Sexual expression
16 years ago
General
Something I've never been too comfortable with is expressing myself in an overt sexual way. I can talk about sex quite openly, even having long conversations about sex-ed and offering tips and advice. I like porn and so on, but there's still a sort of barrier in my mind from, say, going to a fetish nightclub, or having sexual artwork made (since Sci is my direct avatar).
I think it's because when someone becomes expressive about their own sexual identity, people tend to focus on it, and I'm a lot more than just someone who's into kinky-XYZ.
(That's a representative note, btw, not "Sesame Street XXX". Though the number 7 is totally asking for it.)
I'm mulling over the idea of making an extra avatar specificity to represent and explore kinks/sex. 'Cos I'd like to try drawing porn, and know intellectually I shouldn't be shy to express myself. So I'm thinking up a new avatar. A few things have come to mind so far. "Inverted colours from Sci, but with flames" seems to be most prominent in my head right now, even if it's a touch simple. But who doesn't like amateur raver porn?
Feels like it might be separate enough from "me" to make it comfortable.
I think it's because when someone becomes expressive about their own sexual identity, people tend to focus on it, and I'm a lot more than just someone who's into kinky-XYZ.
(That's a representative note, btw, not "Sesame Street XXX". Though the number 7 is totally asking for it.)
I'm mulling over the idea of making an extra avatar specificity to represent and explore kinks/sex. 'Cos I'd like to try drawing porn, and know intellectually I shouldn't be shy to express myself. So I'm thinking up a new avatar. A few things have come to mind so far. "Inverted colours from Sci, but with flames" seems to be most prominent in my head right now, even if it's a touch simple. But who doesn't like amateur raver porn?
Feels like it might be separate enough from "me" to make it comfortable.
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There's also appeal in crude adult work too. I don't think I could actually do them. It's not that it'd be too easy, just that I'd find it hard not to make it more than it needed to be. It'd be uncomfortable. Though there is something to be said for the odd sort of purity in a solely pornographic image. Raw and unfettered. Different sorts of crude I suppose.
What's PWP if you don't mind my asking?