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General | Posted a month agoHello everyone! I’ve been away for a very long time, and I’m sorry that some of you had to wait. Because of this, my current focus is on repaying the people I owe character designs to. I really want to free myself from these debts and close this anxious chapter of my life.
Events in the outside world had a very strong impact on my health and my life. This affected my creativity, and of course it also affected my clients and the people who supported me. Now the best thing I can do is move forward, and I hope you will be able to witness how my creativity gradually returns.
My main priority is to repay my debts. This will likely take a couple of months. I already have 10 designs ready — I drew them in advance to show my determination and to already have real results prepared. Very soon I will publish a new auction.
My second priority is to regain what I lost — the ability to draw, the ability to hope that everything will be okay, and confidence in my own skills. I don’t want to experiment with my skill right now; I simply want to return to the stable state and level that I had before. During this difficult period I lived with a strong feeling of helplessness, in a constant state of struggle, with the feeling that a part of me had been taken away — that something important had been stolen from me. Because of this, I couldn’t bring myself to draw.
But now I’m finally in stable conditions, and I have enough strength to do what I want. And what I want is to make people happy with my work. I hope I’ll be able to do that, at least a little.
Thank you for your attention! I hope you’re all doing well.
Let’s stay in touch.
Events in the outside world had a very strong impact on my health and my life. This affected my creativity, and of course it also affected my clients and the people who supported me. Now the best thing I can do is move forward, and I hope you will be able to witness how my creativity gradually returns.
My main priority is to repay my debts. This will likely take a couple of months. I already have 10 designs ready — I drew them in advance to show my determination and to already have real results prepared. Very soon I will publish a new auction.
My second priority is to regain what I lost — the ability to draw, the ability to hope that everything will be okay, and confidence in my own skills. I don’t want to experiment with my skill right now; I simply want to return to the stable state and level that I had before. During this difficult period I lived with a strong feeling of helplessness, in a constant state of struggle, with the feeling that a part of me had been taken away — that something important had been stolen from me. Because of this, I couldn’t bring myself to draw.
But now I’m finally in stable conditions, and I have enough strength to do what I want. And what I want is to make people happy with my work. I hope I’ll be able to do that, at least a little.
Thank you for your attention! I hope you’re all doing well.
Let’s stay in touch.
I'm depressed and I need time.
General | Posted 4 years agoI should come clean and let you know that I'm depressed again. I have had complex depresso-anxiety disorder for many years and it comes back to me periodically. I've been through this before... and every time I went to the doctors for help, and they helped me. Now... it's happening again. No matter how hard I tried to avoid this, I observed mental hygiene... my psyche is very unstable in front of external problems and irritants.
In a normal state, I have ideas, there is a will to live, a desire for creativity. Now I just can't sleep normally, I can't be happy, it's just hard for me every day. And it’s even harder for me because I am responsible to those who are waiting for a drawing from me, who have been waiting for me for a long time to finish the work.
Now I am undergoing treatment, and I need more time (maybe a month).
The doctor gave me treatment, I take pills, I try to spare myself and just distract myself from the bad news. However, it is very difficult, because there is a war going on - and I hate it. I'm so sorry all this is happening. I can't help but think about it, I can't help but think that the future is clouded for years to come. Every day I expect both good news and bad .. this is an eternal painful expectation.
I am writing this so that you understand that I just need some time to heal. And then I will finish all the debts, and I will do everything that is necessary. I want to return to a normal state and a normal world.
Thank you for staying with me. Thank you!
In a normal state, I have ideas, there is a will to live, a desire for creativity. Now I just can't sleep normally, I can't be happy, it's just hard for me every day. And it’s even harder for me because I am responsible to those who are waiting for a drawing from me, who have been waiting for me for a long time to finish the work.
Now I am undergoing treatment, and I need more time (maybe a month).
The doctor gave me treatment, I take pills, I try to spare myself and just distract myself from the bad news. However, it is very difficult, because there is a war going on - and I hate it. I'm so sorry all this is happening. I can't help but think about it, I can't help but think that the future is clouded for years to come. Every day I expect both good news and bad .. this is an eternal painful expectation.
I am writing this so that you understand that I just need some time to heal. And then I will finish all the debts, and I will do everything that is necessary. I want to return to a normal state and a normal world.
Thank you for staying with me. Thank you!
DO LIST
General | Posted 9 years agoCurrent work
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Ref list for
Shyr (the project is temporarily frozen, at the stage of considering the situation)____________________
Personal design for
FonessaShileana (The flat color is done. Work on the colors is in progress.)____________________
COLLAB "Dinosaurn eggs"
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/46035526/
#1 Diplodocus for
Reececav27 (the debt is paid)#2 Parasaurus for
ShadowTheHedgehog- (I'm waiting for a response in private messages to solve the problem)#3 Triceratops for
rester97 (discussion and agreement are underway)_____________________
WAIT
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