For anyone curious
5 years ago
General
Hi,
If you have been watching my gallery, you might have noticed me being gone for weeks or months at a time. I don't really know if that's unusual or anything, but still I feel I should try talk about it.
Back in summer 2019 I was diagnosed with depression, fluctuating between "moderate" and "severe" depending on the doctor. Of course this had been going on for years before any official diagnosis, but I suppose things escalated to a point where people around me took notice and suggested medical attention.
Ever since then life has been a rollercoaster of ups and downs, in a lot of regards - mood, energy, motivation, discipline; all of it affecting my ability and consistency as an artist. Maybe someday things will even out somewhat, but I can't know that, so no promises.
What that means over here on FA is that my art has worsened both in quality and quantity, and what little I manage to make myself draw never feels worth sharing. A few commissions are in limbo due to this as I struggle with both ideas and execution, let alone drawing a single line. To those waiting, I apologize for my absence and lack of communication. If you want to talk about new or existing arrangements, feel free to contact me.
Sorry for the wall of text.
If you have been watching my gallery, you might have noticed me being gone for weeks or months at a time. I don't really know if that's unusual or anything, but still I feel I should try talk about it.
Back in summer 2019 I was diagnosed with depression, fluctuating between "moderate" and "severe" depending on the doctor. Of course this had been going on for years before any official diagnosis, but I suppose things escalated to a point where people around me took notice and suggested medical attention.
Ever since then life has been a rollercoaster of ups and downs, in a lot of regards - mood, energy, motivation, discipline; all of it affecting my ability and consistency as an artist. Maybe someday things will even out somewhat, but I can't know that, so no promises.
What that means over here on FA is that my art has worsened both in quality and quantity, and what little I manage to make myself draw never feels worth sharing. A few commissions are in limbo due to this as I struggle with both ideas and execution, let alone drawing a single line. To those waiting, I apologize for my absence and lack of communication. If you want to talk about new or existing arrangements, feel free to contact me.
Sorry for the wall of text.
Playboy
~playboy10000
i hope you figure it out so that you can be happy with life
asnro
~asnro
OP
Thank you
YES
~yesitis
Best of luck to you. We're all cheering for you. Your mental health is the priority here.
asnro
~asnro
OP
Thanks, I really appreciate it
GrenCapra
~philodidelphis
All too familiar. Is trying medication an option? It's not necessarily a magic bullet (I've had to try a whole range before finding one that works decently enough longer term), but it can give enough of a lift to get to the point where one can be a bit more proactive about one's health.
asnro
~asnro
OP
Finding good medication is ongoing, yes. There's a lot of prorities to juggle but hopefully I can manage to progress on this soon.
GrenCapra
~philodidelphis
Mindfulness and CBT can also be handy tools, especially once you manage to even out a bit. They don't promise to be a convenient cure-all, but they can help you take a step back and look at things in a more detached, objective way. Plus it's kinda fun to just take some time out to lie down and have a soothing voice guide you through a meditation exercise
Caledis
~caledis
Your health is absolutely paramount. Make sure you take your rest and to pull yourself back together before continuing on with stressful stuff. Hell, I'm in great mental health, but this whole pandemic situation has practically destroyed my own capacity for creativity. I can't imagine what you might be going through with an actual depression to deal with as well. Just take care, we'll be looking forward to your comeback, but that can wait till you're better!
asnro
~asnro
OP
Thanks, I appreciate the kind words.
Zyyphelze
~zyyphelze
I hope you're holding up alright. I always do look forward to seeing you post, btw~!
asnro
~asnro
OP
Glad to hear it, and thank you
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