks
06. Hoodies or jackets? = Hoodies
07. Heels or sneakers? = converses *cough* I mean sneakers <.< >.>
08. Straight or curly hair? = straight
09. Hoop or dangling earrings? = neither
10. White or black? = black
11. Victoria’s Secret or Bath and Body Works? = Bath&Body easily
12. Smoothies or lattes? = Lattes heheh
13. Diet or regular sodas? = neither.. not a pop/soda fan
15. Pearls or diamonds? = eh.. I really odn't care
16. Vintage or boho? = Vintage
17. Mary-Kate or Ashley Olsen = ....
18. Lindsay or Hilary? = neither
19. iPod or cell phone? = iPod
20. Friends or family? = family I guess
21. Lip gloss or lip stick? = lip gloss in winter.. other then that neither
22. Manicure or Pedicure? = I don't like it when people touch my feet so I guess Manicure (am I right? o. o)
23. Tiffany's or Chanel? = ???
24. Peace or love? = Peace
25. Sunglasses or purses? = neither
nope <.< >.>
2.) Do you enjoy drama?
not really CX
3.) Are you a girly girl?
uh.. no not at all actually
4.) Who was the last person you hugged?
I thinks it was.. my mom?
5.) Small or large purses?
no purses.. BAM!
6.) Are you short?
is 5'10'' short to you?
8.) What would you do if someone smacked your butt?
hit them and start yelling?
9.) Do you care if your socks are dirty?
I care yes CX
10.) Do you dress up on Halloween?
Of course I do! I love scaring little kids.. I mean I like candy :3
11.) Are you double jointed?
yep in my pinkie fingers and toes wanna see some time?
12.) Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
hm.. in one of those four wheeler tires when I was six years old CX
13.) Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
Hell no o.o
14.) Is there a rumor going around about you?
nope o. o
15.) Do you call anybody by their last name?
sometimes :3
16.) How many guys will read this just because it says "Girl Confessions"?
I really don't care
"X" Marks the spot:
[ ] I do wear make-up.
[ ] I have cried at a movie theater.
[x] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[X] I get jealous.
[ ] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[ ] I love to laugh.
[x] I like death/grind/black metal.
[ ] I like rap.
[ ] I like country.
[ ] I carry a purse.
[x] I’d be lost without my computer.
[ ] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[ ] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[ ] I own a boy band CD.
[ ] I get bored watching football.
[x] I’ve never been called a spoiled brat.
[X] Guys are confusing.
[x] I've been called a bad influence.
[x] I have/had a piercing other than my ears. (lips :3)
1.) What color is your bra that you're wearing?
... it's like a maroon I guess?
2.) Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
I don't like guys jeesh -flairs hands in the air and walks off-
3.) Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
...
4.) Do you have a best friend(s)?
Nope, I was stabbed in the back by a once 'best friend' I don't consider anyone my best friend anymore
5.) Have you ever had your heart broken?
I has with my first ex GF :'(
6.) Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
no
7.) Do you like your life?
right now? no...
8.) Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
Never had a boyfriend and I never will honey I don't like guys!
9.) Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
Yup with two of my school friends :3
10.) Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
Girls, because I go to an all girls school
11.) How long have you had Facebook?
uh.. rarely, maybe once every 3 days?
12. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
Oh yes :3
13. What are your biggest fears?
being lonely for the rest of my life o. o
14. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yup, quite a few times
15. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
i guess -shrug-
16. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater”?
Yes.
17. Have you ever had a good/bad feeling about something?
all the time
18. Do you ever wish you were famous?
eh.. when I was little, now it would suck to be.. I'd have no privacy
19. Are you currently missing someone?
Perhaps >.>
01. Eyeliner or Mascara? = eyeliner.
02. Louis Vuitton or Dooney & Bourke? = what? o. o
04. Skirts or pants? = Pants
05. Socks or leggings? = socks
06. Hoodies or jackets? = Hoodies
07. Heels or sneakers? = converses *cough* I mean sneakers <.< >.>
08. Straight or curly hair? = straight
09. Hoop or dangling earrings? = neither
10. White or black? = black
11. Victoria’s Secret or Bath and Body Works? = Bath&Body easily
12. Smoothies or lattes? = Lattes heheh
13. Diet or regular sodas? = neither.. not a pop/soda fan
15. Pearls or diamonds? = eh.. I really odn't care
16. Vintage or boho? = Vintage
17. Mary-Kate or Ashley Olsen = ....
18. Lindsay or Hilary? = neither
19. iPod or cell phone? = iPod
20. Friends or family? = family I guess
21. Lip gloss or lip stick? = lip gloss in winter.. other then that neither
22. Manicure or Pedicure? = I don't like it when people touch my feet so I guess Manicure (am I right? o. o)
23. Tiffany's or Chanel? = ???
24. Peace or love? = Peace
25. Sunglasses or purses? = neither
Happy :3
General | Posted 14 years agoMy cousin let me go to her steel pan band practice.. it's been so long since I've played (3 years but still), I met one of my old steel pan band mates. We chatted up a storm then at the end when her sister and my cousin where done their practice we asked the guy who was in charge the day if we could play some music.. felt so good, we played Don't Worry be happy it felt so good to play again..
so yeah this fur is very very happy today :3
so yeah this fur is very very happy today :3
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