Hello! It's been a while again and I apologize, I don't want to get too much into a sob story, but it's been almost humorous how much horrible shit I've gone through in the past few months. I feel like I just can't catch a break, everything awful just keeps happening.

First, I've been diagnosed with diabetes. My doctor can't figure out what type I am, since I don't fit any description of either type 1 or type 2. I've always been a pretty healthy person, I'm not overweight(in fact I'm almost underweight), I'm not too sedentary either. The current theory is that im something called "Bronze Diabetes", where my body absorbs too much iron from my food and it collects on my organs and causes damage. So they think my pancreas got damaged by my iron overload and so I make less insulin now. My fasting blood sugar when I was diagnosed was 306 and my a1c level is 11.2, and those are pretty serous numbers that can have serious complications like stroke, heart attack, nerve damage and blindness. I've since cut all sugar from my diet and have been eating low carb, and i've brought my numbers down a good lot, but still not enough to be considered "normal".

I've gone to so many specialists and have spent so much money on medical bills it's unreal, but get this, I got laid off from my job, so now I'm unemployed with a new medical condition on me. It was due to budget cuts and it also being a limited duration position, but there was a chance I could have been extended, but since they changed their whole computer system, it basically got rid of people's jobs and also my job.*tabelflip*

And now my cat is having breathing problems, and the vet says it could either be heart problems, lung problems or asthma, and they want to do a chest x-ray and I sure can't afford $300 for it, and if it turns out to be asthma one single cat inhaler would be $300. I love my cat so very dearly, he's my sweety boy and basically my emotional support cat. He has my schedule, sleeps in bed with me every night and loves hugs and kisses, but I just can't afford $600 when i've lost my job.

I'm applying for unemployment but there's a waiting period and I won't end up making as much as I was while I was at my last job. Also my rent has been raised. Dx

Also my dad had a knee replacement surgery done about 2 months ago, and now he has the flu so im scared he's still immunocompromised. My sister's car died so we have to share my car now, and it's been tough trying to get us to places we need to go.

Just so much shit has happened and I wonder if the world hates me or something.

I just don't know what to do, I'm scared and depressed, I'm going to try my hardest to finish all commissions I owe and then try to push out more YCH's even through my depression. Anything helps, guys. I love you all, thanks for reading.